Building Upon the Real for the Greater Good

In my previous article, The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators”(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/the-aftermath-of-the-alien-love-bite-soul-types-and-predators/) I proposed to write an article that could answer some tough questions by my clients, especially the ones who were born into “specific bloodlines” of ruling occult groups who target them for many reasons. The questions that have been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid, “love bite” experiencers are, “Why do I repeatedly keep being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings?” And of course the biggest question by these people is, “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”

I contemplated this from a more spiritual perspective based upon a profound experience I had many years ago at the age of 22. This experience catalyzed a deep realization of remembrance, a core essence of being, whose depth of “realness” was so immense, total, absolute and freeing, that the core significance of it vindicated a deep realness within an eternal place of being. A deeper, greater reality. It was recognition of truth of beingness free of the earthly and even “astral” state of being. This deep knowing is present always, when in this state of presence. But when I returned back into my body state of consciousness, the shock of this realization was so intense it nearly gave me a heart attack. In fact, I believed at the time, if I did not return to my “body” from this realized state of beingness, my heart would explode and I would die of some kind of heart attack.

Well, I did not die physically, but the experience of spiritual remembrance left me shaken, wordless and deeply imprinted in such a way that a truth was revealed in me, for recognitions sake, beyond all religion or teachings that I had known at that time. It was not until many years later in my exploration of Gnostic, Tibetan Buddhist studies and Advaita-Vedanta mystical teachings that I came to understand this experience. But the ironic thing about this realization was that my original intention and prayers for three days and nights was to “know and understand the truth of Jesus Christ, the one in the Bible.” Well, I can assure you this was no “vision” of Jesus but more of a direct recognition of beingness that was so utterly real in its depth, that there was no question in my mind about what truth is inside our being. “Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first within you and all will be added unto you.” Each and every one of us who has an eternal spirit of awareness has this within them. But most of us do not fully remember this state of being.

 

What People Really Want—Freedom and Happiness

So much of what my counseling clients seek is of course, happiness, but more specifically, freedom from inter dimensional interference, and all that goes with this. The “archontic” Matrix control systems run by seemingly predatory beings, both human and non human— appears to be the problem on “the outside” that ruins so many lives. Ultimately I believe, building upon and recognizing the real—our internal truth of being—is the key to freedom, empowerment, love and all good things. But for most people, and even “yogis and mystics”, this must be done gradually, in such a way that we increase and expand our awareness of “reality”. This awareness becomes more and more real, until we can sustain a measure of lucidity in mindfulness.

True happiness comes from within. It actually arises out of getting in touch with our core essence of being. Contact with true reality. It is not a short term investment strategy, nor does it have to take a long time. But it does require that you desire it, are willing to be still, have faith, be patient, humble and courageous.

 
Getting Lucid with Mindfulness and Self-Observation

This must be a step by step process, where we are intentionally committed expand our own awareness, out of which comes change. Mindfulness is not really about “trying to change” but rather intending on allowing ones awareness to be aware of truth versus lies; stalking the illusions. As we go into a place of self-observation and mindfulness, we will start to perceive what distractions and “obstacles in our path” have prevented us from being still, from being happy, from feeling love. From feeling truly alive and knowing ourselves in our core essence. It is not a “conceptual self analysis” or self-absorbed narcissism either. It requires us to take notice of whatever feelings are present in the moment, without identifying with them so much that we lose our lucidity.

What is lucidity, you may ask? For me, it is awareness of being aware. Like what happens when you are in a dream, and know you are dreaming. In that moment of recognition, the reality of the dream deepens immensely, everything vivifies, and with it can come a natural state of wonder and joy of whatever arises in the moment. It unleashes the wonder of each unfolding moment as a mystery that is beyond our illusion of controlling the dream. Many people assume that lucidity in dreams is being able to control the dream or the vividness of it. But this is in error. It is the absolute knowing that you are dreaming and therefore have a greater ability to create and connect on expanded levels of being, not only as the dreamer, but as the background of the dreams and characters. It is a wonderful oneiric laboratory to explore self-healing, and discovering parts of ourselves we may not be fully aware of. We can apply lucidity in our meditation, in our daily lives. We can take advantage of this process when we have negative feelings and positive feelings. With lucid awareness our understanding of the feelings observed in that moment will be revealed in such a way, that we are able change out of an authentic awakening, with much less effort.

When we “wake up” we no longer will hold on to the things which we realize are illusions, distractions, addictions, bad relationships, avoidance or self-pity. The waking up process is not so easy however. When it does happen, it can be painful, and we may hit a threshold of obstacles, pain, and intense suffering of any number of feelings before we have that “aha!” moment. It tends to happen in stages when we can process the insights revealed over time and with maturity. In my view, the spiritual path to awakening is a healing journey where deep psychological changes take place.

 

Psychological Healing and Trauma Resolution Therapy Helps Wake Us Up

Waking up to a greater spiritual reality inevitably requires substantial psychological self reflection and healing of our deepest core wounds. This is essentially a psychotherapeutic process to root out the original causes of our suffering. It is really a rooting out process of identifying that which is false, and cutting through the psychological defenses which keep us from connecting deeper into our own core selves. Oftentimes it is easier to discover what the truth is by knowing in our heart, what we are not. And I can assure you, most beliefs in the “matrix world system” are geared to prop up false beliefs about who and what you are, in order to control you. The unenlightened love to lord over and control you, they are lovers of power, usually with big egos. Have you ever noticed how the power hungrier someone is, the more of a psychopath they turn out to be? And do you really think they have your best interests at heart?

Now here is a paradox. The truth is, things do not need to be fixed, they need to be understood. If we can truly understand without judgement and over identification and excessive emotional triggering, things will change naturally. Oh, but what does this really mean when we break things down into practical day to day living and being?

Therapy and counseling in some practices are more about alleviating symptoms or reinforcing the “matrix world view”, where pharmaceuticals are prescribed or “things to make you feel better” are advised. And on the spiritual front line of “enlightenment solutions” we can run into the fake gurus who are really spiritual predator-vampires. Gatekeepers and soul entrappers who end up identifying and feeding off of the real “gifted ones”. Then they target you to exploit or clamp down your real, supernatural abilities. I do find it almost ironic, that many who have woken up, have found out by going to hell and back. Or having been trapped by evil sorcerers, or being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist only to discover what they don’t want and who they are not. This is a huge key. You want to know why?

Because when things get bad enough you are forced to feel negative emotions. You may be forced to drop your ego and surrender enough to experience a deeper presence of being within. You may hit rock bottom like the alcoholic or drug addict who finally realizes their way of life is killing them. They finally wake up to the shocking insanity and intense pain they are feeling. It is necessary to get in touch with the negative feelings you are having, be aware of what they are. Take note of the positive ones too. What causes these feelings, really? Where do they start in your body? Can you be in your body or are you habitually dissociating? You need to be still long enough to know when your automatic, triggered avoidance patterns start kicking into gear, in ways that actually pull you out of REALITY and connection with your heart and your core self. You know that is what addictions are all about don’t you? Avoidance of uncomfortable feelings, hidden traumas and vulnerable emotional wounds.

Do you know what is funny? Addicts and alcoholics feel like life would be boring and dull without the drugs, alcohol etc. Many have not really got into contact with their core selves because they are avoiding bad feelings, perhaps repressed traumas. Trauma and addictions go together like peas and carrots. If you work on one, let’s say the drinking part, the other issue will rise to the surface. If you deal with the trauma first, and truly resolve the trauma over time, (or even rapidly with modalities such as Rapid Release Trauma Therapy, hypnotherapies etc.) your addictions may just stop by themselves. Or in the least with less effort. This is where the understanding part comes in. With understanding, things will change naturally. You don’t have to “fix feelings”, you just have to self-connect long enough to understand, let go of the illusions and the problems disappear. It is really more about letting go.

And you know what will drive psychopaths and abusers away from you? You want to get rid of them? Start a meditation practice, be still, silent and ever aware. They will think you are so BORING they will leave you alone and have to find someone else for their narcissistic supply of energy!

 

The Walls We Hit Before Waking Up

Faith is the number one necessity before any positive change can occur. This is a pre-requisite for Buddhist teachings on enlightenment and for genuine happiness as well. It is not just a Christian virtue, but is supreme in just about every religion. If you prefer, we can say that it is helpful that you see that it is desirable to wake up in order to relieve your suffering. It must be desirable to give up illusions and dependencies on what is NOT REAL so you can make contact with that deeper REALITY. That awakening to the deeper reality of your true beingness is so powerful that entire systems of control have been created to keep you addicted to the fake, so as to distract you without you even knowing you are a puppet. So do you really want freedom and awakening?

And what tends to happen before we can drop illusions, over identifications, and ego masks to go deeper inside the mystery of the heart and spirit? Those psychological defenses pop up, mind control programs, avoidance patterns, addictions, distractions and real demons could start manifesting. Oftentimes when our distraction patterns drop, we touch in with our aloneness during periods of silence. We can feel quite alone even when we are with someone, if any emotional wounds have not been dealt with. There is this thing called loneliness which can be so unbearable, despairing and empty that we avoid it at all costs, thinking loneliness can only be cured by having company, or doing the things which numb those bad feelings when you start to feel lonely or depressed. Loneliness can happen when we are with someone or alone. It can happen when we start to be still in solitude, even in meditation, as we get in touch with silence. Sometimes the loneliness is like a wall of the most despairing pain of hopelessness, non love, and shameful unworthiness. A rejection so deep, an abandonment so great that you split it off into another compartment of your being. It could be the overlay covering up rage, intense sadness or even terror. But remember this is a wall, they are feelings, which are not really you, but feelings of experience you have had or still live in you based on something much earlier in life that was never healed or made conscious.

 

Our Addictions and Avoidance Patterns Distort Our Perception of Reality

The difficult part of the self-discovery process is how many of our behaviors are running on a kind of automatic mode, something we cannot seem to consciously control from a logical perspective. When we are still running on these automatic defenses and “conditioned programs”, our perceptions of others and of reality is skewed. We tend to see people through the lens of our own addictive needs—the needs we cling to so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable feelings, our old wounds still festering inside. If we seem to be stuck in blaming others, or trying to fix the world, we have not fully woken up. If we keep trying to control others in co-dependent relationships, we have not done our self-healing work. If we still are dependent on approval, appreciation and the constant distraction of company of others (in a compulsive way), we are still asleep. If we keep finding ourself looking for love from someone out there, we have not dealt with our stuff. If we habitually manipulate others into providing for our own “psychic energy”, attention and approval, we are actually emotional energy vampires in disguise.

Now I know this sounds harsh and like a cliche about seeking it all within. It is not ALL within but so much of it is, that if we don’t take personal responsibility and a willing humbleness to deal with our SH**, then nothing will change. Love happens through openness and awareness. It can only happen by dropping the illusions which have kept us in this merry go round of distractions, numbness and disconnection from reality.

 

What We Need is Slowing Down

There are some things that we do need, however. Safety is very important, either in or out of a relationship. Many of my anomalous trauma clients lack the safety and sustained stillness to stay with the mindful, healing and recovery process long enough to truly wake up. They may have so much drama and “interference” that any kind of committed therapy process is unlikely. And when this happens I can guarantee you it is part of the “program” to keep the person believing that it is impossible, unnecessary, too expensive, everyone else’s fault and the entire gamut of I’m right, ego rigidity and “yes but…”.excuses. Many of the excuses are part of what I call the learned helplessness, “whining victim” program that effectively self sabotages true change. And if I would tell this to someone who is in the midst of a whopping, whining victim (or predator) program, it would infuriate them. The truth is, they really believe they are powerless because they are trapped in illusions.

What we do need is willingness for more awareness, stillness, enjoying the simple pleasures of life, like decent food, water, light, exercise, a good book, perhaps an entertaining movie now and then. But what we don’t need is to be so busy that we cannot enjoy simple pleasures and instead adopt artificial stimulants, or are too busy and sleep deprived to even enjoy simple pleasures. We want to engage the true senses and slow down. When we do slow down, our senses actually come more alive, making it easier to enjoy simple pleasures. The need for addictions, drama or over stimulation falls away. It only requires a decision to be still with awareness for a short period daily or on a regular enough basis in small steps and goals. You can perceive miracles and hidden, secret things from slowing down. Your perceptions expand, and when you start noticing all kinds of things, understanding of what arises starts to awaken in you. This enables you to change, the awareness that comes with simply slowing down.

 

Mindfulness Meditation is Good

In my own experience, I had explored just about every “therapy” there is, from cognitive-behavioral talk therapy, hypnotherapy, rebirthing, interpersonal communication skills, marriage and family therapy, lucid dreaming, journaling, art therapy, dance, creative writing, martial arts, Chi Gong, authentic movement and yoga. You name it, I did it. Some significant radical shifts in expanded awareness occurred after doing a couple of 10 day shamatha meditation retreats. Shamatha meditation is a very simple form of mindful sitting meditation where one follows the breath, a single object of meditation or awareness of whatever arises in the mind. (http://www.deerparkthimphu.org/activities/shamatha.html) I personally would recommend doing this with a very good teacher in person, someone like Dr. Alan B. Wallace. (http://www.sbinstitute.com/Shamatha_Project)

Sometimes it takes getting out of your ordinary habits in a different environment, where silence and stillness with awareness is the only activity. For me, meditation is what woke me up to feeling and finally perceiving in vivid, expanded awareness, the insanity I had been living, and it was shocking and painful enough for me to change. For other individuals however, it may be something else that wakes them up in such a way as to be the catalyst for effective change. I’ve seen some “meditation junkies” become kind of addicted to the cult aspect of Buddhist community, instead of doing more deep, psychotherapeutic work. Some people actually fall into dissociation, rather than embodied awareness in stillness, that true meditation requires. This is why it is good to have an experienced teacher, who has demonstrated their own internal self-healing and mindfulness work. You will recognize them by their openness, compassion, and wisdom in how they live their lives and how well their own students learn and exemplify wisdom in their lives.

The evidence is when change starts to take place in you, in your awareness. It happens, you don’t do it. If you try to “do it” it doesn’t last. Change is natural through awareness of truth, reality and embodied self-connectedness. Then you keep your openness, flexibility, softness and compassion through awareness. It is not a rigid “trying to control”, change. Or being compelled to lecture or prove yourself right. The evidence is in the softness, ease, effortless effort, compassion, awareness, wisdom and openness. It is a tasting and feeling, an experiential, expanded perception beyond information in your head or over analyzing on a conceptual level. And with this comes strength and courageousness. Joy will start to emerge, a spontaneousness to perceive humor in life as well.

 

Doing the Healing Work

Nothing is more painful and humbling than someone telling you that, “you need therapy”, or ask you sarcastically, “are you off your meds?”. Or when a concerned family member, friend or fellow work mate suggests you get into a recovery program for an ongoing addiction you have normalized in your life, which is starting to create problems that you, apparently, are unaware of. More often than not, when we do decide to get “professional help” for something, it resulted from an uncomfortable situation in our life like a broken relationship, lost job or God forbid, a Driving Under the Influence (DUI) or police arrest. One good thing about suffering is that it can be the agent of positive change and expanded awareness. Some experiences, such as a narcissistic abuse, alien love bite relationships can be so intense and psycho-spiritually shattering that it can serve as a “spiritual initiation” of permanent consciousness change. A real wake up call.

The sad part about “not having done our healing and personal growth work”, or for short, “not dealing with your sh**” (NDWYSH), means that some part of you has disconnected from your spiritual core essence, most likely your emotional center. Part of your heart actually shuts down, and with this shutting down comes a block in your awareness, a blind spot. We do this to ourselves as a reaction to stress, trauma or deep emotional wounds. Sometimes our conditioned beliefs and ways we were raised in our family system required us to be cut off from our own authentic being, or we would not be accepted, loved. In severe cases, if we did not do or be what we were told, we were beaten up, abused or thrown out on the streets. Abandoned.

It is rather ironic that in order to psychologically survive such kinds of abuse and traumas, we abandon our own selves, to protect us from the shock of the reality that perhaps we lived in a very unsafe world, where we really were unloved or had psychopath caretakers. And for many of us, the shock of reality, the extreme vulnerability and powerlessness of childhood, and our feelings about the craziness we have had to endure, was too much for a young child.(It can be too much for an adult!) That inner child—whose real needs, identity, whose heart and soul had to be abandoned or be put in cold storage somewhere, until some day, it would be safe enough to be who we are and feel what we feel.

 
Co-Dependency is a Spiritual Issue

In Melanie Tonia Evans article, “On Co-Dependency and Narcisicism, (See: http://blog.melanietoniaevans.com/2014-co-dependency-check-up/) she addresses the culprit of the spiritual disease of Co-Dependency and Narcissism:

“Societal beliefs, unconsciousness, and the horrific programming of ‘Needing to get worthiness, value, approval, and love outside of ourselves’ is all responsible for the dis-ease (yes it is a human disease) of co-dependency.

The reason being is: we are all a product of a world that looks “outwards” for comfort and fulfillment. We were NOT taught to come inside and self-partner in times of stress.
Rather we were told to “Shut up and get on with it”, or that our feelings and emotions were “inconvenient” and “irrelevant” and therefore had to be ignored, repressed, shoved aside or switched off.
As a result we all became more and more disconnected from our emotional centres and we tried to acquire stuff or people’s love and approval to stop the pain, and when that failed we took up addictions (self-avoidance mechanisms) to try to numb ourselves out from the pain.

Co-dependency is a spiritual disease. It is NOT a psychological issue, the psychological component is the symptom. It is an emotional issue, a soul issue.  The remedy does not lie in logical thinking. It requires a deep connection back to yourself and your true connection with Source / Life / God.

Until we know we are at One with Source (and at the Quantum Level that is the absolute scientific truth) we cannot ever be at One with ourselves, others or this planet.
This is when we suffer the results of “disconnection” and are not generating the Source truth of “wellbeing”. Rather we are granted by Source/Life/God the results of our free will choice of living in the illusions of “separation”.

And that separation hurts so much it makes us want to be addicted to whatever alleviates these awful feelings of disconnection from our true REAL SELVES/SPIRIT/SOURCE.

By reacting in unconscious triggering, and whatever addictions we choose to effectively numb our pain, this decision constitutes an agreement to disconnect from our heart and soul, leaving us open for other substitutes to run our “vehicle”. This disconnect also takes away from our life force energy and our awareness in consciousness, because energy and awareness are linked. The more your energy is lost, the less aware you become.

We may have grown up this way, living in dysfunctional families, where all these kinds of crazy behaviors were normalized, including verbal abuse, emotional neglect, boundary invasions, poor communication skills and addictions. And when we grew older, and entered into relationships, jobs and started raising our own families, we started having huge problems. Sometimes it is the problems that wake us up to the discovery of how blind, numb, abusive or victimized we really were. And when we don’t heal these original wounds, we set ourselves up to be hurt even more, sometimes as victims or on the other end of it as perpetrators of abuse.

The difficult thing about effective, lasting change is that it must be dealt with on deeper levels of our being, not just logical analysis or simple awareness of your patterns. It must happen in such a way that you connect to the younger feeling parts of yourself that initially experienced the trauma, the vulnerable part who held false beliefs about themselves or the world, that needs to be let go of. The self abandonment that occurs with early traumas are often linked in with Boundary issues. According to Melanie Tonia Evans,

“True empowered boundaries mean: ‘I love myself and I know my truth. I know who I am, and I will not compromise myself anymore. You have a choice to be in my reality of meeting this higher vibration. If you don’t – that’s okay – I’m not in anymore regardless of the consequences. Because in no way is the correct and healthy development of my life dependent on you making any particular choice, or even understanding what I need. You are NOT my source of self – I AM!’

Now of course we don’t reach this level of conduct until we have done the work on ourselves to get there, and naturally the work is about finding and up-levelling the young unhealed parts of our Inner Being that are still hooked on “You HAVE to be the source of me because I can’t be that to myself”.

It is true, as children we couldn’t be a source to ourselves, we were entirely co-dependent. We were powerless and vulnerable, and if we haven’t healed and up-levelled these young parts – which means self-developing and growing them lovingly and supportively up – they still affect us, regardless of knowing better logically. I promise you the painful aspects of our life are not being created logically, and they can’t be solved logically.

It’s been stated in therapy circles, “There is no healing without feeling”. And I believe this is true. Sometimes all we need is the safety, empathy and permission to feel whatever is happening inside us with gentle nudging towards real release and deep insight. It is amazing what people do when they hit their “wall” of the pain.(Or PTSD overload) Oftentimes they may spin into story telling, over and over, in a cyclic, anger—addicted way, without true resolution of the underlying feeling. Feelings are in layers, and what most people do not understand is that emotions like rage and anger are actually secondary. They cover up deeper feelings that are more vulnerable. The goal is to be able to reach that wall with awareness of what we habitually have been doing to jerk away from the “feeling”, the real memories etc., so we can address that protective part and the beliefs it may hold— which “takes control” to avoid the issue. For some people, they need more aggressive confrontation and redirection to be present with THAT FEELING and memory. Others need more gentle reassurance, nudging and guidance to take that feeling to its origin in the present now. Sometime it must be taken slowly, so that the feelings and embodied awareness of processing this energy can be done with more self control, safely without triggered PTSD syndrome.

Being able to feel, be vulnerable, feel safe, and let go of what is pent up inside creating so many problems, is not always an easy, logical process. It can take time, or it can be relatively fast, once the defenses are set aside to release and get to the truth. Working directly with the subconscious mind, identifying those beliefs and fears is the eventual goal for more rapid resolution. We must get in touch with those abandoned parts, love them, forgive them, self parent them, and allow these parts to grow up. This is how you stop seeking and expecting others to always fill those voids, to be happy. Then we are less likely to attract predators. The predators will be attracted to you if you still are not taking personal responsibility for your healing and still have self abandonment and “blind spots”. If we keep seeking others to “take away our pain”, keep us from feeling lonely, depressed or looking for that magic healer to “clear all my implants, attached entities”, etc. we will fall into the same traps. It is not that a therapist or healer cannot help you, but it should be, rather, that they help guide you to help yourself and bring into your awareness the self-discovery to heal yourself. You have to be ready to feel, and see what you are really believing about yourself, life and others. The denial must be dropped for clear perception. And clarity comes as you drop those addictions, illusions, excessive fears and desires.

If you haven’t gotten it yet that healing is all about deeper self-connection, self responsibility, expanded awareness, and being willing to be vulnerable in your heart, you will fall back into the co-dependent “conditioning program”. Or keep on being addicted to numbing, blaming others, acting out, etc. Or you may fall into the perpetrator rather than victim role, or vacillate between the two.

How can we become more aware of what we are really doing, not doing, believing, or feeling in ways that indicate there is still some healing to do? Are you worried or compelled to try to “protect people from their feelings”? Do you do this unconsciously? What fears are driving you—what beliefs? Practice awareness, mindfulness. Here is a good “Co-Dependency Checklist” that Melanie Tonia Evans created for those in recovery programs:

 
▪ Do you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people think about you?
▪ Do you try to impress other people and make them happy so that you can be happy?
▪ Do you often analyse other people’s lives?
▪ Do you get distressed by bad things that happen which are out of your control?
▪ Do you say and do what you think other people want you to say and do?
▪ Do you try to control other people’s behaviour so that you can feel okay?
▪ When an interaction with someone goes ‘wrong’ do you spend time analysing their actions, what they said and what they might be feeling and thinking?
▪ Do you find it difficult to speak up and confront an issue when you feel uncomfortable?
▪ Do you blame other people for the way you feel?
▪ Do other people’s moods bring your own mood down?
▪ Do you immediately think of someone else who needs this information more than you?
▪ Do you seek and listen to other people’s opinions rather than seeking and listening to your own?
▪ Do you obsess over saying the wrong thing or hurting someone else’s feelings?
▪ Do you hang on to people and situations even when it hurts, hoping they will change into something better?
▪ Do you often feel selfish, guilty or ‘what a waste of time’ when you do something nice for yourself?
▪ Do you often say ‘Yes’ when you really want to say ‘No’?
▪ Do you struggle to listen to your own feelings and go along with other people’s feelings?
▪ Do you give a lot of yourself to other people, even if they don’t ask, and then get upset when they don’t do the same in return?
▪ Do you try to fix or change other people to be who you want them to be?
▪ Do you try and help or fix others who don’t take responsibility for themselves?
▪ Do you tend to put everyone else’s needs before your own?
▪ Do you avoid taking charge of your own life, and / or creating your own happiness in the hope that someone will provide it for you?

For most of us, we didn’t learn how to communicate with reflective empathy, we just did what was modeled to us in our families. And if we never even bothered to do any personal growth work, mindfulness, healing and honest self-reflection, we are likely to be projecting our “stuff” on others unconsciously. We must really know our own histories, childhoods, relating patterns and what our own families have modeled to us. Are we aware of ethics and spiritual laws that may open us up to dark forces and predators? What agreements of entrapment are we actually holding onto without realizing its ramifications? I’m often astounded at how unaware many “normal seeming” people are, who have found themselves victim to psychopaths, supernatural predators and narcissists.

What prevents some people from true mutuality in friendships of respect? Could it be their refusal to be vulnerable to their own hearts and feelings? Are they rigidly holding onto denial and illusions, making you wrong so they don’t have to grow up? Are they trying to control you with their version of what they think “reality” is, while marginalizing your worth and freedom? Do they play fair in relationships so that compassionate communication can even happen? Do they have value systems that marginalize compassionate communication and reflective empathy? Is their own blind spots and psychological defenses causing cold, insensitive behaviors that hurt you? We need to also ask ourselves if we do these kinds of things to others as well.

Perhaps we must ask how much we value our own souls, and choosing what we want to be connected with. Do we really want to experience the truth of REALITY?

 
That Mystery Called Love

I found myself having ahas! when listening to the mystic, Thomas De Mello. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pNb_tYuHfY&index=69&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B)

The ever present desire and need for LOVE is a consistent topic of discussion everywhere. So many people want to experience true love, feel more loved, love more. Contrary to what we tend to assume, adoration does not lead to love, reality, life or truth. Love is generated through awareness of what is REAL.

Thomas De Mello says, “If you wish to Love, You must learn to see again. You must give up your drug.” These ‘drugs’ is a term for all our psychological defenses, distractions, co-dependent addictions or whatever you do to avoid your uncomfortable feelings. Love actually comes through awareness. It comes from dropping the illusions and obstructions to pure perception. Love is the essence of REALITY and your own eternal spiritual beingness.

(See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)

Wisdom has always been more about what illusions we are willing to let go of. Dropping your masks and pretenses. It is the same for love. As Thomas De Mello says simply,

The unobstructed heart and mind is love and wisdom. Understand the obstruction and obstacles and they will drop. Turning on the light of awareness. Happiness is not something you acquire or produce or have. Love is something that has you! “

In practice and with time, you surrender to it when you are aware of your illusions, addictions, desires and fears. It is a gradual process of tearing away those conditioned “assumptions” and attachments we have clung to, oftentimes without even knowing how we did it. These “mind control programs” and clinging desires are like sticky tentacles latching onto us, creating a “tar baby” effect. (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tar-Baby)

In aloneness, where we can be in enough solitude to be aware of and let go of these clinging dependencies, it will be like a cold turkey death. If you can be alone not having the company of people, and be emotionally dependent on them anymore to feel special, adored, appreciated, you will become free. You can be in the midst of people, and enjoy their company but they will no longer have any power over you, to make you happy or miserable. Your dependence on them dies and your capacity to love is born. Why? Because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions and dependencies.

There can be a terror in this kind of aloneness, it is like dying. There could be withdrawal symptoms, like a dark pit of emptiness. When you have let go of your own need to control someone else, need them to “love you” or be special to anyone you are getting it. If you can get to this point, you will at last know. You will be able to perceive with a vision that is clear and unclouded by fears or desires. Then you can truly love. But you must go through the pains of loss, letting go of addictions, illusions and be utterly alone before this can happen.

Dependence dies and your capacity to love is born. Why—because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions or narcissistic supply!

No, I don’t think it means being a saint or an advanced yogi who retreats to meditate in caves for years on end. It is a quality of intention with awareness, humbleness, and the dedication to see things through because you are sick and tired of hurting all the time. When you are sick of the pain, the endless recycling of misery, the ridiculous control systems by idiotic predator psychopaths, you will come to a place where enough is enough. Taking personal responsibility means creating the option for freedom, and true happiness. Being in the world but not of it.

But first, we actually have to come to respect our own spiritual heart. Any deep truths and feelings we buried. We must realize the greatest violence to our own being is self-abandonment. It is this self-abandonment that causes the feelings of loneliness, hurt, sorrow and disconnectedness from REALITY.

To paraphrase what Thomas De Mello said,

“You must cultivate ceaseless awareness, patience and compassion as you would have for a drug addict. Develop taste for good things in life, pure, simple, things. Work, laughter, intimacy with people to whom you do not cling or who you depend emotionally, but whose company you enjoy. Activities you can do with your whole being, while engaged in them. Success or recognition don’t mean a thing to you. It will help if you return to nature. Mountains—silently commune with trees, animals, flowers, birds, clouds, sky and stars etc. Spiritual exercise to gaze at things, to be aware of things around you. The world will drop, concepts will drop and you will see and you will make contact with reality. That is the cure for lonliness. We usually seek to cure our loneliness through our emotional dependence on people, distractions, noise. Get back to nature. Then you will know your heart has brought you to the vast desert of solitude. No one there to depend on. At first it is unbearable because you are unaccustomed to aloneness. Stick it out, the desert will blossom into love, your heart will burst into song. It will be springtime forever. Drug is gone, you are free. Then you will understand what freedom is, love is, happiness, what REALITY is. Truth is, what GOD is.”

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)
Our next panel discussion we want to address the concepts of the Matrix engineers using polarity “choices” for neutralization, soul corruption and harvesting strategies. What we need to be doing and letting go of in order to take responsibility for dealing with our SH**. What happens if we choose to ignore the wisdom of our own Source connected Spirit.

Useful blog and links for PTSD Recovery: http://www.new-synapse.com/aps/wordpress/?p=1022

Updated Declaration of Non-Consent for Interference from Laura Leon’s web site: http://www.sovereignkees.com/non-consent-declaration.html

Panel Discussion on “Paranormal Interference in Human Love Relationships” THE LOVE BITE PLUS

We have completed a 3 hour and 22 minute Panel Discussion on The Love Bite and The Dark Side of Cupid topic. This is the most comprehensive discussion yet available on the internet on the theme of paranormal interference in human love relationships. Orchestrations of “love bites”, interference patterns, disruptions of “true love” and so much more.

Paranormal/Hyperdimensional Interferences in Human Love Relationships.

We covered many topics, shared our experiences, research, pathways towards healing, protection and much more. We’ll be doing more panel discussions in the near future, going even deeper into this topic and also focus more on the repair/healing/integration/protection aspect.

Much gratitude to my amazing colleagues, friends and fellow renegades for a great and insightful discussion:
James Bartley, Sovereign Laura Leon, Carissa Conti, Tom Montalk, Arella Eliora and Bernhard Guenther

Websites: Eve Lorgen: http://evelorgen.com

Laura Leon: http://www.sovereignkees.com

Bernhard Guenther: http://veilofreality.com

Carissa Conti: http://in2worlds.net

Tom Montalk: http://montalk.net

Arella Eliora: http://thewayofbalance.blogspot.com (English)

http://caminoalregresodelbalance.blogspot.mx (Spanish)

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1j-dtUgops

MP3: http://lunahelia.com/RTEVENT/Love_Bite+_Panel_Discussion_10.24.2015_audio.mp3

 

 Notes on Love Bite Plus:

  • The history of how the term “alien love bite” came about
  • The alien love bite and the Dark Cupid “love bite” symptoms
  • The targeting aspect of Dark Side of Cupid connections
  • Obsessive aspect of the love bite, love drug attachment extremes.
  • How the love bite can trigger life threatening conditions
  • How ETs/aliens handlers keep us in states of prolonged isolation where emotional needs go unmet, thus setting us up for love bite relationships
  • Trust issues, intimacy issues as a result of abduction histories
  • The inverse of the Love Bite—disrupting true love and how its not unusual for truth seeking abductees.
  • How others connected to the “abductee” can be manipulated to keep the abductee from awakening
  •  The Predator vs Prey set up in Love Bite/Dark Cupid
  • One of the persons, the “prey victim” is usually more spiritually evolved because essentially they are being targeted.
  • How the Predator in the duo tends to have Narcissistic traits or personality disordered. How the predator can mirror our needs so well. Sexual attraction high. How both the Predator and the Prey are both empathic and psychic.
  • How it feels like one is under a spell and the “red flags” of true intuition get overridden
  • How some people are groomed to be addicts of love.
  • How the predator types are acting like “organic portals”, puppet people and are very destructive. Some predators are possessed by high level entities and demons, psychic vampires.
  • Many victims of the DSOC were literally targeted by sorcerers, “hosts” for inter dimensional entities.
  • How true soul sparks or Twin Flame true love partners will be targeted to be set up in counterfeit “twin flame love bites” so that they don’t meet the real soul mate partner. How to tell if its a real twin flame versus the imposter love bite.
  • Many online Twin Flame web sites, forums, gurus are actually part of the parasite/predator program to keep and ensnare people in love bites. How difficult it is to “deprogram” people from the belief in their twin flame when the red flags of a love bite are glaring at them. Denial.
  • Cult leaders especially dangerous and often are hosted by parasitic beings who encourage and set up love bites in masse. (octopus head feeders)
  • The feelings of when your own intuition is being overridden, like you are in a trance but somehow just “go along with it”.
  • Our bodies can react with psychosomatic symptoms when we have invasive negative energy beings invading our energy bodies. Dark beings should be incompatible with our frequency hence unusual physical symptoms or pain.
  • Sexual interaction the most potent form of energy transfer between two people and with entities.
  • Some fractured people are groomed to be “empty vessels” and puppets for mind control agendas that may play out in love bite scenarios. Example.
  • False timeline reality creation, through “black magic like” rituals can bring in dark beings, and cause a true destiny distortion, and a love bite instead of “true love”.
  • Love spells can yield love bites.
  • Solar plexus chakra affected in many love bites, where our will is weakened
  • Childhood wounding can contribute to vulnerability to love bites, and also be the source of great learning and healing
  • Drug use can open one up to entity possession, unhealed wounds, fracturing of personality
  • Narcissists and entity possession often go hand in hand
  • How the narcissist uses blame, projection, shame, guilt and punishing tactics
  • How you cannot rationally communicate to a narcissist because they twist, blame, shame and project so much its futile. Just disengage.
  • Healing discussion in love bite situations
  • Self awareness and self correction necessary to re connect with spirit and intuition

 

Harald Kautz-Vella Talks about the Love Bite Phenomenon

HKV and Veronica Keen Interview, Part 2, on Sept. 5, 2015

Harold Kauz-Vella describes a Love Bite Energy Vampirism Dynamic in “Epigenetic Bloodline Programmed Relationships”.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Df-herGvVBE

This is a brief summary of the topics discussed in this interview :

The morphogenetic field is being attacked by alien consciousness to change life here.  This alien consciousness appeared here on Earth thousands of years ago via meteors and is part of the alien “black goo” container of programmed alien consciousness. This alien consciousness is trying to change our morphogenetic field from a three phase system which includes the heart chakra, to a two phase system of linear predictability without love and empathy, under conditions of scarcity. (What the Illuminati monetary scarcity system is, under the control of the Predator-Parasite connected AI System)

Harold discusses what happens in male-female relationships of those in “bloodlines” where conditions of strong, ancestral epigenetic programming of pain, “unhealthy high drama”, and lack of empathy repeat themselves in cycles. Miserable high drama relationships. Love Bites!

Male female relationships of this type of deep “bloodline programming” cause great pain and classic “love bite” characteristics. He describes it in his own experience with a “love bite” woman who claimed to have her 12-stranded DNA activated, and who was in fact practicing black magic rituals and linked him into a manipulated love connection. (He described it as a kiss, as the physical touch that linked him in).

What he explained was a classic “Dark Cupid love bite relationship” where obsession took hold and a disconnection from his own intuition internal source guidance system. (This is common in the “alien love bite” phenomenon). He says these kinds of relationships happen alot (especially in “bloodline people”) and need a shamanic type of healing modality because “implants” linked in to the alien parasites remain. As long as the implants remain in this plasma-like energetic state, the love bitten person can still feel an attraction and fall back into a thought looped obsession of the love bite partner. I would agree that this is one reason why the “love bite” connection is so hard to break, and why seemingly normal people can become obsessed overnight and lose all critical reasoning ability  disconnected from their natural spiritual intuition while under the spell of a love bite connection. It is the implants, psychic inline and outline cords and obsessive thought loops, in my view, along with any unhealed wounds that keep the love bite cycle going. It always feeds some kind of unseen parasite, working through the couple. Harold did say alot of this is due to deep, long standing epigenetic programming, which I can understand as ancestral bloodline imprinting due to a deep connection with the various inter dimensional parasite beings who work through certain bloodlines. Especially those who practice black magic.(Oftentimes they are Draco and Reptilian in particular)

I also have observed over the years how certain powerful souls with innate abilities who incarnate here to do authentic healing work are often “targeted” by a love bite partner who throws them off track, and gets them corded up with interdimensionals, implants and siphons away their creative life force energy. In my case histories in both my books, The Love Bite, and The Dark Side of Cupid, the other non-reporting partner is not necessarily aware of how he or she is being used to target the other partner.

I was quite amazed that Harold described this in the way he did; how the heart chakra of the male is linked in with the alien parasite system, and pulls in the energy from the woman who needs to “feel some kind of pain” in these unhealthy relationships.  For example, the Borderline trait person who needs and creates alot of drama even if it is feeling pain, in order to “feel”. This also occurs with the Narcissistic Personality disordered person, who tends to act as the predator, while the targeted partner plays the role of victim. He mentioned that Borderline Personality types tend to these kinds of connections and also Bloodline people who have deep epigenetic programming of the pain-drama-love bite linked into the Parasite kinds of dynamics.

Harold did go into how this Game of predator-victim only stops once the victim stops being a victim and decides to stop “playing into the game” of the predator. It’s a two way system where both play roles in this game that feeds the predator parasite. In my experience, it is rarely the predator type of personality that heals first, because it is the nature for them (ie., Narciscists) to continue doing this until they are stopped or until they can no longer find any victims to play the game. This is why Boundaries are SO IMPORTANT for anyone who has been involved in such types of relationships.

On that Youtube page someone with the name of eevie made a comment about love bites and having a chakra harness removed, which helped solve the problem. I want the reader to know this is not my comment and another woman with the name of Evie. I do not necessarily advocate removing all ones “chakras” to avoid implant manipulation of our energy field. (Although chakras are certainly being plugged into.) Sometimes the heart chakra is literally being squeezed, or maybe tubes coming in and out of that area, or the solar plexus, sacral or root chakra areas. Please see the French clairvoyant drawings of this on my web site, how this is observed with the parasite inter dimensional beings hosting someones energy field.

http://evelorgen.com/wp/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/Stéphane-Cardinaux-Reptiliens-etc.pdf

 

 

Radio Show and Updated News on Milab Round Table Event

I just gave a great 2 hour interview on Masaki Akaida’s Youtube and Podcast Radio Show Monday July 20, 2015.

Podcast: http://www.akaida.com/blog/akaida-podcast-004-eve-lorgen/

Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKPQV8lN5WI

We discussed:

  • – UFO abduction research in the 1990s, what was being discovered
  • – The role of women as groundbreakers, healers in the ET / UFO research field
  • – The Alien Love Bite, Dark Side of Cupid
  • – Alien and Negative Entities Milking Human Emotions & Relationships for Energy
  • – Reptilian Hosting & Strip Clubs
  • – Being aware, new wave of ‘New Age’ popularity right now
  • – MILABs (Military Abduction) phenomena & ‘Super Soldiers’

As a reminder we have some new  Milab Round Table Participant Panelists to join us Saturday July 25, 2015 6 pm Eastern Time. James Bartley, Tom Montauk and Carissa Conte will join us for this rare and dynamic, controversial subject. We may have some surprise guest “milabs” also. Remember to register at the RISE Multiversity Web site at the link below and give some time to sign in and also download Zoom if you don’t already have it to participate in this video conferencing Discussion Event.

Round Table July 25th

http://www.risemultiversity.org/the-milab-experience-keys-to-recovering.html

 

Reptilian Hosting and Strip Clubs

This is an article, based on a recent report I received regarding a reptilian hosting situation.  The woman observed this situation to be ongoing with her soon to be “ex-husband” for many years, and in her estimation, was due primarily to a psychic cording, linking and reptilian attachment that originated when her husband repeatedly visited sex strip-clubs.

The formatting is direct from the woman’s (named “M”) own statements from personal correspondence. She has provided several sketches of what she observed in her “husband” usually during sexual activity, when the entity “took control” of his body temporarily. The sketches show the iguana-like reptilian entity attached to his shoulder, and also a dark greenish-grey energy field surrounding his aura, which is really the overshadowed energy body of a larger reptilian entity (4th dimensional) that entered “from the back” of her husband. “M” also noticed other things that she discovered when doing her own healing work,(EMDR) as well as tracing back the origin of the iguana-reptilian entity, via a type of ET technology, holographic boxes, cords faciltating interdimensional access. One of the key issues of relevance is the technological and interdimensional access of humanity via places like sex strip clubs that are targetted with a type of ET technology linked in via some UFO and connected into the building with interdimensional fiber optic-like connections that allow linking and direct energetic access to the persons in the strip club.

I would also like to add a link from a previous article regarding a French Clairvoyant’s perception of how certain ET-looking entities attach to the human energy field and shift the energetics of their system by directly linking into certain chakras and energy centers.

http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/french-clairvoyants-perception-of-reptilian-hosting/

 

Excerpt from M:

I actually saw this electrical iguana shaped  dynamic over my soon to be X husband’s right shoulder when we were having sex in 2012. There was also an energetic white cubic form that sat behind this iguana form.  I could clearly sense the white cubic form but did not physically see with my human eyes. I did see the rest of this with my physical eyes.  IMG_1280:iguana

During this intimacy with my husband, he suddenly became very robotic and mechanical which was actually not that unusual.  However, this time as this started to happen, this electric blue outline of an iguana formed and appeared over his right shoulder. I was reclined on the edge of our bed and my husband was standing over me having intercourse with me as this was happening.  I then immediately saw a gray, overshadowing reptilian being take over his body from behind him. I could actually see the being and then I could see its outline around my husband’s body as this ‘takeover” took place.  It was like this thing had been waiting for the right moment to come in to take my husband over and he just came in and overtook my husband’s consciousness and physical body for the orgasm event. It was very creepy. As this happened my husband became very robotic as he methodically attempted to finish having sex with me. However, I immediately sat up and said, “What is that?” as I pointed directly to the iguana shape. I could tell the entity was surprised that I could see it. It moved backwards and started fading in a stunned and annoyed sort of way. It did seem annoyed and surprised that I was  pointing at it and basically calling it out. I also made my husband get off of me immediately. This whole experience from when I first saw the iguana shape over his shoulder to the end took about 45 seconds to a minute to happen.

This event was one of several events that included events and evidence that helped me discover and shed light on the traumatizing reality and truth that my husband was not only a sex addict that had been acting out sexually for the past 20 years of our 23 year marriage–but I also realized he was reptilian possessed or demonically possessed and  was driven by what I would call a demonic-reptilian interface or a “reptilian holographic insert” and other sexually deviant drivers. IMG_1282_copy:Iguana

Needless to say, I never had sex with him again after this event. I have also discovered many disturbing  details regarding  his sexually deviant  behaviors and they were consistently quite sadistic in nature. He has been driven by  a need to violate others with out their knowing it in ways that he knows they would find very invasive and disturbing if they knew what he was doing. The way he stores memories is also void of sentiment or nostalgia. It is fact based memories and very few details that include emotional memories of meaningful events. A robotic memory is dominant with him.

Later in meditation, after this iguana event had happened, I was trying to understand what I had seen and so I asked about it in meditation and was able to see the events and the dynamics of how this had happened. I saw several situations where my husband was doing things that had allowed this entity and other entities and some “alien technologies of sorts” to come into his field.

The main entity and the technology that was connected to or linked to the iguana/reptile that I saw over his shoulder he had actually  “contracted”  in a strip club. I was shown or just saw the whole scene of how my husband got this entity attachment and the related technology that went with it. He got this entity during a lap dance in a strip club, where he was also paying to be sexually serviced by a stripper/prostitute.  As he was in the mist of this particular event, the stripper was over him and on his lap sexually servicing him  and he leaned his head back and his sexual field opened up very widely directly over and above his body and even over the event itself. It opened in the form of what looked like a large hourglass cone shape  that was swirling a bit as it opened. These very nasty entities and cording devices and other things  that were inside of the the stripper”s energy field or that were connected to her field  were literally dumped into my husband’s energy field during this opening of his sexual field with her field and the field of the event itself.

FGC Constellation of Alien technology above SC23

I saw that the stripper had gotten some of these things from her childhood experiences and many more of them were entities and other creepy things that she had picked up or contracted from the many sexually deviant men that she had serviced and the atmosphere she worked in.  I also knew some of these were actively being directed by and were connected to something outside of her also. I could clearly see that there was something that worked through her and that was driving her from outside of her field. It was an alien type technology that was actually linked into her and into her field and even into to the strip club itself and what was going on in this place.  I could see this larger technology was there for the purpose of cording the men or people (there were a few women too) that she was servicing sexually in these acts of prostitution. It was some sort of unconscious contract she had with an outside force that hovered above this time event.

I could actually see a rounded  disked shaped space craft hovering in a dimension that seemed to be directly above and slightly to the right of  the physical space above the strip club and this event field itself. I saw my husband and others physically in the strip club committing these acts.  I also saw the technology that was being used to cord these people that were susceptible to these sorts of addictive and/or deviant  processes. This ship and its technology hovered above it all and it was there for the specific purpose of cording people. funnel 2

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The things that have happened in my marriage have been traumatizing and at the same time are quite interesting.  As I look at it all now in hind sight with a little distance,  it is clear that something much larger then my husband’s and my situation is going on. It makes so much more sense than it ever has before, as the bigger picture is emerging. Something much larger is going on and it is effecting many people.

I have had two “love bite” relationships that have both been very traumatizing and difficult experiences to go through. I have done much work now to resolve my unresolved trauma.  The first relationship was a short, less then two years, a  marriage in my early twenties to a psychopath.  I am in the process of divorcing my current  husband or 23 years now. He is not a psychopath but does have a splintered self and has he been a very convincing fraud and fake, nice guy. Realizing who he really was really choosing to be and what he has really had going on all these years has also been extremely educational, eye opening,  and enlightening to witness. I have seen a whole new level of some of the darker things that are going on in our world now.

Also I just ordered your book-The Dark Side Of Cupid and received it in the mail today and I am looking forward to reading it tonight–very excited to have your work in hand.

I am an artist and the attached images are very quick sketches that I did to capture this dynamic of what I saw while it was still fresh in my mind.  I am  planning on creating better images of several of the things that I have witnessed going on during this marriage relationship because there are several other things that I think directly relate to what’s going on and also to the work you are doing, I will send these illustrations of these events  to you when complete. Thank You for the work you are doing.

With The Kindest Regards,

“M”

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 “M” continues in next correspondence for more detail:
Hopefully by sharing this information and experience, others will be more able to see and perceive these things also.  I have learned that these entities do not like being seen for what they really are. It is a dis-empowering experience for them. Therefore seeing this all for what is, seems to be one of the easiest ways to transform and transcend its ability to influence our lives. One of the things that has surprised me the most about all of this is the dimensionality aspect of it. We have been conditioned to see and perceive the “alien” and “UFO phenomena”  in a way that is actually quite misleading and limiting.detail fgc AT BestTherapeutic Help and Recovery:I am doing much better and working daily to heal and to be my most whole and authentic self and to move on with my life. That does not mean that there has not been significant amount of unnecessary damage. I do have to say that this “Alien love bite” thing and all of the manipulative, deceptive agendas that go along with this on a very practical level–seems to be rather wasteful.  In many ways the experience of having our lives deviated by this force that is cruel, limiting in annoying ways, seems ultimately unnecessary and wasteful.  While I do understand the concept that so many spiritual teachers suggest that we signed up for this suffering to make us stronger–I just do not agree. Something about that is off. ( EL–I agree!)

I don’t see this as a grand spiritual lesson that we signed up for before we came here, that is intended to somehow make us better or stronger through being traumatized or through suffering of some kind.  I see this as a nuisance, like mosquitos that swarm on a beautiful tropical island. We may sign up for the vacation and we then educate ourselves about the local parasites and predator that are present in this environment, we keep our eyes open and take action to prevent ourselves from being bitten, harmed or distracted by them. We don’t allow them to deviate us form enjoying a good life or a good vacation.

One of the most helpful things for me therapy wise has been EMDR. See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessing

It has helped me in healing this current trauma and it has addressed the underlying issues, and limiting reactive patterns that were set up for me through early childhood experiences. I think these experiences set up survival mechanisms in me that made me more vulnerable and susceptible to being targeted by this type of abuse in my relationships. My natural nature is highly empathetic, compassionate and open, and the blind-spots these early traumas created made me an easy target, it seems. Through EMDR I was able to reprocess a lot of the automatic response patterns that I was not aware that I even had. The results have been amazing and confirmable through real-life situations.

During EMDR  I had two very factual based memories come up of myself being ritually abused around the age of three months. This happened while I was in the care of a babysitter who was “prostituting” me out to a clergy type person in Raliegh, NC and my memory suggests that it was actually surprisingly an unsuccessful event for the people doing it.  I think this experience is part of the reason that I am able to perceive the things I am able to perceive now.  It seems I may have been targeted at a very early age by this alien or demonic force. The abuse only happened twice because my highly intuitive mother, who was 19 years old at the time, quickly sensed that something was horribly wrong and quit her job and took me out of the care of this person. She did not know what had actually happened however, when I asked both my parents about this time in my life. After the memory came up in EMDR, they both confirmed that they had intuited that something was off with this the babysitter and they both noticed that I had become oddly sick and had changed after being in her care for only a couple of months and they both knew they had to take me out of her care. Thank goodness for parental intuition.  I do not understand why I was targeted at such a young age or continued to be targeted and I don’t think it’s because I am some special person or anything like that. However, something in me knows that none of this is just random occurrence. There are reasons or circumstances behind why people are targeted.

I asked M,

“I also find it interesting that the auric field color around the ex is forest, darkish-green. Was his color this way most of the time or only when the iguana, which looks like it hangs on at the neck area on one side?”

M:  The electric blue outlined iguana was on my husband’s right shoulder and this is what I saw first. It appeared there and then I knew there was this white, cubic box behind it. The iguana form on his right shoulder stayed there on his shoulder but it  started fading as this dark, green-gray reptilian entity showed up. It came in also slightly from the right  and then it seemed to come into my husbands body from behind him. The dark, gray-green form behind my STBX husband’s body in the illustration is actually the entity overshadowing my husband in what looked like an energetic body.  I could see this entity in it’s entirety and the part that merged with my husbands body was less easy to see, yet I could still see it and the part that was larger then my husband is what looks like an auric field over my husbands body.  It was a reptilian looking entity and it was actually  coming into my husbands body, taking it over and was even very awkwardly animating my husband’s body. I knew my husband was not there anymore as soon as this entity started taking him over.  Not sure where my husbands consciousness was, but it seems maybe he was beside himself and was not conscious of this as it was happening. I have ask him  if he has any memories of what was happening to him this day and he said he remembers it happening because of my response to it, and the fact that I made him get off me.  But he said he has no memory of what was happening to him. To me it was obvious that he was being taken over and evicted by this reptilian entity for what was going to be a brief, three to five minute grand finalle.  I also knew somehow that this entity could not be here, in our world or atmosphere much longer then 3 to maybe 17 minutes at the most in one event. I knew that  it was continually corded into my husband in his daily life but it remained outside of  the human sphere.  I knew that this reptile entity was connected to my husband somehow and that it monitored my husband continually and even influenced him and drove his behaviors and choices. However, this entity could not be here in its physical energetic form for too long. Not sure how I knew this, I just did.

The entity, in its energetic form, was a little bit larger then my husband’s body energetically at least and the green-gray outline around my husbands body that looks like an aura was the part of the reptilian entity that extended beyond my husband’s body as it took him over. I could see the whole entity in its 3d energetic form yet it is difficult to draw it as it was  transparent and simultaneously multidimensional.

I also know that this entity despised me and directed its rage towards me through my husband sometimes.

This is another interesting thing that happened around this. It was not too long after this event that I figured out what was going on with my husband and I insisted he leave our home.  I did  agree to allow him to do a year of SA  therapy  before deciding whether or not to divorce him. However I have not allowed him to move back in our home since the day he was out.

A day or two after I asked him to leave I had a dream where these entities were very aggressively and brutally anally raping me. In the dream I knew they could not really touch me but they wanted me to believe they could. They were even trying to make me have a physical orgasm and I blocked them and I disregarded them. I gave them no energy of any kind, not even anger.  I simple saw them for what they were.  It seemed like this was a last ditch effort on their part to get me or to punish me or to show me who’s boss. I knew they despised that I could block them. I could also sense that they knew if my husband was not physically living with me they would have less opportunity to access me through him in the future.  I know I do still have to be aware and on guard so they do not find a way to get to me. I also know there is no comparison when it comes to who is more alive, real,  luminous and Divinely endowed.

I asked M:

“Did you ever do any internal energy body scanning on yourself to see if any cords links or weird looking parasites were present? Oftentimes when I do sessions with people and use hypnotherapeutic methods, and view the energy body, they may see any number of things, from odd shaped implants to serpent, snake, octopus, medusa, alien or insect type of parasites that act like living beings that feed off of energy internally. Most of them seem to hook in the sacral, genital or solar plexus areas. Or they can link in on the back of shoulders, neck and even the heart.”

M replies:

I found the watercolor sketches of how the alien  technology that I saw over the strip club was set up and seemed to work. It may be more confusing then helpful as I did these  during my meditation to help me remember the details of what I was seeing. The actual physical club is represented at the bottom of the drawing. It looks like a constellation because this technology was connected to many similar establishments that carried out, supported, and  linked into the same constellation of human behavior patterns. The things above this are each in different areas of dimensions or dimensional levels and they had specific functions. Sidereal time was involved in understanding  how this worked.  This was all actually very interesting and I am not sure I can adequately explain it all and I wont try to here because this is long enough already.

The same type of reptilian being that was corded to and overshadowing my STBX husband was the  kind of reptilian entity that was sitting  inside the ship seen at the top of the drawing and it was very mechanically and robotically running whatever was going on technology-wise inside the ship. I do know that just because I saw this technology this way does not mean this actually exists there, and it could be an energetic dynamic of some kind or holographically devised in some way. I also know that it could actually be there in some way. I do think it may represent how the propensity for human deviation is created and continued in human behaviors, somehow through an outside influence or interference that we have been not been consciously aware of in significant ways yet.

More details on the constellation of influence to other physical locations:

M said: The strip club scene inside the cone/ inverted funnel shape was not the 3d physical strip club that my H was in when he was hooked or possessed.

The physical  strip club that my husband was in, when he was hooked/possessed,  is at the bottom of  the drawing. It looks like a constellation. This constellation image at base of drawing represents the strip club my husband was in and is actually an outline that fits perfectly over an image of the actual strip club he was in.  It is just  drawn like a constellation – I drew it this way because of something that had happened earlier and because  I needed it as a reference and didn’t need to draw a specific club because there were a lot more then just one physical establishment being linked and driven by this technology. The technology was linking into many strip clubs  and other addiction-based establishments and even vulnerable individuals wherever they were, too.  The main theme that this technology drove  was sexual deviance and perversion though. I do have good note on all of this and will get them out and look at them.

The Funnel shape is not the 3d strip club yet the scene I saw in it does exist somewhere and my intuition was that it was inside of a bank on the top floor of a banking building like a sky scraper. It some how served as a template or a school that was somehow a part of how this technology functioned.

I actually went into the funnel shape in the meditation and have notes about what was going on in this contained space, ( time and space were different and I noticed this and thought it was odd in a predatory sort of way)  There was a lot going on inside the funnel shape and part of what was going on included  a gross misuse of nature.

The funnel shape was there.  I could see it as an important part of the technology so I don’t think it was just an analogy or symbolic representation,  even though it could easily function that way. It could of had a holographic dynamic to it, especially regarding what was playing out inside of it. It was in the sky and in between the dimensional “splits?”  _ not sure how to describe it perfectly -will check notes – I  probably documented more details about it. —

What was going on, in the bottom red carpeted level of the funnel was definitely happening in a large corporation setting like banking somewhere. It was playing out or had played out physically some where and the architecture of where it was playing out mattered.  The men and the female “sex workers” (that were more like super(ficially)  happy zombie slaves) were people living out some lifestyle of sorts. It was a template of some kind or it set the template for the technology that was linking into and driving human behaviors in our physical world.  Training was going on that was paying out,  setting up and  normalizing  exaggerated deviated  patriarchal sexuality that is really not human or can be deviated beyond what is natural  normal human behavior easily.

 

 

 

The Legacy of Barbara Bartholic by James Bartley

Excellent article by James Bartley talks about things never before mentioned with Barbara’s work, and his own experiences while at conferences where “reptilian energy” ran rampant. Her knowledge of the famed “Heavens Gate Cult”– Marshall Apelwhite, Bo and Peep, and much. much more. He mentions Barbara’s understanding of the “Drama of the Love Obsession” phenomena, also known as the “Alien Love Bite”.

“Alien Abduction Research lost a true pioneer with the passing of Barbara Bartholic. Although Barbara’s work has gone largely unheralded (except amongst the many people she helped) her legacy lives on in the form of cutting edge research amongst her protégés and an understanding amongst serious researchers of the primary role played by the Reptilians in alien abductions. Barbara laid the groundwork for a deeper understanding of the Reptilian Overlordship. Indeed Barbara coined the phrase “Reptilian Overlordship.” Barbara delved deeper than most abduction researchers. She didn’t turn away from confronting or unsettling information. I am proud to say that I was a protégé of Barbara Bartholic. I worked closely with Barbara for many years and was able to gain a better understanding of my own alien abduction experiences through my close relationship with Barbara. In so doing… Continue reading

Video Interview of Eve Lorgen with Jon Kelly

Here is a 30 minute video interview Jon Kelly did with me on November 14, 2012. We talked about my new book, The Dark Side of Cupid, and how this work started from alien abduction research. I touched upon the energy vampirism issue, souls and spiritual warfare. Many people in my case studies experienced being disrupted in some way when seeking the truth of their alien visitation experiences, as well as “engineered love relationships”.

This phenomenon-aka-the “dark side of Cupid” relationship is not exclusive to experiencers of alien encounters, but happens to many more people, especially those seeking the truth about many issues kept secret regarding UFOs, Paranormal, Spirituality, higher consciousness and conspiracy issues. Energy vampirism when viewed from a shamanic perspective, can open our eyes to the unseen entities which may be responsible for this form of “paranormal interference” and soul energy feeding.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTt37fluZX4&feature=youtu.be

Youtube Interview of Eve with Matrixxxbrazil channel

This is a recent interview with Eric Jonson of the Matrixxxbrazil youtube channel. This interview is about one hour and 10 minutes. We cover my new book, The Dark Side of Cupid and the milab Horus-Ra interview material. I talk about the archonitic intrusion possession situation, demonstrated in several of the cases in the Dark Side of Cupid. These are the more severe love bite cases where psychic vampirism occurred via an alien hosted psychopathic partner. I stress the importance of us being able to recognize these predatory paranormal influences in our relationships, so that we can resolve, recover and proactively deflect such alien interference.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQwlaPn-H8E

 

French Synopsis of the Love Bite Book and The Dark Side of Cupid

A bi-lingual correspondent who is a fan of my work and books volunteered to write a comprehensive synopsis of both my Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid book in French. These are available in pdf format.

The Love Bite : LoveBite_Frenchsyn2

Dark Side of Cupid: DSS_synFrench2