Ancient Priestess and Dark Cupid Testimonial

This is a testimonial from “Grace”, an courageous survivor who endured a profound Dark Cupid, false twin flame type drama with two different men during the course of a few years. (The names used are all pseudonyms) In hindsight, Grace understands and reveals the multiple causes, conditions and patterns of hyperdimensional interference in her life, and her relationships over time. This includes current “cult” family history, early trauma sexual abuse, New Age types of spirituality and religious programming, UFO sightings, ascended masters and past life connections with a Draco, ancient priestess events and agreements of entrapment through time. Her experience is revelatory and she articulates well her thoughts, feelings and interpersonal dynamics that occur in conjunction with the “love bite” partner(s) who were clearly being set up and played as a type of interdimensional “handler” with the New Predator characteristics.

The first part of the testimonial is the initial correspondence Grace wrote to me about her two “love bite” experiences. Some passages I highlight in Bold, where I see significant insights or patterns revealed. I decided to fill in editorial comments (in italics) within certain statements that show how her feeling, thinking, beliefs, guilt programming, as well as other tactics acted out by her Dark Cupid partner. I observed how Grace’s Spirit kept nudging her way towards greater awareness, intention and empowerment, as she also moved back and forth into old patterns of thinking, feeling, programming triggers and being pulled under the “love spell” aspects of this very confusing pattern of hyperdimensional interference. I wanted to show how her own Spirit kept pushing through, despite seeming set backs of repeatedly being pulled back into situations of “Predator hoovering” her back in. It shows how some agreements of entrapment were enabled through old beliefs and guilt. She reveals in a later email about 3 months later, how memories and deep realizations emerge of other lifetime events with a particular Draco, who was a large part of how this was all being set up through time. Her essential goodness, empathy and spiritual gifts were taken advantage of by these “entity driven/possessed” love bite partners. She also recognizes the “Draco”  overshadowing working through these men in hindsight. We can see how the Predator/handler uses her good nature, gifts and empathy to its advantage to keep pulling her back into the “loosh feeding” drama.

Grace recalls ancient priestess involvement in Egyptian and Atlantean times, and understood intuitively the reversal of energies in certain rituals, and how the priestess-whore role kept playing itself over many lifetimes.

This is Grace’s testimony in her own words:

I recently watched your “Love Bite Plus” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1j-dtUgops) and “Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kopPZCqLGoo&t=3s) Panel Discussions, as well as your talk with Lauda Leon about the “New Predator“.(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-new-predator-2/)  I have also read both of your books. I took interest in the topic of the love bite and hyperdimensional interference after I experienced two of these types of relationships. After watching the panel discussion, I’m realizing that the other experiences in my life are also somehow connected to this.

I first want to say that they were all extremely helpful in helping to explain and connect the dots on the experiences I’ve had throughout my life, but I also appreciated the empowering angle they had even when discussing some serious and scary/disturbing topics.

I’d like to share my story with you, in case there is anything that can be of assistance to you in your research, as well as for the empowerment of others who are experiencing this. I will first warn you that this is a very long email, and that I am currently in the process of working through my issues, so if at any point, this becomes overwhelming, please feel free to not read it all. I also want to state that I do not see myself as a victim in this, and I do take responsibility for getting involved in spirituality with the wrong intentions leading me to become entangled with these entities.

I wrote about my experiences with a lot of detail hoping that it can give you insight into how insidious and damaging this is, and I’m sure you are aware of this. I am guessing that because of my openness to extrasensory experiences, it was much easier for these beings to become involved in these love bite type scenarios in an invisible way that even I have a hard time believing are real.

Just to give you some background, I have been seeing spirits since I was a child (earliest memory 2-3 years old), had issues sleeping due to “demonic attacks” (hearing, seeing, feeling, sleep paralysis), sexual abuse as a child, being in a Bible-based doomsday cult for 13 years (age 14-27), then being led to various cult-like New Age groups, and two love bite situations that are more like the New Predator profile.(EL-Early childhood trama especially sexual abuse, demonic interference and cult environment as significant causation to vulnerability.) By the end of 2016, I really began to wonder why there were so many things “wrong” but I didn’t question these things enough because I figured I was whining about my situation and being bitter.( EL-questioning why things felt “wrong” is good. Belief or some early critical judgement on “whining” causes a guilt that shuts her down from taking action, telling the truth etc.) By the end of last year, I began to contemplate leaving this world, feeling as if I was a balloon with a hole in it, and my life force was slowly being drained. Because I know that my usual self has a general joy and gratitude for life, I felt this wasn’t really me. (EL- demonic oppression and/or suicide program going off) I believe this was also a trap and version of hyperdimensional attack that would trick me into using my free will to end my life. (EL- Yes, good insights)

My intention in telling you this is not to be negative, but to let you know how much the awareness I have received from your work is helping me to reclaim my power and have hope again. (EL-Excessive concerns of sounding negative, and needing a kind of permission to just tell the “ugly” truth. It’s common in many religious groups, cults or even New Age circles to not be “negative” and impose heavy guilt or judgements of character if anyone speaks up about anything negative even if its the truth.) I’d like to now share more details of my Dark Side of Cupid experiences.

The first one was with a married man who was more like a spiritual mentor. About 5 months before I met him, I had become tired of bad relationships and decided that I needed to work on manifesting my “soulmate”. During this process, I decided to re-embark on my spiritual journey to learn more about my true essence. (In hindsight, yes, it was a BIG mistake, making a contract with these frequencies). Also, around this time, I was dealing with sleep paralysis and noticing that the presence I felt was not demonic, but more like aliens. I went deeper into the buzzing noise I felt and ended up in a space center of some sort where they were broadcasting “Project Healing Light”. I woke up before I could see them, as I was afraid of what I would see. (EL- Red flag of abduction, astral and/or milab programming being implemented.)

I began to meditate on my soulmate, and during one of my meditations, I felt the presence of someone who I believed to be “the one”. I also had done a past life regression showing me a past life in Egypt with a love from those times. As I was writing out a letter to the universe with the qualities I was looking for in a partner and thanking the universe for this, I began to feel a presence that was causing me to do automatic writing. (EL- Red flag of spirit/entity invasion, and previous invitation with the method of intention in manifesting soul mate etc. ) I believed it was “my soulmate”, and he told me that we would meet soon (after 4 moons), and that I should go to a local spiritual group called Love & Light to discover my spiritual gifts. (EL-Specific programming commands—could be human mind controllers or hyperdimensional  and demonic )I did as I was told, and the psychic in the group “discovered” me as someone who had many “gifts”. (EL-who or what was really working through that psychic at the Love & Light Center?) I ended up serving there as a healer, reader, and also doing administrative tasks on their board (another cult-like situation & lesson). (EL-Cult programming, -“return to the cult” or the “new cult and handler situation”.) During this time I was also connecting a lot with the Ascended Masters; they would constantly show up during my meditations, take me places, and even summon me to meditate at times. (EL—Who are the Ascended Masters really? Keep on reading—its revealed later!)

After some deep reflection, I made a decision to leave this group and shortly after, I met this man I will refer to as “John”. (EL- Deep reflection is a good sign that her Spirit is leading, questioning and trying to surface to break through denial and programming. After leaving a “cult group” and handler, a replacement/love bite set up is quickly engineered for her to meet up with.) I was feeling vulnerable after losing my spiritual community/teachers, so timing was “perfect” for this scenario. When we met, we had a one-on-one meditation session, in which he asked me if I wanted to work with the “beings up high” (ETs). I said yes, and from that point, I began to work with them. I limited my ability to really see them because I was still afraid, but they did give me some sort of tool to work with time. John also guided me to move my kundalini energy, which (in hindsight & after reading your work) is what caused me to have such feelings of love, sexual attraction, and bliss towards him. (EL—John is a predator, quickly hooking into kundalini energy. But permission was given by being willing to work with “ETs”) On our second meeting, I felt it was ethical for me to let him know that I was feeling these feelings of attraction (as he was married), and he told me it was because we had past lives together (including Egypt). The relationship was more like a spiritual friendship/mentorship than a physical or romantic one, and I went along with it believing that it was helping me to expand my perception of love to a more unconditionally loving person. He helped me heal from my past wounds, and I helped him to heal his relationship with his wife and to resume his spiritual work and meditation group. ( EL—Classic New Predator and Dark Cupid set up. They are engineered to be the guru/lover (yet conveniently married to another), and still connecting in to sexual energy with love connection overtones. Creates confusion, guilt and a love-drug kind of hook. She  functions in the student, or even sex slave kind of position of being of less power than his rank. Also, her “telling him all about her wounding” created a greater vulnerability to his control.)

During this time, I saw numerous UFOs, as well as a portal opening up from the sky once (in a photo). After a few months, I remember having an experience with a spaceship which I saw with my third eye. I was outside at work with my best friend. All of a sudden, I saw a space ship and a beam of light. There was El Morya (ascended master that worked with John as his major “guide”) standing there with his hand stretched out, telling me to follow him. I went with him, and then I wasn’t able to see what was happening. I remember John telling me that I could ask to remember when I am being taken up, so I did that. I remembered seeing myself on some sort of medical table, but the mood in the ship was as if I was a bride being prepared for marriage to this man I had been working with. They did things to me to “prepare me” to be “married” to John, and joined us together. Later, when I met up with him for a meditation, John said he also saw this. (EL—The “ET abduction/visitation” real motive appears to be medical manipulation as well as the “marriage contract” which binds her energetically to have her spiritual power used and also bound to the “ascended master/ET/Cult group etc” This creates another deeper level of agreement of entrapment on a spiritual level.)

I had been working with John, supporting his meditation group by giving messages to the participants. I also was getting more involved with other spiritual groups in the area, ones that were working with the ET or galactic energies. I met a woman who was known for her work with the “council” and such. She hugged me and began speaking light language, and shortly after, I was not only speaking some light language, but began to sing in this. She told me that the language I was speaking was really old and that she had not heard it in a very long time (ancient). To my shock, she also told me that I was pregnant(?!) with some sort of a “light baby” and that this had happened to her and to other women. (See video on Firebloods, Nephilim and the Priestess/Harlet Paradigm: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFIzEGkpsvE…) The next day, when I spoke with John, he seemed to know something and was wondering about what happened the night before. I told him about the “baby”, and he asked me if I knew what it was. I told him that it felt like it was some spiritual baby I had created with him, and it seemed he already knew about this. He told me that the ETs were building another planet, and that this “baby” was being taken there. (EL-How conscious is John of his involvment as an instrument of these beings aned agendas one wonders. Is he a mind controlled MPD/DID from some ritual Abuse MK ultra cult bloodline family? Is he simply a host or walk-in for some ET or demonic entities?)

Later, I started noticing that something was wrong. There was something inside of me that felt that my “contract” with John was over, and maybe I was just meant to be in his life to help him up until that point. I began to slowly distance myself, and I found that I was feeling drained. I noticed that he would call me in a more needy way, asking for my help when he was down, and this was coincidentally on the days of his meetup group meditation. My friend even asked me if I didn’t think it was strange that he was calling on the days of his meditation, and that maybe he was taking my energy. I also noticed one time that he convinced me to go to his group, and that he had essentially imitated my frequency and was imitating an idea I had shared about a meeting I wanted to have with people. It wasn’t the fact that he had taken my idea, but something seemed strange, as if a program was playing with my vibration that did not match him at all. (EL—John seems to be some kind of “walk in” or counterfeit spirit operating to imitate and take ideas, power, energy for these meditation groups. He was used to possibly impregnate some “astral parasite being” with her creative essence, then once that was done, contract over?)

By the end of that year, I began to notice more strange things. I ended up getting physically ill, having intense abdominal pains, which led to me having my gallbladder surgically removed. The woman who told me I was “pregnant” told me that this was the birth of my “light baby”. I began to feel as if there was some dark cloud over me, and I became very drained. I also realized that my life was falling apart – my home life, my job, my health. I began distancing myself from all spiritual groups. I remember telling John that I needed to take some time to take care of myself and get my life back in order, resulting in us having an hours long conversation in which he was “helping” me through these “problems” I was having. According to him, instead of wanting to take care of myself, being around and helping people is what I actually loved to do. When I told him I needed to do things, he would come back and say I didn’t need to do anything. After getting off the phone, I realized I had wasted my energy and my day, and I somehow felt I was being hypnotized. (EL—John being used to program or re-program her once she distanced herself, and take energy too.)

At the end of that year, I went to my last spirituality event, an expo in which I had volunteered to do readings and healings. By this time, I was at an all-time low and was looking forward to getting it over with. At this event, I met another man Seth, who was a vendor selling spiritual protection tools. Seth was tall and extremely attractive to me, but I noticed he was receiving so much attention from others (especially women), as if there was some sort of vortex around him. I briefly had a conversation with him in which I strangely blurted out that I used to be in a cult, to which he replied “Cool!”. That night, I noticed that he had found me on Facebook and messaged me about another friend from the community. Seth was extremely sensitive, having lived in isolation for many years and would become sick around people. He told me that this friend had made him sick and that I was energetically this friend’s “bitch”.

Seth and I eventually began to talk more, and it ended up that we had so much in common, especially our shared interests in the intersection of spirituality with fringe/conspiracy topics. I also had this strange vision of him being some sort of spiritual secret agent, and later I saw that he was some sort of a walk-in, one that was of the greys but had betrayed them in some way. He seemed to really enjoy my perspectives, and what made my heart open up to him was that he seemed to see beauty in my “battle wounds”, meaning my strange and painful past (which I considered a weakness). The other thing is that I began to have sexual feelings for him, and had fantasized about him. He seemed to sense this, and without realizing what I had done, he told me that he physically felt me go into bed with him. We seemed to be talking all day long, and there was this intense feeling of love and connection. One day, he told me about revoking contracts, and I was doing this while messaging with him. All of a sudden, he told me that I was him and he was me. I found this to be a bit puzzling, but at the time the feelings of love were so strong that I didn’t question further. (EL – Bliss of love spell overrides spirit screaming, warning, red flag!)

Also, he met John and revealed things about him that opened my eyes. He said John was able to reach the heights of the mental body but had no ability to access his heart energy, and that John essentially had no soul. That somehow made something click for me. Later, I received a visitation from the El Morya being (which I could sense was coming from John in order to reconnect with me), except this time something felt weird and very invasive. I told him to leave, and expressed my free will intention not to connect with him.  All of a sudden, the majestic light being I used to see turned into this ugly, tall grey alien creature who looked ferocious and angry. His eyes protruded from his head and were waving around like snakes. Having been revealed for what it was, it left my presence immediately. ( EL—Great  move! And see how the being reveals its true form when the intenion to disconnect is implemented) I then cut off communications with John. Shortly after, Seth told me that he could no longer maintain contact and that he needed to stay away from people.

I was devastated, and felt so abandoned, but I couldn’t shake my feelings of gratitude towards him for helping me gain discernment and for helping me disconnect with John. For several months, I still felt his presence. I also decided that I should no longer allow the feeling of longing for him in case it would harm him in any way. In spite of this, I still would receive astral visitations from him and would have sexual contact coming from him (or the entities associated with him) in my dream state. At some point, I was finally able to get over him and move on with my life. (EL-the guilt programming aspect, fear of “harming him” helped maintain the hook going for the astral connections.Karmic connections are also realized later on. Eventually it fades away with the decision to not obsess and “get on with her life”. )

By this time, I had removed myself from the spiritual community and I had dissolved most of my individual relationships from these groups. I could sense that a lot of people were somehow stealing my energy and that my “work” and “gifts” were not actually helping these people to evolve and instead were some sort of quick fix that was enabling a sort of spiritual laziness. I began to focus on my own healing. I experienced a continued decrease in energy. (EL—Great observation and Spirit is coming through more strongly in perceptions, awareness and power.)

At the end of last year, John suddenly came to see me at work, and he tried to resume our friendship, which I didn’t accept. Later, I noticed his presence near my energy bodies trying to work with me or do something with my energy. I could also sense that he was searching for something, as whatever he was doing was not working. Another time, I saw that he was somehow trying to access my energy from behind my heart chakra, and what I saw was that he was accessing the memories of when we used to work together, allowing some sort of backdoor to my energy, especially my heart energy. This helped to explain where my energy drainage was coming from, as my general energy of joy and love (not romantic) that I remembered being from my heart center had slowly begun to disappear. I rebuked him in spirit and told him that he had to leave, that I didn’t permit him to do this, and that there were consequences to accessing my energy without my permission. Also, looking back, I realized that he and I differed greatly in our approaches to healing and spirituality. I intuitively had a general code of ethics when it came to my work, and permission was key to everything, to the point where I always asked explicit permission before doing anything and also had to work in accordance with the person’s Higher Self. He, on the other hand, would go and work on people without them knowing and without asking for permission. There was also a selfishness and lack of heart center in everything he did, almost to the point of being robotic. He would speak of how he wanted to make all this money and become like Deepak Chopra. It felt off, and these were things I noticed towards the end of our “relationship” that led me to believe our contract was ending.

After about a month of that last episode, I realized how vulnerable I was to certain attacks because of my cult experience, and that my general ability to listen to red flags had been disabled due to all of the intense programming from this time. I decided to go back to counseling and join a support group for cult members, with the intention of re-learning how to set proper boundaries and to deprogram myself from this. I also did not want to wrongly use any of my energies to serve the wrong system. (EL-Her Spirit is working well to push through the resistance.)

Interestingly enough, as soon as I began to regain my inner sense of joy and to focus on healing myself, Seth returned to my life after 1.5 years. This is where things become even more strange, and where I still feel confused as to what happened. He messaged me saying that he needed my help, and that after taking DMT, he was stuck in time, in a place where there are no people and only robots. He said that he felt he was dead. Before this, I also began to see him and sense his presence, which made things again seem very meant to be for me. (EL—a hook to pull her back in through sympathy, neediness and danger)

I responded to him and began to try to help him, telling myself I’d do this “spirituality” stuff one last time, if it could help him. He seemed so desperate that it was hard to just leave him that way. I talked to him to see what was happening, and he told me that he couldn’t reach me at my frequency, so he had to meditate to meet me. He also said he began to smoke cigarettes (which he is allergic to) to connect with me because I smoke cigarettes. As we talked, he said he was beginning to feel better. I did let him know that I wasn’t really doing this work anymore, so I didn’t know if I could be much help.

At some point, Seth began to speak in third person, saying that I was talking to his dead soul. He said that the first walk-in was trying to leave, and that he had another walk-in. Or I should say, the “dead soul” told me this. I did sense that the energy of this being was different from the first one I was talking to. He spoke of a portal of light he had seen in his dream state, and that he knew that was his way home, and that he wanted to be with his family, but that portal had disappeared. I suddenly remembered some mediumship work that I did during my spirituality days, and how I had assisted some spirits in continuing on their journey. In a desperation to help him, I decided I would try to help.(I made sure to ask his permission and to make sure it was what he wanted, and whether it was something that would not harm the body he was in. They both said yes, and somehow I was able to create a portal for him to exit the body. After he left, “he” (2nd walk-in) said he felt so much better. (EL—the dark side getting desperate to pull her back in and to “use her spiritual gifts” to open portals, allowing more access.)

I didn’t really know if what was happening was even real, but I was glad he was feeling better. I also noticed that these conversations were taking up all of my time and that I was becoming very, very drained. Throughout certain moments in the conversation, he spoke in ways indicating that he had sexual interest in me all along even though he never had a chance to act on it. Also, it seemed that no matter how much I gave, he would just need more and more healing. When I told him that I couldn’t offer more because I was drained, he would treat me as if I was not me and that a program was talking through me, and that he could see red energies of war. (EL— Seth using guilt, projection and manipulation to pull her in to get what he wants.) I told him I no longer wanted to do this spiritual work, and he somehow shifted to a more flirtatious mode. We agreed to meet up, and it felt very magical. He began to speak about what he wanted in life, and what he said seemed to be exactly the same as what I wanted. I told him that I wanted to share a divine love with someone, in which the merging of the true divine feminine and masculine would result in a healing frequency for the world. The love I felt with him seemed so pure, beyond any traditional romantic love that I felt. He seemed to perfectly mirror what I was looking for and said he had always wanted the same thing.

Later, things began to go downhill. I had a suspicion that he might be using me to get better. We had arguments but he was so dramatic in trying to keep me, saying that he would fight for me and not let me get away, which would make me want to go back. Also, any time that I tried to express myself to him that would go against anything he said, he would say that it was interference, and I needed to come back instead of letting the program take over. Then he would begin to “work” on me, putting me in some hot seat so that I could reveal all of my weaknesses and programming to make our love pure. (EL—classic New Predator handling, programming and control, tailor made to her own uniqueness) I would have major roller coasters of emotion, going from extreme bliss to crying like a baby because I was going back to my trauma. I went along with it, thinking this was the work I needed to do face my shadows and complete this love. I was also losing track of time, realizing that I had not eaten for two days and was barely sleeping.

I was spending all of my waking hours speaking to him. (EL—the guilt programming, also, the whole “working out negative karma”  New Age spirituality reasoning is often used to cause self doubt, so that he/it maintains control, using her vulnerabilities against her. Later we will see what real former life and other dimensional realizations emerge.)
Looking back, I also noticed there was some sort of cycle to this. I would help him with his stuff in a more nurturing way until my energy was completely drained. At that point, after he felt better, all of a sudden it was my turn for him to “help” me. The difference was that his ways of helping me were extremely cold and mean, almost soulless with no remorse, taking me back to my deepest traumas. With my energy already low and then being faced with my trauma from the cult, I would end up reacting very strongly, getting angry and yelling, and trying to end the relationship again. He would then react by threatening to cut me off or saying very cutting things to me that were deep in my psyche, often mocking me. It was as if my former cult leader was talking to me, and that I was the old me when I was in the “hot seat” in the cult. My reality literally changed to that timeline. (EL- triggering the inner wounded child to an abreaction. As one can see there is no equality or mutuality of respect in these kinds of  “Dark Cupid” set ups, where it’s really a “handling” operation of mind control done by the New Predator etc.)

Then whenever I would try to end the relationship, he began to open up about his mental illnesses, saying he had mental illnesses (but refusing to reveal what they were), and that his was the worst case scenario. He told me that it was up to me to “turn off the switch” when things went bad, and that I should look at him as if he was a child that needed to be told no. He also said that he wasn’t able to interact with women because they would end up leaving him after a week or so. Given my own issues, I began to doubt whether this was something I could be involved in, but I also felt guilty about judging him based on his mental illnesses. I felt his pain of being abandoned for being ill and different, and I assured him that even if we couldn’t have a relationship, that I would still be there for him as a friend. I believe (looking back) that I had made some kind of contract with him at that point. (EL—Here the demonic hook is maintained through guilt programming and also her good quality of empathy is taken advantage of.)

In spite of all of this, I still doubted whether something was wrong. I felt the urge to talk to someone, but then I worried that he would be able to sense that I was talking about him, and I also did not want to violate his privacy or be judging him on his illnesses. I began to feel schizophrenic and even questioned whether I should check myself in somewhere. I lost my appetite (which is very rare for me and the opposite of what I do when I’m usually depressed which is overeat). I also noticed that my reality was being replaced with his reality. (EL- making her him, the predator is trying to control her into his puppet. It’s almost as if he is trying to replace and “copy her out” into a complete puppet. Crazy making crap.) For example, he was always very sensitive to the weather and would always say that his reality caused the weather to turn bad. That began to happen to me. When my mood was good, the weather would be sunny, and the moment that my mood or frequency would get lower, there was a sudden shift in the weather to very windy, cloudy, and stormy weather. I knew this wasn’t what normally happened to me. He also did not respect my boundaries with time even when I told him I had stuff to do that day. He would keep insisting that I needed to talk out my issues to overcome them in front of him. (EL- he is pushing and manipulating her vulnerability for greater punishment and “control” in the pretense of teaching and healing her. Classic abuse and control tactic.)

In hindsight, I believe that another reason I took on his reality was because of a strange energy healing session we had when we met up. He asked me to help remove the effects of some medication he had taken. He suggested that I hold his feet and put his energy into my body, and then I would filter it through my body and he would then do the same with my feet and take my energy into his body. We did this several times. This was extremely painful, and although I was visibly in lots of pain doing this, he seemed to have no response whatsoever to how it was affecting me. Looking back, this was extremely dangerous, but again my intense feelings of love took over my judgment.

At some point, I began questioning everything and began to feel so disoriented and confused, but I heard something tell me not to worry and that relief was on the way. By this point, he changed again and tried to be “normal” and became more sexual. We had not engaged in any sexual contact except for some kissing on that one day, but I suddenly became overwhelmed with this urge to have sex with him. I don’t remember ever feeling that aroused in such a way that took over me; it also made me feel obsessive towards him. Then he told me that it was making him sick and that I had to control this. He said he felt as if I was right next to him and that it was too close. He said that whatever I was feeling made him feel like he wanted to shoot himself, and later revealed that he didn’t think it was me but the energies of the men that I had sex with in the past. I did notice that there was something wrong, but it was mixed with a feeling of being triggered and feeling rejected. After things blew up, I told him that I could not do this anymore, and he asked that we stay friends and limit our interaction to once a week, to which I agreed. (EL- possible sex alter triggering going on, and his subsequent rejection, blame. Yet wanting some kind of friendship to keep her linked in?)

When I began to have my time back, I felt relieved and began to reflect on what happened. I watched the panel on Love Bite and at the time, I thought maybe this was hyperdimensional interference on the real love. I was feeling guilt at not being able to overcome my shadows in a way to keep the relationship going. (EL- self-blame culpability is common for women, part of our guilt complex programming from some religious teachings.) I also began to read your books trying to understand how this interference worked. During this time, I experienced a lot of interference such as sleepiness and an all night battle with them and finding mysterious scratches on my body. I still did not even know that my experiences indicated an abduction scenario, as they were seen with my third eye or in dream state. I didn’t realize that the mysterious bruises, scratches, sleep attacks, levitation in my sleep, etc., were all connected to this. (EL- yes a connection with abduction related symptoms and demonics —it may be reptilian, draco, grey attacks, are all common.)

I had planned to go back to him after reflecting on the situation and let him know what was happening between us. (EL- the belief and need to “tell him everything”. It’s similar to a type of “tell all” programming some MK ultra people have to compluslively tell too much so the handlers can “call them back” and more easily reign them back into the fold of the cult, programming etc.  Her telling the truth and desiring to communicate is good, but with an abusive psychopath, it’s dangerous and should not be done for safety issues.)  I also realized that I had never asked him to “work” on me and that he would have to learn to respect my free will and boundaries. (EL- good, awareness is being restored here, dissolving previous confusion and addressing boundary issues) The interesting part was that I visited Lauda’s website and had read out loud the “Withdrawl of Consent Declaration” (See: https://www.sovereignki.com/declaration-of-non-consent)  with regards to any contracts I had made. A few days later, he texted me saying that he had to leave because he was too sick and that he knew was bringing me down. (EL- Demons activated! Going bonkers to hook in, punish or control) This made me feel so bad and I tried to get back in touch with him to assure him that wasn’t the case. (EL  the” feel sorry for him” programming got reactivated also.)  I acted in a crazy way trying to resume contact with him; it felt almost hypnotic. I felt that he shouldn’t resign himself to a life of loneliness because he felt it was bringing me down. (EL- mind control “spell” taking over) I also remembered what he said in our previous conversation about how my energies made him feel as if he was going to shoot himself, which worried me. I later went to his apartment to make sure he was okay and to reassure him. Something told me to write him a letter telling him that he shouldn’t leave for my benefit, and that if it meant that we couldn’t be romantic, then we could be friends. That my offer to be there for him still stands. (EL-guilt, trying to “save him”, then programming to keep the hook even if its “just to be friends”. This maintains a hook and “agreement of entrapment through guilt.) I finally was able to see him, and at this point I saw that he had another face that wasn’t his. (EL- Awesome! Spirit  awareness breaks through for truth!) He treated me like I was crazy for waiting for him and trying to contact him. (EL- the punish, mockery and guilt trick to control, etc) I became angry with him as to his approach to ending things and sensed the manipulation. I told him that if he told me that he did not want to see me or that I was somehow harming him, then I would have left him alone and that he knew that I would. But why did he have to say it that way? He also mentioned that something crazy happened and that he wasn’t going to tell me but it scared him and it made him think he had to leave. I’m not sure of what this was, but something made me think that the contract revocation I did must have caused him to disconnect with me. The other observation I made was that I had been tricked into writing another contract to him (via hand-written letter), and perhaps that was why he had ended it in the way that he did, to regain that contract.

These were some other red flags. He kept saying things in a manner to glorify me in ways that made me feel uncomfortable. He would say that my name was “Grace” because it meant “Source” and he would ask me if I was human. He would also talk as if we were the only ones on the planet doing this work (grandiosity) which I didn’t resonate with. (EL- Grandiosity is often a sign of unresolved trauma as well as excessive self referential ideation.) He seemed jealous at times of my supposed abilities, wondering if we were the same person, then how come I was the only one who had “powers”? When he spoke of his purpose, he spoke about changing or defying some spiritual laws, but it sounded off and even kind of sinister. (EL- It’s as if the entities within or his own “void” causes him/it to have confusion of identity and reality. He is  jealous of her authentic gifts)

All of this happened in a matter of 11 days. I was very confused, and to be honest, there is still a part of me that it was somehow my fault and that I was harmful to him. (EL- Guilt belief systems very strong, although we later will see how new insights emerge that yield greater self understanding) What I did know was that it was an extremely damaging experience, and rather than faulting someone, it was something I would not want anyone to experience. Physically, I felt as if my organs had been ripped apart. I lost touch with my present timeline and reality, as if I was in a completely different world. It took every effort for me to regain my focus in my present reality to resume daily tasks and work. I did feel relieved that it was over, and I did feel really dumb for letting this happen. It wasn’t until I listened to your talk on the “New Predator” that I began to see that something was wrong. Whatever this situation was, it’s very confusing, and I can sense that these hyperdimensional entities are upgrading in their tactics. (EL—the confusion and guilt is powerful, as are the damaging effects on emotional, physical and spiritual well being. It’s difficult  for people with “do no harm ethics” not to “be angry” or want to blame someone or something when something this traumatic and deliberatley PREDATORY happens).

I now am seeing my part in all of these situations, and have since removed that holographic image of my dreams about “love” and my soulmate manifestation. (EL-Her Spirit is strong to want to perceive and reveal truth—even when it’s really painful) 

I just want to thank you for all of your work and research, as they have helped me to gain clarity into what happened to me and that I’m not crazy. I know that I have a lot of work to do in regaining my sense of self and sorting out all of the programming and damage for the things I did, but I at least have some hope and more awareness on avoiding any other situations. Having experienced a lot of interference, I know that it takes a lot of courage on your part to do the work that you do, and I am truly grateful for all of it. I know that my mission profile isn’t to be some sort of whistleblower, but after much contemplation, I have decided to share my story with you. My hope is that it aids with your research and potentially generates awareness so that it doesn’t happen to others, especially those who can see or perceive beyond this dimension.
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(About 3 months later)

Since the time of that email, things have improved a lot. I am finally beginning to feel like I can use my energy for me, and that is liberating. I have also been digging deep both using my intuition and by researching the alien abduction phenomenon via the work of your colleagues (Lauda Leon, James Bartley, Bernhard Guenther, and others). I spoke to James Bartley, and he has helped me with some new intuitive techniques to empower myself and to gain knowledge. It’s helped me to make some larger connections about what has been happening to me, and I feel that this information may be of interest to you.

After the last love bite situation, I had a visit from a reptilian who turned out to be a Draco. After I got over the fear, I began to communicate with him to get some answers, and it turns out that this entity has been involved with me over several lifetimes. As I was interrogating this being, I was able to access in meditation the memory of being taken captive by him and others of this faction in a past life. They cut out my eyes because they were trying to hack the ability to “see”; he even said that they learned that “the ability to see was not with the eyes but with the heart”. That hostage situation led to me making some sort of contract with him for involvement in a future life or lives. I was told that it was one of their techniques for timeline manipulation. By inserting glitches into individuals’ timelines, it alters the greater timeline. I was able to trace back throughout this lifetime, and his involvement has been quite extensive, beginning at birth. He also was involved with my sexual trauma and inserted himself into two organic portal types to directly have relationships with me. This last man I was involved with was one of those. I recognized a change in the guy’s face; he looked old and ugly like a gargoyle or something. After I was able to see the Draco in his full form, I realized that it was his face I saw in the guy (ridges above the nose/forehead).

I realized that all of my experiences (the cult, physical abuse, rape, etc) with men had created a sort of energetic imprint that keeps leading me to this entity and under his control. It seems to go beyond the typical explanation of going into toxic relationships due to a lack of self worth or the familiarity of abuse etc. Also, he wasn’t being mean or scary to me. There was a strange level of respect and almost a kindred feeling; it was as if I was his pet. I’m starting to realize that over lifetimes, I may have developed a sort of Stockholm syndrome with him and potentially other archontic forces such as ascended masters and gods/goddesses. It explains why I was so addicted to these toxic and destructive relationships, almost addicted to being dominated and abused. I am currently in a detox to clear this imprint so that I can re-learn love and attraction.

I am sharing this with you because I have a feeling that there are many others who experience these repeat experiences, and maybe collectively we can find a solution. I am working every day to learn more and to fight this. I am determined to reclaim my sovereignty.

I also watched your new video with Lauda Leon ( See above link on Firebloods, Priestess/Harlot etc), and I was blown away by the many synchronicities with my personal memories. I have memories in both Atlantean and “pre-fall” times as well as in Egypt. In two of those lifetimes, I was a “priestess” and just as Lauda said, it was a “whore priestess” situation. I always wondered if I was crazy for seeing priestesses as prostitutes, and maybe it was blasphemous to say that. But I do have memories of being one. I remembered being held in a cave alone and waiting to be raped essentially. In those times, they were able to deceive us to believe were doing something “holy”.

I also remembered that before the patriarch took over, there were women who had a crystalline power in the womb, which was the power of creation. At some point the masculine became jealous and had to take over, leading to lifetime after lifetime of a patriarchal society that was designed to erase the power of the feminine. I had a memory in Egypt of being a priestess again, and the training began in childhood. I was directly taught by Thoth, and later I was led into a secret chamber to engage in sex magic with someone who was like my twin flame. Shortly after, I was murdered by another priestess.

I didn’t really share or really believe these memories, and I assumed I was just being grandiose & made them up. When I hear about others’ accounts of these times, it’s crazy how the information aligns.  

The pyramids actually appeared with the top pyramid being the visible one, and the bottom chamber of the pyramid was underground and was an upside down pyramid. I was taken into the bottom of this pyramid to engage in this magic at the time. Listening to Lauda talking about the “inversion” several times in her videos, I believe that this is also one of those inversions. This does not feel like the natural way that energy was supposed to flow, and it feels like in the Egyptian times, they were trying to replicate and manipulate something that was hidden or lost from the Atlantean times.pyramid

 

The other theme that has been strong for me lately is timelines. I have been shown that there are many timeline manipulations that have taken place that look like loops or sine-waves.  I feel that in this lifetime, we can repair this timeline and reclaim the power or return things to the original order.

The hardest part of all this is feeling isolated, crazy, or cursed/evil. Your work, and the work of your colleagues really helps me. Even though I do not know you, it feels like you are a friend because you understand and give a compassionate space without judgment. Thank you so much for what you do.

Sine Wave Loop Image: loop

Thank you Grace!

 

Eve Lorgen & Lauda Leon on Marc Gray’s DTV Dimensions TV

Lauda Leon and myself were interviewed at the start of the new year (2018) by Marc Gray on DTV Dimensions TV on the topic of the New Predator. This topic has been previously discussed on other youtube interviews with Lauda Leon, myself and also in the article on this website here:

http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-new-predator-2/

I want to add a few bullet points which were discussed on this recent show with Marc Gray, and follow this with a poignant description of the New Predator dynamic written by Lauda Leon. Marc also supplies a synopsis of themes we talked about on the show and the link to the Youtube channel of our show.

Description of the New Predator Bullet Points:

  • How it is similar and distinct from a simple “Dark Side of Cupid” and/or an alien love bite “engineered” relationship
  • How they operate on spiritual and interpersonal levels
  • Why they can mimic the “feel” of being your soul mate or Twin Flame
  • How they hack into your interdimensional memories of past lives and core wounds to work their sorcery
  • The mirroring projection system of behaviors
  • Soul and Spirit cannibalism and harvesting
  • How New Predators and “engineered Predator Hosts” are used to link in with creative original spirited persons, so they can hijack, steal and use their creative energy
  • The Counterfeit Spirit, as understood in the Gnostic scriptures, and how this manifests today
  • The three types of human souls as described by ancient Gnostics and why the majority rule is largely a result of the counterfeit spirit and corrupted hijacked systems run by the Demiurge and Archontic programs
  • Social Media platforms as hijacked reality systems to normalize the counterfeit spirit
  • Micro and Macro forms of the New Predator dynamics
  • How the New Predator is linked in with a more lethal “AI beast” system used to infect and steal life essence

Lauda Leon’s Original Description of the New Predator:

The New Predator – is not just relegated to relationships; it is being witnessed throughout deeper levels of spirituality where numbers are drawn in and literally a technology is being utilized to attach itself to the Predator, whom in turn is attached to a very large ‘feeding center or Principality’. So what we see is that this ‘take over and theft of the person’s identity and soul’ is being played out by the hosting predator leaving the victim without their original Creation/creativity, morals, feelings, passions beliefs and in it’s place an empty shell that is no longer usable because the theft has been completed.

Many whom are seeking deeper levels of their own Light are being coraled into specific ‘light truth movements’ so that they can be ‘stolen’. Once inside they live out their spiritual enlightenment through the ‘group’ but in truth a theft of identity and essence is occurring so it’s not just relegated to personal intimate relationship dynamics, but is a spiritual mirror reflection projection with the ‘predator’. The New Predator has been literally downloaded with the AI version of Spirituality and Gnossis along with many secrets of the Demiurge and Archons and that is what attracts the victim………..they see only the mirror aspect of their own Spirituality which they are duped into believing is the Spiritual connection to TRUTH and it’s discovery with the predator.

It is essential that the victim disengage in order to fight for their essence back because the theft can continue to take place even after disengaging if the connection was deep enough.

The previous version centered around Love and were written about in many ancients texts, ancient Greece is filled with stories of love bites but this is not the same because the new predators are not humans that have been hijacked and utilized in the sense of the splitting and interdimensional manipulations, but rather this has been a birth portal project that has taken generations to perfect so that the predators are not ‘human’ per se but act as portals that in essence are themselves the technology by which they hoover and steal essence for the parent Hosts parasites.  The dynamic involves mirroring back to you your life as the theft is taking place as well as an addiction to that which is destroying you and cannibalizing you.

This is attached to archetypes of all the victims summation of lives and experiences and draws upon every core terror experienced while making them completely dependent on the predator for Life as a result of being essentially eaten alive and stolen. This goes beyond Stockholm syndrome because what happens is that there is no real ‘positive’ seduction once the attachment has been completed but instead it’s a continuous theft and mirroring back of the theft. It’s a mirror of playback abuse as per the person’s core wounds only and a series of injections to keep the victim imprisoned as they feel their ‘essence’ leaving them…they cling to that which is removing it because it’s the closest to ‘their essence’ they can get to as the theft is taking place.

This is a type of malignant psychopathy more than it is about any kind of Love per se. In fact it’s all punishment based and psychological terror based.

Well, that is only one tiny aspect of a far deeper infiltration-as they were refining the units with each succeeding generation that were being born through female portals (women who acted as womb portals for the projects of these un-souled biological creatures whom in their own vast emptiness have been given a horrendous appetite to fill a black anti-creation void through true Life Essence of those that have Fire Spirits).

What we have witnessed prior to this level of technology that we have was using fallen angelics but the new predator is a different beast altogether.

Marc Gray’s Show:

Eve Lorgen & Lauda Leon are my guests
in this 3rd Show on DTV Dimensions TV
The Takeover of the New Predator : The Ultimate Pandemic !
A new level of Predation far beyond what we already know, the Counterfeit and hijacking of our true Essence as Spirit beings!

Thursday February 8,  2018
At 12:30PM Pacific / 3:30PM Eastern US / 8:30PM GMT UK / 9:30PM Paris on DTV

We’ll talk about:
The New Predator, a much more advanced lethal Spiritual Predation process. Viral infection refining in Spiritual movements & one-to-one love relationships and connections, spirit & heart predation, malignant psychopathy. The New Predator has qualities of a classic « Dark Side of Cupid alien love bite » situation, but carries more of a “fallen angel” supernatural twist to it. The specific Targeting of the more pure highly spirited original creative types, the counterfeit mimickery & hijacking of our true divine essence especially in Truth movements ! The keys to identifying our original essence amidst the copycats’ corruption & perversion of our consciousness.
Eve Lorgen
Eve Lorgen is a dedicated counseling professional, UFO/alien abduction researcher, Anusara yogi and writer. She began her pioneering work with alien abductees while earning her Masters Degree in Counseling Psychology in 1992. She also holds a BS in Biochemistry and worked in the Biotechnology industry for 7 years. Eve started a support group in 1994 in San Diego County, CA for experiencers of anomalous trauma and continues to consult with anomalous trauma clients worldwide today while living in Western North Carolina. She was a close associate of the late Barbara Bartholic and is dedicated in continuing and expanding the work of the late Dr. Karla Turner.
Her Website : http://evelorgen.com/

Lauda Leon
Lauda Leon is a life long survivor of anomalous trauma including E.T. abduction contact, MILAB experiences and paranormal phenomena. She has natural psychic abilities and deep comprehensive knowledge of quantum reality mechanics as a result of her experiences. Lauda has ?academic studies is anthropology, archeology, environmental politics, forensic psychology and mental health with additional studies and practice in energy work, Consegrity and Aboriginal Dreamtime Healing. She is a facilitator of quantum healing, energy reader and a practitioner of Holographic Kinetics.
Her website is https://www.sovereignki.com/
Visit Lauda’s Youtube Channel

The New Predator

The New Predator*(see below note on the origin of this term) topic has been long awaited and is something that needs to be disclosed because of its extreme lethality, toxicity and spiritual danger. In some respects, the New Predator has qualities of a classic Dark Side of Cupid, “alien love bite” dynamic, but presents with more “fallen angel” characteristics, as we shall see in two testimonials presented in this article.

In the the Dark Side of Cupid  book (See: https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Side-Cupid-Supernatural-Vampirism-ebook/dp/B008QPZ79U) there were some case histories in Category 4 and in the  “Diabolical Variations of the Love Bite Theme”, which touched upon some of these features. Also, the testimonial written on my web site entitled: “Spiritual Community Targeted by Demons Masquerading as ET Walk-Ins“. See:

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/spiritual-warfare-and-the-human-soul/spiritual-community-targeted-by-demons-masquerading-as-et-walk-ins/ reveals how this can take place, with very misguided individuals, (aka–Mr. X) who are really demonically possessed victims, acting under occult Satanic programming within military, secret-government, mind control programs. (Not all victims of such programs carry out their occult programming, however.)

The New Predator presents with several identifying “red flag” behaviours carrying the classic supernatural twist, reminiscent of what was cast in the evil character, Kylo Ren in the recent “Star Wars–The Last Jedi” film. (http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Kylo_Ren) Kylo Ren, the nephew of Luke Skywalker,  is a Jedi bloodline warrior, who went to the dark side. The manipulating, “alien behind the scenes” was the butt ugly, slimy, tall, thin Ayra- looking alien, Supreme Leader Snoke. When I saw the movie, I was overwhelmed with how accurate and synchronistic some of these Dark Cupid, alien love bite dynamics played out.

I want to emphasize that the New Predator love bite reports are increasing in their numbers and lethality, as more and more victims are coming forward. They are not limited to male “predators” by any means, and include some female predators as well. These reports are not as numerous, but do happen. Because this is such a dangerous form of predation upon the human Spirit, it needs to be discussed on radio shows and webinars, and will elaborated upon in more detail with Laura Leon and myself in the near future. Solutions are in progress and will also be discussed in future publishings.

Laura Leon* originally came out with the New Predator term two years ago, and we even did a radio show podcast on this topic over a year ago. Unfortunately that particular show was removed off the internet. Laura Leon has appeared on many radio interviews as well as her own You Tube channel and I encourage others to view them when they have time to follow up on these taboo and fascinating topics.(See: sovereignki.com) Remember, the whole system in this reality has been inverted, corrupted and mind-soul programmed to veil our original spiritual truth, memory and essence. As the ancient Gnostics testified, and I paraphrase,  “When you come to know the truth, at first you will become disturbed.” Indeed.

Without further ado, here are the two testimonials, each from women involved with a New Predator, where they did believe at some point in their experience, that they met their “Twin Flame” soul mate. Nothing could be further from the truth.

 

Testimonial # 1 – From a North American woman

Hi Eve,

Here is a more in depth explanation of my experience with P. 

I was living on the [EL: non specified for confidentiality sake] island and immersed in one of the most powerful feminine awakening journey’s of my life thus far in a facilitated journey known as Womb Wisdom. This was the beginning of my awakening to the world of hyper-dimensional realities, spirit influence, ancient feminine mysteries and my initiation into the (false) Christ Lineage teachings. My teachers were all women but the main man and masculine pillar who brought forth this work was named P.

I revered him as a man with great power, wisdom and love. When I met P for the first time, we hugged and my entire body activated with energy and it felt like my body was melting into him. He held me as I cried for hours releasing pain and trauma from my body all while pulling me in closer to him. It felt like I was home in his presence. He was then later invited over to the retreat space I was staying at by the owner–who just so happened to be friends with him. Later that evening, P shared with me that we were lovers in Egypt and as he touched my leg, energy shot through my entire body and I felt the truth of this karmic resonance flow through me. He brought me to my room to share a story with me. As he spoke of the Ancient temple in Egypt and the massacre of the Priestess’s, he weaved his words in a way that made me become convinced that I had something to do with the betrayal of him and the murder of the priestess’s. He claimed he was the Priest and I remember crying my eyes out looking into his eyes, seeing his face change into the man I once knew. He kept asking me who he was, telling me he was my Beloved. I gave him my will and became convinced he truly was my Beloved and that we had found each other again, after all those lifetimes. I was shaken at the core and so entranced that this man with such great power and depth was coming onto me. I was bewildered, startled and completely placed under his spell.

He then kissed me and quickly moved himself on top of me. It was the most passionate, intense experience I have ever shared with a man. The way he placed himself onto me was overwhelming and I could feel pain shooting inside my mouth as he kissed me with intense vigour. I was so surrendered and even though it hurt, I didn’t have enough within me to tell him to stop. I was powerless and weak underneath him and a part of me had always wanted to experience a man with this much passion and desire and so I didn’t resist. I surrendered and moved with him as my body began to open in ways I never felt before, I began experiencing profound tantric bliss like never before. The next morning I woke up with swollen lips and a gut feeling that something was not right. I tried to understand what was happening, but I couldn’t. After that encounter we were constantly pulled to each other. I was entranced and wanted to explore what was unfolding. He told me I was his “soul mate” and spoke of having premonitions of going to my home country as he felt my soul calling to him. He kept sharing stories from Egypt weaving archetypal energies into my experience and tying me into a mythical storyline of truth weaved in with inflation and deceit.

We experienced the most amazing highs, blissful and ecstatic connection from the very beginning. Then crashing lows that would tear me apart and leave me feeling completely physically and emotionally drained. Many nights I was literally on the floor in shambles, crying my eyes out as his abusive and minimizing words attacked me. As I received this harsh energy I believed it was helping me evolve. I believed this pain was breaking my heart open to the truth of myself. I believed that the hurtful things he was saying about me were true because he was a highly evolved being who had vast precision, awareness and great consciousness that saw through everything. His manipulations had me inverted and emotionally controlled to feel that I continuously needed him. Even though he was abusive, I could not leave him. I was veiled. I could not see how his light was false. I thought it was the Guru’s way. I thought I deserved this. I felt that without him I would not be able to live. I allowed myself to be robbed of my voice and my personal power. I trusted him completely and put my heart fully out on the table to continuously, have it smashed by patterns of destruction. Something felt off within me, but I believed I had to be humble and take it all in without talking back or standing up against him, as he was serving my soul and had my greatest interest in mind.

Over time, we became even closer. The psychic connection grew incredibly strong. I felt like he was watching me when I was alone. I felt that he could hear my thoughts. I remember one night I woke up in terror as I felt this dark and heavy energy over me. When I became conscious, I realized it wasn’t human. Moments later he showed up at my door saying he could feel me. He was so tuned into me. Sometimes I felt I had no privacy in my own space. When I was pulling away, he would show up saying all the right things to bring me back into his life. I was also very connected to him and experienced feeling what he was feeling. I could especially feel him desiring me sexually and would know when he would want to make love, as I could feel his presence pulling on my body to be with him. It felt that my sexual energy was literally being siphoned at times.

As time went on the abusive patterns kept increasing and the extreme highs and lows intensified. I became more and more drained as I was continuously rejected and then pulled back into this “love bite” agenda. It was like I was being emotionally whiplashed. He would push me away and then would show affection again opening himself up sexually. I was so cast under a spell and because of my own vulnerabilities and wounds I could not get away. I felt such deep love with him and was so addicted to his charm and alluring, strong presence and also had a deep yearning to make love with him as it was like nothing I had experienced before. My entire body was being awakened and I felt my chakra’s and sexual centers opening in the most profound ways. I was so deeply influenced believing that our relationship was one of the greatest blessings of my life. I believed that all his harshness and anger was the tough love I needed to help me evolve. That these highs and lows were a normal part of being with a man like this.

When we would come back together after the many intense separations, it was the most passionate, deeply blissful, ecstatic love I have ever experienced and he would share with me how much I meant to him and how I was the most beautiful woman he has ever been with and how I am his soul mate and that he would take care of me and be in my life forever. My heart was so open to him and so trusting that I believed him. I trusted that somewhere within him, he must truly love and care for me. Yet, every time we separated or spiraled into a drama, it was so intense and it felt like all his words would go shooting down the drain holding no meaning at all. I would dive into the darkest places. At times it felt like I wanted to die. I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed. I had no energy at all. It felt that without him I was hopeless, meaningless. My life had no substance and I felt completely paralyzed. No matter where we stood, his presence would always consume me and I could not let him go. Even though his words would cut me down, making me feel like I was nothing, portraying me to be a small, stupid and worthless girl compared to the “powerful, intelligent, and evolved Christed being” he was, time and time again I would keep opening myself to him.

It was like I was possessed. I couldn’t see clearly. My solar plexus would tighten and I could not be without him. I would do anything to win him back after he would treat me this way. My solar plexus was in so much pain feeling like it was being tied into a tight knot and pierced with a flaming red needle time and time again. I would think of him and cry so deeply it felt my heart was turned inside out and then he would call me saying he felt me and would somehow make me feel like everything was okay again. He would apologize, or hear my apology and I would feel safe again, and I was right back in, opening my heart again. It felt like I was literally walking on egg shells with him. I had to watch my every move because I did not want to trigger or upset him in any way. I got incredibly used to always feeling pain in my chest, not having any security in my life, but somehow continuously trusting that I was in good hands. I worked myself to complete exhaustion doing all the practices and rituals he asked me to do. It felt that I had to do everything under his watch and approval and that if I didn’t he would reject me. He would prescribe me practices that made me believe he really cared for me but now I wonder if it was just a way to fulfill his own needs and story. I worked 4 jobs at once to save money to travel across the world in a very short period of time to be with him, only to be sent back home in despair and heavy guilt and shame feeling it was “all my fault” and would completely gaslight me time and time again. I picked up and completely moved my life twice to fly across the world to be with him, only to last 2 weeks in his presence before another intense drama would play out.

It allowed myself to become the puppet on his string. I put him before everything in my life. I alienated myself from my family and my friends to be with him, I quit my business and jobs and put my finances in extreme jeopardy to be with him, only to arrive and be manipulated by his aggression and abused by his unpleased behaviour, as I was never “enough” for him. I even remember him saying that the only thing I was good at was making love. His mannerisms were completely incongruent with his message and desire to support woman. It was months of this back and forth abuse until some of the women in the work began to catch onto his harshness and behaviour. After my trip to ********* to be with him, I felt completely paralyzed and frozen from the trauma I experienced. I spoke with (*****) and then herself and another woman came out in public about his narcissistic tendencies, psychopathic behaviour and false light cult constructs. Later that day I received messages written from multiple women who had experienced things with P that were out of alignment. He had been visiting other women in their dreams touching them sexually, sharing how he had past connections with them in Egypt. He created situations that tore people apart, casting spells with his words.

He stole other woman’s work, taking their teachings and using his intelligence to expand and twist them for his own agenda. (EL–This “copycat” plagerizing behaviour is common for these predators) The spirits moving through him were feeding off of and manipulating a list of powerful woman across the globe. After becoming aware of this, I completely left my body. It was like I was high on Ayahuasca. I was hallucinating and was experiencing strange body perceptions. I understand now that I was so traumatized from what I had been through, that I left my body completely. Everything was swirling around me and I didn’t know what to do other than ground into Gaia. I began cutting chords and focusing on really separating from him for good. I became very sick and my energy was very weak. I was beginning to understand the severity of the spirit influence and how entangled I was with him. As I began to disconnect he began messaging me telling me how he could feel me sexually and that he was receiving pictures of me in his mind.

I did not respond to him, but then shortly after, I was strung in and felt called to share how I was truly feeling in hopes to bring this all to an end. He received me and apologized for his behavior, taking ownership of the spirits moving through him that caused him to minimize me and treat me like I was dirt and nothing to him. It felt like it was a real breakthrough and that he was finally owning himself and his darkness. He humbled himself and shared with me that I was his teacher of love and said all the right things to win me back again. (Now, I understand that it was just his – or the being moving behind him-’s way of making sure I did not add to the fire these women were bringing forth, because if I had then, surely his veils would have come undone and the spirits moving behind him would have lost even more power). Instead, being my love-drunk, addicted and forgiving self, I opened my heart back to him again. This time I could tangibly feel the spirit influence moving us together, I heard in my head, “You must go back with him to help him” as simultaneously my sexual energy was being turned on by a force outside of myself that was not natural. It was like my sexual energy was hijacked, but I was aroused by the rush of energy that I agreed to see him again to work on healing together.

He came to visit me in my home town and within no time he slipped right back into his patterns of verbal and emotional abuse. He blamed me for being the one who provoked the women to turn on him. He belittled me again telling me it was my fault and that if I hadn’t spoken to them about my experiences in the other country, none of that would have happened. He reverted back to shaming and guilting me and playing the role of the “beautiful victim celestial boy” who was hurt and was justified due to his distorted thinking and blaming. He denied that any abuse occurred and reverted back to claiming that if it wasn’t for what I did, he would not have gotten mad at all. He could not take ownership for the ways he was really abusing me and psychically feeding off these other women. I became the “Judas” and the one who betrayed him and another huge drama played out. He had a way that was so good with words that I believed his words to be true and I was immediately draped with an immensity of guilt and my solar plexus and heart were taken through another stabbing, tight sensation episode of great pain. These narcissistic ploys sucked more and more emotional loosh from me and it felt like I was slowly killing myself.

When he left my space after we separated for the final time, it was then that we became aware of the “Love Bite” dynamic in our relationship. We both read Bernard’s Blog post about Eve Lorgen’s work and knew right away that this is what was playing out between us. Immediately he told me I had to heal this within me, implying I was the only one who carried this host or entity. I began detaching myself and was still experiencing deep pulls on my solar plexus but it wasn’t as intense. As soon as I received the awareness, it was like a massive chord was cut, and I could feel myself coming back into my own energy. I took space from my teachers and the work and began my healing journey and research into this phenomena. Months later my teacher reached out inviting me back into the work. As soon as I was in contact with her, I had a dream where I was in a room by myself and P’s voice was in my head speaking to me and the “entity of force” I had felt before was trying to make love to my body. I was trying to escape, but this energetic spirit kept touching me and caressing my body. I woke up instantly knowing that this was just another sign of the energies moving through him and that I had to cut myself from the teachers connected to him and this work.

P uses a facade of being involved in the Christ Counsel. Nothing could be further from the truth. He made me believe I was the center of his world and then after becoming triggered, would tell me I am nothing and that I don’t deserve him. To this day I still feel I am being watched as I unplug myself from the programming and the cluster of spirits moving behind him that weaved into my life. My solar plexus still feels pulled on and my nervous system is still rebuilding itself. P is overshadowed by a demonic psychic vampire and I wish that no one goes through what I experienced again. I hope that sharing this helps warn others.

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Testimonial #2

An Eastern European Woman:

I want to share my experience with you if I may? I am looking forward to any input, if you want. If not, I’m sorry for bothering you really.

I have met a man and we connected instantly. I realize now that at the time, I was a stupid newbie to spirituality and naive. He helped me to solve all my troubles.

He hypnotized me in the woods and I was in a trance state with him, feeling orgasmic just by looking at him. I do not know how to call him, pagan, (black) magician, shaman or charlatan– but he looked like a demon, or some alien, and both of us started acting crazy, feeling amazing dark, sexual energies of some entity. I froze from fear and cried and begged him to let me go because I thought he’d kill me. It felt like I had sex with some entity, not with the man, because it wasn’t physical sex. It felt like bones in my body are twitching and I was doing really creepy, almost levitating positions spontaneously, that would be painful to do without trance. After that we felt like we were weightless.

When I was in a trance he took me on an astral journey or projection just by putting his hand on my belly button. Or maybe it was kundalini, and I saw Earth, as a huge astral body (50 times larger than earth, I thought it was God, lol), universe, rainbow (was that was my astral chord?), and some beautiful place on some planet that felt like heaven and I felt oneness. Or was it all just in my soul memory, my home? He has been evoking visions of occult symbols in me too. We had a telepathic connection. It felt like I was enlightened. No drugs were involved in all this, at all, I swear. I don’t have mental illness in case you wonder.

Physical sex was amazing. He works with meridians points. He put his hand on my head and deleted my thoughts and went into my mind and all I saw was bright light and I was drunk on that energy. He has many lovers and wants orgies too and I was up for it. He says he has sex with people to liberate them. But he blew me off. He said we can’t continue until my consciousness rises or else I will fall apart.

He showed me mind-blowing things and suddenly disappeared. Though he promised me he would teach me everything and called me his student. He recommended to me some occult books, as he initiated me into it. I was glamorized by it but felt just used for sex. I have never experienced any of it before. I didn’t even know about any of this. He talked about our past lives and how we are soulmates. I thought he was my twin flame or guru. There were so many signs and synchonicities.

He left me with no explanation of anything. I’ve been possessed with some entity (or was it his energetic hooks?). I can channel some stupid threats in Latin that I don’t even know how to speak, but I translate it later online. I feel very depressed and heavy if I try to repress it, but if I express it in the hope it’ll go out from me, it doesn’t solve a problem neither. I even tried doing exorcism on me, but that didn’t work either.

In our last encounter (I begged to see him) I told him I love him and he told me it is all my fault because I expected us to be a couple and I need to solve it on my own, or I should kill myself. He was very mean to me before too, he basically raped me mentally and I won’t go into nasty details and really dark parts of story. And I can’t believe I actually wanted to help him.

Anyway, he suddenly discarded me by cutting all physical contact and kept contact only online until I stopped it. I’ve never wanted to play games. He rarely contacts me, but I ignore it. I have no idea what he wants from me? I live in a quite big city and sometimes I see him somewhere every few months. Weird coincidence or not? He just stares at me and then and sends me negative energy. Not to sound paranoid, but I hope he’s not stalking me. I even avoid going to places where I saw him before so he’s out of my sight. So I don’t know— how does this keep happening.

I don’t know what kind of energy work has he done to me and how did it all happen? He last texted me that this is how I see it: it’s all an illusion and we’ll see each other when needed, when I’ll be ready, and how nothing is over. And that he is with me all the time, but not physically. I ignored him by all means, from then on.

I don’t know how to fully stop telepathy with him. I don’t want to have dreams about him, but even in lucid dreams he gets in somehow or takes different form. He puts his belly button on my belly and sucks my soul out and I find it very hard to wake up. Telling him to stop it, doesn’t help. I even see his future in my dreams and it turns out to be completely true. I get attacked by demons in the astral. I don’t know—is it him too? He also projected in my bedroom with his friends—witches. He or some entity pulled my soul into the astral against my will. He or his evil spirits can change energetic blueprint around me and shape-shift things and play with electromagnetic fields so I really see my reality changing. Sometimes I’m so tired of it and it feels like I’m going crazy. Is this supposed to impress me or scare me? Not working. It’s stupid. I’m not paying attention to it, but I still see it.

I think he has schizophrenia and a narcissistic personality disorder and thinks he’s a god. He has a harem of woman and does what he did to me to many women. Though he told me I’m the first one he got to do so much with, and I’m the closest to what he wants in a woman because I’m open (I think he meant my aura is open). Since I don’t want anything to do with him anymore, he’s mad at me and maybe obsessed because he failed in whatever he wanted. He talks bad about me to other people and tells lies. Whatever.

At this point, I’ve worked with many healers. Some saying that he is draining me, that I’m in severe pain, and some say that I have someone’s soul stuck inside me, or that he took fragments of me for himself. They tried to help, but it never worked in the long-term.
I cut chords many times and cleaned chakras but I still don’t feel he is fully out of my system. I built many types of shields. I went meditating in nature and surrounded myself with wonderful people. I don’t masturbate on thoughts of him. I deleted and blocked all his contacts. I pray to god and angels. I’m indifferent about him and I let go. I burned in fire the things connected to him and I cut my hair off to symbolically start fresh. What more can I do? I want to be free 100%, but it doesn’t work. I’m ok for few weeks and everything comes back again. Why? It’s the same if I do a lot and try to help and fight back, and it’s the same if I just live and do nothing.
What exactly did he use me for and how likely is it that he will give up on me forever? Or is it me, is it all just in my head? If I accept this, I’ll be suffering like this forever. It’s still the same, it doesn’t go away. I work on my inner child wounds and traumas. I got into this mess with him in the hopes that I’ll learn how to heal others with energy and I got tricked by false light. I’ve forgiven him and myself, I love another man now and I’m in a healthy relationship. I want no harm to anyone.

I normally worry about other people he’s abusing with his messiah complex but I can’t do anything about it to stop it. I just live my life good like I normally do as if I’ve never met him, honest and decent I hope, trying to be happy and kind to people. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t eat meat but I’m not a saint. I’m a normal person, but my inner life looks like what I’ve described, not peaceful. I know there are worse things in life than this, I may sound ungrateful, but it is what it is.

EL-In response to correspondence about the difficulty of receiving any kind of help or understanding in the “world of normals” who don’t have a clue of what is really going on:

I know what you mean. About acadamia and “normal world” institutions. My guess is that such people are just not aware, they haven’t woken up yet. So if they are in a place of high authority, such as in academia, mental hospitals, or any other system, it’s very hard to be heard and be taken seriously, practically impossible, if your position is “below” them. They are the ones that lead. I’m sure that some of them are intelligent enough to know more, but they are afraid about their reputation (such as my mentor). So it is very hard to get across these barriers, especially in countries such as mine unfortunately, where everything revolves around politics, and selfish interests and we’re far beyond that.

I forgot to say something important when you asked how he chooses his victims. He operates online mostly and he has many accounts on many different sites, such as forums about psychology, medicine, video games, spirituality groups on facebook, dating sites, and so on. He then contacts people who seem to have some sort of trouble, or manipulates them into contacting him, and he offers them free help and the rest is history, as you know.

When I found out he does this on a web-page made for teenagers, I wanted to report him to the police, but I don’t have any evidence that he is having sex with minors. He’s not violating the law by being on that site. (EL Note: with the New Predators the “pedophile programming often is part of their game at some point)

He also plays a guitar on a street and preys on people who are into music. Then he starts his brain-washing program on them. He has some band and they play music all over the country so he meets new people that way too. You know how some sensitive girls are into musicians.

(He gets into all sort of projects for a good cause. It’s scary.

He talked to me about wanting to volunteer with kids in some art classes, as he has a Masters degree in Arts. So, basically, sadly, you get the picture: he is practically everywhere. But he is such an actor that people have no idea who he really is and they are either being tricked, or they stepped on the dark side to work for him.

Another form of predation he uses to entrap people is for example, he takes home abandoned cats on the streets, takes pictures of them and puts them online, so people call him to adopt kittens. It’s sick how there are countless ways he uses to get close to people and to appear as a nice person.

So, yes, of course, I would be thrilled if my experience could save or help at least one unfortunate soul somewhere. Please, go ahead and use it. And thank you.

*After a few months she sent me this email about her newfound protection in Jesus Christ:

“The only thing that worked against evil spirits is quitting everything that is connected to new age or occult (meditations, visualizations, channelling, readings, lucid dreaming, astral projections, reading books about aliens, pseudo-science, psychology, hypnotherapy that embrace elements of new age). I got rid of all such books and things with symbolism in my home. I completely and honestly surrendered my life to Christ, repented for my sins, invited him in my heart, and he restored me through Holy spirit. It helped immediately! I’ve read the Bible and it gave me answers to all questions I’ve had. This simple and free solution helped many and I wish I had found it out sooner. I recommend checking ex new ager Steven Bancarz who explains this in depth, and other Christian testimonies. I understand not everyone agrees with this, and no one is to be judged, but those who truly search God will be set free by this, and will get a new heart. I hope this helps someone.”

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Stay tuned for upcoming Radio Shows and interviews.

Eve Lorgen on The Cosmic Switchboard with James Bartley

I did a two part radio show with James Bartley in early January for the Cosmic Switchboard Radio Show.

We had quite a discussion on many topics, but the main focus was on the New Predator epidemic. Other topics included our former research in San Diego and the desert southwest with milabs and alien abductions. I brought up all kinds of issues including heavy metal poisoning, black goo, AI entrainment, linguistic programming and reversals.  I brought up Taoist health perspectives as well as Gnostic ideas on spirituality.

Here are the links to the show on the Cosmic Switchboard and on Youtube.

(Part Two is only available via Members section on Cosmic Switchboard.)

https://www.thecosmicswitchboard.com/2018/01/08/eve-lorgen-interview-2/
Youtube link part one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=2&v=NBvbYSlkURI

New Radio Show on FreemanTV on “The New Predator” topic and much more.

This is a link to our New Years Radio Interview on The New Predator:

Laura Leon and Eve Lorgen with Freeman Fly of FreemanTV.

http://freemantv.com/the-new-predator-lauda-leon-evie-lorgen/

We discuss the full spectrum and dynamics of The New Predator topic, and how it is manifesting in our reality at this time in history. Stay tuned for more shows and please review the article post on The New Predator on this web site at:

The New Predator

Radio Show for September on BBS Radio–Meta Mondays

Eve Lorgen is interviewed by Adena Bannick Part 1 and 2
This is a good two-part radio interview. We talked about the origin of the “alien love bite”, what it is, symptoms and how it differs from the Dark Side of Cupid. We talked about the history of how the alien love bite syndrome was recognized within the alien abduction research histories. The work of the late Dr. Karla Turner and Barbara Bartholic are noted for their front line introduction to this aspect of the “alien encounter” experience.
The Dark Side of Cupid has many similarities, but many do not realize its connections with hyperdimensional interference patterns. We had quite a discussion, and included how the milab and supersoldier reports tie into the love bite, and how love relationship “set-ups” relate to some of the “handling” aspects that are used to keep mk ultra people under “programming”. I was able to clearly define this and help dileneate why and how the typical Ufology theories and popular views of ET Encounters, Alien Abductions and “ET Visitation” theories often overlook these fundamental and extremely important aspects of obvious interdimensional handling, manipulation and mind control. Essentially, the spin-controlled, redundant and outdated Ufological pespectives, including the overly positivist ET contactee type narratives are barking up the wrong tree.

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Radio and Video Interviews for July 2017

I have several interviews this month, one just completed July 5, 2017 with Denny Hunt of “Why is This True?”.

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HggKYPdzLsQ&feature=youtu.be

Denny Hunt Website:  http://www.whyisthistrue.com

This is a good overview point of view discussion about the relevant aspects of Anomalous Trauma research over the years and where I’m going with this work, priorities in the healing  integration modalities, organic spiritual connection focus. Barbara Bartholic, Karla Turner‘s work and how it still demonstrates and opposes the same themes and current trends still playing out in the ET contact, whistleblower and Alternative media circles.

My emphasis on how important identification of mind control, the counterfeit spirit, AI programs and trauma resolution is, in order to discern truth and initiate sovereignty. Discriminating wisdom is necessary to break the spell of being blinded by the mind control narratives as well as the spellbinding, “Love and Light” New Age traps often experienced within the Alien Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid, Hyperdimensional Interference patterns.

My next Video interview in July will be with Patricia Farrington of Interstellar Cosmic Conversations, on Wednesday July 12, 2017.

Web Site of Patricia Farrington: https://innerstellarcosmicconversations.com/

July 12, 2017 . See Schedule page: https://innerstellarcosmicconversations.com/july-2017.html

Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiDjvW2wTJI

We will discuss topics in my Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid book, questions related to Anomalous Trauma, and this may develop into a series with question and answers from listeners on updated areas of research, therapies for those experiencing all levels of hyperdimensional interference, especially within the realm of relationship dynamics.

The next video interview will be Thursday July 13, 2017 with Marc Gray of Project Camelot TV. Marc and I have done an earlier interview, (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZuVzxP3w4Y)

but there was so much interference and entire segments of missing speech portions, that I suggested another interview with Marc, myself and my colleague Laura Leon of sovereignki.com. In this upcoming video interview we aim to discuss parameters of our anomalous trauma experiences, research, as well as  clinical therapeutic work. Laura may discuss her own experiences and how they related to what is to come and how to prepare.

Stay tuned for the youtube link for this new interview.

A recent video of Laura and George Leon on youtube  can be viewed at:

Lauda Leon: Planet X and the A.I Mind Interface Grid system

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVkosDTmB1Q&feature=em-subs_digest
Published on Jul 3, 2017

 

Eve Lorgen on End of Days Radio with Daniel

Eve Lorgen will be a guest on the End of Days Radio Show with Daniel on Thursday June 22, 2017 at 11 am PST, 2 pm Eastern time zone.

Youtube Link of The Show: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-MWcBevZJo&feature=youtu.be

For more information on Daniel’s show, and how to tune in to listen see:

http://endofdaysradio.com

Listen live every Saturday night at 8:30 pm pst here or search “EODR” on your Tune In Radio App.

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Archontic Copy-Cats and Parasite Programs

What are Archons, and why do they “copy”?

A general overview of Archons and their nature can be found in many of the Nag Hammadi Library Gnostic codexes. (See: http://gnosis.org/naghamm/nhlcodex.html)

A summary of the various meanings and connotations of Archons can be viewed in the Gnostic Glossary by L. Carauana—See: http://www.gnosticq.com/az.text/glos.af.html#Anchor-ARCHONS-21683

 In short: “- ARCHONS
– The rulers of the Lower Aeons
– Also called rulers, governors, authorities, guards, gate keepers, robbers, toll collectors, detainers, judges, pitiless ones, adulterers, man-eaters, corpse-eaters, fishermen
1. ARCHONS – IN GENERAL
– Yaltabaoth is the Chief Archon and created all the others. See YALTABAOTH.
– According to the Apocryphon of John, there are twelve Archons and their aeons, comprising the Lower Aeons
– Seven heavenly Archons are associated with the seven planetary heavens.
– Five Archons ‘of the Abyss’ are associated with the five sublunary realms created by earth, water, air and fire intermixed in the ether.

…and …

7. ARCHONS – ALTERNATE NAMES
– The Archons as toll collectors: “…three of them will seize you – they who sit (there) as toll collectors…” (Jesus to James, First Apocalypse of James) “The toll-collector who dwells in the fourth heaven replied, saying…” (Apocalypse of Paul)
– As judges: James prays as he dies: “Do not give me into the hand of a judge who is severe with sin!” (First Apocalypse of James)
– As governors and administrators: “The governors and the administrators possess garments granted only for a time, which do not last.” (Dialogue of the Saviour)
– As robbers: “This is the tomb of the newly-formed body with which the robbers had clothed the man, the bond of forgetfulness; and he became a mortal man.” (Apocalypse of John)
– As pitiless ones: “I have broken the gates of the pitiless ones” (Sophia of Jesus Christ); “the secure gates of those pitiless ones I broke” (Trimorphic Protonoia)
– as adulterers: “she (the soul) had given herself to wanton, unfaithful adulterers” (Exegesis on the Soul)
– As man-eaters and fishermen: “For man-eaters will seize us and swallow us, rejoicing like a fisherman casting a hook into the water.” (Authoritative Teaching)
– In the sense of man-eaters, the Archons are also corpse-eaters. They eat the dead (the non-Elect) while the angels of the Upper Aeons, as truth, eat the living (the Elect) as they ascend: “This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die…” (Gospel of Philip)
– Archons have souls, but no spirit: “they (the Archons) could not lay hold of that image, which had appeared to them in the waters, because of their weakness – since beings that merely possess a soul cannot lay hold of those that possess a spirit” (Hypostasis of the Archons)
– Since they have no fullness, they are deficient. Though they exist at present, they will return to their state of non-existence: “their end will be like their beginning: from that which did not exist (they are) to return once again to that which will not be.” (Tripartite Tractate)
• They are likenesses, copies, imitations, shadows, phantasms and distorted reflections of the Upper Aeons: “(The Archons) are their (the Pleromas’) likenesses, copies, shadows, and phantasms, lacking reason and the light (…). In the manner of a reflection are they beautiful. For the face of the copy normally takes its beauty from that of which it is a copy.” (Tripartite Tractate)

– (TO GO) ASTRAY
– Those who ‘go astray’ are caught in the traps and distractions of the Archons, and have not yet recognized the ‘gnosis’.
– If they later recognize the gnosis, they may still be saved (as Penitants)
– “…many go astray on the way.” (Gospel of Philip)
– “those on whom the counterfeit spirit descends are drawn by him and they go astray.” (Apocryphon of John)
– As the penitants: “And I said, ‘Lord, where will the souls of these go when they have come out of their flesh? (…) Those who have not known to whom they belong, where will their souls be?’ And he said to me, ‘In those, the despicable spirit has gained strength when they went astray. (…) After it comes out of (the body), it is handed over to the authorities (…), and they bind it with chains and cast it into prison, and consort with it until it is liberated from the forgetfulness and acquires knowledge. And if thus it becomes perfect, it is saved (…) It is not again cast into another flesh.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Those who go astray do not know the difference between perishable and imperishable: “Now a difference existed among the imperishable aeons. Let us, then, consider (it) this way: Everything that came from the perishable will perish, since it came from the perishable. Whatever came from imperishableness will not perish but will become imperishable, since it came from imperishableness. So, many men went astray because they had not known this difference; that is, they died.” (Eugnostos the Blessed)
– The flesh of ‘non-understanding’ leads us astray. Jesus: “I do not speak of the flesh in which you dwell, but the flesh of non-understanding which exists in ignorance, which leads astray many from the of my Father.” (First Book of Jeu)

***

The term copycat has been used in only relatively recent times, but may have originated with some of Shakespeare’s writings. (See: http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/explainer/2011/08/what_a_copycat.html

The Archons nature is filled with spiritual ignorance, and envy, and like Jesus said,(paraphrased) “They were liars and thieves from the beginning”. They aim to steal, copy, exploit, control, corrupt and harvest by leading astray those who have not remembered and acted upon their true spiritual origin, (gnosis). They are compelled to act like parasites, infecting, copying themselves within their hosts, until the hosts become corrupted, and “copied out” to run the archons programs for them, and reproduce their parasitic behaviors like embedded programs.

 

Imitators and Parasite Infected Trolls in Social Media

So how might this be playing out in today’s world, particularly with social media technologies in particular? How can we recognize how this takes place in everyday terms, lifestyles and psychology?

After being confronted with several cases of alien love bites and other archontic infected machinations through certain people, I was inspired to write this post on Facebook:

“My next article and web panel discussion will be on Archontic copy cat programs, and how mind controlled, entity infected people running these programs use others work to promote themselves and smear others reputation with their stupidity.”

It never ceases to amaze me at the effectiveness of mind control, conditioning programs and corrupted beliefs to completely hoodwink and lead people astray.  You see, the mind control doesn’t have to take the form of some overt MK-Ultra handled and trauma tortured person in a ritual abuse cult, in order for them to act out “programs” of the controllers, Archontic parasites,  reptilian entities, demons or whatever is working through them. On the contrary, sometimes those who have been more heavily handled and tortured, tend to be the ones that cannot be controlled more easily by the generic conditioning population control methods for the “average intelligence” and spiritually “lukewarm” people. This is something that alien abduction researchers such as Barbara Bartholic, myself, James Bartley and Karla Turner have noticed with many “alien abductees”. It was often those people who were specifically targeted with an extra dose of abuse, interference, programming and control to be kept in line with the Archontic control system over humanity. These persons were interfered with more heavily and used as lab rats to develop and streamline the best control systems by the shadow “breakaway” groups implementing these occult control systems on humanity. Most of these individuals—original abductees— remained relatively unknown for their real lives and “abilities”, while some who are “parasited” and running the alien or MK Ultra occult programming tended to be the big famous people. Or those who are high up in alphabet soup agencies, occult organizations, aerospace, academia and entertainment. It just works that way for the most part. The more heavy an influence a position will have, the more likely the person at the top is already controlled by these archontic parasite programs.

The media is chock full of these Archontic infected trolls and imitators whose sole function is to skew the true statistical presence of real discussion, opinions and truth that originals will make known. Some may refer to these trolls as “bots” which may not even be real people, but programs designed to react to specific topics, memes or discussions. I found it alarming that for having only a scarce 194 friends on Facebook, I had assigned to me nearly thirty Facebook security fake profiles and people who apparently stalk certain groups regularly without being real “friends” on Facebook. (I have since deleted my Facebook account) And when you effort to block them, Facebook security won’t let you! And if this tactic doesn’t work to discourage originals from writing and discussing apparently “subversively tagged” material, the Archontic infected imitators and parasites start posting material on the internet whose real purpose is to malign and taint the reputation of originals and truth telling folks.

I found this video on Youtube describing typical, reptilian targeting troll tactics. This is the description of the video:

“Published on Jan 6, 2017
Mirrored Original” The Dynamics Of Realm Piracy – Case Example 2Circles YT channel

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWhXX... The Solution

Only the strong finish the journey. What is most important to survive this adventure are:
-Willpower
-Physical strength
-Emotional control
-Spiritual perspective

Willpower

-Daily cold showers
-Meditation to cultivate the inner silence (Spirit ignition)
-Heavy weight lifting
-Fasting

Physical strength

This strengthens the pull of the soul on the body. Comes with a feeling of confidence and overall well being and makes it much more difficult for entities to weaken you psychologically/emotionally. Easy gymnastics won’t do it, you have to push your limits.

Emotional control

Having strong emotional self control is absolutely vital for remaining uninfluenced by forces that prey on our emotions. This is achieved by constant honest self-observation, correction and maturing.

And ALWAYS being aware that there ARE those that prey on our emotions. Knowing and accepting that is half the battle won. Knowing that you are about to be manipulated into a fight, prevents it right away. Knowing that you were manipulated into one, makes it easier to deal with it afterwards.

Spiritual perspective

You are not your body, not your name, not your life story. You are a soul that had hundreds of experiences like that. No one and nothing in this reality can do the REAL YOU any harm.
Always remember this when being challenged and provoked. It’s not you that gets attacked, but merely your Matrix Avatar Toon.
You take no damage when Super Mario gets killed by a turtle.
Neither does the real you take damage when a matrix lizard attacks your avatar. It’s just a game.

***

It happens more often than one would think, but most people don’t recognize the reptilian signature, the psychic mind reading, synchronistic component of “timed reptilian assaults” online. Of course this can happen in person in different ways, but is more common online. I’ve had these occur in several ways, often time in a multiple hit format, in person with some social interaction, online emails or forum remarks, Facebook etc. It’s how it is orchestrated seemingly from a hyper-dimensional perspective, perhaps with the assistance of artificial intelligence mediated through the internet utilizing the “troll matrix characters” to carry out their archontic programmed, parasite functions.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKPkIaO7IGU

There are also Facebook “copycat social media programs”, where you get some email invitation from a friend or email address you recognize, and to get the message, you have to open a link and it immediately copies your FB profile and by just clicking on the link to try to read the message, it automatically sets up your social media page, (without permission) after which you start receiving numerous invitations, messages and so on. Then when you go to delete the account or unsubscribe, it pops up a page where you have to accept their cookies in order to delete your page! Unbelievable!

I’m sure many have made initial purchases for online dating networking only to realize that it won’t let you unsubscribe or remove your profile from public view. Even if you call their contact number several times, it keeps charging your credit card. Apparently to delete your subscription you have to find a specific email they send with a slew of other junk emails that fill up your box so much you cannot find the one email with the fine print hidden in a way you cannot easily find the “Do not continue, unsubscribe” option. It is insane and deceptive, and what is worse is that when you do manage to speak to a “real person” through a phone contact number, they justify the corrupt, deceptive business tactics and make you wrong and “feel guilty and shamed” for not consenting to be endlessly charged. Archontic copy cats just following orders from their controllers of course….

It makes you think that people who promote these things have been archontically “copied out” having lost their soul and moral compass, so they normalize fraudulent business operations in the name of technology or, “its just a job”.

Spam emails are similar in that they try to make it irresistible to not click on a link that tells you money has been deposited into your Pay Pal account, after which it is yet another scam to steal personal information. One has to wonder the minds who create such scams, spam and crime businesses, and if they too are nothing but Archontic copied out “back drop people” whose sole purpose is to carry out their copycat parasite program, in such a way that it looks “normal”. IT IS NOT NORMAL. Nor is it human or whatever were original humans? The serpent seed? Who knows…

The sad thing about the increase in scams, and all manner of deceitful crimes is that it causes one to be suspicious and distrusting. It is not always safe to “help” someone in need or on the side of the road for example, especially for a woman.

Now I know there are good people out there who give, are volunteers for many organizations, and I also know people who were inspired to give, during the holidays for example —to a particular Christmas gift giving Facebook group for the local poor in their community. And they got caught into a scam. These generous people, in one case, were told a sob story of how the recipient man is a poor unemployed widower with kids to support who desperately needed help. Turned out that the poor widower was a meth addict, crack head, leeching off easily duped people to collect as many “gift cards” as possible for himself. So we really have to ask ourselves, how can we still be able to give and live according to positive spiritual laws, and still maintain discernment so that you “know” when you’ve been targeted for a scam or dishonest business practices? (Or sexual predators on dating sites…)

You see, people would like to give and live in generous ways where they don’t have to be afraid of being ripped off, hurt or left in dangerous situations. It’s also true that as the economic depression increases, the number of scams and illegal business operations (including sex trafficking and human slavery) increase along with the reversing of the moral compass “just to survive”. If you ask me, it is all engineered by the same Archontic predators so that people have less and less chances to get out of their reptilian brain and out of the trap of poverty consciousness.

A key point to observe also, is how many businesses which require some sort of agreement, where the real important parts are in the fine print, which is really a form of entrapment, or what we now call “agreement of entrapment”, that legally binds you to their deceitful thievery and access to you or your personal information. This is why creating statements of non-consent and declarations of non consent may be helpful. A sample “Declaration of Non-Consent” can be viewed here:

http://www.sovereignki.com/declaration-of-non-consent

These agreements of entrapment extend beyond “signing forms or agreements” for purchases, job confidentialities or online social media. These agreements of entrapment are carried out within our own belief systems, and how we can get sucked into feelings of guilt, shame and obligation that in reality is not our own “stuff”, but projections and manipulations by others who don’t deal with their stuff–who are expert manipulators. See my previous article on Cleaning Up Others Messes—When is Enough?

http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/cleaning-up-others-messes-when-is-enough/

This is ultimately a lesson on Boundaries, if we want to be free and unharmed from predators acting out archontic programs.

 

Spiritual Warfare is about Soul Harvesting

It is not all black and white however, as there are so many programs and unimaginable activities going on that the average, easily distracted person may never become aware of it, and be counted in as easily “harvestable material” by the ones who lay claim on their human souls.

Most of the population won’t notice these covert shadow government, breakaway and “alien” engineered activities but the abductees and milabs—especially those with supernatural abilities and higher IQ’s tend to be monitored, targeted and tweaked like canaries in a coal mine so that the rest of the population will be easily controlled in comparison and not even know they are enslaved and manipulated. All for the harvest of course. It is a spiritual war and never forget that.

Some may prefer to perceive this as some kind of spiritual evolution, or ascension cycle. But if you ask me, it’s not quite that simple. The complexity lies in the Archontic infection, “imitators of humans” and artificial intelligence “beast” technologies which have hijacked so many systems that the probability of people waking up, as time proceeds is becoming less likely. (At least if life continues in this fashion.) Excepting for the few, the brave, unrelenting truth seekers whose determination to seek the truth, live the example through their originality and shining goodness of their beingness. Not copy-cats.

 

The Loss of Discernment and Skewing of Moral Compass

Unfortunately our Earth history, religions and values have been so corrupted and in some cases, completely reversed. People who do not listen or follow their own spiritual intuition—and do the real healing work, called self-responsibility— are easily taken over by the false copy-cat programs and parasites without even knowing it has hijacked them. They lose their spiritual discernment, and often fall into either the victim or predator role. Their moral compass is often skewed by this point and now they are operating on behaviors, compulsions and beliefs that justify the ”the archontic parasite programs”. It is these individuals who tend to copy-cat the “creative originals”, or promote themselves using others’ accomplishments to  flagellate their own egos, businesses, and compulsive self-justifications.

This is sad, infuriating and disgusting. I see how something real and genuine such as “interdimensional interference, alien manipulation and high technology, black magic operations really do happen, and yet the parasited “copy cats” and emotionally, spiritually weak and intellectually ignorant people will use every excuse to essentially say, “the devil made me do it”—it’s his/her fault and I’m a poor victim and he/she is the monster doing all of this to me.” Not only that, but I’ve directly observed how the whining victim claiming an “alien love bite” through corrupted New Age beliefs and practice in reptilian manipulated, neo-tantric sexual practices completely put themselves in harm’s way through lack of discernment. Or excessive drug use like methamphetamine or “crack”. This thus enables the predator/abuser to be and act out what they are with free reign, while both are essentially playing the whining victim card, etc.

What I see is the failure of many to understand some basic spiritual laws,  and how their own lack of healing, false beliefs, egotistical desires and mind controlled behaviors led them straight into the predators den, until they too started acting like energy vampires! You know, the old vampire tales of how the “victim gets bitten” and turns into a vampire themselves may not be completely untrue—unless the victim heals, learns true spiritual laws and takes personal responsibility to reconnect with their real Spirit instead of the Archon parasites, and false programs of the copy-cats playing gods—or humans. Since, after all, we are often dealing with something that is no longer human, per se, but pretenders who are in actuality predators who tend to exhibit psychopathic, narcissistic, vampiric tendencies. Some can be quite charming, and alluring in sexuality, carrying out the “reptilian sexual predations and tactics” of false twin flames,  kundalini activation, bliss and the characteristic alien love bite/Dark Cupid dynamics. (See: The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships (https://www.amazon.com/Love-Bite-Alien-Interference-Relationships/dp/0967773709/)
and The Dark Side of Cupid: Love Affairs, The Supernatural and Energy Vampirism by Eve Lorgen (https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Side-Cupid-Supernatural-Vampirism/dp/0967799546/ref=pd_sim_14_1?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=0967799546&pd_rd_r=G6G7DQCTHWE48RG0RCBX&pd_rd_w=jfWB6&pd_rd_wg=qloXp&psc=1&refRID=G6G7DQCTHWE48RG0RCBX

This is often an X-rated topic all its own which, at some point, we will address in an upcoming Web Panel discussion where we elaborate more on the reptilian sexual predations and abilities.

So much can be learned through a basic understanding of human psychology, trauma, addictions, genuine spiritual laws and ethics. And, I must admit, that many of us who have had any sort of traumatic experiences related to the “alien love bite”, or anomalous hyperdimensional interferences,  such as mind control, sorcery attacks, targeting, or even MK Ultra programs, we realize that hindsight is 20/20 vision.

 

Hope, Self-Forgiveness and Humility 

It is easy to be angry, blaming, and self-pitying when these kinds of traumatic experiences happen to us over and over again. We can fall into a kind of hopelessness to give up when we see this day in and day out. We may choose to numb ourselves, isolate or self-medicate with all manner of distractions or even addictions. We may just normalize the “dysfunction” of it all, believing it is “just the way it is”, while actually perpetuating and creating these beliefs and patterns in our reality.

But I know that this is not the solution. Hope is here, and people are waking up, healing, taking personal responsibility and helping others. We just have to go deep enough inside ourselves, be humble and willing enough to feel, connect, self-forgive and allow the wisdom of our Spirit to move at the pace of what is right for us. We are all in different places, from different family systems, cultures and age groups.

 

Guilt, Shame and “Dysfunctional Family Loyalties”

This brings me to the topic of how family or group loyalties can affect our discriminating wisdom and hinder the opening up of opportunity to ultimate freedom.

One thing I have observed that is often a stumbling block to healing, integration and awareness of our “Spiritual higher Self” is the lack of understanding of “agreements of entrapment” . The key is to understand how our own trapped emotions and deep beliefs about “what we should do or be” imprison us to remain victims of continual manipulation by hyper dimensional forces, or our own subconscious minds, family systems and “curses”. In essence,

The entire spiritual manipulation system and agreements of entrapment seem to lie in how we allow guilt, shame, family loyalties and obligations to keep us tied to someone, thing, or group etc ., whose only job is to drag us down energetically and vibrationally such that we too may get spiritually harvested or used as archontic puppets to be recycled endlessly.

We actually see this family loyalty obligation heavily in “Mafia families” and Illuminati Bloodline families to the extent that those who choose to break away from “their handlers and abusers—who have used them to promote crime and other “agendas”, are shamed with guilt, punished and left to the wolves, homeless, sometimes medically and financially compromised or reputations smeared. This ties in with the psychopathology of narcissistic abuse, and how cult abuse creates innumerable agreements of entrapment for manipulation.

Why is this insistence of the “obligation to loyalties so impressed upon families or even “specific fraternal groups, cults or alphabet soup agencies?” Think about it, if you are in recovery, lets say from any kind of drug or alcohol addiction, recovering from any kind of sexual abuse, narcissistic cult abuse etc., the single most important action to take to recover is the NO CONTACT RULE, and of course to not “use” the substance of abuse. One of the most difficult things for people in recovery is the complete change in not only their drinking or drug habits but their social lifestyle, relationships and maybe even their careers. When family loyalties keep them locked into guilt and shame, or normalize dysfunctional behaviors, they are left wide open to be manipulated by the same dark forces that caused them to become self-medicating addicts to begin with. Guilt and shame are the most common means in which “the dark side” creates agreements of entrapment to ensure they have souls to exploit, manipulate and ultimately, if possible, to harvest for their own use.

In some Buddhist texts such as Zurchunpa’s Testament (Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, Snowlion Publications, 2006) it is suggested, if not required, to detach from ones own family and country of origin, if the enlightenment seeking yogi wishes to become free from the cycles of samsara. It is also suggested to keep the company of excellent friends who abide by virtue. Pride, attachment, aversion and distractions are the enemies of true freedom. And, “If you do not practice the moment faith arises, there will be no end to the jobs you have to do.” (Pg.33)

Faith from the Buddhist perspective, is actually the number one key to finding and practicing the Dharma. Dharma is essentially the teachings of truth. Awareness of truth happens through faith, practicing virtue, taking the time to meditate in awareness and contemplate the true causes and effects of what is perceived in reality. My only criticisms regarding classical Buddhist instructions are the lack of clarification of human psychology, interpersonal relations and contemporary issues on anomalous experiences. There is also a kind of idolized over culturalization of Asian traditions, which often reflect some forms of archontic infection such as gender inequality, and hive minded assumptions holding group loyalties.  Buddhist groups, just like any other religious groups and cults can be just as vulnerable to mind control programming and “archontic infection” as any other, unless the truth seeking yogi really remembers their true spiritual origins. By this time, they often remain unnamed and anonymous, living through the spontaneous wisdom of the Spirit.

Building Upon the Real for the Greater Good

In my previous article, The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators”(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/the-aftermath-of-the-alien-love-bite-soul-types-and-predators/) I proposed to write an article that could answer some tough questions by my clients, especially the ones who were born into “specific bloodlines” of ruling occult groups who target them for many reasons. The questions that have been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid, “love bite” experiencers are, “Why do I repeatedly keep being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings?” And of course the biggest question by these people is, “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”

I contemplated this from a more spiritual perspective based upon a profound experience I had many years ago at the age of 22. This experience catalyzed a deep realization of remembrance, a core essence of being, whose depth of “realness” was so immense, total, absolute and freeing, that the core significance of it vindicated a deep realness within an eternal place of being. A deeper, greater reality. It was recognition of truth of beingness free of the earthly and even “astral” state of being. This deep knowing is present always, when in this state of presence. But when I returned back into my body state of consciousness, the shock of this realization was so intense it nearly gave me a heart attack. In fact, I believed at the time, if I did not return to my “body” from this realized state of beingness, my heart would explode and I would die of some kind of heart attack.

Well, I did not die physically, but the experience of spiritual remembrance left me shaken, wordless and deeply imprinted in such a way that a truth was revealed in me, for recognitions sake, beyond all religion or teachings that I had known at that time. It was not until many years later in my exploration of Gnostic, Tibetan Buddhist studies and Advaita-Vedanta mystical teachings that I came to understand this experience. But the ironic thing about this realization was that my original intention and prayers for three days and nights was to “know and understand the truth of Jesus Christ, the one in the Bible.” Well, I can assure you this was no “vision” of Jesus but more of a direct recognition of beingness that was so utterly real in its depth, that there was no question in my mind about what truth is inside our being. “Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first within you and all will be added unto you.” Each and every one of us who has an eternal spirit of awareness has this within them. But most of us do not fully remember this state of being.

 

What People Really Want—Freedom and Happiness

So much of what my counseling clients seek is of course, happiness, but more specifically, freedom from inter dimensional interference, and all that goes with this. The “archontic” Matrix control systems run by seemingly predatory beings, both human and non human— appears to be the problem on “the outside” that ruins so many lives. Ultimately I believe, building upon and recognizing the real—our internal truth of being—is the key to freedom, empowerment, love and all good things. But for most people, and even “yogis and mystics”, this must be done gradually, in such a way that we increase and expand our awareness of “reality”. This awareness becomes more and more real, until we can sustain a measure of lucidity in mindfulness.

True happiness comes from within. It actually arises out of getting in touch with our core essence of being. Contact with true reality. It is not a short term investment strategy, nor does it have to take a long time. But it does require that you desire it, are willing to be still, have faith, be patient, humble and courageous.

 
Getting Lucid with Mindfulness and Self-Observation

This must be a step by step process, where we are intentionally committed expand our own awareness, out of which comes change. Mindfulness is not really about “trying to change” but rather intending on allowing ones awareness to be aware of truth versus lies; stalking the illusions. As we go into a place of self-observation and mindfulness, we will start to perceive what distractions and “obstacles in our path” have prevented us from being still, from being happy, from feeling love. From feeling truly alive and knowing ourselves in our core essence. It is not a “conceptual self analysis” or self-absorbed narcissism either. It requires us to take notice of whatever feelings are present in the moment, without identifying with them so much that we lose our lucidity.

What is lucidity, you may ask? For me, it is awareness of being aware. Like what happens when you are in a dream, and know you are dreaming. In that moment of recognition, the reality of the dream deepens immensely, everything vivifies, and with it can come a natural state of wonder and joy of whatever arises in the moment. It unleashes the wonder of each unfolding moment as a mystery that is beyond our illusion of controlling the dream. Many people assume that lucidity in dreams is being able to control the dream or the vividness of it. But this is in error. It is the absolute knowing that you are dreaming and therefore have a greater ability to create and connect on expanded levels of being, not only as the dreamer, but as the background of the dreams and characters. It is a wonderful oneiric laboratory to explore self-healing, and discovering parts of ourselves we may not be fully aware of. We can apply lucidity in our meditation, in our daily lives. We can take advantage of this process when we have negative feelings and positive feelings. With lucid awareness our understanding of the feelings observed in that moment will be revealed in such a way, that we are able change out of an authentic awakening, with much less effort.

When we “wake up” we no longer will hold on to the things which we realize are illusions, distractions, addictions, bad relationships, avoidance or self-pity. The waking up process is not so easy however. When it does happen, it can be painful, and we may hit a threshold of obstacles, pain, and intense suffering of any number of feelings before we have that “aha!” moment. It tends to happen in stages when we can process the insights revealed over time and with maturity. In my view, the spiritual path to awakening is a healing journey where deep psychological changes take place.

 

Psychological Healing and Trauma Resolution Therapy Helps Wake Us Up

Waking up to a greater spiritual reality inevitably requires substantial psychological self reflection and healing of our deepest core wounds. This is essentially a psychotherapeutic process to root out the original causes of our suffering. It is really a rooting out process of identifying that which is false, and cutting through the psychological defenses which keep us from connecting deeper into our own core selves. Oftentimes it is easier to discover what the truth is by knowing in our heart, what we are not. And I can assure you, most beliefs in the “matrix world system” are geared to prop up false beliefs about who and what you are, in order to control you. The unenlightened love to lord over and control you, they are lovers of power, usually with big egos. Have you ever noticed how the power hungrier someone is, the more of a psychopath they turn out to be? And do you really think they have your best interests at heart?

Now here is a paradox. The truth is, things do not need to be fixed, they need to be understood. If we can truly understand without judgement and over identification and excessive emotional triggering, things will change naturally. Oh, but what does this really mean when we break things down into practical day to day living and being?

Therapy and counseling in some practices are more about alleviating symptoms or reinforcing the “matrix world view”, where pharmaceuticals are prescribed or “things to make you feel better” are advised. And on the spiritual front line of “enlightenment solutions” we can run into the fake gurus who are really spiritual predator-vampires. Gatekeepers and soul entrappers who end up identifying and feeding off of the real “gifted ones”. Then they target you to exploit or clamp down your real, supernatural abilities. I do find it almost ironic, that many who have woken up, have found out by going to hell and back. Or having been trapped by evil sorcerers, or being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist only to discover what they don’t want and who they are not. This is a huge key. You want to know why?

Because when things get bad enough you are forced to feel negative emotions. You may be forced to drop your ego and surrender enough to experience a deeper presence of being within. You may hit rock bottom like the alcoholic or drug addict who finally realizes their way of life is killing them. They finally wake up to the shocking insanity and intense pain they are feeling. It is necessary to get in touch with the negative feelings you are having, be aware of what they are. Take note of the positive ones too. What causes these feelings, really? Where do they start in your body? Can you be in your body or are you habitually dissociating? You need to be still long enough to know when your automatic, triggered avoidance patterns start kicking into gear, in ways that actually pull you out of REALITY and connection with your heart and your core self. You know that is what addictions are all about don’t you? Avoidance of uncomfortable feelings, hidden traumas and vulnerable emotional wounds.

Do you know what is funny? Addicts and alcoholics feel like life would be boring and dull without the drugs, alcohol etc. Many have not really got into contact with their core selves because they are avoiding bad feelings, perhaps repressed traumas. Trauma and addictions go together like peas and carrots. If you work on one, let’s say the drinking part, the other issue will rise to the surface. If you deal with the trauma first, and truly resolve the trauma over time, (or even rapidly with modalities such as Rapid Release Trauma Therapy, hypnotherapies etc.) your addictions may just stop by themselves. Or in the least with less effort. This is where the understanding part comes in. With understanding, things will change naturally. You don’t have to “fix feelings”, you just have to self-connect long enough to understand, let go of the illusions and the problems disappear. It is really more about letting go.

And you know what will drive psychopaths and abusers away from you? You want to get rid of them? Start a meditation practice, be still, silent and ever aware. They will think you are so BORING they will leave you alone and have to find someone else for their narcissistic supply of energy!

 

The Walls We Hit Before Waking Up

Faith is the number one necessity before any positive change can occur. This is a pre-requisite for Buddhist teachings on enlightenment and for genuine happiness as well. It is not just a Christian virtue, but is supreme in just about every religion. If you prefer, we can say that it is helpful that you see that it is desirable to wake up in order to relieve your suffering. It must be desirable to give up illusions and dependencies on what is NOT REAL so you can make contact with that deeper REALITY. That awakening to the deeper reality of your true beingness is so powerful that entire systems of control have been created to keep you addicted to the fake, so as to distract you without you even knowing you are a puppet. So do you really want freedom and awakening?

And what tends to happen before we can drop illusions, over identifications, and ego masks to go deeper inside the mystery of the heart and spirit? Those psychological defenses pop up, mind control programs, avoidance patterns, addictions, distractions and real demons could start manifesting. Oftentimes when our distraction patterns drop, we touch in with our aloneness during periods of silence. We can feel quite alone even when we are with someone, if any emotional wounds have not been dealt with. There is this thing called loneliness which can be so unbearable, despairing and empty that we avoid it at all costs, thinking loneliness can only be cured by having company, or doing the things which numb those bad feelings when you start to feel lonely or depressed. Loneliness can happen when we are with someone or alone. It can happen when we start to be still in solitude, even in meditation, as we get in touch with silence. Sometimes the loneliness is like a wall of the most despairing pain of hopelessness, non love, and shameful unworthiness. A rejection so deep, an abandonment so great that you split it off into another compartment of your being. It could be the overlay covering up rage, intense sadness or even terror. But remember this is a wall, they are feelings, which are not really you, but feelings of experience you have had or still live in you based on something much earlier in life that was never healed or made conscious.

 

Our Addictions and Avoidance Patterns Distort Our Perception of Reality

The difficult part of the self-discovery process is how many of our behaviors are running on a kind of automatic mode, something we cannot seem to consciously control from a logical perspective. When we are still running on these automatic defenses and “conditioned programs”, our perceptions of others and of reality is skewed. We tend to see people through the lens of our own addictive needs—the needs we cling to so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable feelings, our old wounds still festering inside. If we seem to be stuck in blaming others, or trying to fix the world, we have not fully woken up. If we keep trying to control others in co-dependent relationships, we have not done our self-healing work. If we still are dependent on approval, appreciation and the constant distraction of company of others (in a compulsive way), we are still asleep. If we keep finding ourself looking for love from someone out there, we have not dealt with our stuff. If we habitually manipulate others into providing for our own “psychic energy”, attention and approval, we are actually emotional energy vampires in disguise.

Now I know this sounds harsh and like a cliche about seeking it all within. It is not ALL within but so much of it is, that if we don’t take personal responsibility and a willing humbleness to deal with our SH**, then nothing will change. Love happens through openness and awareness. It can only happen by dropping the illusions which have kept us in this merry go round of distractions, numbness and disconnection from reality.

 

What We Need is Slowing Down

There are some things that we do need, however. Safety is very important, either in or out of a relationship. Many of my anomalous trauma clients lack the safety and sustained stillness to stay with the mindful, healing and recovery process long enough to truly wake up. They may have so much drama and “interference” that any kind of committed therapy process is unlikely. And when this happens I can guarantee you it is part of the “program” to keep the person believing that it is impossible, unnecessary, too expensive, everyone else’s fault and the entire gamut of I’m right, ego rigidity and “yes but…”.excuses. Many of the excuses are part of what I call the learned helplessness, “whining victim” program that effectively self sabotages true change. And if I would tell this to someone who is in the midst of a whopping, whining victim (or predator) program, it would infuriate them. The truth is, they really believe they are powerless because they are trapped in illusions.

What we do need is willingness for more awareness, stillness, enjoying the simple pleasures of life, like decent food, water, light, exercise, a good book, perhaps an entertaining movie now and then. But what we don’t need is to be so busy that we cannot enjoy simple pleasures and instead adopt artificial stimulants, or are too busy and sleep deprived to even enjoy simple pleasures. We want to engage the true senses and slow down. When we do slow down, our senses actually come more alive, making it easier to enjoy simple pleasures. The need for addictions, drama or over stimulation falls away. It only requires a decision to be still with awareness for a short period daily or on a regular enough basis in small steps and goals. You can perceive miracles and hidden, secret things from slowing down. Your perceptions expand, and when you start noticing all kinds of things, understanding of what arises starts to awaken in you. This enables you to change, the awareness that comes with simply slowing down.

 

Mindfulness Meditation is Good

In my own experience, I had explored just about every “therapy” there is, from cognitive-behavioral talk therapy, hypnotherapy, rebirthing, interpersonal communication skills, marriage and family therapy, lucid dreaming, journaling, art therapy, dance, creative writing, martial arts, Chi Gong, authentic movement and yoga. You name it, I did it. Some significant radical shifts in expanded awareness occurred after doing a couple of 10 day shamatha meditation retreats. Shamatha meditation is a very simple form of mindful sitting meditation where one follows the breath, a single object of meditation or awareness of whatever arises in the mind. (http://www.deerparkthimphu.org/activities/shamatha.html) I personally would recommend doing this with a very good teacher in person, someone like Dr. Alan B. Wallace. (http://www.sbinstitute.com/Shamatha_Project)

Sometimes it takes getting out of your ordinary habits in a different environment, where silence and stillness with awareness is the only activity. For me, meditation is what woke me up to feeling and finally perceiving in vivid, expanded awareness, the insanity I had been living, and it was shocking and painful enough for me to change. For other individuals however, it may be something else that wakes them up in such a way as to be the catalyst for effective change. I’ve seen some “meditation junkies” become kind of addicted to the cult aspect of Buddhist community, instead of doing more deep, psychotherapeutic work. Some people actually fall into dissociation, rather than embodied awareness in stillness, that true meditation requires. This is why it is good to have an experienced teacher, who has demonstrated their own internal self-healing and mindfulness work. You will recognize them by their openness, compassion, and wisdom in how they live their lives and how well their own students learn and exemplify wisdom in their lives.

The evidence is when change starts to take place in you, in your awareness. It happens, you don’t do it. If you try to “do it” it doesn’t last. Change is natural through awareness of truth, reality and embodied self-connectedness. Then you keep your openness, flexibility, softness and compassion through awareness. It is not a rigid “trying to control”, change. Or being compelled to lecture or prove yourself right. The evidence is in the softness, ease, effortless effort, compassion, awareness, wisdom and openness. It is a tasting and feeling, an experiential, expanded perception beyond information in your head or over analyzing on a conceptual level. And with this comes strength and courageousness. Joy will start to emerge, a spontaneousness to perceive humor in life as well.

 

Doing the Healing Work

Nothing is more painful and humbling than someone telling you that, “you need therapy”, or ask you sarcastically, “are you off your meds?”. Or when a concerned family member, friend or fellow work mate suggests you get into a recovery program for an ongoing addiction you have normalized in your life, which is starting to create problems that you, apparently, are unaware of. More often than not, when we do decide to get “professional help” for something, it resulted from an uncomfortable situation in our life like a broken relationship, lost job or God forbid, a Driving Under the Influence (DUI) or police arrest. One good thing about suffering is that it can be the agent of positive change and expanded awareness. Some experiences, such as a narcissistic abuse, alien love bite relationships can be so intense and psycho-spiritually shattering that it can serve as a “spiritual initiation” of permanent consciousness change. A real wake up call.

The sad part about “not having done our healing and personal growth work”, or for short, “not dealing with your sh**” (NDWYSH), means that some part of you has disconnected from your spiritual core essence, most likely your emotional center. Part of your heart actually shuts down, and with this shutting down comes a block in your awareness, a blind spot. We do this to ourselves as a reaction to stress, trauma or deep emotional wounds. Sometimes our conditioned beliefs and ways we were raised in our family system required us to be cut off from our own authentic being, or we would not be accepted, loved. In severe cases, if we did not do or be what we were told, we were beaten up, abused or thrown out on the streets. Abandoned.

It is rather ironic that in order to psychologically survive such kinds of abuse and traumas, we abandon our own selves, to protect us from the shock of the reality that perhaps we lived in a very unsafe world, where we really were unloved or had psychopath caretakers. And for many of us, the shock of reality, the extreme vulnerability and powerlessness of childhood, and our feelings about the craziness we have had to endure, was too much for a young child.(It can be too much for an adult!) That inner child—whose real needs, identity, whose heart and soul had to be abandoned or be put in cold storage somewhere, until some day, it would be safe enough to be who we are and feel what we feel.

 
Co-Dependency is a Spiritual Issue

In Melanie Tonia Evans article, “On Co-Dependency and Narcisicism, (See: http://blog.melanietoniaevans.com/2014-co-dependency-check-up/) she addresses the culprit of the spiritual disease of Co-Dependency and Narcissism:

“Societal beliefs, unconsciousness, and the horrific programming of ‘Needing to get worthiness, value, approval, and love outside of ourselves’ is all responsible for the dis-ease (yes it is a human disease) of co-dependency.

The reason being is: we are all a product of a world that looks “outwards” for comfort and fulfillment. We were NOT taught to come inside and self-partner in times of stress.
Rather we were told to “Shut up and get on with it”, or that our feelings and emotions were “inconvenient” and “irrelevant” and therefore had to be ignored, repressed, shoved aside or switched off.
As a result we all became more and more disconnected from our emotional centres and we tried to acquire stuff or people’s love and approval to stop the pain, and when that failed we took up addictions (self-avoidance mechanisms) to try to numb ourselves out from the pain.

Co-dependency is a spiritual disease. It is NOT a psychological issue, the psychological component is the symptom. It is an emotional issue, a soul issue.  The remedy does not lie in logical thinking. It requires a deep connection back to yourself and your true connection with Source / Life / God.

Until we know we are at One with Source (and at the Quantum Level that is the absolute scientific truth) we cannot ever be at One with ourselves, others or this planet.
This is when we suffer the results of “disconnection” and are not generating the Source truth of “wellbeing”. Rather we are granted by Source/Life/God the results of our free will choice of living in the illusions of “separation”.

And that separation hurts so much it makes us want to be addicted to whatever alleviates these awful feelings of disconnection from our true REAL SELVES/SPIRIT/SOURCE.

By reacting in unconscious triggering, and whatever addictions we choose to effectively numb our pain, this decision constitutes an agreement to disconnect from our heart and soul, leaving us open for other substitutes to run our “vehicle”. This disconnect also takes away from our life force energy and our awareness in consciousness, because energy and awareness are linked. The more your energy is lost, the less aware you become.

We may have grown up this way, living in dysfunctional families, where all these kinds of crazy behaviors were normalized, including verbal abuse, emotional neglect, boundary invasions, poor communication skills and addictions. And when we grew older, and entered into relationships, jobs and started raising our own families, we started having huge problems. Sometimes it is the problems that wake us up to the discovery of how blind, numb, abusive or victimized we really were. And when we don’t heal these original wounds, we set ourselves up to be hurt even more, sometimes as victims or on the other end of it as perpetrators of abuse.

The difficult thing about effective, lasting change is that it must be dealt with on deeper levels of our being, not just logical analysis or simple awareness of your patterns. It must happen in such a way that you connect to the younger feeling parts of yourself that initially experienced the trauma, the vulnerable part who held false beliefs about themselves or the world, that needs to be let go of. The self abandonment that occurs with early traumas are often linked in with Boundary issues. According to Melanie Tonia Evans,

“True empowered boundaries mean: ‘I love myself and I know my truth. I know who I am, and I will not compromise myself anymore. You have a choice to be in my reality of meeting this higher vibration. If you don’t – that’s okay – I’m not in anymore regardless of the consequences. Because in no way is the correct and healthy development of my life dependent on you making any particular choice, or even understanding what I need. You are NOT my source of self – I AM!’

Now of course we don’t reach this level of conduct until we have done the work on ourselves to get there, and naturally the work is about finding and up-levelling the young unhealed parts of our Inner Being that are still hooked on “You HAVE to be the source of me because I can’t be that to myself”.

It is true, as children we couldn’t be a source to ourselves, we were entirely co-dependent. We were powerless and vulnerable, and if we haven’t healed and up-levelled these young parts – which means self-developing and growing them lovingly and supportively up – they still affect us, regardless of knowing better logically. I promise you the painful aspects of our life are not being created logically, and they can’t be solved logically.

It’s been stated in therapy circles, “There is no healing without feeling”. And I believe this is true. Sometimes all we need is the safety, empathy and permission to feel whatever is happening inside us with gentle nudging towards real release and deep insight. It is amazing what people do when they hit their “wall” of the pain.(Or PTSD overload) Oftentimes they may spin into story telling, over and over, in a cyclic, anger—addicted way, without true resolution of the underlying feeling. Feelings are in layers, and what most people do not understand is that emotions like rage and anger are actually secondary. They cover up deeper feelings that are more vulnerable. The goal is to be able to reach that wall with awareness of what we habitually have been doing to jerk away from the “feeling”, the real memories etc., so we can address that protective part and the beliefs it may hold— which “takes control” to avoid the issue. For some people, they need more aggressive confrontation and redirection to be present with THAT FEELING and memory. Others need more gentle reassurance, nudging and guidance to take that feeling to its origin in the present now. Sometime it must be taken slowly, so that the feelings and embodied awareness of processing this energy can be done with more self control, safely without triggered PTSD syndrome.

Being able to feel, be vulnerable, feel safe, and let go of what is pent up inside creating so many problems, is not always an easy, logical process. It can take time, or it can be relatively fast, once the defenses are set aside to release and get to the truth. Working directly with the subconscious mind, identifying those beliefs and fears is the eventual goal for more rapid resolution. We must get in touch with those abandoned parts, love them, forgive them, self parent them, and allow these parts to grow up. This is how you stop seeking and expecting others to always fill those voids, to be happy. Then we are less likely to attract predators. The predators will be attracted to you if you still are not taking personal responsibility for your healing and still have self abandonment and “blind spots”. If we keep seeking others to “take away our pain”, keep us from feeling lonely, depressed or looking for that magic healer to “clear all my implants, attached entities”, etc. we will fall into the same traps. It is not that a therapist or healer cannot help you, but it should be, rather, that they help guide you to help yourself and bring into your awareness the self-discovery to heal yourself. You have to be ready to feel, and see what you are really believing about yourself, life and others. The denial must be dropped for clear perception. And clarity comes as you drop those addictions, illusions, excessive fears and desires.

If you haven’t gotten it yet that healing is all about deeper self-connection, self responsibility, expanded awareness, and being willing to be vulnerable in your heart, you will fall back into the co-dependent “conditioning program”. Or keep on being addicted to numbing, blaming others, acting out, etc. Or you may fall into the perpetrator rather than victim role, or vacillate between the two.

How can we become more aware of what we are really doing, not doing, believing, or feeling in ways that indicate there is still some healing to do? Are you worried or compelled to try to “protect people from their feelings”? Do you do this unconsciously? What fears are driving you—what beliefs? Practice awareness, mindfulness. Here is a good “Co-Dependency Checklist” that Melanie Tonia Evans created for those in recovery programs:

 
▪ Do you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people think about you?
▪ Do you try to impress other people and make them happy so that you can be happy?
▪ Do you often analyse other people’s lives?
▪ Do you get distressed by bad things that happen which are out of your control?
▪ Do you say and do what you think other people want you to say and do?
▪ Do you try to control other people’s behaviour so that you can feel okay?
▪ When an interaction with someone goes ‘wrong’ do you spend time analysing their actions, what they said and what they might be feeling and thinking?
▪ Do you find it difficult to speak up and confront an issue when you feel uncomfortable?
▪ Do you blame other people for the way you feel?
▪ Do other people’s moods bring your own mood down?
▪ Do you immediately think of someone else who needs this information more than you?
▪ Do you seek and listen to other people’s opinions rather than seeking and listening to your own?
▪ Do you obsess over saying the wrong thing or hurting someone else’s feelings?
▪ Do you hang on to people and situations even when it hurts, hoping they will change into something better?
▪ Do you often feel selfish, guilty or ‘what a waste of time’ when you do something nice for yourself?
▪ Do you often say ‘Yes’ when you really want to say ‘No’?
▪ Do you struggle to listen to your own feelings and go along with other people’s feelings?
▪ Do you give a lot of yourself to other people, even if they don’t ask, and then get upset when they don’t do the same in return?
▪ Do you try to fix or change other people to be who you want them to be?
▪ Do you try and help or fix others who don’t take responsibility for themselves?
▪ Do you tend to put everyone else’s needs before your own?
▪ Do you avoid taking charge of your own life, and / or creating your own happiness in the hope that someone will provide it for you?

For most of us, we didn’t learn how to communicate with reflective empathy, we just did what was modeled to us in our families. And if we never even bothered to do any personal growth work, mindfulness, healing and honest self-reflection, we are likely to be projecting our “stuff” on others unconsciously. We must really know our own histories, childhoods, relating patterns and what our own families have modeled to us. Are we aware of ethics and spiritual laws that may open us up to dark forces and predators? What agreements of entrapment are we actually holding onto without realizing its ramifications? I’m often astounded at how unaware many “normal seeming” people are, who have found themselves victim to psychopaths, supernatural predators and narcissists.

What prevents some people from true mutuality in friendships of respect? Could it be their refusal to be vulnerable to their own hearts and feelings? Are they rigidly holding onto denial and illusions, making you wrong so they don’t have to grow up? Are they trying to control you with their version of what they think “reality” is, while marginalizing your worth and freedom? Do they play fair in relationships so that compassionate communication can even happen? Do they have value systems that marginalize compassionate communication and reflective empathy? Is their own blind spots and psychological defenses causing cold, insensitive behaviors that hurt you? We need to also ask ourselves if we do these kinds of things to others as well.

Perhaps we must ask how much we value our own souls, and choosing what we want to be connected with. Do we really want to experience the truth of REALITY?

 
That Mystery Called Love

I found myself having ahas! when listening to the mystic, Thomas De Mello. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pNb_tYuHfY&index=69&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B)

The ever present desire and need for LOVE is a consistent topic of discussion everywhere. So many people want to experience true love, feel more loved, love more. Contrary to what we tend to assume, adoration does not lead to love, reality, life or truth. Love is generated through awareness of what is REAL.

Thomas De Mello says, “If you wish to Love, You must learn to see again. You must give up your drug.” These ‘drugs’ is a term for all our psychological defenses, distractions, co-dependent addictions or whatever you do to avoid your uncomfortable feelings. Love actually comes through awareness. It comes from dropping the illusions and obstructions to pure perception. Love is the essence of REALITY and your own eternal spiritual beingness.

(See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)

Wisdom has always been more about what illusions we are willing to let go of. Dropping your masks and pretenses. It is the same for love. As Thomas De Mello says simply,

The unobstructed heart and mind is love and wisdom. Understand the obstruction and obstacles and they will drop. Turning on the light of awareness. Happiness is not something you acquire or produce or have. Love is something that has you! “

In practice and with time, you surrender to it when you are aware of your illusions, addictions, desires and fears. It is a gradual process of tearing away those conditioned “assumptions” and attachments we have clung to, oftentimes without even knowing how we did it. These “mind control programs” and clinging desires are like sticky tentacles latching onto us, creating a “tar baby” effect. (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tar-Baby)

In aloneness, where we can be in enough solitude to be aware of and let go of these clinging dependencies, it will be like a cold turkey death. If you can be alone not having the company of people, and be emotionally dependent on them anymore to feel special, adored, appreciated, you will become free. You can be in the midst of people, and enjoy their company but they will no longer have any power over you, to make you happy or miserable. Your dependence on them dies and your capacity to love is born. Why? Because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions and dependencies.

There can be a terror in this kind of aloneness, it is like dying. There could be withdrawal symptoms, like a dark pit of emptiness. When you have let go of your own need to control someone else, need them to “love you” or be special to anyone you are getting it. If you can get to this point, you will at last know. You will be able to perceive with a vision that is clear and unclouded by fears or desires. Then you can truly love. But you must go through the pains of loss, letting go of addictions, illusions and be utterly alone before this can happen.

Dependence dies and your capacity to love is born. Why—because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions or narcissistic supply!

No, I don’t think it means being a saint or an advanced yogi who retreats to meditate in caves for years on end. It is a quality of intention with awareness, humbleness, and the dedication to see things through because you are sick and tired of hurting all the time. When you are sick of the pain, the endless recycling of misery, the ridiculous control systems by idiotic predator psychopaths, you will come to a place where enough is enough. Taking personal responsibility means creating the option for freedom, and true happiness. Being in the world but not of it.

But first, we actually have to come to respect our own spiritual heart. Any deep truths and feelings we buried. We must realize the greatest violence to our own being is self-abandonment. It is this self-abandonment that causes the feelings of loneliness, hurt, sorrow and disconnectedness from REALITY.

To paraphrase what Thomas De Mello said,

“You must cultivate ceaseless awareness, patience and compassion as you would have for a drug addict. Develop taste for good things in life, pure, simple, things. Work, laughter, intimacy with people to whom you do not cling or who you depend emotionally, but whose company you enjoy. Activities you can do with your whole being, while engaged in them. Success or recognition don’t mean a thing to you. It will help if you return to nature. Mountains—silently commune with trees, animals, flowers, birds, clouds, sky and stars etc. Spiritual exercise to gaze at things, to be aware of things around you. The world will drop, concepts will drop and you will see and you will make contact with reality. That is the cure for lonliness. We usually seek to cure our loneliness through our emotional dependence on people, distractions, noise. Get back to nature. Then you will know your heart has brought you to the vast desert of solitude. No one there to depend on. At first it is unbearable because you are unaccustomed to aloneness. Stick it out, the desert will blossom into love, your heart will burst into song. It will be springtime forever. Drug is gone, you are free. Then you will understand what freedom is, love is, happiness, what REALITY is. Truth is, what GOD is.”

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)
Our next panel discussion we want to address the concepts of the Matrix engineers using polarity “choices” for neutralization, soul corruption and harvesting strategies. What we need to be doing and letting go of in order to take responsibility for dealing with our SH**. What happens if we choose to ignore the wisdom of our own Source connected Spirit.

Useful blog and links for PTSD Recovery: http://www.new-synapse.com/aps/wordpress/?p=1022

Updated Declaration of Non-Consent for Interference from Laura Leon’s web site: http://www.sovereignkees.com/non-consent-declaration.html