This is a good two-part radio interview. We talked about the origin of the “alien love bite”, what it is, symptoms and how it differs from the Dark Side of Cupid. We talked about the history of how the alien love bite syndrome was recognized within the alien abduction research histories. The work of the late Dr. Karla Turner and Barbara Bartholic are noted for their front line introduction to this aspect of the “alien encounter” experience.
The Dark Side of Cupid has many similarities, but many do not realize its connections with hyperdimensional interference patterns. We had quite a discussion, and included how the milab and supersoldier reports tie into the love bite, and how love relationship “set-ups” relate to some of the “handling” aspects that are used to keep mk ultra people under “programming”. I was able to clearly define this and help dileneate why and how the typical Ufology theories and popular views of ET Encounters, Alien Abductions and “ET Visitation” theories often overlook these fundamental and extremely important aspects of obvious interdimensional handling, manipulation and mind control. Essentially, the spin-controlled, redundant and outdated Ufological pespectives, including the overly positivist ET contactee type narratives are barking up the wrong tree.
I have several interviews this month, one just completed July 5, 2017 with Denny Hunt of “Why is This True?”.
Denny Hunt Website: http://www.whyisthistrue.com
This is a good overview point of view discussion about the relevant aspects of Anomalous Trauma research over the years and where I’m going with this work, priorities in the healing integration modalities, organic spiritual connection focus. Barbara Bartholic, Karla Turner‘s work and how it still demonstrates and opposes the same themes and current trends still playing out in the ET contact, whistleblower and Alternative media circles.
My emphasis on how important identification of mind control, the counterfeit spirit, AI programs and trauma resolution is, in order to discern truth and initiate sovereignty. Discriminating wisdom is necessary to break the spell of being blinded by the mind control narratives as well as the spellbinding, “Love and Light” New Age traps often experienced within the Alien Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid, Hyperdimensional Interference patterns.
My next Video interview in July will be with Patricia Farrington of Interstellar Cosmic Conversations, on Wednesday July 12, 2017.
Web Site of Patricia Farrington: https://innerstellarcosmicconversations.com/
July 12, 2017 . See Schedule page: https://innerstellarcosmicconversations.com/july-2017.html
Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiDjvW2wTJI
We will discuss topics in my Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid book, questions related to Anomalous Trauma, and this may develop into a series with question and answers from listeners on updated areas of research, therapies for those experiencing all levels of hyperdimensional interference, especially within the realm of relationship dynamics.
The next video interview will be Thursday July 13, 2017 with Marc Gray of Project Camelot TV. Marc and I have done an earlier interview, (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZuVzxP3w4Y)
but there was so much interference and entire segments of missing speech portions, that I suggested another interview with Marc, myself and my colleague Laura Leon of sovereignki.com. In this upcoming video interview we aim to discuss parameters of our anomalous trauma experiences, research, as well as clinical therapeutic work. Laura may discuss her own experiences and how they related to what is to come and how to prepare.
Stay tuned for the youtube link for this new interview.
A recent video of Laura and George Leon on youtube can be viewed at:
Lauda Leon: Planet X and the A.I Mind Interface Grid system
Published on Jul 3, 2017
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What are Archons, and why do they “copy”?
A general overview of Archons and their nature can be found in many of the Nag Hammadi Library Gnostic codexes. (See: http://gnosis.org/naghamm/nhlcodex.html)
A summary of the various meanings and connotations of Archons can be viewed in the Gnostic Glossary by L. Carauana—See: http://www.gnosticq.com/az.text/glos.af.html#Anchor-ARCHONS-21683
In short: “- ARCHONS
– The rulers of the Lower Aeons
– Also called rulers, governors, authorities, guards, gate keepers, robbers, toll collectors, detainers, judges, pitiless ones, adulterers, man-eaters, corpse-eaters, fishermen
1. ARCHONS – IN GENERAL
– Yaltabaoth is the Chief Archon and created all the others. See YALTABAOTH.
– According to the Apocryphon of John, there are twelve Archons and their aeons, comprising the Lower Aeons
– Seven heavenly Archons are associated with the seven planetary heavens.
– Five Archons ‘of the Abyss’ are associated with the five sublunary realms created by earth, water, air and fire intermixed in the ether.
7. ARCHONS – ALTERNATE NAMES
– The Archons as toll collectors: “…three of them will seize you – they who sit (there) as toll collectors…” (Jesus to James, First Apocalypse of James) “The toll-collector who dwells in the fourth heaven replied, saying…” (Apocalypse of Paul)
– As judges: James prays as he dies: “Do not give me into the hand of a judge who is severe with sin!” (First Apocalypse of James)
– As governors and administrators: “The governors and the administrators possess garments granted only for a time, which do not last.” (Dialogue of the Saviour)
– As robbers: “This is the tomb of the newly-formed body with which the robbers had clothed the man, the bond of forgetfulness; and he became a mortal man.” (Apocalypse of John)
– As pitiless ones: “I have broken the gates of the pitiless ones” (Sophia of Jesus Christ); “the secure gates of those pitiless ones I broke” (Trimorphic Protonoia)
– as adulterers: “she (the soul) had given herself to wanton, unfaithful adulterers” (Exegesis on the Soul)
– As man-eaters and fishermen: “For man-eaters will seize us and swallow us, rejoicing like a fisherman casting a hook into the water.” (Authoritative Teaching)
– In the sense of man-eaters, the Archons are also corpse-eaters. They eat the dead (the non-Elect) while the angels of the Upper Aeons, as truth, eat the living (the Elect) as they ascend: “This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die…” (Gospel of Philip)
– Archons have souls, but no spirit: “they (the Archons) could not lay hold of that image, which had appeared to them in the waters, because of their weakness – since beings that merely possess a soul cannot lay hold of those that possess a spirit” (Hypostasis of the Archons)
– Since they have no fullness, they are deficient. Though they exist at present, they will return to their state of non-existence: “their end will be like their beginning: from that which did not exist (they are) to return once again to that which will not be.” (Tripartite Tractate)
• They are likenesses, copies, imitations, shadows, phantasms and distorted reflections of the Upper Aeons: “(The Archons) are their (the Pleromas’) likenesses, copies, shadows, and phantasms, lacking reason and the light (…). In the manner of a reflection are they beautiful. For the face of the copy normally takes its beauty from that of which it is a copy.” (Tripartite Tractate)
– (TO GO) ASTRAY
– Those who ‘go astray’ are caught in the traps and distractions of the Archons, and have not yet recognized the ‘gnosis’.
– If they later recognize the gnosis, they may still be saved (as Penitants)
– “…many go astray on the way.” (Gospel of Philip)
– “those on whom the counterfeit spirit descends are drawn by him and they go astray.” (Apocryphon of John)
– As the penitants: “And I said, ‘Lord, where will the souls of these go when they have come out of their flesh? (…) Those who have not known to whom they belong, where will their souls be?’ And he said to me, ‘In those, the despicable spirit has gained strength when they went astray. (…) After it comes out of (the body), it is handed over to the authorities (…), and they bind it with chains and cast it into prison, and consort with it until it is liberated from the forgetfulness and acquires knowledge. And if thus it becomes perfect, it is saved (…) It is not again cast into another flesh.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Those who go astray do not know the difference between perishable and imperishable: “Now a difference existed among the imperishable aeons. Let us, then, consider (it) this way: Everything that came from the perishable will perish, since it came from the perishable. Whatever came from imperishableness will not perish but will become imperishable, since it came from imperishableness. So, many men went astray because they had not known this difference; that is, they died.” (Eugnostos the Blessed)
– The flesh of ‘non-understanding’ leads us astray. Jesus: “I do not speak of the flesh in which you dwell, but the flesh of non-understanding which exists in ignorance, which leads astray many from the of my Father.” (First Book of Jeu)
The term copycat has been used in only relatively recent times, but may have originated with some of Shakespeare’s writings. (See: http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/explainer/2011/08/what_a_copycat.html
The Archons nature is filled with spiritual ignorance, and envy, and like Jesus said,(paraphrased) “They were liars and thieves from the beginning”. They aim to steal, copy, exploit, control, corrupt and harvest by leading astray those who have not remembered and acted upon their true spiritual origin, (gnosis). They are compelled to act like parasites, infecting, copying themselves within their hosts, until the hosts become corrupted, and “copied out” to run the archons programs for them, and reproduce their parasitic behaviors like embedded programs.
Imitators and Parasite Infected Trolls in Social Media
So how might this be playing out in today’s world, particularly with social media technologies in particular? How can we recognize how this takes place in everyday terms, lifestyles and psychology?
After being confronted with several cases of alien love bites and other archontic infected machinations through certain people, I was inspired to write this post on Facebook:
“My next article and web panel discussion will be on Archontic copy cat programs, and how mind controlled, entity infected people running these programs use others work to promote themselves and smear others reputation with their stupidity.”
It never ceases to amaze me at the effectiveness of mind control, conditioning programs and corrupted beliefs to completely hoodwink and lead people astray. You see, the mind control doesn’t have to take the form of some overt MK-Ultra handled and trauma tortured person in a ritual abuse cult, in order for them to act out “programs” of the controllers, Archontic parasites, reptilian entities, demons or whatever is working through them. On the contrary, sometimes those who have been more heavily handled and tortured, tend to be the ones that cannot be controlled more easily by the generic conditioning population control methods for the “average intelligence” and spiritually “lukewarm” people. This is something that alien abduction researchers such as Barbara Bartholic, myself, James Bartley and Karla Turner have noticed with many “alien abductees”. It was often those people who were specifically targeted with an extra dose of abuse, interference, programming and control to be kept in line with the Archontic control system over humanity. These persons were interfered with more heavily and used as lab rats to develop and streamline the best control systems by the shadow “breakaway” groups implementing these occult control systems on humanity. Most of these individuals—original abductees— remained relatively unknown for their real lives and “abilities”, while some who are “parasited” and running the alien or MK Ultra occult programming tended to be the big famous people. Or those who are high up in alphabet soup agencies, occult organizations, aerospace, academia and entertainment. It just works that way for the most part. The more heavy an influence a position will have, the more likely the person at the top is already controlled by these archontic parasite programs.
The media is chock full of these Archontic infected trolls and imitators whose sole function is to skew the true statistical presence of real discussion, opinions and truth that originals will make known. Some may refer to these trolls as “bots” which may not even be real people, but programs designed to react to specific topics, memes or discussions. I found it alarming that for having only a scarce 194 friends on Facebook, I had assigned to me nearly thirty Facebook security fake profiles and people who apparently stalk certain groups regularly without being real “friends” on Facebook. (I have since deleted my Facebook account) And when you effort to block them, Facebook security won’t let you! And if this tactic doesn’t work to discourage originals from writing and discussing apparently “subversively tagged” material, the Archontic infected imitators and parasites start posting material on the internet whose real purpose is to malign and taint the reputation of originals and truth telling folks.
I found this video on Youtube describing typical, reptilian targeting troll tactics. This is the description of the video:
“Published on Jan 6, 2017
“Mirrored Original” The Dynamics Of Realm Piracy – Case Example 2Circles YT channel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWhXX... The Solution
Only the strong finish the journey. What is most important to survive this adventure are:
-Daily cold showers
-Meditation to cultivate the inner silence (Spirit ignition)
-Heavy weight lifting
This strengthens the pull of the soul on the body. Comes with a feeling of confidence and overall well being and makes it much more difficult for entities to weaken you psychologically/emotionally. Easy gymnastics won’t do it, you have to push your limits.
Having strong emotional self control is absolutely vital for remaining uninfluenced by forces that prey on our emotions. This is achieved by constant honest self-observation, correction and maturing.
And ALWAYS being aware that there ARE those that prey on our emotions. Knowing and accepting that is half the battle won. Knowing that you are about to be manipulated into a fight, prevents it right away. Knowing that you were manipulated into one, makes it easier to deal with it afterwards.
You are not your body, not your name, not your life story. You are a soul that had hundreds of experiences like that. No one and nothing in this reality can do the REAL YOU any harm.
Always remember this when being challenged and provoked. It’s not you that gets attacked, but merely your Matrix Avatar Toon.
You take no damage when Super Mario gets killed by a turtle.
Neither does the real you take damage when a matrix lizard attacks your avatar. It’s just a game.
It happens more often than one would think, but most people don’t recognize the reptilian signature, the psychic mind reading, synchronistic component of “timed reptilian assaults” online. Of course this can happen in person in different ways, but is more common online. I’ve had these occur in several ways, often time in a multiple hit format, in person with some social interaction, online emails or forum remarks, Facebook etc. It’s how it is orchestrated seemingly from a hyper-dimensional perspective, perhaps with the assistance of artificial intelligence mediated through the internet utilizing the “troll matrix characters” to carry out their archontic programmed, parasite functions.”
There are also Facebook “copycat social media programs”, where you get some email invitation from a friend or email address you recognize, and to get the message, you have to open a link and it immediately copies your FB profile and by just clicking on the link to try to read the message, it automatically sets up your social media page, (without permission) after which you start receiving numerous invitations, messages and so on. Then when you go to delete the account or unsubscribe, it pops up a page where you have to accept their cookies in order to delete your page! Unbelievable!
I’m sure many have made initial purchases for online dating networking only to realize that it won’t let you unsubscribe or remove your profile from public view. Even if you call their contact number several times, it keeps charging your credit card. Apparently to delete your subscription you have to find a specific email they send with a slew of other junk emails that fill up your box so much you cannot find the one email with the fine print hidden in a way you cannot easily find the “Do not continue, unsubscribe” option. It is insane and deceptive, and what is worse is that when you do manage to speak to a “real person” through a phone contact number, they justify the corrupt, deceptive business tactics and make you wrong and “feel guilty and shamed” for not consenting to be endlessly charged. Archontic copy cats just following orders from their controllers of course….
It makes you think that people who promote these things have been archontically “copied out” having lost their soul and moral compass, so they normalize fraudulent business operations in the name of technology or, “its just a job”.
Spam emails are similar in that they try to make it irresistible to not click on a link that tells you money has been deposited into your Pay Pal account, after which it is yet another scam to steal personal information. One has to wonder the minds who create such scams, spam and crime businesses, and if they too are nothing but Archontic copied out “back drop people” whose sole purpose is to carry out their copycat parasite program, in such a way that it looks “normal”. IT IS NOT NORMAL. Nor is it human or whatever were original humans? The serpent seed? Who knows…
The sad thing about the increase in scams, and all manner of deceitful crimes is that it causes one to be suspicious and distrusting. It is not always safe to “help” someone in need or on the side of the road for example, especially for a woman.
Now I know there are good people out there who give, are volunteers for many organizations, and I also know people who were inspired to give, during the holidays for example —to a particular Christmas gift giving Facebook group for the local poor in their community. And they got caught into a scam. These generous people, in one case, were told a sob story of how the recipient man is a poor unemployed widower with kids to support who desperately needed help. Turned out that the poor widower was a meth addict, crack head, leeching off easily duped people to collect as many “gift cards” as possible for himself. So we really have to ask ourselves, how can we still be able to give and live according to positive spiritual laws, and still maintain discernment so that you “know” when you’ve been targeted for a scam or dishonest business practices? (Or sexual predators on dating sites…)
You see, people would like to give and live in generous ways where they don’t have to be afraid of being ripped off, hurt or left in dangerous situations. It’s also true that as the economic depression increases, the number of scams and illegal business operations (including sex trafficking and human slavery) increase along with the reversing of the moral compass “just to survive”. If you ask me, it is all engineered by the same Archontic predators so that people have less and less chances to get out of their reptilian brain and out of the trap of poverty consciousness.
A key point to observe also, is how many businesses which require some sort of agreement, where the real important parts are in the fine print, which is really a form of entrapment, or what we now call “agreement of entrapment”, that legally binds you to their deceitful thievery and access to you or your personal information. This is why creating statements of non-consent and declarations of non consent may be helpful. A sample “Declaration of Non-Consent” can be viewed here:
These agreements of entrapment extend beyond “signing forms or agreements” for purchases, job confidentialities or online social media. These agreements of entrapment are carried out within our own belief systems, and how we can get sucked into feelings of guilt, shame and obligation that in reality is not our own “stuff”, but projections and manipulations by others who don’t deal with their stuff–who are expert manipulators. See my previous article on Cleaning Up Others Messes—When is Enough?
This is ultimately a lesson on Boundaries, if we want to be free and unharmed from predators acting out archontic programs.
Spiritual Warfare is about Soul Harvesting
It is not all black and white however, as there are so many programs and unimaginable activities going on that the average, easily distracted person may never become aware of it, and be counted in as easily “harvestable material” by the ones who lay claim on their human souls.
Most of the population won’t notice these covert shadow government, breakaway and “alien” engineered activities but the abductees and milabs—especially those with supernatural abilities and higher IQ’s tend to be monitored, targeted and tweaked like canaries in a coal mine so that the rest of the population will be easily controlled in comparison and not even know they are enslaved and manipulated. All for the harvest of course. It is a spiritual war and never forget that.
Some may prefer to perceive this as some kind of spiritual evolution, or ascension cycle. But if you ask me, it’s not quite that simple. The complexity lies in the Archontic infection, “imitators of humans” and artificial intelligence “beast” technologies which have hijacked so many systems that the probability of people waking up, as time proceeds is becoming less likely. (At least if life continues in this fashion.) Excepting for the few, the brave, unrelenting truth seekers whose determination to seek the truth, live the example through their originality and shining goodness of their beingness. Not copy-cats.
The Loss of Discernment and Skewing of Moral Compass
Unfortunately our Earth history, religions and values have been so corrupted and in some cases, completely reversed. People who do not listen or follow their own spiritual intuition—and do the real healing work, called self-responsibility— are easily taken over by the false copy-cat programs and parasites without even knowing it has hijacked them. They lose their spiritual discernment, and often fall into either the victim or predator role. Their moral compass is often skewed by this point and now they are operating on behaviors, compulsions and beliefs that justify the ”the archontic parasite programs”. It is these individuals who tend to copy-cat the “creative originals”, or promote themselves using others’ accomplishments to flagellate their own egos, businesses, and compulsive self-justifications.
This is sad, infuriating and disgusting. I see how something real and genuine such as “interdimensional interference, alien manipulation and high technology, black magic operations really do happen, and yet the parasited “copy cats” and emotionally, spiritually weak and intellectually ignorant people will use every excuse to essentially say, “the devil made me do it”—it’s his/her fault and I’m a poor victim and he/she is the monster doing all of this to me.” Not only that, but I’ve directly observed how the whining victim claiming an “alien love bite” through corrupted New Age beliefs and practice in reptilian manipulated, neo-tantric sexual practices completely put themselves in harm’s way through lack of discernment. Or excessive drug use like methamphetamine or “crack”. This thus enables the predator/abuser to be and act out what they are with free reign, while both are essentially playing the whining victim card, etc.
What I see is the failure of many to understand some basic spiritual laws, and how their own lack of healing, false beliefs, egotistical desires and mind controlled behaviors led them straight into the predators den, until they too started acting like energy vampires! You know, the old vampire tales of how the “victim gets bitten” and turns into a vampire themselves may not be completely untrue—unless the victim heals, learns true spiritual laws and takes personal responsibility to reconnect with their real Spirit instead of the Archon parasites, and false programs of the copy-cats playing gods—or humans. Since, after all, we are often dealing with something that is no longer human, per se, but pretenders who are in actuality predators who tend to exhibit psychopathic, narcissistic, vampiric tendencies. Some can be quite charming, and alluring in sexuality, carrying out the “reptilian sexual predations and tactics” of false twin flames, kundalini activation, bliss and the characteristic alien love bite/Dark Cupid dynamics. (See: The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships (https://www.amazon.com/Love-Bite-Alien-Interference-Relationships/dp/0967773709/)
and The Dark Side of Cupid: Love Affairs, The Supernatural and Energy Vampirism by Eve Lorgen (https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Side-Cupid-Supernatural-Vampirism/dp/0967799546/ref=pd_sim_14_1?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=0967799546&pd_rd_r=G6G7DQCTHWE48RG0RCBX&pd_rd_w=jfWB6&pd_rd_wg=qloXp&psc=1&refRID=G6G7DQCTHWE48RG0RCBX
This is often an X-rated topic all its own which, at some point, we will address in an upcoming Web Panel discussion where we elaborate more on the reptilian sexual predations and abilities.
So much can be learned through a basic understanding of human psychology, trauma, addictions, genuine spiritual laws and ethics. And, I must admit, that many of us who have had any sort of traumatic experiences related to the “alien love bite”, or anomalous hyperdimensional interferences, such as mind control, sorcery attacks, targeting, or even MK Ultra programs, we realize that hindsight is 20/20 vision.
Hope, Self-Forgiveness and Humility
It is easy to be angry, blaming, and self-pitying when these kinds of traumatic experiences happen to us over and over again. We can fall into a kind of hopelessness to give up when we see this day in and day out. We may choose to numb ourselves, isolate or self-medicate with all manner of distractions or even addictions. We may just normalize the “dysfunction” of it all, believing it is “just the way it is”, while actually perpetuating and creating these beliefs and patterns in our reality.
But I know that this is not the solution. Hope is here, and people are waking up, healing, taking personal responsibility and helping others. We just have to go deep enough inside ourselves, be humble and willing enough to feel, connect, self-forgive and allow the wisdom of our Spirit to move at the pace of what is right for us. We are all in different places, from different family systems, cultures and age groups.
Guilt, Shame and “Dysfunctional Family Loyalties”
This brings me to the topic of how family or group loyalties can affect our discriminating wisdom and hinder the opening up of opportunity to ultimate freedom.
One thing I have observed that is often a stumbling block to healing, integration and awareness of our “Spiritual higher Self” is the lack of understanding of “agreements of entrapment” . The key is to understand how our own trapped emotions and deep beliefs about “what we should do or be” imprison us to remain victims of continual manipulation by hyper dimensional forces, or our own subconscious minds, family systems and “curses”. In essence,
The entire spiritual manipulation system and agreements of entrapment seem to lie in how we allow guilt, shame, family loyalties and obligations to keep us tied to someone, thing, or group etc ., whose only job is to drag us down energetically and vibrationally such that we too may get spiritually harvested or used as archontic puppets to be recycled endlessly.
We actually see this family loyalty obligation heavily in “Mafia families” and Illuminati Bloodline families to the extent that those who choose to break away from “their handlers and abusers—who have used them to promote crime and other “agendas”, are shamed with guilt, punished and left to the wolves, homeless, sometimes medically and financially compromised or reputations smeared. This ties in with the psychopathology of narcissistic abuse, and how cult abuse creates innumerable agreements of entrapment for manipulation.
Why is this insistence of the “obligation to loyalties so impressed upon families or even “specific fraternal groups, cults or alphabet soup agencies?” Think about it, if you are in recovery, lets say from any kind of drug or alcohol addiction, recovering from any kind of sexual abuse, narcissistic cult abuse etc., the single most important action to take to recover is the NO CONTACT RULE, and of course to not “use” the substance of abuse. One of the most difficult things for people in recovery is the complete change in not only their drinking or drug habits but their social lifestyle, relationships and maybe even their careers. When family loyalties keep them locked into guilt and shame, or normalize dysfunctional behaviors, they are left wide open to be manipulated by the same dark forces that caused them to become self-medicating addicts to begin with. Guilt and shame are the most common means in which “the dark side” creates agreements of entrapment to ensure they have souls to exploit, manipulate and ultimately, if possible, to harvest for their own use.
In some Buddhist texts such as Zurchunpa’s Testament (Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, Snowlion Publications, 2006) it is suggested, if not required, to detach from ones own family and country of origin, if the enlightenment seeking yogi wishes to become free from the cycles of samsara. It is also suggested to keep the company of excellent friends who abide by virtue. Pride, attachment, aversion and distractions are the enemies of true freedom. And, “If you do not practice the moment faith arises, there will be no end to the jobs you have to do.” (Pg.33)
Faith from the Buddhist perspective, is actually the number one key to finding and practicing the Dharma. Dharma is essentially the teachings of truth. Awareness of truth happens through faith, practicing virtue, taking the time to meditate in awareness and contemplate the true causes and effects of what is perceived in reality. My only criticisms regarding classical Buddhist instructions are the lack of clarification of human psychology, interpersonal relations and contemporary issues on anomalous experiences. There is also a kind of idolized over culturalization of Asian traditions, which often reflect some forms of archontic infection such as gender inequality, and hive minded assumptions holding group loyalties. Buddhist groups, just like any other religious groups and cults can be just as vulnerable to mind control programming and “archontic infection” as any other, unless the truth seeking yogi really remembers their true spiritual origins. By this time, they often remain unnamed and anonymous, living through the spontaneous wisdom of the Spirit.
In my previous article, “The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators”(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/the-aftermath-of-the-alien-love-bite-soul-types-and-predators/) I proposed to write an article that could answer some tough questions by my clients, especially the ones who were born into “specific bloodlines” of ruling occult groups who target them for many reasons. The questions that have been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid, “love bite” experiencers are, “Why do I repeatedly keep being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings?” And of course the biggest question by these people is, “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”
I contemplated this from a more spiritual perspective based upon a profound experience I had many years ago at the age of 22. This experience catalyzed a deep realization of remembrance, a core essence of being, whose depth of “realness” was so immense, total, absolute and freeing, that the core significance of it vindicated a deep realness within an eternal place of being. A deeper, greater reality. It was recognition of truth of beingness free of the earthly and even “astral” state of being. This deep knowing is present always, when in this state of presence. But when I returned back into my body state of consciousness, the shock of this realization was so intense it nearly gave me a heart attack. In fact, I believed at the time, if I did not return to my “body” from this realized state of beingness, my heart would explode and I would die of some kind of heart attack.
Well, I did not die physically, but the experience of spiritual remembrance left me shaken, wordless and deeply imprinted in such a way that a truth was revealed in me, for recognitions sake, beyond all religion or teachings that I had known at that time. It was not until many years later in my exploration of Gnostic, Tibetan Buddhist studies and Advaita-Vedanta mystical teachings that I came to understand this experience. But the ironic thing about this realization was that my original intention and prayers for three days and nights was to “know and understand the truth of Jesus Christ, the one in the Bible.” Well, I can assure you this was no “vision” of Jesus but more of a direct recognition of beingness that was so utterly real in its depth, that there was no question in my mind about what truth is inside our being. “Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first within you and all will be added unto you.” Each and every one of us who has an eternal spirit of awareness has this within them. But most of us do not fully remember this state of being.
What People Really Want—Freedom and Happiness
So much of what my counseling clients seek is of course, happiness, but more specifically, freedom from inter dimensional interference, and all that goes with this. The “archontic” Matrix control systems run by seemingly predatory beings, both human and non human— appears to be the problem on “the outside” that ruins so many lives. Ultimately I believe, building upon and recognizing the real—our internal truth of being—is the key to freedom, empowerment, love and all good things. But for most people, and even “yogis and mystics”, this must be done gradually, in such a way that we increase and expand our awareness of “reality”. This awareness becomes more and more real, until we can sustain a measure of lucidity in mindfulness.
True happiness comes from within. It actually arises out of getting in touch with our core essence of being. Contact with true reality. It is not a short term investment strategy, nor does it have to take a long time. But it does require that you desire it, are willing to be still, have faith, be patient, humble and courageous.
Getting Lucid with Mindfulness and Self-Observation
This must be a step by step process, where we are intentionally committed expand our own awareness, out of which comes change. Mindfulness is not really about “trying to change” but rather intending on allowing ones awareness to be aware of truth versus lies; stalking the illusions. As we go into a place of self-observation and mindfulness, we will start to perceive what distractions and “obstacles in our path” have prevented us from being still, from being happy, from feeling love. From feeling truly alive and knowing ourselves in our core essence. It is not a “conceptual self analysis” or self-absorbed narcissism either. It requires us to take notice of whatever feelings are present in the moment, without identifying with them so much that we lose our lucidity.
What is lucidity, you may ask? For me, it is awareness of being aware. Like what happens when you are in a dream, and know you are dreaming. In that moment of recognition, the reality of the dream deepens immensely, everything vivifies, and with it can come a natural state of wonder and joy of whatever arises in the moment. It unleashes the wonder of each unfolding moment as a mystery that is beyond our illusion of controlling the dream. Many people assume that lucidity in dreams is being able to control the dream or the vividness of it. But this is in error. It is the absolute knowing that you are dreaming and therefore have a greater ability to create and connect on expanded levels of being, not only as the dreamer, but as the background of the dreams and characters. It is a wonderful oneiric laboratory to explore self-healing, and discovering parts of ourselves we may not be fully aware of. We can apply lucidity in our meditation, in our daily lives. We can take advantage of this process when we have negative feelings and positive feelings. With lucid awareness our understanding of the feelings observed in that moment will be revealed in such a way, that we are able change out of an authentic awakening, with much less effort.
When we “wake up” we no longer will hold on to the things which we realize are illusions, distractions, addictions, bad relationships, avoidance or self-pity. The waking up process is not so easy however. When it does happen, it can be painful, and we may hit a threshold of obstacles, pain, and intense suffering of any number of feelings before we have that “aha!” moment. It tends to happen in stages when we can process the insights revealed over time and with maturity. In my view, the spiritual path to awakening is a healing journey where deep psychological changes take place.
Psychological Healing and Trauma Resolution Therapy Helps Wake Us Up
Waking up to a greater spiritual reality inevitably requires substantial psychological self reflection and healing of our deepest core wounds. This is essentially a psychotherapeutic process to root out the original causes of our suffering. It is really a rooting out process of identifying that which is false, and cutting through the psychological defenses which keep us from connecting deeper into our own core selves. Oftentimes it is easier to discover what the truth is by knowing in our heart, what we are not. And I can assure you, most beliefs in the “matrix world system” are geared to prop up false beliefs about who and what you are, in order to control you. The unenlightened love to lord over and control you, they are lovers of power, usually with big egos. Have you ever noticed how the power hungrier someone is, the more of a psychopath they turn out to be? And do you really think they have your best interests at heart?
Now here is a paradox. The truth is, things do not need to be fixed, they need to be understood. If we can truly understand without judgement and over identification and excessive emotional triggering, things will change naturally. Oh, but what does this really mean when we break things down into practical day to day living and being?
Therapy and counseling in some practices are more about alleviating symptoms or reinforcing the “matrix world view”, where pharmaceuticals are prescribed or “things to make you feel better” are advised. And on the spiritual front line of “enlightenment solutions” we can run into the fake gurus who are really spiritual predator-vampires. Gatekeepers and soul entrappers who end up identifying and feeding off of the real “gifted ones”. Then they target you to exploit or clamp down your real, supernatural abilities. I do find it almost ironic, that many who have woken up, have found out by going to hell and back. Or having been trapped by evil sorcerers, or being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist only to discover what they don’t want and who they are not. This is a huge key. You want to know why?
Because when things get bad enough you are forced to feel negative emotions. You may be forced to drop your ego and surrender enough to experience a deeper presence of being within. You may hit rock bottom like the alcoholic or drug addict who finally realizes their way of life is killing them. They finally wake up to the shocking insanity and intense pain they are feeling. It is necessary to get in touch with the negative feelings you are having, be aware of what they are. Take note of the positive ones too. What causes these feelings, really? Where do they start in your body? Can you be in your body or are you habitually dissociating? You need to be still long enough to know when your automatic, triggered avoidance patterns start kicking into gear, in ways that actually pull you out of REALITY and connection with your heart and your core self. You know that is what addictions are all about don’t you? Avoidance of uncomfortable feelings, hidden traumas and vulnerable emotional wounds.
Do you know what is funny? Addicts and alcoholics feel like life would be boring and dull without the drugs, alcohol etc. Many have not really got into contact with their core selves because they are avoiding bad feelings, perhaps repressed traumas. Trauma and addictions go together like peas and carrots. If you work on one, let’s say the drinking part, the other issue will rise to the surface. If you deal with the trauma first, and truly resolve the trauma over time, (or even rapidly with modalities such as Rapid Release Trauma Therapy, hypnotherapies etc.) your addictions may just stop by themselves. Or in the least with less effort. This is where the understanding part comes in. With understanding, things will change naturally. You don’t have to “fix feelings”, you just have to self-connect long enough to understand, let go of the illusions and the problems disappear. It is really more about letting go.
And you know what will drive psychopaths and abusers away from you? You want to get rid of them? Start a meditation practice, be still, silent and ever aware. They will think you are so BORING they will leave you alone and have to find someone else for their narcissistic supply of energy!
The Walls We Hit Before Waking Up
Faith is the number one necessity before any positive change can occur. This is a pre-requisite for Buddhist teachings on enlightenment and for genuine happiness as well. It is not just a Christian virtue, but is supreme in just about every religion. If you prefer, we can say that it is helpful that you see that it is desirable to wake up in order to relieve your suffering. It must be desirable to give up illusions and dependencies on what is NOT REAL so you can make contact with that deeper REALITY. That awakening to the deeper reality of your true beingness is so powerful that entire systems of control have been created to keep you addicted to the fake, so as to distract you without you even knowing you are a puppet. So do you really want freedom and awakening?
And what tends to happen before we can drop illusions, over identifications, and ego masks to go deeper inside the mystery of the heart and spirit? Those psychological defenses pop up, mind control programs, avoidance patterns, addictions, distractions and real demons could start manifesting. Oftentimes when our distraction patterns drop, we touch in with our aloneness during periods of silence. We can feel quite alone even when we are with someone, if any emotional wounds have not been dealt with. There is this thing called loneliness which can be so unbearable, despairing and empty that we avoid it at all costs, thinking loneliness can only be cured by having company, or doing the things which numb those bad feelings when you start to feel lonely or depressed. Loneliness can happen when we are with someone or alone. It can happen when we start to be still in solitude, even in meditation, as we get in touch with silence. Sometimes the loneliness is like a wall of the most despairing pain of hopelessness, non love, and shameful unworthiness. A rejection so deep, an abandonment so great that you split it off into another compartment of your being. It could be the overlay covering up rage, intense sadness or even terror. But remember this is a wall, they are feelings, which are not really you, but feelings of experience you have had or still live in you based on something much earlier in life that was never healed or made conscious.
Our Addictions and Avoidance Patterns Distort Our Perception of Reality
The difficult part of the self-discovery process is how many of our behaviors are running on a kind of automatic mode, something we cannot seem to consciously control from a logical perspective. When we are still running on these automatic defenses and “conditioned programs”, our perceptions of others and of reality is skewed. We tend to see people through the lens of our own addictive needs—the needs we cling to so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable feelings, our old wounds still festering inside. If we seem to be stuck in blaming others, or trying to fix the world, we have not fully woken up. If we keep trying to control others in co-dependent relationships, we have not done our self-healing work. If we still are dependent on approval, appreciation and the constant distraction of company of others (in a compulsive way), we are still asleep. If we keep finding ourself looking for love from someone out there, we have not dealt with our stuff. If we habitually manipulate others into providing for our own “psychic energy”, attention and approval, we are actually emotional energy vampires in disguise.
Now I know this sounds harsh and like a cliche about seeking it all within. It is not ALL within but so much of it is, that if we don’t take personal responsibility and a willing humbleness to deal with our SH**, then nothing will change. Love happens through openness and awareness. It can only happen by dropping the illusions which have kept us in this merry go round of distractions, numbness and disconnection from reality.
What We Need is Slowing Down
There are some things that we do need, however. Safety is very important, either in or out of a relationship. Many of my anomalous trauma clients lack the safety and sustained stillness to stay with the mindful, healing and recovery process long enough to truly wake up. They may have so much drama and “interference” that any kind of committed therapy process is unlikely. And when this happens I can guarantee you it is part of the “program” to keep the person believing that it is impossible, unnecessary, too expensive, everyone else’s fault and the entire gamut of I’m right, ego rigidity and “yes but…”.excuses. Many of the excuses are part of what I call the learned helplessness, “whining victim” program that effectively self sabotages true change. And if I would tell this to someone who is in the midst of a whopping, whining victim (or predator) program, it would infuriate them. The truth is, they really believe they are powerless because they are trapped in illusions.
What we do need is willingness for more awareness, stillness, enjoying the simple pleasures of life, like decent food, water, light, exercise, a good book, perhaps an entertaining movie now and then. But what we don’t need is to be so busy that we cannot enjoy simple pleasures and instead adopt artificial stimulants, or are too busy and sleep deprived to even enjoy simple pleasures. We want to engage the true senses and slow down. When we do slow down, our senses actually come more alive, making it easier to enjoy simple pleasures. The need for addictions, drama or over stimulation falls away. It only requires a decision to be still with awareness for a short period daily or on a regular enough basis in small steps and goals. You can perceive miracles and hidden, secret things from slowing down. Your perceptions expand, and when you start noticing all kinds of things, understanding of what arises starts to awaken in you. This enables you to change, the awareness that comes with simply slowing down.
Mindfulness Meditation is Good
In my own experience, I had explored just about every “therapy” there is, from cognitive-behavioral talk therapy, hypnotherapy, rebirthing, interpersonal communication skills, marriage and family therapy, lucid dreaming, journaling, art therapy, dance, creative writing, martial arts, Chi Gong, authentic movement and yoga. You name it, I did it. Some significant radical shifts in expanded awareness occurred after doing a couple of 10 day shamatha meditation retreats. Shamatha meditation is a very simple form of mindful sitting meditation where one follows the breath, a single object of meditation or awareness of whatever arises in the mind. (http://www.deerparkthimphu.org/activities/shamatha.html) I personally would recommend doing this with a very good teacher in person, someone like Dr. Alan B. Wallace. (http://www.sbinstitute.com/Shamatha_Project)
Sometimes it takes getting out of your ordinary habits in a different environment, where silence and stillness with awareness is the only activity. For me, meditation is what woke me up to feeling and finally perceiving in vivid, expanded awareness, the insanity I had been living, and it was shocking and painful enough for me to change. For other individuals however, it may be something else that wakes them up in such a way as to be the catalyst for effective change. I’ve seen some “meditation junkies” become kind of addicted to the cult aspect of Buddhist community, instead of doing more deep, psychotherapeutic work. Some people actually fall into dissociation, rather than embodied awareness in stillness, that true meditation requires. This is why it is good to have an experienced teacher, who has demonstrated their own internal self-healing and mindfulness work. You will recognize them by their openness, compassion, and wisdom in how they live their lives and how well their own students learn and exemplify wisdom in their lives.
The evidence is when change starts to take place in you, in your awareness. It happens, you don’t do it. If you try to “do it” it doesn’t last. Change is natural through awareness of truth, reality and embodied self-connectedness. Then you keep your openness, flexibility, softness and compassion through awareness. It is not a rigid “trying to control”, change. Or being compelled to lecture or prove yourself right. The evidence is in the softness, ease, effortless effort, compassion, awareness, wisdom and openness. It is a tasting and feeling, an experiential, expanded perception beyond information in your head or over analyzing on a conceptual level. And with this comes strength and courageousness. Joy will start to emerge, a spontaneousness to perceive humor in life as well.
Doing the Healing Work
Nothing is more painful and humbling than someone telling you that, “you need therapy”, or ask you sarcastically, “are you off your meds?”. Or when a concerned family member, friend or fellow work mate suggests you get into a recovery program for an ongoing addiction you have normalized in your life, which is starting to create problems that you, apparently, are unaware of. More often than not, when we do decide to get “professional help” for something, it resulted from an uncomfortable situation in our life like a broken relationship, lost job or God forbid, a Driving Under the Influence (DUI) or police arrest. One good thing about suffering is that it can be the agent of positive change and expanded awareness. Some experiences, such as a narcissistic abuse, alien love bite relationships can be so intense and psycho-spiritually shattering that it can serve as a “spiritual initiation” of permanent consciousness change. A real wake up call.
The sad part about “not having done our healing and personal growth work”, or for short, “not dealing with your sh**” (NDWYSH), means that some part of you has disconnected from your spiritual core essence, most likely your emotional center. Part of your heart actually shuts down, and with this shutting down comes a block in your awareness, a blind spot. We do this to ourselves as a reaction to stress, trauma or deep emotional wounds. Sometimes our conditioned beliefs and ways we were raised in our family system required us to be cut off from our own authentic being, or we would not be accepted, loved. In severe cases, if we did not do or be what we were told, we were beaten up, abused or thrown out on the streets. Abandoned.
It is rather ironic that in order to psychologically survive such kinds of abuse and traumas, we abandon our own selves, to protect us from the shock of the reality that perhaps we lived in a very unsafe world, where we really were unloved or had psychopath caretakers. And for many of us, the shock of reality, the extreme vulnerability and powerlessness of childhood, and our feelings about the craziness we have had to endure, was too much for a young child.(It can be too much for an adult!) That inner child—whose real needs, identity, whose heart and soul had to be abandoned or be put in cold storage somewhere, until some day, it would be safe enough to be who we are and feel what we feel.
Co-Dependency is a Spiritual Issue
In Melanie Tonia Evans article, “On Co-Dependency and Narcisicism, (See: http://blog.melanietoniaevans.com/2014-co-dependency-check-up/) she addresses the culprit of the spiritual disease of Co-Dependency and Narcissism:
“Societal beliefs, unconsciousness, and the horrific programming of ‘Needing to get worthiness, value, approval, and love outside of ourselves’ is all responsible for the dis-ease (yes it is a human disease) of co-dependency.
The reason being is: we are all a product of a world that looks “outwards” for comfort and fulfillment. We were NOT taught to come inside and self-partner in times of stress.
Rather we were told to “Shut up and get on with it”, or that our feelings and emotions were “inconvenient” and “irrelevant” and therefore had to be ignored, repressed, shoved aside or switched off.
As a result we all became more and more disconnected from our emotional centres and we tried to acquire stuff or people’s love and approval to stop the pain, and when that failed we took up addictions (self-avoidance mechanisms) to try to numb ourselves out from the pain.
Co-dependency is a spiritual disease. It is NOT a psychological issue, the psychological component is the symptom. It is an emotional issue, a soul issue. The remedy does not lie in logical thinking. It requires a deep connection back to yourself and your true connection with Source / Life / God.
Until we know we are at One with Source (and at the Quantum Level that is the absolute scientific truth) we cannot ever be at One with ourselves, others or this planet.
This is when we suffer the results of “disconnection” and are not generating the Source truth of “wellbeing”. Rather we are granted by Source/Life/God the results of our free will choice of living in the illusions of “separation”.
And that separation hurts so much it makes us want to be addicted to whatever alleviates these awful feelings of disconnection from our true REAL SELVES/SPIRIT/SOURCE.
By reacting in unconscious triggering, and whatever addictions we choose to effectively numb our pain, this decision constitutes an agreement to disconnect from our heart and soul, leaving us open for other substitutes to run our “vehicle”. This disconnect also takes away from our life force energy and our awareness in consciousness, because energy and awareness are linked. The more your energy is lost, the less aware you become.
We may have grown up this way, living in dysfunctional families, where all these kinds of crazy behaviors were normalized, including verbal abuse, emotional neglect, boundary invasions, poor communication skills and addictions. And when we grew older, and entered into relationships, jobs and started raising our own families, we started having huge problems. Sometimes it is the problems that wake us up to the discovery of how blind, numb, abusive or victimized we really were. And when we don’t heal these original wounds, we set ourselves up to be hurt even more, sometimes as victims or on the other end of it as perpetrators of abuse.
The difficult thing about effective, lasting change is that it must be dealt with on deeper levels of our being, not just logical analysis or simple awareness of your patterns. It must happen in such a way that you connect to the younger feeling parts of yourself that initially experienced the trauma, the vulnerable part who held false beliefs about themselves or the world, that needs to be let go of. The self abandonment that occurs with early traumas are often linked in with Boundary issues. According to Melanie Tonia Evans,
“True empowered boundaries mean: ‘I love myself and I know my truth. I know who I am, and I will not compromise myself anymore. You have a choice to be in my reality of meeting this higher vibration. If you don’t – that’s okay – I’m not in anymore regardless of the consequences. Because in no way is the correct and healthy development of my life dependent on you making any particular choice, or even understanding what I need. You are NOT my source of self – I AM!’
Now of course we don’t reach this level of conduct until we have done the work on ourselves to get there, and naturally the work is about finding and up-levelling the young unhealed parts of our Inner Being that are still hooked on “You HAVE to be the source of me because I can’t be that to myself”.
It is true, as children we couldn’t be a source to ourselves, we were entirely co-dependent. We were powerless and vulnerable, and if we haven’t healed and up-levelled these young parts – which means self-developing and growing them lovingly and supportively up – they still affect us, regardless of knowing better logically. I promise you the painful aspects of our life are not being created logically, and they can’t be solved logically.”
It’s been stated in therapy circles, “There is no healing without feeling”. And I believe this is true. Sometimes all we need is the safety, empathy and permission to feel whatever is happening inside us with gentle nudging towards real release and deep insight. It is amazing what people do when they hit their “wall” of the pain.(Or PTSD overload) Oftentimes they may spin into story telling, over and over, in a cyclic, anger—addicted way, without true resolution of the underlying feeling. Feelings are in layers, and what most people do not understand is that emotions like rage and anger are actually secondary. They cover up deeper feelings that are more vulnerable. The goal is to be able to reach that wall with awareness of what we habitually have been doing to jerk away from the “feeling”, the real memories etc., so we can address that protective part and the beliefs it may hold— which “takes control” to avoid the issue. For some people, they need more aggressive confrontation and redirection to be present with THAT FEELING and memory. Others need more gentle reassurance, nudging and guidance to take that feeling to its origin in the present now. Sometime it must be taken slowly, so that the feelings and embodied awareness of processing this energy can be done with more self control, safely without triggered PTSD syndrome.
Being able to feel, be vulnerable, feel safe, and let go of what is pent up inside creating so many problems, is not always an easy, logical process. It can take time, or it can be relatively fast, once the defenses are set aside to release and get to the truth. Working directly with the subconscious mind, identifying those beliefs and fears is the eventual goal for more rapid resolution. We must get in touch with those abandoned parts, love them, forgive them, self parent them, and allow these parts to grow up. This is how you stop seeking and expecting others to always fill those voids, to be happy. Then we are less likely to attract predators. The predators will be attracted to you if you still are not taking personal responsibility for your healing and still have self abandonment and “blind spots”. If we keep seeking others to “take away our pain”, keep us from feeling lonely, depressed or looking for that magic healer to “clear all my implants, attached entities”, etc. we will fall into the same traps. It is not that a therapist or healer cannot help you, but it should be, rather, that they help guide you to help yourself and bring into your awareness the self-discovery to heal yourself. You have to be ready to feel, and see what you are really believing about yourself, life and others. The denial must be dropped for clear perception. And clarity comes as you drop those addictions, illusions, excessive fears and desires.
If you haven’t gotten it yet that healing is all about deeper self-connection, self responsibility, expanded awareness, and being willing to be vulnerable in your heart, you will fall back into the co-dependent “conditioning program”. Or keep on being addicted to numbing, blaming others, acting out, etc. Or you may fall into the perpetrator rather than victim role, or vacillate between the two.
How can we become more aware of what we are really doing, not doing, believing, or feeling in ways that indicate there is still some healing to do? Are you worried or compelled to try to “protect people from their feelings”? Do you do this unconsciously? What fears are driving you—what beliefs? Practice awareness, mindfulness. Here is a good “Co-Dependency Checklist” that Melanie Tonia Evans created for those in recovery programs:
▪ Do you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people think about you?
▪ Do you try to impress other people and make them happy so that you can be happy?
▪ Do you often analyse other people’s lives?
▪ Do you get distressed by bad things that happen which are out of your control?
▪ Do you say and do what you think other people want you to say and do?
▪ Do you try to control other people’s behaviour so that you can feel okay?
▪ When an interaction with someone goes ‘wrong’ do you spend time analysing their actions, what they said and what they might be feeling and thinking?
▪ Do you find it difficult to speak up and confront an issue when you feel uncomfortable?
▪ Do you blame other people for the way you feel?
▪ Do other people’s moods bring your own mood down?
▪ Do you immediately think of someone else who needs this information more than you?
▪ Do you seek and listen to other people’s opinions rather than seeking and listening to your own?
▪ Do you obsess over saying the wrong thing or hurting someone else’s feelings?
▪ Do you hang on to people and situations even when it hurts, hoping they will change into something better?
▪ Do you often feel selfish, guilty or ‘what a waste of time’ when you do something nice for yourself?
▪ Do you often say ‘Yes’ when you really want to say ‘No’?
▪ Do you struggle to listen to your own feelings and go along with other people’s feelings?
▪ Do you give a lot of yourself to other people, even if they don’t ask, and then get upset when they don’t do the same in return?
▪ Do you try to fix or change other people to be who you want them to be?
▪ Do you try and help or fix others who don’t take responsibility for themselves?
▪ Do you tend to put everyone else’s needs before your own?
▪ Do you avoid taking charge of your own life, and / or creating your own happiness in the hope that someone will provide it for you?
For most of us, we didn’t learn how to communicate with reflective empathy, we just did what was modeled to us in our families. And if we never even bothered to do any personal growth work, mindfulness, healing and honest self-reflection, we are likely to be projecting our “stuff” on others unconsciously. We must really know our own histories, childhoods, relating patterns and what our own families have modeled to us. Are we aware of ethics and spiritual laws that may open us up to dark forces and predators? What agreements of entrapment are we actually holding onto without realizing its ramifications? I’m often astounded at how unaware many “normal seeming” people are, who have found themselves victim to psychopaths, supernatural predators and narcissists.
What prevents some people from true mutuality in friendships of respect? Could it be their refusal to be vulnerable to their own hearts and feelings? Are they rigidly holding onto denial and illusions, making you wrong so they don’t have to grow up? Are they trying to control you with their version of what they think “reality” is, while marginalizing your worth and freedom? Do they play fair in relationships so that compassionate communication can even happen? Do they have value systems that marginalize compassionate communication and reflective empathy? Is their own blind spots and psychological defenses causing cold, insensitive behaviors that hurt you? We need to also ask ourselves if we do these kinds of things to others as well.
Perhaps we must ask how much we value our own souls, and choosing what we want to be connected with. Do we really want to experience the truth of REALITY?
That Mystery Called Love
I found myself having ahas! when listening to the mystic, Thomas De Mello. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pNb_tYuHfY&index=69&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B)
The ever present desire and need for LOVE is a consistent topic of discussion everywhere. So many people want to experience true love, feel more loved, love more. Contrary to what we tend to assume, adoration does not lead to love, reality, life or truth. Love is generated through awareness of what is REAL.
Thomas De Mello says, “If you wish to Love, You must learn to see again. You must give up your drug.” These ‘drugs’ is a term for all our psychological defenses, distractions, co-dependent addictions or whatever you do to avoid your uncomfortable feelings. Love actually comes through awareness. It comes from dropping the illusions and obstructions to pure perception. Love is the essence of REALITY and your own eternal spiritual beingness.
Wisdom has always been more about what illusions we are willing to let go of. Dropping your masks and pretenses. It is the same for love. As Thomas De Mello says simply,
“The unobstructed heart and mind is love and wisdom. Understand the obstruction and obstacles and they will drop. Turning on the light of awareness. Happiness is not something you acquire or produce or have. Love is something that has you! “
In practice and with time, you surrender to it when you are aware of your illusions, addictions, desires and fears. It is a gradual process of tearing away those conditioned “assumptions” and attachments we have clung to, oftentimes without even knowing how we did it. These “mind control programs” and clinging desires are like sticky tentacles latching onto us, creating a “tar baby” effect. (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tar-Baby)
In aloneness, where we can be in enough solitude to be aware of and let go of these clinging dependencies, it will be like a cold turkey death. If you can be alone not having the company of people, and be emotionally dependent on them anymore to feel special, adored, appreciated, you will become free. You can be in the midst of people, and enjoy their company but they will no longer have any power over you, to make you happy or miserable. Your dependence on them dies and your capacity to love is born. Why? Because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions and dependencies.
There can be a terror in this kind of aloneness, it is like dying. There could be withdrawal symptoms, like a dark pit of emptiness. When you have let go of your own need to control someone else, need them to “love you” or be special to anyone you are getting it. If you can get to this point, you will at last know. You will be able to perceive with a vision that is clear and unclouded by fears or desires. Then you can truly love. But you must go through the pains of loss, letting go of addictions, illusions and be utterly alone before this can happen.
Dependence dies and your capacity to love is born. Why—because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions or narcissistic supply!
No, I don’t think it means being a saint or an advanced yogi who retreats to meditate in caves for years on end. It is a quality of intention with awareness, humbleness, and the dedication to see things through because you are sick and tired of hurting all the time. When you are sick of the pain, the endless recycling of misery, the ridiculous control systems by idiotic predator psychopaths, you will come to a place where enough is enough. Taking personal responsibility means creating the option for freedom, and true happiness. Being in the world but not of it.
But first, we actually have to come to respect our own spiritual heart. Any deep truths and feelings we buried. We must realize the greatest violence to our own being is self-abandonment. It is this self-abandonment that causes the feelings of loneliness, hurt, sorrow and disconnectedness from REALITY.
To paraphrase what Thomas De Mello said,
“You must cultivate ceaseless awareness, patience and compassion as you would have for a drug addict. Develop taste for good things in life, pure, simple, things. Work, laughter, intimacy with people to whom you do not cling or who you depend emotionally, but whose company you enjoy. Activities you can do with your whole being, while engaged in them. Success or recognition don’t mean a thing to you. It will help if you return to nature. Mountains—silently commune with trees, animals, flowers, birds, clouds, sky and stars etc. Spiritual exercise to gaze at things, to be aware of things around you. The world will drop, concepts will drop and you will see and you will make contact with reality. That is the cure for lonliness. We usually seek to cure our loneliness through our emotional dependence on people, distractions, noise. Get back to nature. Then you will know your heart has brought you to the vast desert of solitude. No one there to depend on. At first it is unbearable because you are unaccustomed to aloneness. Stick it out, the desert will blossom into love, your heart will burst into song. It will be springtime forever. Drug is gone, you are free. Then you will understand what freedom is, love is, happiness, what REALITY is. Truth is, what GOD is.”
Our next panel discussion we want to address the concepts of the Matrix engineers using polarity “choices” for neutralization, soul corruption and harvesting strategies. What we need to be doing and letting go of in order to take responsibility for dealing with our SH**. What happens if we choose to ignore the wisdom of our own Source connected Spirit.
Useful blog and links for PTSD Recovery: http://www.new-synapse.com/aps/wordpress/?p=1022
Updated Declaration of Non-Consent for Interference from Laura Leon’s web site: http://www.sovereignkees.com/non-consent-declaration.html
Many of my clients and correspondences are from people who experienced some form of anomalous trauma, especially “hyperdimensional interference” issues and especially Dark Side of Cupid “love bite” relationships. (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/books/ and http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/paranormal-romance-the-real-deal/)
Many are disillusioned from the reality that these kinds of things even exist, where interference on levels “unseen” can predate upon our life force in a way that can either cause the person to “wake up”, or fall into unimaginable grief, confusion, embittered disillusionment or worse. In fact, I often refer to a “love bite” experience as a kind of spiritual initiation, where you are thrown in a surreal, emotionally intense love connection, where a characteristic drama unfolds, causing such obsessive love, ecstatic highs, crashing lows and a deep psychic soul connection, that you believe you have met your soul mate or twin flame.
Soul Loss and Waking up from the Illusion
The flip side of the ecstatic highs and blissed out soul connection is deep emotionally wounded rejection, energy loss and incomprehensible grief so deep that it can throw one into a delirium of madness, or even sustained soul loss. And in some cases, a kind of partial possession or entity infection can take place, if the Dark Side of Cupid love bite partner was “hosted” by a malevolent inter dimensional entity, who fed off of your energy for an extended period of time– or if you literally gave up to this predation, not understanding the consequences. The more severe kinds of after effects have been reported, when, for example, the love bite partner was in actuality a practicing black magician, sorcerer or “reptilian host”. When this occurs, I believe the love connection was intentioned as a strategic orchestration by the “vampiric attached entity” or sorcerer themselves because they seek to feed off of your energy. This can give them power, expanded psychic abilities and awareness, and a great sexual partner/lover who will most likely fall in love with the hosted energy vampire. The sad part about this, is that when such a cunning predator manages to link into deep levels of your being, such as the chakras, they can catalyze blissful energy sensations, elicit a profound love obsession, heart chakra expansion or even spontaneous kundalini activation. When ones energy centers are blown open this way, there can be positive side effects, such as kundalini rising, blissful energy in various parts of the body. One may experience expanded psychic awareness, love and other emotions. The sex drive can go through the roof. There can also be unpleasant emotional lability and a triggering of all ones inner psychological wounds all at the same time. And when ones energy centers are exuding all this bliss kundalini energy it can also attract other beings in your life.
It’s actually quite amazing what people have reported to me about how magical things happen once their energy centers are open with more energy flowing and especially love. They may find themselves suddenly being noticed “by the opposite sex” when they had not really been noticed before. They may have animals react to them differently, such as coming close to them for longer periods of time, instead of flying or running away. Things they think about may manifest more quickly, while experiencing telepathy or spontaneous remote viewing ability. They may also start to notice feeling more exhausted, while at the same time feeling almost drugged with a kind of energy bliss, where the desire to meld and have sex with the partner is nearly constant. It is akin to a powerful love spell—and perhaps that is exactly what it is.
As the relationship progresses, and depending on the degree of energy vampirism, emotional drama and narcissistic abuse factors (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/boundaries-and-healing-from-narcissistic-abuse/, the soul energy loss and emotional wounding increases. It may get to the point where a break up has to occur or ill health or possible death can result from this kind of soul loss and extreme emotional damage.
It is usually in the aftermath of such a relationship that a client will contact me, seeking healing and some explanation for how and why this can happen. Many hold on to the hope that they will reconnect with their partner, believing that their unconditional love can change or “heal” the partner who is either narcissistically wounded or carries within them an attached entity, or both. The desire to hold on to the illusion of the “soul mate/twin flame” partner is very strong in such situations, even despite abusive behaviors and consuming ill health. It is like an addiction that we grasp onto because having a connection like this is unlike any other. Barbara Bartholic, (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/barbara-bartholic/)
my early mentor in my alien abduction research days, used to call this the “love drug” effect. The drama of the love obsession seems to be proportional to the degree of how ones energy centers were melded and opened up, creating lots of bliss as if we were one soul. Our level of earlier emotional childhood wounding can also exacerbate the vulnerability we have for getting into such a love bite. If we never really knew “true love” we often fall for the counterfeit and not perceive that it’s orchestrated.
We may even have spontaneous past life memories surface, when we meet or connect more deeply to our “love bite” partner. (Of course this can happen in non-love bite connections too.) In fact, a very aware friend of mine had ET beings communicate to her during an abduction event, that one of the reasons they orchestrate such “love connections” is because the energy produced is a delicacy to them. And for one of these catalyzed love relationships to work, they often need to have former “karmic connections” between the targeted partners. These past life connections will often manifest as fine energy tendrils that will link up and in-between the people involved. So that the more karmic connections, the stronger or more effective a “love bite” will be. It is not necessarily so, however, sometimes even when all the conditions for the orchestrated set up are present, some individuals just don’t “bite back” or generate strong feelings that result in a love connection.
A Strange Side Effect: Continued Energy Vampire Predations and Interdimensional Handling
One of the unfortunate things that can happen with someone who had an initial Dark Side of Cupid relationship, is that from that point forward in their life, even after they have broken up with that person, is that other “predator energy vampire” types will continue coming to them. It is as if some magnetic “switch” has been flipped, or a kind of virus, that enables them to be found by other energy vampire types of people. It makes one wonder if such “hosted” energy predators belong to a sort of hive mind egregore such that they can find these “prized” spiritual energy people by some kind of invisible network. This is an observation with the more “high frequency” people who have innate spiritual gifts and a kind of high quality spiritual energy. I will have to add also, that this is not the only explanation, because for those people who have not taken responsibility to do their own healing and recovery process for early life emotional woundings, they may fall into patterns of running into the same kinds of dysfunctional relationships. In general, if the person does significant healing regarding their early life traumas and any relationship issues related to the first “love bite”, they can go on to establish good, healthy relationships in their lives afterwards.
One milab woman I knew who had the gift of clairvoyant vision, could “see” the different types of people and what they “hosted”. Of course one of the reasons she was used as a “miilab asset” was because she could telepathically link in with people, sometimes several at a time. She also could remote view situations when directed to do so, among other things. Well, it just so happened that we sometimes attended UFO conferences together, and she could tell which persons to “be on the alert for” because they were hosting a reptilian being or perhaps other types of entities. She even knew that there were several types of reptilians, such as “yellow bellies”, who were the ones that were less “mean” but annoying and always the types of people vying for lots of attention. She believed that many humans were actually reptilian hybrids in bodies, and many seemed to act in ways that appeared they were trying to “pretend to be human”. We often laughed at this because it seemed so absurd but the more comical observations, she noted was when she went to Church. She went to a fundamental Christian church in the Bible Belt area of the USA with her family. She used to joke about the reptilian hosts she would see at church “pretending” to be human and acting religious. She did say that not all “reptilians were evil” and that many were just trying to fit in and live as humans in human bodies. She also saw how “reptilians in the workplace” often created miserable hierarchal environments and emotional dramas at work, feeding on the energy of others misery. (See— Snakes at the Water Cooler : http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/military-abduction-milabs-and-reptilians/snakes-at-the-water-cooler-the-reptilian-presence-at-the-office/)
Another clairvoyant client who exudes that high quality, spiritual energy desirable by these energy predators, mentioned wanting to get back into the dating scene, after having gone through a terrible Dark Cupid relationship that nearly cost her her life. She wanted to find men through church where perhaps a better quality man could be found, rather than the online dating sites, bars and other social environments for “normals”. Well, lo and behold, she saw a good-looking man, who had been eying her several times, and seemed to have that alluring desire of connection, an excited look communicating a desire to meet each other. But as she observed closely, she was able to see that this man was hosting a reptilian entity, who would play the “energy games” that can happen with these types of people. Even though he went to church—he still harbored an active reptilian entity, eager to get involved in a connection. She was at first excited to find a man at church, but after she saw the entity within and the characteristic “reptilian energy” dynamics, she contacted me with her concerns.” Will this ever stop? Why do they keep coming after me? Are they everywhere?”
Well, she had a good question.
There is something else happening, that goes beyond simple psychological explanations for those who find themselves repeatedly targeted by “interdimensionally hosted” energy vampire lovers or friends. This goes into the phenomena of what I call “targeted inter-dimensional handling” and control of specific people who have been “target listed” for one reason or another. It happens with authentic, spiritually gifted individuals, especially women who are from specific bloodlines who have been identified as “starfire” women. It happens with men too of course. This can include some MK ultra and ritual abuse victims, milabs, alien abductees and contactees, indigos etc. It can happen to people who have been identified by covert, experimental mind-control social engineering groups or independent black magicians as individuals who are identified as “different”, more aware or gifted spiritually. Once targeted by one love bite relationship, they are often assailed by other “organic portal” (See: https://veilofreality.com/2011/04/18/organic-portals-soulless-humans/) types of people who are sent in by some kind of “hive minded” program to handle them in some capacity. The handling may be specific to that individual, so that the “handler” is used to gather regular information about them, or their routine lives. They may be involved just enough to keep them from establishing other relationships that could be more positive in terms of healing opportunities and sovereign spiritual empowerment. Sometimes it is a relationship that dampens the frequency factor of the targeted persons psychological life, just enough so that the targeted person, (ie., a milab) remains in a lower vibration zone of consciousness to be continually “accessed” by their abductors.
Types of Souls
Of course this all sounds paranoid crazy, for those who haven’t experienced or witnessed it first hand. In certain subpopulations of anomalous trauma, especially those who have had MK Ultra, ritual abuse and milab abduction histories it is more evident. But there is something else happening, that may be unrelated to these subpopulations, that indicates a deeper underlying reality of different types of “humans” that exist. Some may call them ET hybrids, but I’m not certain that is what it is. It seems to be more of a soul and spiritual difference between humans, that predisposes some to be natural “energy vampires” who predate specifically upon the more spiritually gifted types of humans who exude a type of energy highly sought after.
It wasn’t until I studied the research of Dr. Corrado Malanga on his regressive hypnosis findings with alien abductees employing the Triad Color Test, that I started to see that some people may not have a highly developed “higher self” component of consciousness. (Or a soul at all) In Malanga’s work he attributes the Higher Self to the Soul or Anima.(See: https://www.scribd.com/document/288605949/Evideon-1-Corrado-Malanga-English)
In other spiritual traditions the term used is Spirit, Higher Self, Atman or anandamaykosha. In an earlier interview I conducted with Dorica Manu, a colleague of Dr. Malanga, I inquired about the distribution of people, as well as “aliens and ETs” who have Mind, Spirit and Soul components of the triad of consciousness. Most of the “abducting aliens” who parasite humans only contained a mind component, sometimes a spirit component also but not a soul component. Most abductees contained all three components, since the aliens prefer to parasite those who have a good “Soul battery” of energy. But not all the people assessed with the Triad Color Test appeared to have all three components in the triad of consciousness. Some had mind and spirit but not soul. Some had mind and soul and no spirit. Some had souls who were tied into the Primordial Man.
Essentially we see that the distribution of “souled humans” is around 20-25% or a little less than one third of all humans. (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/alien-hierarchies-and-the-research-of-dr-corrado-malanga-an-interview-with-dr-malanga-through-dorica-manu/)
“The secret of the Tree of Life is that the humans or human DNA, contains a compatibility with the frequency of the Soul. Apparently not all humans possess this DNA compatibility with the Soul. Or to put it another way, Malanga discovered via the abductee Soul component testimonies, that only 20-25 % of humans are souled, or had this DNA soul compatibility issue.(Alien Cicatrix, p. 21-26) Another way to perceive this, which the latest discoveries of Dr. Malanga also confirm – is that the Soul of these people with apparently incompatible genetics stays behind in another dimensional reality, so that the “connect” aspect will not function within that life-genetic container. As Malanga would now say, “These soul entities still remaining on the less dense energetic planes of existence–the so called “Higher Realms” of Religion and New Age–are afraid to “come down” and have the experience on the Earth plane”.
Gnostic Understanding of the Three Types of Humans
In the Gnostic literature mostly derived from the Nag Hammadi Library, it is written that three types of humans existed from the beginning. They were the different offspring of Eve, two of whom were of Archontic origin, Cain and Abel. Some believe that these were also known as the Serpent Seed. The third and fourth offspring of Eve and Adam were Seth and Norea. It is the latter two—the Norea and Sethian “incorruptible race” that is often mentioned as being the humans associated as the pneumatic or spiritual race. The spiritual race are those who have a greater degree of spiritual “rememberance or gnosis” of their eternal origins.
If this is true, then some Gnostic researchers say that one third of the human race is of the original “pneumatic race” while two thirds make up the psychic and hylic races. Below is a multi scripture compilation describing the three types of humans and how they are mentioned and in what context:
Taken from: A Gnostic Glossary by L Carauana:
– Gnosticism has developed a schema of three types of humans: the spirit-endowed Pneumatics, the soul-endowed Psychics, and the flesh-endowed Hylics. See THREE TYPES OF HUMANS.
– The spirit-endowed Pneumatics (the Elect) are saved absolutely. The soul-endowed Psychics may be saved or damned. The flesh-endowed Hylics are inevitably ‘damned to destruction’: “The spiritual race will receive complete salvation in every way. The material will receive destruction in every way (…) The psychic race, since it is in the middle when it is brought forth and also when it is created, is double according to its determination for both good and evil.” (Tripartite Tractate 119:16)
– The Apocryphon of John expands on this schema. There are two types of Pneumatics: those who avoid the corruption of the flesh and those who do not. Both as saved. Then there are the Psychics, who have souls but are without spirit. They are repeatedly re-incarnated until they acquire the gnosis. Then they are saved. Last of all those without the gnosis (the Hylics?), who are damned eternally.
– First of all, those with the spirit (pneuma) who avoid corruption of the flesh – are saved: “Those on whom the Spirit of life will descend (…) will be saved and become perfect and be worthy of the greatness and be purified in that place from all wickedness and the involvements in evil. (…) Such then are worthy of the imperishable, eternal life.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Second, those with the spirit (pneuma) who do not avoid corruption of the flesh – are still saved: “Through the intervention of the incorruptible one, it is saved, and it is taken up to the rest of the aeons.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Third, those without the spirit (pneuma) are repeatedly re-incarnated until they acquire the gnosis – and are saved: “After it comes out of (the body), it (the soul) is handed over to the authorities, who came into being through the archon, and they bind it with chains and cast it into prison (i.e. body), and consort with it until it is liberated from the forgetfulness and acquires knowledge. And if thus it becomes perfect, it is saved.” (Apocryphon of John)
Fourth, those without the gnosis – are damned for eternity: “(They will go) to that place where the angels of poverty go they will be taken, the place where there is no repentance. And they will be kept for the day on which those who have blasphemed the spirit will be tortured, and they will be punished with eternal punishment.” (Apocryphon of John)
In “Jesus and the Lost Goddess” (Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy,Three Rivers Press, 2001) the description of the psychic, hylic and pneumatic humans are also mentioned. But rather than making this a literal genetic or race issue, it is described as a level of consciousness or spiritual initiation:(pp. 70-73)
“Hylics or ‘materialists”, identify themselves withe the body—or circumference of the circle of self. The Psychics or ‘soulists’, identify with the psyche or soul—the radius of beingness. the Pneumatics, or ‘spiritists’ are aware of themselves as spirit or Consciousness—the center of the circle.”
If we can define the human as a central point of original consciousness with an expanding radius of being and awareness, we have the center point as spirit, central radius as psyche or soul and the outer circumference as body and ego identification.
“In Pagan, Jewish and Christian Gnostic traditions there are two basic stages of initiation which lead initiates progressively through these states of being. Christians called the first or psychic or soul initiation, because it initiates the journey from being a hylic to becoming a psychic. They called the second the pneumatic or ‘spirit’ initiation because it initiates the journey from being a psychic to becoming a pneumatic.
Psychic initiates were taught the exoteric teachings or Other Mysteries of Gnosticism, which were openly available to all those interested in joining a particular Gnostic school. Pneumatic initiates went on to be taught the secret esoteric teachings or Inner Mysteries. Literalist Christianity is the product of psychic initiates, uninitiated into the Inner Mysteries, making a religion out of the Outer Mysteries. This is why the secret pneumatic teachings of Christianity which we are exploring seem so remote from Christianity as it is generally understood today.
The pneumatic teachings were kept a secret because the spiritually immature can easily be so baffled that they dismiss them as incomprehensible nonsense….”
To paraphrase, essentially the process of awakening began with the exploration of soul experience which was all about the psychic initiation process. The essence was to know who you are from the personality standpoint, while developing empathy and good ethics. The pneumatic initiation was about discovering the experiencer or spirit Consciousness that is the ground of all experience. The latter is similar to Buddhist higher level meditative insights where they realize there is no ego self, per se but rather a deeper connectedness to All. The larger Dreaming Self. It is the All experiencing itself through the reflection of individual selves, and the sense of an all embracing love in this Oneness of being. It is a Mystery, and for those who have come to the place of Gnosis realize that they really know nothing, and instead realize this is an unfolding mystery of becoming and beingness.
Carl Jung often believed that the early Gnostics were really psychotherapists, who not only realized “Gnosis” by deep self-exploration, contemplation and compassionate activity, but they helped their spiritual-seeking brothers and sisters to self-discover the same thing.
Hybrids, Bloodlines and Reptilians
Today, we see that there is a huge emphasis on “genetics and bloodlines”, with a definite association with frequency quality of soul and spirit. We also know that there are certain “supernatural gifts” and abilities which are passed only through certain “bloodlines”.This may actually have to do with the blood and bone marrow, (as well as genetics) and was understood by secret societies who followed bloodlines which passed on supernatural powers to their downline, such as children. The blue blood is offered as an example of some blood “pneuma of numen” that can be passed on to immediate descendants: (See: http://newsoftomorrow.org/abductions/visions/alexandre-de-danann-memoire-du-sang-2) Note that this is a google translation from an original French article and references.
“The traditional interpretation of the blue blood is linked, by cons, to the transforming power of the Holy Spirit descending in the blood of those who make themselves worthy to receive it, such as in the traditional initiation, knightly accolade, the anointing, the anointing; but forgetting still not that the Spirit blows where he wills. “(P.60)
This is why members of the same lineage seeking to protect their blood to prevent the dissolution of the “pneuma” of the “numen” linked to it. But it also produces a degeneration, which may have led to the corruption of Zoroastrianism by the Chaldean / Babylonian. The concentration of “pneuma” produces the longest conservation body, particularly the bones, but if the transfer of this force is not completed or is corrupt, then the line is lost. These transfer phenomena explain the sometimes instantaneous passage gifts of a healer to a member of his family.
“We have seen how the relationship between the numen of a lineage and descendants of the latter was maintained for centuries, and it must be said, a little too naturally, by consanguineous marriages, the blood “mixed” (obtained by the union of individuals who are not related to each other) having the effect of forgetting the “blood memory”, which was particularly feared in these lineages.
It is this same quality that condemned to a sort of perpetual slavery descendants of a lineage as “prisoners of their blood” which had only members of their lineage, not as individuals, such as rings of a chain link of prisoners and a past they would have to overcome to overcome individually, the power exercised by the animal soul through the blood. “(P.65)
Such avoided if control is mentioned in the first book of Olga Kharitidi, where a shaman seeks to transfer the force of “egregore” of the line on a person who does not want to.”
Also, if the pneuma of numen was weak in a person there were rites to increase this quality, based on ancient Egyptian and Jewish practices:
“If contact with the pneuma of numen becomes weak or broken, a rite can be done to revive it. This is palingenesis. This is done “with the magical job centers of the ancestor, that is to say salts extracted from his bones. The origin of this practice dates back to the dawn of time (…) “
“It is also curious that in Egyptian magic remains perpetuated in Sudan was talking Guenon, we find the phenomenon of transformation of men into animals, especially from an entire population, demonstrating that among other there unquestionably has a hereditary passing of such power through the blood. “(P.92)
With some survivors of ritual abuse histories, MK Ultra, milabs and “starfire women”, they assert that their bloodline families and the beings who have exploited them are both human and non human. This is elaborated on in Elisa E’s books, “Beyond our Life in MK Ultra”, Book One and Two.(See: https://www.amazon.com/Our-Life-Beyond-MKULTRA-Book/dp/1490439684)
In Elisa E’s experience, she has a profound and chilling connection to the “Cain” entity, a non human—yet humanlike—extremely powerful being, who may have been the original Cain from the Bible. This being is present as a powerful bloodline ally and inter-dimensional “handler” as well as rapacious lover and enemy all at the same time. It is still a mystery, yet opens up many questions as to the reality of an actual genetic, racial reality of such hybrid beings interbreeding with humanity in specific bloodlines carrying on ancient occult traditions. In Elisa’s book she goes into detail how she understands and has personally witnessed the “inter-dimensional handling” phenomena in her own experience as well as with people well known in the “alternative whistleblowing and Exopolitics” community.
In Carolyn Hamlett’s testimony of surviving in a Satanic Ritual Abuse bloodline family, she describes the origin and ancestries of the Reptilian race, often associated with the Dragonline family crests. She also is one of the few who explains the origins of the Reptilian race, as being a genetically engineered race created by the Nephilim to be a super warrior race. She says that the Nephilim are hybrids between the original humans and Fallen Angels, and that the Reptilians are a hybrid between Nephilim and some reptilian species. The Reptilians contain some human DNA since the Nephilim are offspring of humans and Watchers and so are compatible. Could the Fallen Angels also be the Archons of the Demiurge as written in ancient Gnostic literature?
There are two good interviews by Carolyn Hamlett with Dan Duval, that go into detail about the Reptilian Replication process, which I believe can explain many anomalies witnessed by those who have been told that they are of some reptilian hybrid bloodline.
A July 2016 interview goes into more detail on the Replication process from a single reptilian red blood cell that is incorporated into the human ovum before conception.
In the aforementioned article on Carolyn Hamlett’s experience she talks about a 5th Fire Initiation between two “twin flame” partners in order to bring in a powerful being into our reality, a hybrid birth. (Excerpt taken from above link article on Carolyn Hamlett):
“One of the more revelatory aspects of Carolyn’s discussion on Reptilians was the connection between a higher level powerful dark being, an Arcturian called Rommel. (It is unknown whether this particular cult group and their “dark lords” are mimicking the name of Arcturians or if indeed these Arcturians are essentially playing on the dark side.) This powerful being had to be brought to our 3D reality through a “portal” created via twin flame union sexual ritual.(I will comment on this in a later post)
“It took the energy of a combined twin flame union of two humans, coupled with what Satan’s spiritual hierarchy calls “the 5th fire initiation” to open up the portal where many of Satan’s highest and most powerful were waiting to be able to gain entrance into our 3rd dimensional earth.
They needed humans to open up that portal because Satan does not have the spiritual authority to open that portal.
Quick explanation: Although Satan and his fallen are powerful, they do not have the “natural born” spiritual authority that humans were created with. It’s just a fact. The human spirit is different than all other created creatures. The human spirit has what I call “the God code”. We have an essence of God the creator Himself as His children.”
EL: This is the real deal, and I believe many “milabs” and even “experiencers of alien encounters” who have had astral visitations are experiencing these unions and are directed by their “milab handlers” and/or ET guides in the astral to participate without full consent and awareness in these kinds of activities. The portal opening seems to occur spontaneously in some cases— as can immediate “bilocation” of the unionized energy bodies of the twin flame couple to another dimensional reality. I have had at least one report of this. It can also happen in the physical, where a portal opens up or is created via a tantric type of soul mate union and ritual. Often times when a portal or other dimensional reality opens up through the higher energies and consciousness of the couple, it’s spontaneous, and not directed by a ritual. And is not EVIL per se. It’s just part of the side effect of the energies created through these kinds of tantric unions.”
It is interesting to note the name of the ritual called a 5th Fire Initiation, must occur between two twin flame humans. It is my guess that the woman conceiving and needed for one of these rituals possibly needs to be a “starfire woman” of a particular bloodline. I do not think that this “starfire bloodline” is in and of itself “evil”. It is something that I believe originated from a good, organic spirit sourced human being, perhaps an androgynous female in very ancient Edenic times. And that this particular bloodline of people—and especially women—has been co opted, exploited and controlled by a powerful occult cabal for nefarious purposes for millennia.
In Michael Tsarion’s article about the “Female Illuminati” (See: http://www.femaleilluminati.com/article-2.html) he states that most of the secret societies such as the Templars, and bloodlines related to the Merovingians, goes back to ancient Egyptian Atonists, and to the “Sisterhood of Death”. He goes to great lengths to show how the secret rites go back to the Cult of Venus, which is also the worship of Lucifer. He mentions how the female Illuminati are implicated in the Holy Blood—Holy Grail legend:
“The Grail was brought from Jerusalem to France by Hugh de Payens who, after allegedly finding it beneath Temple Mount, gave it and other treasures into her keeping. Of course the Grail is simply a clever metaphor for the Female Illuminati. The word grail comes from gradus, meaning “by degrees,” “stages” or “steps.” This alludes to the grades of a Masonic-type society. This is the society headed by Mathilde and many others before and after the era of Chretian de Troyes. A secondary meaning of the word is Sang Rael or “Holy Blood,” again a reference to the Sisterhood. The word gradus was later wrongly rendered cratis meaning basket or container, hence the connection with a cup. Suggestively, on the architecture of the north porch of Chartres Cathedral (dedicated to the female), we see the figure of the Old Testament demigod Melchizedek holding a chalice. Melchizedek is a cryptic reference to Akhenaton and the order descended from his progeny. We see then that the true significance of the so-called Holy Grail is to be primarily understood in terms of a hierarchical secret society, and secondarily as a container of royal female blood. We also see the significance of the Templars as supposed keepers of the “Grail.”
It is my intuition that not all of the individuals who retain these spiritual or supernatural gifts, as detected by specific genetics or soul frequencies are all “evil”. And in fact most of them are relentlessly hunted down by these secret occult groups. And they have been for centuries. What I believe is that there was an original bloodline, or genetic race containing some genuine supernatural qualities (as opposed to the bloodlines which receive psychic powers from entities, fallen angels and demons) which could be passed on via maternal bloodlines and also associated with the “starfire” blood of specific women. And that this bloodline was almost completely co-opted, exploited and controlled by the dark Lords associated with the secret societies noted above by Tsarion.
Which brings me back to at least one point that has been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid love bite experiencers. Why do they keep repeatedly being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings? And of course the biggest question by these people is “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”
I will explore this question in a follow up article on Building on What is Real for the Greater Good.
Links to former Discussion Panels on the Love Bite and Hyperdimensional Interference:
Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment Panel Discussion:
We have completed a 3 hour and 22 minute Panel Discussion on The Love Bite and The Dark Side of Cupid topic. This is the most comprehensive discussion yet available on the internet on the theme of paranormal interference in human love relationships. Orchestrations of “love bites”, interference patterns, disruptions of “true love” and so much more.
Paranormal/Hyperdimensional Interferences in Human Love Relationships.
We covered many topics, shared our experiences, research, pathways towards healing, protection and much more. We’ll be doing more panel discussions in the near future, going even deeper into this topic and also focus more on the repair/healing/integration/protection aspect.
Much gratitude to my amazing colleagues, friends and fellow renegades for a great and insightful discussion: James Bartley, Sovereign Laura Leon, Carissa Conti, Tom Montalk, Arella Eliora and Bernhard Guenther
Websites: Eve Lorgen: http://evelorgen.com
Laura Leon: http://www.sovereignkees.com
Bernhard Guenther: http://veilofreality.com
Carissa Conti: http://in2worlds.net
Tom Montalk: http://montalk.net
Arella Eliora: http://thewayofbalance.blogspot.com (English)
Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1j-dtUgops
Notes on Love Bite Plus:
- The history of how the term “alien love bite” came about
- The alien love bite and the Dark Cupid “love bite” symptoms
- The targeting aspect of Dark Side of Cupid connections
- Obsessive aspect of the love bite, love drug attachment extremes.
- How the love bite can trigger life threatening conditions
- How ETs/aliens handlers keep us in states of prolonged isolation where emotional needs go unmet, thus setting us up for love bite relationships
- Trust issues, intimacy issues as a result of abduction histories
- The inverse of the Love Bite—disrupting true love and how its not unusual for truth seeking abductees.
- How others connected to the “abductee” can be manipulated to keep the abductee from awakening
- The Predator vs Prey set up in Love Bite/Dark Cupid
- One of the persons, the “prey victim” is usually more spiritually evolved because essentially they are being targeted.
- How the Predator in the duo tends to have Narcissistic traits or personality disordered. How the predator can mirror our needs so well. Sexual attraction high. How both the Predator and the Prey are both empathic and psychic.
- How it feels like one is under a spell and the “red flags” of true intuition get overridden
- How some people are groomed to be addicts of love.
- How the predator types are acting like “organic portals”, puppet people and are very destructive. Some predators are possessed by high level entities and demons, psychic vampires.
- Many victims of the DSOC were literally targeted by sorcerers, “hosts” for inter dimensional entities.
- How true soul sparks or Twin Flame true love partners will be targeted to be set up in counterfeit “twin flame love bites” so that they don’t meet the real soul mate partner. How to tell if its a real twin flame versus the imposter love bite.
- Many online Twin Flame web sites, forums, gurus are actually part of the parasite/predator program to keep and ensnare people in love bites. How difficult it is to “deprogram” people from the belief in their twin flame when the red flags of a love bite are glaring at them. Denial.
- Cult leaders especially dangerous and often are hosted by parasitic beings who encourage and set up love bites in masse. (octopus head feeders)
- The feelings of when your own intuition is being overridden, like you are in a trance but somehow just “go along with it”.
- Our bodies can react with psychosomatic symptoms when we have invasive negative energy beings invading our energy bodies. Dark beings should be incompatible with our frequency hence unusual physical symptoms or pain.
- Sexual interaction the most potent form of energy transfer between two people and with entities.
- Some fractured people are groomed to be “empty vessels” and puppets for mind control agendas that may play out in love bite scenarios. Example.
- False timeline reality creation, through “black magic like” rituals can bring in dark beings, and cause a true destiny distortion, and a love bite instead of “true love”.
- Love spells can yield love bites.
- Solar plexus chakra affected in many love bites, where our will is weakened
- Childhood wounding can contribute to vulnerability to love bites, and also be the source of great learning and healing
- Drug use can open one up to entity possession, unhealed wounds, fracturing of personality
- Narcissists and entity possession often go hand in hand
- How the narcissist uses blame, projection, shame, guilt and punishing tactics
- How you cannot rationally communicate to a narcissist because they twist, blame, shame and project so much its futile. Just disengage.
- Healing discussion in love bite situations
- Self awareness and self correction necessary to re connect with spirit and intuition
HKV and Veronica Keen Interview, Part 2, on Sept. 5, 2015
Harold Kauz-Vella describes a Love Bite Energy Vampirism Dynamic in “Epigenetic Bloodline Programmed Relationships”.
This is a brief summary of the topics discussed in this interview :
The morphogenetic field is being attacked by alien consciousness to change life here. This alien consciousness appeared here on Earth thousands of years ago via meteors and is part of the alien “black goo” container of programmed alien consciousness. This alien consciousness is trying to change our morphogenetic field from a three phase system which includes the heart chakra, to a two phase system of linear predictability without love and empathy, under conditions of scarcity. (What the Illuminati monetary scarcity system is, under the control of the Predator-Parasite connected AI System)
Harold discusses what happens in male-female relationships of those in “bloodlines” where conditions of strong, ancestral epigenetic programming of pain, “unhealthy high drama”, and lack of empathy repeat themselves in cycles. Miserable high drama relationships. Love Bites!
Male female relationships of this type of deep “bloodline programming” cause great pain and classic “love bite” characteristics. He describes it in his own experience with a “love bite” woman who claimed to have her 12-stranded DNA activated, and who was in fact practicing black magic rituals and linked him into a manipulated love connection. (He described it as a kiss, as the physical touch that linked him in).
What he explained was a classic “Dark Cupid love bite relationship” where obsession took hold and a disconnection from his own intuition internal source guidance system. (This is common in the “alien love bite” phenomenon). He says these kinds of relationships happen alot (especially in “bloodline people”) and need a shamanic type of healing modality because “implants” linked in to the alien parasites remain. As long as the implants remain in this plasma-like energetic state, the love bitten person can still feel an attraction and fall back into a thought looped obsession of the love bite partner. I would agree that this is one reason why the “love bite” connection is so hard to break, and why seemingly normal people can become obsessed overnight and lose all critical reasoning ability disconnected from their natural spiritual intuition while under the spell of a love bite connection. It is the implants, psychic inline and outline cords and obsessive thought loops, in my view, along with any unhealed wounds that keep the love bite cycle going. It always feeds some kind of unseen parasite, working through the couple. Harold did say alot of this is due to deep, long standing epigenetic programming, which I can understand as ancestral bloodline imprinting due to a deep connection with the various inter dimensional parasite beings who work through certain bloodlines. Especially those who practice black magic.(Oftentimes they are Draco and Reptilian in particular)
I also have observed over the years how certain powerful souls with innate abilities who incarnate here to do authentic healing work are often “targeted” by a love bite partner who throws them off track, and gets them corded up with interdimensionals, implants and siphons away their creative life force energy. In my case histories in both my books, The Love Bite, and The Dark Side of Cupid, the other non-reporting partner is not necessarily aware of how he or she is being used to target the other partner.
I was quite amazed that Harold described this in the way he did; how the heart chakra of the male is linked in with the alien parasite system, and pulls in the energy from the woman who needs to “feel some kind of pain” in these unhealthy relationships. For example, the Borderline trait person who needs and creates alot of drama even if it is feeling pain, in order to “feel”. This also occurs with the Narcissistic Personality disordered person, who tends to act as the predator, while the targeted partner plays the role of victim. He mentioned that Borderline Personality types tend to these kinds of connections and also Bloodline people who have deep epigenetic programming of the pain-drama-love bite linked into the Parasite kinds of dynamics.
Harold did go into how this Game of predator-victim only stops once the victim stops being a victim and decides to stop “playing into the game” of the predator. It’s a two way system where both play roles in this game that feeds the predator parasite. In my experience, it is rarely the predator type of personality that heals first, because it is the nature for them (ie., Narciscists) to continue doing this until they are stopped or until they can no longer find any victims to play the game. This is why Boundaries are SO IMPORTANT for anyone who has been involved in such types of relationships.
On that Youtube page someone with the name of eevie made a comment about love bites and having a chakra harness removed, which helped solve the problem. I want the reader to know this is not my comment and another woman with the name of Evie. I do not necessarily advocate removing all ones “chakras” to avoid implant manipulation of our energy field. (Although chakras are certainly being plugged into.) Sometimes the heart chakra is literally being squeezed, or maybe tubes coming in and out of that area, or the solar plexus, sacral or root chakra areas. Please see the French clairvoyant drawings of this on my web site, how this is observed with the parasite inter dimensional beings hosting someones energy field.
I just gave a great 2 hour interview on Masaki Akaida’s Youtube and Podcast Radio Show Monday July 20, 2015.
Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKPQV8lN5WI
- – UFO abduction research in the 1990s, what was being discovered
- – The role of women as groundbreakers, healers in the ET / UFO research field
- – The Alien Love Bite, Dark Side of Cupid
- – Alien and Negative Entities Milking Human Emotions & Relationships for Energy
- – Reptilian Hosting & Strip Clubs
- – Being aware, new wave of ‘New Age’ popularity right now
- – MILABs (Military Abduction) phenomena & ‘Super Soldiers’
As a reminder we have some new Milab Round Table Participant Panelists to join us Saturday July 25, 2015 6 pm Eastern Time. James Bartley, Tom Montauk and Carissa Conte will join us for this rare and dynamic, controversial subject. We may have some surprise guest “milabs” also. Remember to register at the RISE Multiversity Web site at the link below and give some time to sign in and also download Zoom if you don’t already have it to participate in this video conferencing Discussion Event.
This is an article, based on a recent report I received regarding a reptilian hosting situation. The woman observed this situation to be ongoing with her soon to be “ex-husband” for many years, and in her estimation, was due primarily to a psychic cording, linking and reptilian attachment that originated when her husband repeatedly visited sex strip-clubs.
The formatting is direct from the woman’s (named “M”) own statements from personal correspondence. She has provided several sketches of what she observed in her “husband” usually during sexual activity, when the entity “took control” of his body temporarily. The sketches show the iguana-like reptilian entity attached to his shoulder, and also a dark greenish-grey energy field surrounding his aura, which is really the overshadowed energy body of a larger reptilian entity (4th dimensional) that entered “from the back” of her husband. “M” also noticed other things that she discovered when doing her own healing work,(EMDR) as well as tracing back the origin of the iguana-reptilian entity, via a type of ET technology, holographic boxes, cords faciltating interdimensional access. One of the key issues of relevance is the technological and interdimensional access of humanity via places like sex strip clubs that are targetted with a type of ET technology linked in via some UFO and connected into the building with interdimensional fiber optic-like connections that allow linking and direct energetic access to the persons in the strip club.
I would also like to add a link from a previous article regarding a French Clairvoyant’s perception of how certain ET-looking entities attach to the human energy field and shift the energetics of their system by directly linking into certain chakras and energy centers.
Excerpt from M:
I actually saw this electrical iguana shaped dynamic over my soon to be X husband’s right shoulder when we were having sex in 2012. There was also an energetic white cubic form that sat behind this iguana form. I could clearly sense the white cubic form but did not physically see with my human eyes. I did see the rest of this with my physical eyes.
During this intimacy with my husband, he suddenly became very robotic and mechanical which was actually not that unusual. However, this time as this started to happen, this electric blue outline of an iguana formed and appeared over his right shoulder. I was reclined on the edge of our bed and my husband was standing over me having intercourse with me as this was happening. I then immediately saw a gray, overshadowing reptilian being take over his body from behind him. I could actually see the being and then I could see its outline around my husband’s body as this ‘takeover” took place. It was like this thing had been waiting for the right moment to come in to take my husband over and he just came in and overtook my husband’s consciousness and physical body for the orgasm event. It was very creepy. As this happened my husband became very robotic as he methodically attempted to finish having sex with me. However, I immediately sat up and said, “What is that?” as I pointed directly to the iguana shape. I could tell the entity was surprised that I could see it. It moved backwards and started fading in a stunned and annoyed sort of way. It did seem annoyed and surprised that I was pointing at it and basically calling it out. I also made my husband get off of me immediately. This whole experience from when I first saw the iguana shape over his shoulder to the end took about 45 seconds to a minute to happen.
This event was one of several events that included events and evidence that helped me discover and shed light on the traumatizing reality and truth that my husband was not only a sex addict that had been acting out sexually for the past 20 years of our 23 year marriage–but I also realized he was reptilian possessed or demonically possessed and was driven by what I would call a demonic-reptilian interface or a “reptilian holographic insert” and other sexually deviant drivers.
Needless to say, I never had sex with him again after this event. I have also discovered many disturbing details regarding his sexually deviant behaviors and they were consistently quite sadistic in nature. He has been driven by a need to violate others with out their knowing it in ways that he knows they would find very invasive and disturbing if they knew what he was doing. The way he stores memories is also void of sentiment or nostalgia. It is fact based memories and very few details that include emotional memories of meaningful events. A robotic memory is dominant with him.
Later in meditation, after this iguana event had happened, I was trying to understand what I had seen and so I asked about it in meditation and was able to see the events and the dynamics of how this had happened. I saw several situations where my husband was doing things that had allowed this entity and other entities and some “alien technologies of sorts” to come into his field.
The main entity and the technology that was connected to or linked to the iguana/reptile that I saw over his shoulder he had actually “contracted” in a strip club. I was shown or just saw the whole scene of how my husband got this entity attachment and the related technology that went with it. He got this entity during a lap dance in a strip club, where he was also paying to be sexually serviced by a stripper/prostitute. As he was in the mist of this particular event, the stripper was over him and on his lap sexually servicing him and he leaned his head back and his sexual field opened up very widely directly over and above his body and even over the event itself. It opened in the form of what looked like a large hourglass cone shape that was swirling a bit as it opened. These very nasty entities and cording devices and other things that were inside of the the stripper”s energy field or that were connected to her field were literally dumped into my husband’s energy field during this opening of his sexual field with her field and the field of the event itself.
I saw that the stripper had gotten some of these things from her childhood experiences and many more of them were entities and other creepy things that she had picked up or contracted from the many sexually deviant men that she had serviced and the atmosphere she worked in. I also knew some of these were actively being directed by and were connected to something outside of her also. I could clearly see that there was something that worked through her and that was driving her from outside of her field. It was an alien type technology that was actually linked into her and into her field and even into to the strip club itself and what was going on in this place. I could see this larger technology was there for the purpose of cording the men or people (there were a few women too) that she was servicing sexually in these acts of prostitution. It was some sort of unconscious contract she had with an outside force that hovered above this time event.
I could actually see a rounded disked shaped space craft hovering in a dimension that seemed to be directly above and slightly to the right of the physical space above the strip club and this event field itself. I saw my husband and others physically in the strip club committing these acts. I also saw the technology that was being used to cord these people that were susceptible to these sorts of addictive and/or deviant processes. This ship and its technology hovered above it all and it was there for the specific purpose of cording people.
The things that have happened in my marriage have been traumatizing and at the same time are quite interesting. As I look at it all now in hind sight with a little distance, it is clear that something much larger then my husband’s and my situation is going on. It makes so much more sense than it ever has before, as the bigger picture is emerging. Something much larger is going on and it is effecting many people.
I have had two “love bite” relationships that have both been very traumatizing and difficult experiences to go through. I have done much work now to resolve my unresolved trauma. The first relationship was a short, less then two years, a marriage in my early twenties to a psychopath. I am in the process of divorcing my current husband or 23 years now. He is not a psychopath but does have a splintered self and has he been a very convincing fraud and fake, nice guy. Realizing who he really was really choosing to be and what he has really had going on all these years has also been extremely educational, eye opening, and enlightening to witness. I have seen a whole new level of some of the darker things that are going on in our world now.
Also I just ordered your book-The Dark Side Of Cupid and received it in the mail today and I am looking forward to reading it tonight–very excited to have your work in hand.
I am an artist and the attached images are very quick sketches that I did to capture this dynamic of what I saw while it was still fresh in my mind. I am planning on creating better images of several of the things that I have witnessed going on during this marriage relationship because there are several other things that I think directly relate to what’s going on and also to the work you are doing, I will send these illustrations of these events to you when complete. Thank You for the work you are doing.
With The Kindest Regards,
I don’t see this as a grand spiritual lesson that we signed up for before we came here, that is intended to somehow make us better or stronger through being traumatized or through suffering of some kind. I see this as a nuisance, like mosquitos that swarm on a beautiful tropical island. We may sign up for the vacation and we then educate ourselves about the local parasites and predator that are present in this environment, we keep our eyes open and take action to prevent ourselves from being bitten, harmed or distracted by them. We don’t allow them to deviate us form enjoying a good life or a good vacation.
One of the most helpful things for me therapy wise has been EMDR. See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessing
It has helped me in healing this current trauma and it has addressed the underlying issues, and limiting reactive patterns that were set up for me through early childhood experiences. I think these experiences set up survival mechanisms in me that made me more vulnerable and susceptible to being targeted by this type of abuse in my relationships. My natural nature is highly empathetic, compassionate and open, and the blind-spots these early traumas created made me an easy target, it seems. Through EMDR I was able to reprocess a lot of the automatic response patterns that I was not aware that I even had. The results have been amazing and confirmable through real-life situations.
During EMDR I had two very factual based memories come up of myself being ritually abused around the age of three months. This happened while I was in the care of a babysitter who was “prostituting” me out to a clergy type person in Raliegh, NC and my memory suggests that it was actually surprisingly an unsuccessful event for the people doing it. I think this experience is part of the reason that I am able to perceive the things I am able to perceive now. It seems I may have been targeted at a very early age by this alien or demonic force. The abuse only happened twice because my highly intuitive mother, who was 19 years old at the time, quickly sensed that something was horribly wrong and quit her job and took me out of the care of this person. She did not know what had actually happened however, when I asked both my parents about this time in my life. After the memory came up in EMDR, they both confirmed that they had intuited that something was off with this the babysitter and they both noticed that I had become oddly sick and had changed after being in her care for only a couple of months and they both knew they had to take me out of her care. Thank goodness for parental intuition. I do not understand why I was targeted at such a young age or continued to be targeted and I don’t think it’s because I am some special person or anything like that. However, something in me knows that none of this is just random occurrence. There are reasons or circumstances behind why people are targeted.
I asked M,
“I also find it interesting that the auric field color around the ex is forest, darkish-green. Was his color this way most of the time or only when the iguana, which looks like it hangs on at the neck area on one side?”
M: The electric blue outlined iguana was on my husband’s right shoulder and this is what I saw first. It appeared there and then I knew there was this white, cubic box behind it. The iguana form on his right shoulder stayed there on his shoulder but it started fading as this dark, green-gray reptilian entity showed up. It came in also slightly from the right and then it seemed to come into my husbands body from behind him. The dark, gray-green form behind my STBX husband’s body in the illustration is actually the entity overshadowing my husband in what looked like an energetic body. I could see this entity in it’s entirety and the part that merged with my husbands body was less easy to see, yet I could still see it and the part that was larger then my husband is what looks like an auric field over my husbands body. It was a reptilian looking entity and it was actually coming into my husbands body, taking it over and was even very awkwardly animating my husband’s body. I knew my husband was not there anymore as soon as this entity started taking him over. Not sure where my husbands consciousness was, but it seems maybe he was beside himself and was not conscious of this as it was happening. I have ask him if he has any memories of what was happening to him this day and he said he remembers it happening because of my response to it, and the fact that I made him get off me. But he said he has no memory of what was happening to him. To me it was obvious that he was being taken over and evicted by this reptilian entity for what was going to be a brief, three to five minute grand finalle. I also knew somehow that this entity could not be here, in our world or atmosphere much longer then 3 to maybe 17 minutes at the most in one event. I knew that it was continually corded into my husband in his daily life but it remained outside of the human sphere. I knew that this reptile entity was connected to my husband somehow and that it monitored my husband continually and even influenced him and drove his behaviors and choices. However, this entity could not be here in its physical energetic form for too long. Not sure how I knew this, I just did.
The entity, in its energetic form, was a little bit larger then my husband’s body energetically at least and the green-gray outline around my husbands body that looks like an aura was the part of the reptilian entity that extended beyond my husband’s body as it took him over. I could see the whole entity in its 3d energetic form yet it is difficult to draw it as it was transparent and simultaneously multidimensional.
I also know that this entity despised me and directed its rage towards me through my husband sometimes.
This is another interesting thing that happened around this. It was not too long after this event that I figured out what was going on with my husband and I insisted he leave our home. I did agree to allow him to do a year of SA therapy before deciding whether or not to divorce him. However I have not allowed him to move back in our home since the day he was out.
A day or two after I asked him to leave I had a dream where these entities were very aggressively and brutally anally raping me. In the dream I knew they could not really touch me but they wanted me to believe they could. They were even trying to make me have a physical orgasm and I blocked them and I disregarded them. I gave them no energy of any kind, not even anger. I simple saw them for what they were. It seemed like this was a last ditch effort on their part to get me or to punish me or to show me who’s boss. I knew they despised that I could block them. I could also sense that they knew if my husband was not physically living with me they would have less opportunity to access me through him in the future. I know I do still have to be aware and on guard so they do not find a way to get to me. I also know there is no comparison when it comes to who is more alive, real, luminous and Divinely endowed.
I asked M:
“Did you ever do any internal energy body scanning on yourself to see if any cords links or weird looking parasites were present? Oftentimes when I do sessions with people and use hypnotherapeutic methods, and view the energy body, they may see any number of things, from odd shaped implants to serpent, snake, octopus, medusa, alien or insect type of parasites that act like living beings that feed off of energy internally. Most of them seem to hook in the sacral, genital or solar plexus areas. Or they can link in on the back of shoulders, neck and even the heart.”
I found the watercolor sketches of how the alien technology that I saw over the strip club was set up and seemed to work. It may be more confusing then helpful as I did these during my meditation to help me remember the details of what I was seeing. The actual physical club is represented at the bottom of the drawing. It looks like a constellation because this technology was connected to many similar establishments that carried out, supported, and linked into the same constellation of human behavior patterns. The things above this are each in different areas of dimensions or dimensional levels and they had specific functions. Sidereal time was involved in understanding how this worked. This was all actually very interesting and I am not sure I can adequately explain it all and I wont try to here because this is long enough already.
The same type of reptilian being that was corded to and overshadowing my STBX husband was the kind of reptilian entity that was sitting inside the ship seen at the top of the drawing and it was very mechanically and robotically running whatever was going on technology-wise inside the ship. I do know that just because I saw this technology this way does not mean this actually exists there, and it could be an energetic dynamic of some kind or holographically devised in some way. I also know that it could actually be there in some way. I do think it may represent how the propensity for human deviation is created and continued in human behaviors, somehow through an outside influence or interference that we have been not been consciously aware of in significant ways yet.
More details on the constellation of influence to other physical locations:
M said: The strip club scene inside the cone/ inverted funnel shape was not the 3d physical strip club that my H was in when he was hooked or possessed.
The physical strip club that my husband was in, when he was hooked/possessed, is at the bottom of the drawing. It looks like a constellation. This constellation image at base of drawing represents the strip club my husband was in and is actually an outline that fits perfectly over an image of the actual strip club he was in. It is just drawn like a constellation – I drew it this way because of something that had happened earlier and because I needed it as a reference and didn’t need to draw a specific club because there were a lot more then just one physical establishment being linked and driven by this technology. The technology was linking into many strip clubs and other addiction-based establishments and even vulnerable individuals wherever they were, too. The main theme that this technology drove was sexual deviance and perversion though. I do have good note on all of this and will get them out and look at them.
The Funnel shape is not the 3d strip club yet the scene I saw in it does exist somewhere and my intuition was that it was inside of a bank on the top floor of a banking building like a sky scraper. It some how served as a template or a school that was somehow a part of how this technology functioned.
I actually went into the funnel shape in the meditation and have notes about what was going on in this contained space, ( time and space were different and I noticed this and thought it was odd in a predatory sort of way) There was a lot going on inside the funnel shape and part of what was going on included a gross misuse of nature.
The funnel shape was there. I could see it as an important part of the technology so I don’t think it was just an analogy or symbolic representation, even though it could easily function that way. It could of had a holographic dynamic to it, especially regarding what was playing out inside of it. It was in the sky and in between the dimensional “splits?” _ not sure how to describe it perfectly -will check notes – I probably documented more details about it. —
What was going on, in the bottom red carpeted level of the funnel was definitely happening in a large corporation setting like banking somewhere. It was playing out or had played out physically some where and the architecture of where it was playing out mattered. The men and the female “sex workers” (that were more like super(ficially) happy zombie slaves) were people living out some lifestyle of sorts. It was a template of some kind or it set the template for the technology that was linking into and driving human behaviors in our physical world. Training was going on that was paying out, setting up and normalizing exaggerated deviated patriarchal sexuality that is really not human or can be deviated beyond what is natural normal human behavior easily.