This is a testimonial from “Grace”, an courageous survivor who endured a profound Dark Cupid, false twin flame type drama with two different men during the course of a few years. (The names used are all pseudonyms) In hindsight, Grace understands and reveals the multiple causes, conditions and patterns of hyperdimensional interference in her life, and her relationships over time. This includes current “cult” family history, early trauma sexual abuse, New Age types of spirituality and religious programming, UFO sightings, ascended masters and past life connections with a Draco, ancient priestess events and agreements of entrapment through time. Her experience is revelatory and she articulates well her thoughts, feelings and interpersonal dynamics that occur in conjunction with the “love bite” partner(s) who were clearly being set up and played as a type of interdimensional “handler” with the New Predator characteristics.
The first part of the testimonial is the initial correspondence Grace wrote to me about her two “love bite” experiences. Some passages I highlight in Bold, where I see significant insights or patterns revealed. I decided to fill in editorial comments (in italics) within certain statements that show how her feeling, thinking, beliefs, guilt programming, as well as other tactics acted out by her Dark Cupid partner. I observed how Grace’s Spirit kept nudging her way towards greater awareness, intention and empowerment, as she also moved back and forth into old patterns of thinking, feeling, programming triggers and being pulled under the “love spell” aspects of this very confusing pattern of hyperdimensional interference. I wanted to show how her own Spirit kept pushing through, despite seeming set backs of repeatedly being pulled back into situations of “Predator hoovering” her back in. It shows how some agreements of entrapment were enabled through old beliefs and guilt. She reveals in a later email about 3 months later, how memories and deep realizations emerge of other lifetime events with a particular Draco, who was a large part of how this was all being set up through time. Her essential goodness, empathy and spiritual gifts were taken advantage of by these “entity driven/possessed” love bite partners. She also recognizes the “Draco” overshadowing working through these men in hindsight. We can see how the Predator/handler uses her good nature, gifts and empathy to its advantage to keep pulling her back into the “loosh feeding” drama.
Grace recalls ancient priestess involvement in Egyptian and Atlantean times, and understood intuitively the reversal of energies in certain rituals, and how the priestess-whore role kept playing itself over many lifetimes.
This is Grace’s testimony in her own words:
I recently watched your “Love Bite Plus” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1j-dtUgops) and “Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kopPZCqLGoo&t=3s) Panel Discussions, as well as your talk with Lauda Leon about the “New Predator“.(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-new-predator-2/) I have also read both of your books. I took interest in the topic of the love bite and hyperdimensional interference after I experienced two of these types of relationships. After watching the panel discussion, I’m realizing that the other experiences in my life are also somehow connected to this.
I first want to say that they were all extremely helpful in helping to explain and connect the dots on the experiences I’ve had throughout my life, but I also appreciated the empowering angle they had even when discussing some serious and scary/disturbing topics.
I’d like to share my story with you, in case there is anything that can be of assistance to you in your research, as well as for the empowerment of others who are experiencing this. I will first warn you that this is a very long email, and that I am currently in the process of working through my issues, so if at any point, this becomes overwhelming, please feel free to not read it all. I also want to state that I do not see myself as a victim in this, and I do take responsibility for getting involved in spirituality with the wrong intentions leading me to become entangled with these entities.
I wrote about my experiences with a lot of detail hoping that it can give you insight into how insidious and damaging this is, and I’m sure you are aware of this. I am guessing that because of my openness to extrasensory experiences, it was much easier for these beings to become involved in these love bite type scenarios in an invisible way that even I have a hard time believing are real.
Just to give you some background, I have been seeing spirits since I was a child (earliest memory 2-3 years old), had issues sleeping due to “demonic attacks” (hearing, seeing, feeling, sleep paralysis), sexual abuse as a child, being in a Bible-based doomsday cult for 13 years (age 14-27), then being led to various cult-like New Age groups, and two love bite situations that are more like the New Predator profile.(EL-Early childhood trama especially sexual abuse, demonic interference and cult environment as significant causation to vulnerability.) By the end of 2016, I really began to wonder why there were so many things “wrong” but I didn’t question these things enough because I figured I was whining about my situation and being bitter.( EL-questioning why things felt “wrong” is good. Belief or some early critical judgement on “whining” causes a guilt that shuts her down from taking action, telling the truth etc.) By the end of last year, I began to contemplate leaving this world, feeling as if I was a balloon with a hole in it, and my life force was slowly being drained. Because I know that my usual self has a general joy and gratitude for life, I felt this wasn’t really me. (EL- demonic oppression and/or suicide program going off) I believe this was also a trap and version of hyperdimensional attack that would trick me into using my free will to end my life. (EL- Yes, good insights)
My intention in telling you this is not to be negative, but to let you know how much the awareness I have received from your work is helping me to reclaim my power and have hope again. (EL-Excessive concerns of sounding negative, and needing a kind of permission to just tell the “ugly” truth. It’s common in many religious groups, cults or even New Age circles to not be “negative” and impose heavy guilt or judgements of character if anyone speaks up about anything negative even if its the truth.) I’d like to now share more details of my Dark Side of Cupid experiences.
The first one was with a married man who was more like a spiritual mentor. About 5 months before I met him, I had become tired of bad relationships and decided that I needed to work on manifesting my “soulmate”. During this process, I decided to re-embark on my spiritual journey to learn more about my true essence. (In hindsight, yes, it was a BIG mistake, making a contract with these frequencies). Also, around this time, I was dealing with sleep paralysis and noticing that the presence I felt was not demonic, but more like aliens. I went deeper into the buzzing noise I felt and ended up in a space center of some sort where they were broadcasting “Project Healing Light”. I woke up before I could see them, as I was afraid of what I would see. (EL- Red flag of abduction, astral and/or milab programming being implemented.)
I began to meditate on my soulmate, and during one of my meditations, I felt the presence of someone who I believed to be “the one”. I also had done a past life regression showing me a past life in Egypt with a love from those times. As I was writing out a letter to the universe with the qualities I was looking for in a partner and thanking the universe for this, I began to feel a presence that was causing me to do automatic writing. (EL- Red flag of spirit/entity invasion, and previous invitation with the method of intention in manifesting soul mate etc. ) I believed it was “my soulmate”, and he told me that we would meet soon (after 4 moons), and that I should go to a local spiritual group called Love & Light to discover my spiritual gifts. (EL-Specific programming commands—could be human mind controllers or hyperdimensional and demonic )I did as I was told, and the psychic in the group “discovered” me as someone who had many “gifts”. (EL-who or what was really working through that psychic at the Love & Light Center?) I ended up serving there as a healer, reader, and also doing administrative tasks on their board (another cult-like situation & lesson). (EL-Cult programming, -“return to the cult” or the “new cult and handler situation”.) During this time I was also connecting a lot with the Ascended Masters; they would constantly show up during my meditations, take me places, and even summon me to meditate at times. (EL—Who are the Ascended Masters really? Keep on reading—its revealed later!)
After some deep reflection, I made a decision to leave this group and shortly after, I met this man I will refer to as “John”. (EL- Deep reflection is a good sign that her Spirit is leading, questioning and trying to surface to break through denial and programming. After leaving a “cult group” and handler, a replacement/love bite set up is quickly engineered for her to meet up with.) I was feeling vulnerable after losing my spiritual community/teachers, so timing was “perfect” for this scenario. When we met, we had a one-on-one meditation session, in which he asked me if I wanted to work with the “beings up high” (ETs). I said yes, and from that point, I began to work with them. I limited my ability to really see them because I was still afraid, but they did give me some sort of tool to work with time. John also guided me to move my kundalini energy, which (in hindsight & after reading your work) is what caused me to have such feelings of love, sexual attraction, and bliss towards him. (EL—John is a predator, quickly hooking into kundalini energy. But permission was given by being willing to work with “ETs”) On our second meeting, I felt it was ethical for me to let him know that I was feeling these feelings of attraction (as he was married), and he told me it was because we had past lives together (including Egypt). The relationship was more like a spiritual friendship/mentorship than a physical or romantic one, and I went along with it believing that it was helping me to expand my perception of love to a more unconditionally loving person. He helped me heal from my past wounds, and I helped him to heal his relationship with his wife and to resume his spiritual work and meditation group. ( EL—Classic New Predator and Dark Cupid set up. They are engineered to be the guru/lover (yet conveniently married to another), and still connecting in to sexual energy with love connection overtones. Creates confusion, guilt and a love-drug kind of hook. She functions in the student, or even sex slave kind of position of being of less power than his rank. Also, her “telling him all about her wounding” created a greater vulnerability to his control.)
During this time, I saw numerous UFOs, as well as a portal opening up from the sky once (in a photo). After a few months, I remember having an experience with a spaceship which I saw with my third eye. I was outside at work with my best friend. All of a sudden, I saw a space ship and a beam of light. There was El Morya (ascended master that worked with John as his major “guide”) standing there with his hand stretched out, telling me to follow him. I went with him, and then I wasn’t able to see what was happening. I remember John telling me that I could ask to remember when I am being taken up, so I did that. I remembered seeing myself on some sort of medical table, but the mood in the ship was as if I was a bride being prepared for marriage to this man I had been working with. They did things to me to “prepare me” to be “married” to John, and joined us together. Later, when I met up with him for a meditation, John said he also saw this. (EL—The “ET abduction/visitation” real motive appears to be medical manipulation as well as the “marriage contract” which binds her energetically to have her spiritual power used and also bound to the “ascended master/ET/Cult group etc” This creates another deeper level of agreement of entrapment on a spiritual level.)
I had been working with John, supporting his meditation group by giving messages to the participants. I also was getting more involved with other spiritual groups in the area, ones that were working with the ET or galactic energies. I met a woman who was known for her work with the “council” and such. She hugged me and began speaking light language, and shortly after, I was not only speaking some light language, but began to sing in this. She told me that the language I was speaking was really old and that she had not heard it in a very long time (ancient). To my shock, she also told me that I was pregnant(?!) with some sort of a “light baby” and that this had happened to her and to other women. (See video on Firebloods, Nephilim and the Priestess/Harlet Paradigm: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFIzEGkpsvE…) The next day, when I spoke with John, he seemed to know something and was wondering about what happened the night before. I told him about the “baby”, and he asked me if I knew what it was. I told him that it felt like it was some spiritual baby I had created with him, and it seemed he already knew about this. He told me that the ETs were building another planet, and that this “baby” was being taken there. (EL-How conscious is John of his involvment as an instrument of these beings aned agendas one wonders. Is he a mind controlled MPD/DID from some ritual Abuse MK ultra cult bloodline family? Is he simply a host or walk-in for some ET or demonic entities?)
Later, I started noticing that something was wrong. There was something inside of me that felt that my “contract” with John was over, and maybe I was just meant to be in his life to help him up until that point. I began to slowly distance myself, and I found that I was feeling drained. I noticed that he would call me in a more needy way, asking for my help when he was down, and this was coincidentally on the days of his meetup group meditation. My friend even asked me if I didn’t think it was strange that he was calling on the days of his meditation, and that maybe he was taking my energy. I also noticed one time that he convinced me to go to his group, and that he had essentially imitated my frequency and was imitating an idea I had shared about a meeting I wanted to have with people. It wasn’t the fact that he had taken my idea, but something seemed strange, as if a program was playing with my vibration that did not match him at all. (EL—John seems to be some kind of “walk in” or counterfeit spirit operating to imitate and take ideas, power, energy for these meditation groups. He was used to possibly impregnate some “astral parasite being” with her creative essence, then once that was done, contract over?)
By the end of that year, I began to notice more strange things. I ended up getting physically ill, having intense abdominal pains, which led to me having my gallbladder surgically removed. The woman who told me I was “pregnant” told me that this was the birth of my “light baby”. I began to feel as if there was some dark cloud over me, and I became very drained. I also realized that my life was falling apart – my home life, my job, my health. I began distancing myself from all spiritual groups. I remember telling John that I needed to take some time to take care of myself and get my life back in order, resulting in us having an hours long conversation in which he was “helping” me through these “problems” I was having. According to him, instead of wanting to take care of myself, being around and helping people is what I actually loved to do. When I told him I needed to do things, he would come back and say I didn’t need to do anything. After getting off the phone, I realized I had wasted my energy and my day, and I somehow felt I was being hypnotized. (EL—John being used to program or re-program her once she distanced herself, and take energy too.)
At the end of that year, I went to my last spirituality event, an expo in which I had volunteered to do readings and healings. By this time, I was at an all-time low and was looking forward to getting it over with. At this event, I met another man Seth, who was a vendor selling spiritual protection tools. Seth was tall and extremely attractive to me, but I noticed he was receiving so much attention from others (especially women), as if there was some sort of vortex around him. I briefly had a conversation with him in which I strangely blurted out that I used to be in a cult, to which he replied “Cool!”. That night, I noticed that he had found me on Facebook and messaged me about another friend from the community. Seth was extremely sensitive, having lived in isolation for many years and would become sick around people. He told me that this friend had made him sick and that I was energetically this friend’s “bitch”.
Seth and I eventually began to talk more, and it ended up that we had so much in common, especially our shared interests in the intersection of spirituality with fringe/conspiracy topics. I also had this strange vision of him being some sort of spiritual secret agent, and later I saw that he was some sort of a walk-in, one that was of the greys but had betrayed them in some way. He seemed to really enjoy my perspectives, and what made my heart open up to him was that he seemed to see beauty in my “battle wounds”, meaning my strange and painful past (which I considered a weakness). The other thing is that I began to have sexual feelings for him, and had fantasized about him. He seemed to sense this, and without realizing what I had done, he told me that he physically felt me go into bed with him. We seemed to be talking all day long, and there was this intense feeling of love and connection. One day, he told me about revoking contracts, and I was doing this while messaging with him. All of a sudden, he told me that I was him and he was me. I found this to be a bit puzzling, but at the time the feelings of love were so strong that I didn’t question further. (EL – Bliss of love spell overrides spirit screaming, warning, red flag!)
Also, he met John and revealed things about him that opened my eyes. He said John was able to reach the heights of the mental body but had no ability to access his heart energy, and that John essentially had no soul. That somehow made something click for me. Later, I received a visitation from the El Morya being (which I could sense was coming from John in order to reconnect with me), except this time something felt weird and very invasive. I told him to leave, and expressed my free will intention not to connect with him. All of a sudden, the majestic light being I used to see turned into this ugly, tall grey alien creature who looked ferocious and angry. His eyes protruded from his head and were waving around like snakes. Having been revealed for what it was, it left my presence immediately. ( EL—Great move! And see how the being reveals its true form when the intenion to disconnect is implemented) I then cut off communications with John. Shortly after, Seth told me that he could no longer maintain contact and that he needed to stay away from people.
I was devastated, and felt so abandoned, but I couldn’t shake my feelings of gratitude towards him for helping me gain discernment and for helping me disconnect with John. For several months, I still felt his presence. I also decided that I should no longer allow the feeling of longing for him in case it would harm him in any way. In spite of this, I still would receive astral visitations from him and would have sexual contact coming from him (or the entities associated with him) in my dream state. At some point, I was finally able to get over him and move on with my life. (EL-the guilt programming aspect, fear of “harming him” helped maintain the hook going for the astral connections.Karmic connections are also realized later on. Eventually it fades away with the decision to not obsess and “get on with her life”. )
By this time, I had removed myself from the spiritual community and I had dissolved most of my individual relationships from these groups. I could sense that a lot of people were somehow stealing my energy and that my “work” and “gifts” were not actually helping these people to evolve and instead were some sort of quick fix that was enabling a sort of spiritual laziness. I began to focus on my own healing. I experienced a continued decrease in energy. (EL—Great observation and Spirit is coming through more strongly in perceptions, awareness and power.)
At the end of last year, John suddenly came to see me at work, and he tried to resume our friendship, which I didn’t accept. Later, I noticed his presence near my energy bodies trying to work with me or do something with my energy. I could also sense that he was searching for something, as whatever he was doing was not working. Another time, I saw that he was somehow trying to access my energy from behind my heart chakra, and what I saw was that he was accessing the memories of when we used to work together, allowing some sort of backdoor to my energy, especially my heart energy. This helped to explain where my energy drainage was coming from, as my general energy of joy and love (not romantic) that I remembered being from my heart center had slowly begun to disappear. I rebuked him in spirit and told him that he had to leave, that I didn’t permit him to do this, and that there were consequences to accessing my energy without my permission. Also, looking back, I realized that he and I differed greatly in our approaches to healing and spirituality. I intuitively had a general code of ethics when it came to my work, and permission was key to everything, to the point where I always asked explicit permission before doing anything and also had to work in accordance with the person’s Higher Self. He, on the other hand, would go and work on people without them knowing and without asking for permission. There was also a selfishness and lack of heart center in everything he did, almost to the point of being robotic. He would speak of how he wanted to make all this money and become like Deepak Chopra. It felt off, and these were things I noticed towards the end of our “relationship” that led me to believe our contract was ending.
After about a month of that last episode, I realized how vulnerable I was to certain attacks because of my cult experience, and that my general ability to listen to red flags had been disabled due to all of the intense programming from this time. I decided to go back to counseling and join a support group for cult members, with the intention of re-learning how to set proper boundaries and to deprogram myself from this. I also did not want to wrongly use any of my energies to serve the wrong system. (EL-Her Spirit is working well to push through the resistance.)
Interestingly enough, as soon as I began to regain my inner sense of joy and to focus on healing myself, Seth returned to my life after 1.5 years. This is where things become even more strange, and where I still feel confused as to what happened. He messaged me saying that he needed my help, and that after taking DMT, he was stuck in time, in a place where there are no people and only robots. He said that he felt he was dead. Before this, I also began to see him and sense his presence, which made things again seem very meant to be for me. (EL—a hook to pull her back in through sympathy, neediness and danger)
I responded to him and began to try to help him, telling myself I’d do this “spirituality” stuff one last time, if it could help him. He seemed so desperate that it was hard to just leave him that way. I talked to him to see what was happening, and he told me that he couldn’t reach me at my frequency, so he had to meditate to meet me. He also said he began to smoke cigarettes (which he is allergic to) to connect with me because I smoke cigarettes. As we talked, he said he was beginning to feel better. I did let him know that I wasn’t really doing this work anymore, so I didn’t know if I could be much help.
At some point, Seth began to speak in third person, saying that I was talking to his dead soul. He said that the first walk-in was trying to leave, and that he had another walk-in. Or I should say, the “dead soul” told me this. I did sense that the energy of this being was different from the first one I was talking to. He spoke of a portal of light he had seen in his dream state, and that he knew that was his way home, and that he wanted to be with his family, but that portal had disappeared. I suddenly remembered some mediumship work that I did during my spirituality days, and how I had assisted some spirits in continuing on their journey. In a desperation to help him, I decided I would try to help.(I made sure to ask his permission and to make sure it was what he wanted, and whether it was something that would not harm the body he was in. They both said yes, and somehow I was able to create a portal for him to exit the body. After he left, “he” (2nd walk-in) said he felt so much better. (EL—the dark side getting desperate to pull her back in and to “use her spiritual gifts” to open portals, allowing more access.)
I didn’t really know if what was happening was even real, but I was glad he was feeling better. I also noticed that these conversations were taking up all of my time and that I was becoming very, very drained. Throughout certain moments in the conversation, he spoke in ways indicating that he had sexual interest in me all along even though he never had a chance to act on it. Also, it seemed that no matter how much I gave, he would just need more and more healing. When I told him that I couldn’t offer more because I was drained, he would treat me as if I was not me and that a program was talking through me, and that he could see red energies of war. (EL— Seth using guilt, projection and manipulation to pull her in to get what he wants.) I told him I no longer wanted to do this spiritual work, and he somehow shifted to a more flirtatious mode. We agreed to meet up, and it felt very magical. He began to speak about what he wanted in life, and what he said seemed to be exactly the same as what I wanted. I told him that I wanted to share a divine love with someone, in which the merging of the true divine feminine and masculine would result in a healing frequency for the world. The love I felt with him seemed so pure, beyond any traditional romantic love that I felt. He seemed to perfectly mirror what I was looking for and said he had always wanted the same thing.
Later, things began to go downhill. I had a suspicion that he might be using me to get better. We had arguments but he was so dramatic in trying to keep me, saying that he would fight for me and not let me get away, which would make me want to go back. Also, any time that I tried to express myself to him that would go against anything he said, he would say that it was interference, and I needed to come back instead of letting the program take over. Then he would begin to “work” on me, putting me in some hot seat so that I could reveal all of my weaknesses and programming to make our love pure. (EL—classic New Predator handling, programming and control, tailor made to her own uniqueness) I would have major roller coasters of emotion, going from extreme bliss to crying like a baby because I was going back to my trauma. I went along with it, thinking this was the work I needed to do face my shadows and complete this love. I was also losing track of time, realizing that I had not eaten for two days and was barely sleeping.
I was spending all of my waking hours speaking to him. (EL—the guilt programming, also, the whole “working out negative karma” New Age spirituality reasoning is often used to cause self doubt, so that he/it maintains control, using her vulnerabilities against her. Later we will see what real former life and other dimensional realizations emerge.)
Looking back, I also noticed there was some sort of cycle to this. I would help him with his stuff in a more nurturing way until my energy was completely drained. At that point, after he felt better, all of a sudden it was my turn for him to “help” me. The difference was that his ways of helping me were extremely cold and mean, almost soulless with no remorse, taking me back to my deepest traumas. With my energy already low and then being faced with my trauma from the cult, I would end up reacting very strongly, getting angry and yelling, and trying to end the relationship again. He would then react by threatening to cut me off or saying very cutting things to me that were deep in my psyche, often mocking me. It was as if my former cult leader was talking to me, and that I was the old me when I was in the “hot seat” in the cult. My reality literally changed to that timeline. (EL- triggering the inner wounded child to an abreaction. As one can see there is no equality or mutuality of respect in these kinds of “Dark Cupid” set ups, where it’s really a “handling” operation of mind control done by the New Predator etc.)
Then whenever I would try to end the relationship, he began to open up about his mental illnesses, saying he had mental illnesses (but refusing to reveal what they were), and that his was the worst case scenario. He told me that it was up to me to “turn off the switch” when things went bad, and that I should look at him as if he was a child that needed to be told no. He also said that he wasn’t able to interact with women because they would end up leaving him after a week or so. Given my own issues, I began to doubt whether this was something I could be involved in, but I also felt guilty about judging him based on his mental illnesses. I felt his pain of being abandoned for being ill and different, and I assured him that even if we couldn’t have a relationship, that I would still be there for him as a friend. I believe (looking back) that I had made some kind of contract with him at that point. (EL—Here the demonic hook is maintained through guilt programming and also her good quality of empathy is taken advantage of.)
In spite of all of this, I still doubted whether something was wrong. I felt the urge to talk to someone, but then I worried that he would be able to sense that I was talking about him, and I also did not want to violate his privacy or be judging him on his illnesses. I began to feel schizophrenic and even questioned whether I should check myself in somewhere. I lost my appetite (which is very rare for me and the opposite of what I do when I’m usually depressed which is overeat). I also noticed that my reality was being replaced with his reality. (EL- making her him, the predator is trying to control her into his puppet. It’s almost as if he is trying to replace and “copy her out” into a complete puppet. Crazy making crap.) For example, he was always very sensitive to the weather and would always say that his reality caused the weather to turn bad. That began to happen to me. When my mood was good, the weather would be sunny, and the moment that my mood or frequency would get lower, there was a sudden shift in the weather to very windy, cloudy, and stormy weather. I knew this wasn’t what normally happened to me. He also did not respect my boundaries with time even when I told him I had stuff to do that day. He would keep insisting that I needed to talk out my issues to overcome them in front of him. (EL- he is pushing and manipulating her vulnerability for greater punishment and “control” in the pretense of teaching and healing her. Classic abuse and control tactic.)
In hindsight, I believe that another reason I took on his reality was because of a strange energy healing session we had when we met up. He asked me to help remove the effects of some medication he had taken. He suggested that I hold his feet and put his energy into my body, and then I would filter it through my body and he would then do the same with my feet and take my energy into his body. We did this several times. This was extremely painful, and although I was visibly in lots of pain doing this, he seemed to have no response whatsoever to how it was affecting me. Looking back, this was extremely dangerous, but again my intense feelings of love took over my judgment.
At some point, I began questioning everything and began to feel so disoriented and confused, but I heard something tell me not to worry and that relief was on the way. By this point, he changed again and tried to be “normal” and became more sexual. We had not engaged in any sexual contact except for some kissing on that one day, but I suddenly became overwhelmed with this urge to have sex with him. I don’t remember ever feeling that aroused in such a way that took over me; it also made me feel obsessive towards him. Then he told me that it was making him sick and that I had to control this. He said he felt as if I was right next to him and that it was too close. He said that whatever I was feeling made him feel like he wanted to shoot himself, and later revealed that he didn’t think it was me but the energies of the men that I had sex with in the past. I did notice that there was something wrong, but it was mixed with a feeling of being triggered and feeling rejected. After things blew up, I told him that I could not do this anymore, and he asked that we stay friends and limit our interaction to once a week, to which I agreed. (EL- possible sex alter triggering going on, and his subsequent rejection, blame. Yet wanting some kind of friendship to keep her linked in?)
When I began to have my time back, I felt relieved and began to reflect on what happened. I watched the panel on Love Bite and at the time, I thought maybe this was hyperdimensional interference on the real love. I was feeling guilt at not being able to overcome my shadows in a way to keep the relationship going. (EL- self-blame culpability is common for women, part of our guilt complex programming from some religious teachings.) I also began to read your books trying to understand how this interference worked. During this time, I experienced a lot of interference such as sleepiness and an all night battle with them and finding mysterious scratches on my body. I still did not even know that my experiences indicated an abduction scenario, as they were seen with my third eye or in dream state. I didn’t realize that the mysterious bruises, scratches, sleep attacks, levitation in my sleep, etc., were all connected to this. (EL- yes a connection with abduction related symptoms and demonics —it may be reptilian, draco, grey attacks, are all common.)
I had planned to go back to him after reflecting on the situation and let him know what was happening between us. (EL- the belief and need to “tell him everything”. It’s similar to a type of “tell all” programming some MK ultra people have to compluslively tell too much so the handlers can “call them back” and more easily reign them back into the fold of the cult, programming etc. Her telling the truth and desiring to communicate is good, but with an abusive psychopath, it’s dangerous and should not be done for safety issues.) I also realized that I had never asked him to “work” on me and that he would have to learn to respect my free will and boundaries. (EL- good, awareness is being restored here, dissolving previous confusion and addressing boundary issues) The interesting part was that I visited Lauda’s website and had read out loud the “Withdrawl of Consent Declaration” (See: https://www.sovereignki.com/declaration-of-non-consent) with regards to any contracts I had made. A few days later, he texted me saying that he had to leave because he was too sick and that he knew was bringing me down. (EL- Demons activated! Going bonkers to hook in, punish or control) This made me feel so bad and I tried to get back in touch with him to assure him that wasn’t the case. (EL the” feel sorry for him” programming got reactivated also.) I acted in a crazy way trying to resume contact with him; it felt almost hypnotic. I felt that he shouldn’t resign himself to a life of loneliness because he felt it was bringing me down. (EL- mind control “spell” taking over) I also remembered what he said in our previous conversation about how my energies made him feel as if he was going to shoot himself, which worried me. I later went to his apartment to make sure he was okay and to reassure him. Something told me to write him a letter telling him that he shouldn’t leave for my benefit, and that if it meant that we couldn’t be romantic, then we could be friends. That my offer to be there for him still stands. (EL-guilt, trying to “save him”, then programming to keep the hook even if its “just to be friends”. This maintains a hook and “agreement of entrapment through guilt.) I finally was able to see him, and at this point I saw that he had another face that wasn’t his. (EL- Awesome! Spirit awareness breaks through for truth!) He treated me like I was crazy for waiting for him and trying to contact him. (EL- the punish, mockery and guilt trick to control, etc) I became angry with him as to his approach to ending things and sensed the manipulation. I told him that if he told me that he did not want to see me or that I was somehow harming him, then I would have left him alone and that he knew that I would. But why did he have to say it that way? He also mentioned that something crazy happened and that he wasn’t going to tell me but it scared him and it made him think he had to leave. I’m not sure of what this was, but something made me think that the contract revocation I did must have caused him to disconnect with me. The other observation I made was that I had been tricked into writing another contract to him (via hand-written letter), and perhaps that was why he had ended it in the way that he did, to regain that contract.
These were some other red flags. He kept saying things in a manner to glorify me in ways that made me feel uncomfortable. He would say that my name was “Grace” because it meant “Source” and he would ask me if I was human. He would also talk as if we were the only ones on the planet doing this work (grandiosity) which I didn’t resonate with. (EL- Grandiosity is often a sign of unresolved trauma as well as excessive self referential ideation.) He seemed jealous at times of my supposed abilities, wondering if we were the same person, then how come I was the only one who had “powers”? When he spoke of his purpose, he spoke about changing or defying some spiritual laws, but it sounded off and even kind of sinister. (EL- It’s as if the entities within or his own “void” causes him/it to have confusion of identity and reality. He is jealous of her authentic gifts)
All of this happened in a matter of 11 days. I was very confused, and to be honest, there is still a part of me that it was somehow my fault and that I was harmful to him. (EL- Guilt belief systems very strong, although we later will see how new insights emerge that yield greater self understanding) What I did know was that it was an extremely damaging experience, and rather than faulting someone, it was something I would not want anyone to experience. Physically, I felt as if my organs had been ripped apart. I lost touch with my present timeline and reality, as if I was in a completely different world. It took every effort for me to regain my focus in my present reality to resume daily tasks and work. I did feel relieved that it was over, and I did feel really dumb for letting this happen. It wasn’t until I listened to your talk on the “New Predator” that I began to see that something was wrong. Whatever this situation was, it’s very confusing, and I can sense that these hyperdimensional entities are upgrading in their tactics. (EL—the confusion and guilt is powerful, as are the damaging effects on emotional, physical and spiritual well being. It’s difficult for people with “do no harm ethics” not to “be angry” or want to blame someone or something when something this traumatic and deliberatley PREDATORY happens).
I now am seeing my part in all of these situations, and have since removed that holographic image of my dreams about “love” and my soulmate manifestation. (EL-Her Spirit is strong to want to perceive and reveal truth—even when it’s really painful)
I just want to thank you for all of your work and research, as they have helped me to gain clarity into what happened to me and that I’m not crazy. I know that I have a lot of work to do in regaining my sense of self and sorting out all of the programming and damage for the things I did, but I at least have some hope and more awareness on avoiding any other situations. Having experienced a lot of interference, I know that it takes a lot of courage on your part to do the work that you do, and I am truly grateful for all of it. I know that my mission profile isn’t to be some sort of whistleblower, but after much contemplation, I have decided to share my story with you. My hope is that it aids with your research and potentially generates awareness so that it doesn’t happen to others, especially those who can see or perceive beyond this dimension.
(About 3 months later)
Since the time of that email, things have improved a lot. I am finally beginning to feel like I can use my energy for me, and that is liberating. I have also been digging deep both using my intuition and by researching the alien abduction phenomenon via the work of your colleagues (Lauda Leon, James Bartley, Bernhard Guenther, and others). I spoke to James Bartley, and he has helped me with some new intuitive techniques to empower myself and to gain knowledge. It’s helped me to make some larger connections about what has been happening to me, and I feel that this information may be of interest to you.
After the last love bite situation, I had a visit from a reptilian who turned out to be a Draco. After I got over the fear, I began to communicate with him to get some answers, and it turns out that this entity has been involved with me over several lifetimes. As I was interrogating this being, I was able to access in meditation the memory of being taken captive by him and others of this faction in a past life. They cut out my eyes because they were trying to hack the ability to “see”; he even said that they learned that “the ability to see was not with the eyes but with the heart”. That hostage situation led to me making some sort of contract with him for involvement in a future life or lives. I was told that it was one of their techniques for timeline manipulation. By inserting glitches into individuals’ timelines, it alters the greater timeline. I was able to trace back throughout this lifetime, and his involvement has been quite extensive, beginning at birth. He also was involved with my sexual trauma and inserted himself into two organic portal types to directly have relationships with me. This last man I was involved with was one of those. I recognized a change in the guy’s face; he looked old and ugly like a gargoyle or something. After I was able to see the Draco in his full form, I realized that it was his face I saw in the guy (ridges above the nose/forehead).
I realized that all of my experiences (the cult, physical abuse, rape, etc) with men had created a sort of energetic imprint that keeps leading me to this entity and under his control. It seems to go beyond the typical explanation of going into toxic relationships due to a lack of self worth or the familiarity of abuse etc. Also, he wasn’t being mean or scary to me. There was a strange level of respect and almost a kindred feeling; it was as if I was his pet. I’m starting to realize that over lifetimes, I may have developed a sort of Stockholm syndrome with him and potentially other archontic forces such as ascended masters and gods/goddesses. It explains why I was so addicted to these toxic and destructive relationships, almost addicted to being dominated and abused. I am currently in a detox to clear this imprint so that I can re-learn love and attraction.
I am sharing this with you because I have a feeling that there are many others who experience these repeat experiences, and maybe collectively we can find a solution. I am working every day to learn more and to fight this. I am determined to reclaim my sovereignty.
I also watched your new video with Lauda Leon ( See above link on Firebloods, Priestess/Harlot etc), and I was blown away by the many synchronicities with my personal memories. I have memories in both Atlantean and “pre-fall” times as well as in Egypt. In two of those lifetimes, I was a “priestess” and just as Lauda said, it was a “whore priestess” situation. I always wondered if I was crazy for seeing priestesses as prostitutes, and maybe it was blasphemous to say that. But I do have memories of being one. I remembered being held in a cave alone and waiting to be raped essentially. In those times, they were able to deceive us to believe were doing something “holy”.
I also remembered that before the patriarch took over, there were women who had a crystalline power in the womb, which was the power of creation. At some point the masculine became jealous and had to take over, leading to lifetime after lifetime of a patriarchal society that was designed to erase the power of the feminine. I had a memory in Egypt of being a priestess again, and the training began in childhood. I was directly taught by Thoth, and later I was led into a secret chamber to engage in sex magic with someone who was like my twin flame. Shortly after, I was murdered by another priestess.
I didn’t really share or really believe these memories, and I assumed I was just being grandiose & made them up. When I hear about others’ accounts of these times, it’s crazy how the information aligns.
The pyramids actually appeared with the top pyramid being the visible one, and the bottom chamber of the pyramid was underground and was an upside down pyramid. I was taken into the bottom of this pyramid to engage in this magic at the time. Listening to Lauda talking about the “inversion” several times in her videos, I believe that this is also one of those inversions. This does not feel like the natural way that energy was supposed to flow, and it feels like in the Egyptian times, they were trying to replicate and manipulate something that was hidden or lost from the Atlantean times.
The other theme that has been strong for me lately is timelines. I have been shown that there are many timeline manipulations that have taken place that look like loops or sine-waves. I feel that in this lifetime, we can repair this timeline and reclaim the power or return things to the original order.
The hardest part of all this is feeling isolated, crazy, or cursed/evil. Your work, and the work of your colleagues really helps me. Even though I do not know you, it feels like you are a friend because you understand and give a compassionate space without judgment. Thank you so much for what you do.
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Thank you Grace!