Building Upon the Real for the Greater Good

In my previous article, The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators”(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/the-aftermath-of-the-alien-love-bite-soul-types-and-predators/) I proposed to write an article that could answer some tough questions by my clients, especially the ones who were born into “specific bloodlines” of ruling occult groups who target them for many reasons. The questions that have been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid, “love bite” experiencers are, “Why do I repeatedly keep being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings?” And of course the biggest question by these people is, “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”

I contemplated this from a more spiritual perspective based upon a profound experience I had many years ago at the age of 22. This experience catalyzed a deep realization of remembrance, a core essence of being, whose depth of “realness” was so immense, total, absolute and freeing, that the core significance of it vindicated a deep realness within an eternal place of being. A deeper, greater reality. It was recognition of truth of beingness free of the earthly and even “astral” state of being. This deep knowing is present always, when in this state of presence. But when I returned back into my body state of consciousness, the shock of this realization was so intense it nearly gave me a heart attack. In fact, I believed at the time, if I did not return to my “body” from this realized state of beingness, my heart would explode and I would die of some kind of heart attack.

Well, I did not die physically, but the experience of spiritual remembrance left me shaken, wordless and deeply imprinted in such a way that a truth was revealed in me, for recognitions sake, beyond all religion or teachings that I had known at that time. It was not until many years later in my exploration of Gnostic, Tibetan Buddhist studies and Advaita-Vedanta mystical teachings that I came to understand this experience. But the ironic thing about this realization was that my original intention and prayers for three days and nights was to “know and understand the truth of Jesus Christ, the one in the Bible.” Well, I can assure you this was no “vision” of Jesus but more of a direct recognition of beingness that was so utterly real in its depth, that there was no question in my mind about what truth is inside our being. “Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first within you and all will be added unto you.” Each and every one of us who has an eternal spirit of awareness has this within them. But most of us do not fully remember this state of being.

 

What People Really Want—Freedom and Happiness

So much of what my counseling clients seek is of course, happiness, but more specifically, freedom from inter dimensional interference, and all that goes with this. The “archontic” Matrix control systems run by seemingly predatory beings, both human and non human— appears to be the problem on “the outside” that ruins so many lives. Ultimately I believe, building upon and recognizing the real—our internal truth of being—is the key to freedom, empowerment, love and all good things. But for most people, and even “yogis and mystics”, this must be done gradually, in such a way that we increase and expand our awareness of “reality”. This awareness becomes more and more real, until we can sustain a measure of lucidity in mindfulness.

True happiness comes from within. It actually arises out of getting in touch with our core essence of being. Contact with true reality. It is not a short term investment strategy, nor does it have to take a long time. But it does require that you desire it, are willing to be still, have faith, be patient, humble and courageous.

 
Getting Lucid with Mindfulness and Self-Observation

This must be a step by step process, where we are intentionally committed expand our own awareness, out of which comes change. Mindfulness is not really about “trying to change” but rather intending on allowing ones awareness to be aware of truth versus lies; stalking the illusions. As we go into a place of self-observation and mindfulness, we will start to perceive what distractions and “obstacles in our path” have prevented us from being still, from being happy, from feeling love. From feeling truly alive and knowing ourselves in our core essence. It is not a “conceptual self analysis” or self-absorbed narcissism either. It requires us to take notice of whatever feelings are present in the moment, without identifying with them so much that we lose our lucidity.

What is lucidity, you may ask? For me, it is awareness of being aware. Like what happens when you are in a dream, and know you are dreaming. In that moment of recognition, the reality of the dream deepens immensely, everything vivifies, and with it can come a natural state of wonder and joy of whatever arises in the moment. It unleashes the wonder of each unfolding moment as a mystery that is beyond our illusion of controlling the dream. Many people assume that lucidity in dreams is being able to control the dream or the vividness of it. But this is in error. It is the absolute knowing that you are dreaming and therefore have a greater ability to create and connect on expanded levels of being, not only as the dreamer, but as the background of the dreams and characters. It is a wonderful oneiric laboratory to explore self-healing, and discovering parts of ourselves we may not be fully aware of. We can apply lucidity in our meditation, in our daily lives. We can take advantage of this process when we have negative feelings and positive feelings. With lucid awareness our understanding of the feelings observed in that moment will be revealed in such a way, that we are able change out of an authentic awakening, with much less effort.

When we “wake up” we no longer will hold on to the things which we realize are illusions, distractions, addictions, bad relationships, avoidance or self-pity. The waking up process is not so easy however. When it does happen, it can be painful, and we may hit a threshold of obstacles, pain, and intense suffering of any number of feelings before we have that “aha!” moment. It tends to happen in stages when we can process the insights revealed over time and with maturity. In my view, the spiritual path to awakening is a healing journey where deep psychological changes take place.

 

Psychological Healing and Trauma Resolution Therapy Helps Wake Us Up

Waking up to a greater spiritual reality inevitably requires substantial psychological self reflection and healing of our deepest core wounds. This is essentially a psychotherapeutic process to root out the original causes of our suffering. It is really a rooting out process of identifying that which is false, and cutting through the psychological defenses which keep us from connecting deeper into our own core selves. Oftentimes it is easier to discover what the truth is by knowing in our heart, what we are not. And I can assure you, most beliefs in the “matrix world system” are geared to prop up false beliefs about who and what you are, in order to control you. The unenlightened love to lord over and control you, they are lovers of power, usually with big egos. Have you ever noticed how the power hungrier someone is, the more of a psychopath they turn out to be? And do you really think they have your best interests at heart?

Now here is a paradox. The truth is, things do not need to be fixed, they need to be understood. If we can truly understand without judgement and over identification and excessive emotional triggering, things will change naturally. Oh, but what does this really mean when we break things down into practical day to day living and being?

Therapy and counseling in some practices are more about alleviating symptoms or reinforcing the “matrix world view”, where pharmaceuticals are prescribed or “things to make you feel better” are advised. And on the spiritual front line of “enlightenment solutions” we can run into the fake gurus who are really spiritual predator-vampires. Gatekeepers and soul entrappers who end up identifying and feeding off of the real “gifted ones”. Then they target you to exploit or clamp down your real, supernatural abilities. I do find it almost ironic, that many who have woken up, have found out by going to hell and back. Or having been trapped by evil sorcerers, or being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist only to discover what they don’t want and who they are not. This is a huge key. You want to know why?

Because when things get bad enough you are forced to feel negative emotions. You may be forced to drop your ego and surrender enough to experience a deeper presence of being within. You may hit rock bottom like the alcoholic or drug addict who finally realizes their way of life is killing them. They finally wake up to the shocking insanity and intense pain they are feeling. It is necessary to get in touch with the negative feelings you are having, be aware of what they are. Take note of the positive ones too. What causes these feelings, really? Where do they start in your body? Can you be in your body or are you habitually dissociating? You need to be still long enough to know when your automatic, triggered avoidance patterns start kicking into gear, in ways that actually pull you out of REALITY and connection with your heart and your core self. You know that is what addictions are all about don’t you? Avoidance of uncomfortable feelings, hidden traumas and vulnerable emotional wounds.

Do you know what is funny? Addicts and alcoholics feel like life would be boring and dull without the drugs, alcohol etc. Many have not really got into contact with their core selves because they are avoiding bad feelings, perhaps repressed traumas. Trauma and addictions go together like peas and carrots. If you work on one, let’s say the drinking part, the other issue will rise to the surface. If you deal with the trauma first, and truly resolve the trauma over time, (or even rapidly with modalities such as Rapid Release Trauma Therapy, hypnotherapies etc.) your addictions may just stop by themselves. Or in the least with less effort. This is where the understanding part comes in. With understanding, things will change naturally. You don’t have to “fix feelings”, you just have to self-connect long enough to understand, let go of the illusions and the problems disappear. It is really more about letting go.

And you know what will drive psychopaths and abusers away from you? You want to get rid of them? Start a meditation practice, be still, silent and ever aware. They will think you are so BORING they will leave you alone and have to find someone else for their narcissistic supply of energy!

 

The Walls We Hit Before Waking Up

Faith is the number one necessity before any positive change can occur. This is a pre-requisite for Buddhist teachings on enlightenment and for genuine happiness as well. It is not just a Christian virtue, but is supreme in just about every religion. If you prefer, we can say that it is helpful that you see that it is desirable to wake up in order to relieve your suffering. It must be desirable to give up illusions and dependencies on what is NOT REAL so you can make contact with that deeper REALITY. That awakening to the deeper reality of your true beingness is so powerful that entire systems of control have been created to keep you addicted to the fake, so as to distract you without you even knowing you are a puppet. So do you really want freedom and awakening?

And what tends to happen before we can drop illusions, over identifications, and ego masks to go deeper inside the mystery of the heart and spirit? Those psychological defenses pop up, mind control programs, avoidance patterns, addictions, distractions and real demons could start manifesting. Oftentimes when our distraction patterns drop, we touch in with our aloneness during periods of silence. We can feel quite alone even when we are with someone, if any emotional wounds have not been dealt with. There is this thing called loneliness which can be so unbearable, despairing and empty that we avoid it at all costs, thinking loneliness can only be cured by having company, or doing the things which numb those bad feelings when you start to feel lonely or depressed. Loneliness can happen when we are with someone or alone. It can happen when we start to be still in solitude, even in meditation, as we get in touch with silence. Sometimes the loneliness is like a wall of the most despairing pain of hopelessness, non love, and shameful unworthiness. A rejection so deep, an abandonment so great that you split it off into another compartment of your being. It could be the overlay covering up rage, intense sadness or even terror. But remember this is a wall, they are feelings, which are not really you, but feelings of experience you have had or still live in you based on something much earlier in life that was never healed or made conscious.

 

Our Addictions and Avoidance Patterns Distort Our Perception of Reality

The difficult part of the self-discovery process is how many of our behaviors are running on a kind of automatic mode, something we cannot seem to consciously control from a logical perspective. When we are still running on these automatic defenses and “conditioned programs”, our perceptions of others and of reality is skewed. We tend to see people through the lens of our own addictive needs—the needs we cling to so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable feelings, our old wounds still festering inside. If we seem to be stuck in blaming others, or trying to fix the world, we have not fully woken up. If we keep trying to control others in co-dependent relationships, we have not done our self-healing work. If we still are dependent on approval, appreciation and the constant distraction of company of others (in a compulsive way), we are still asleep. If we keep finding ourself looking for love from someone out there, we have not dealt with our stuff. If we habitually manipulate others into providing for our own “psychic energy”, attention and approval, we are actually emotional energy vampires in disguise.

Now I know this sounds harsh and like a cliche about seeking it all within. It is not ALL within but so much of it is, that if we don’t take personal responsibility and a willing humbleness to deal with our SH**, then nothing will change. Love happens through openness and awareness. It can only happen by dropping the illusions which have kept us in this merry go round of distractions, numbness and disconnection from reality.

 

What We Need is Slowing Down

There are some things that we do need, however. Safety is very important, either in or out of a relationship. Many of my anomalous trauma clients lack the safety and sustained stillness to stay with the mindful, healing and recovery process long enough to truly wake up. They may have so much drama and “interference” that any kind of committed therapy process is unlikely. And when this happens I can guarantee you it is part of the “program” to keep the person believing that it is impossible, unnecessary, too expensive, everyone else’s fault and the entire gamut of I’m right, ego rigidity and “yes but…”.excuses. Many of the excuses are part of what I call the learned helplessness, “whining victim” program that effectively self sabotages true change. And if I would tell this to someone who is in the midst of a whopping, whining victim (or predator) program, it would infuriate them. The truth is, they really believe they are powerless because they are trapped in illusions.

What we do need is willingness for more awareness, stillness, enjoying the simple pleasures of life, like decent food, water, light, exercise, a good book, perhaps an entertaining movie now and then. But what we don’t need is to be so busy that we cannot enjoy simple pleasures and instead adopt artificial stimulants, or are too busy and sleep deprived to even enjoy simple pleasures. We want to engage the true senses and slow down. When we do slow down, our senses actually come more alive, making it easier to enjoy simple pleasures. The need for addictions, drama or over stimulation falls away. It only requires a decision to be still with awareness for a short period daily or on a regular enough basis in small steps and goals. You can perceive miracles and hidden, secret things from slowing down. Your perceptions expand, and when you start noticing all kinds of things, understanding of what arises starts to awaken in you. This enables you to change, the awareness that comes with simply slowing down.

 

Mindfulness Meditation is Good

In my own experience, I had explored just about every “therapy” there is, from cognitive-behavioral talk therapy, hypnotherapy, rebirthing, interpersonal communication skills, marriage and family therapy, lucid dreaming, journaling, art therapy, dance, creative writing, martial arts, Chi Gong, authentic movement and yoga. You name it, I did it. Some significant radical shifts in expanded awareness occurred after doing a couple of 10 day shamatha meditation retreats. Shamatha meditation is a very simple form of mindful sitting meditation where one follows the breath, a single object of meditation or awareness of whatever arises in the mind. (http://www.deerparkthimphu.org/activities/shamatha.html) I personally would recommend doing this with a very good teacher in person, someone like Dr. Alan B. Wallace. (http://www.sbinstitute.com/Shamatha_Project)

Sometimes it takes getting out of your ordinary habits in a different environment, where silence and stillness with awareness is the only activity. For me, meditation is what woke me up to feeling and finally perceiving in vivid, expanded awareness, the insanity I had been living, and it was shocking and painful enough for me to change. For other individuals however, it may be something else that wakes them up in such a way as to be the catalyst for effective change. I’ve seen some “meditation junkies” become kind of addicted to the cult aspect of Buddhist community, instead of doing more deep, psychotherapeutic work. Some people actually fall into dissociation, rather than embodied awareness in stillness, that true meditation requires. This is why it is good to have an experienced teacher, who has demonstrated their own internal self-healing and mindfulness work. You will recognize them by their openness, compassion, and wisdom in how they live their lives and how well their own students learn and exemplify wisdom in their lives.

The evidence is when change starts to take place in you, in your awareness. It happens, you don’t do it. If you try to “do it” it doesn’t last. Change is natural through awareness of truth, reality and embodied self-connectedness. Then you keep your openness, flexibility, softness and compassion through awareness. It is not a rigid “trying to control”, change. Or being compelled to lecture or prove yourself right. The evidence is in the softness, ease, effortless effort, compassion, awareness, wisdom and openness. It is a tasting and feeling, an experiential, expanded perception beyond information in your head or over analyzing on a conceptual level. And with this comes strength and courageousness. Joy will start to emerge, a spontaneousness to perceive humor in life as well.

 

Doing the Healing Work

Nothing is more painful and humbling than someone telling you that, “you need therapy”, or ask you sarcastically, “are you off your meds?”. Or when a concerned family member, friend or fellow work mate suggests you get into a recovery program for an ongoing addiction you have normalized in your life, which is starting to create problems that you, apparently, are unaware of. More often than not, when we do decide to get “professional help” for something, it resulted from an uncomfortable situation in our life like a broken relationship, lost job or God forbid, a Driving Under the Influence (DUI) or police arrest. One good thing about suffering is that it can be the agent of positive change and expanded awareness. Some experiences, such as a narcissistic abuse, alien love bite relationships can be so intense and psycho-spiritually shattering that it can serve as a “spiritual initiation” of permanent consciousness change. A real wake up call.

The sad part about “not having done our healing and personal growth work”, or for short, “not dealing with your sh**” (NDWYSH), means that some part of you has disconnected from your spiritual core essence, most likely your emotional center. Part of your heart actually shuts down, and with this shutting down comes a block in your awareness, a blind spot. We do this to ourselves as a reaction to stress, trauma or deep emotional wounds. Sometimes our conditioned beliefs and ways we were raised in our family system required us to be cut off from our own authentic being, or we would not be accepted, loved. In severe cases, if we did not do or be what we were told, we were beaten up, abused or thrown out on the streets. Abandoned.

It is rather ironic that in order to psychologically survive such kinds of abuse and traumas, we abandon our own selves, to protect us from the shock of the reality that perhaps we lived in a very unsafe world, where we really were unloved or had psychopath caretakers. And for many of us, the shock of reality, the extreme vulnerability and powerlessness of childhood, and our feelings about the craziness we have had to endure, was too much for a young child.(It can be too much for an adult!) That inner child—whose real needs, identity, whose heart and soul had to be abandoned or be put in cold storage somewhere, until some day, it would be safe enough to be who we are and feel what we feel.

 
Co-Dependency is a Spiritual Issue

In Melanie Tonia Evans article, “On Co-Dependency and Narcisicism, (See: http://blog.melanietoniaevans.com/2014-co-dependency-check-up/) she addresses the culprit of the spiritual disease of Co-Dependency and Narcissism:

“Societal beliefs, unconsciousness, and the horrific programming of ‘Needing to get worthiness, value, approval, and love outside of ourselves’ is all responsible for the dis-ease (yes it is a human disease) of co-dependency.

The reason being is: we are all a product of a world that looks “outwards” for comfort and fulfillment. We were NOT taught to come inside and self-partner in times of stress.
Rather we were told to “Shut up and get on with it”, or that our feelings and emotions were “inconvenient” and “irrelevant” and therefore had to be ignored, repressed, shoved aside or switched off.
As a result we all became more and more disconnected from our emotional centres and we tried to acquire stuff or people’s love and approval to stop the pain, and when that failed we took up addictions (self-avoidance mechanisms) to try to numb ourselves out from the pain.

Co-dependency is a spiritual disease. It is NOT a psychological issue, the psychological component is the symptom. It is an emotional issue, a soul issue.  The remedy does not lie in logical thinking. It requires a deep connection back to yourself and your true connection with Source / Life / God.

Until we know we are at One with Source (and at the Quantum Level that is the absolute scientific truth) we cannot ever be at One with ourselves, others or this planet.
This is when we suffer the results of “disconnection” and are not generating the Source truth of “wellbeing”. Rather we are granted by Source/Life/God the results of our free will choice of living in the illusions of “separation”.

And that separation hurts so much it makes us want to be addicted to whatever alleviates these awful feelings of disconnection from our true REAL SELVES/SPIRIT/SOURCE.

By reacting in unconscious triggering, and whatever addictions we choose to effectively numb our pain, this decision constitutes an agreement to disconnect from our heart and soul, leaving us open for other substitutes to run our “vehicle”. This disconnect also takes away from our life force energy and our awareness in consciousness, because energy and awareness are linked. The more your energy is lost, the less aware you become.

We may have grown up this way, living in dysfunctional families, where all these kinds of crazy behaviors were normalized, including verbal abuse, emotional neglect, boundary invasions, poor communication skills and addictions. And when we grew older, and entered into relationships, jobs and started raising our own families, we started having huge problems. Sometimes it is the problems that wake us up to the discovery of how blind, numb, abusive or victimized we really were. And when we don’t heal these original wounds, we set ourselves up to be hurt even more, sometimes as victims or on the other end of it as perpetrators of abuse.

The difficult thing about effective, lasting change is that it must be dealt with on deeper levels of our being, not just logical analysis or simple awareness of your patterns. It must happen in such a way that you connect to the younger feeling parts of yourself that initially experienced the trauma, the vulnerable part who held false beliefs about themselves or the world, that needs to be let go of. The self abandonment that occurs with early traumas are often linked in with Boundary issues. According to Melanie Tonia Evans,

“True empowered boundaries mean: ‘I love myself and I know my truth. I know who I am, and I will not compromise myself anymore. You have a choice to be in my reality of meeting this higher vibration. If you don’t – that’s okay – I’m not in anymore regardless of the consequences. Because in no way is the correct and healthy development of my life dependent on you making any particular choice, or even understanding what I need. You are NOT my source of self – I AM!’

Now of course we don’t reach this level of conduct until we have done the work on ourselves to get there, and naturally the work is about finding and up-levelling the young unhealed parts of our Inner Being that are still hooked on “You HAVE to be the source of me because I can’t be that to myself”.

It is true, as children we couldn’t be a source to ourselves, we were entirely co-dependent. We were powerless and vulnerable, and if we haven’t healed and up-levelled these young parts – which means self-developing and growing them lovingly and supportively up – they still affect us, regardless of knowing better logically. I promise you the painful aspects of our life are not being created logically, and they can’t be solved logically.

It’s been stated in therapy circles, “There is no healing without feeling”. And I believe this is true. Sometimes all we need is the safety, empathy and permission to feel whatever is happening inside us with gentle nudging towards real release and deep insight. It is amazing what people do when they hit their “wall” of the pain.(Or PTSD overload) Oftentimes they may spin into story telling, over and over, in a cyclic, anger—addicted way, without true resolution of the underlying feeling. Feelings are in layers, and what most people do not understand is that emotions like rage and anger are actually secondary. They cover up deeper feelings that are more vulnerable. The goal is to be able to reach that wall with awareness of what we habitually have been doing to jerk away from the “feeling”, the real memories etc., so we can address that protective part and the beliefs it may hold— which “takes control” to avoid the issue. For some people, they need more aggressive confrontation and redirection to be present with THAT FEELING and memory. Others need more gentle reassurance, nudging and guidance to take that feeling to its origin in the present now. Sometime it must be taken slowly, so that the feelings and embodied awareness of processing this energy can be done with more self control, safely without triggered PTSD syndrome.

Being able to feel, be vulnerable, feel safe, and let go of what is pent up inside creating so many problems, is not always an easy, logical process. It can take time, or it can be relatively fast, once the defenses are set aside to release and get to the truth. Working directly with the subconscious mind, identifying those beliefs and fears is the eventual goal for more rapid resolution. We must get in touch with those abandoned parts, love them, forgive them, self parent them, and allow these parts to grow up. This is how you stop seeking and expecting others to always fill those voids, to be happy. Then we are less likely to attract predators. The predators will be attracted to you if you still are not taking personal responsibility for your healing and still have self abandonment and “blind spots”. If we keep seeking others to “take away our pain”, keep us from feeling lonely, depressed or looking for that magic healer to “clear all my implants, attached entities”, etc. we will fall into the same traps. It is not that a therapist or healer cannot help you, but it should be, rather, that they help guide you to help yourself and bring into your awareness the self-discovery to heal yourself. You have to be ready to feel, and see what you are really believing about yourself, life and others. The denial must be dropped for clear perception. And clarity comes as you drop those addictions, illusions, excessive fears and desires.

If you haven’t gotten it yet that healing is all about deeper self-connection, self responsibility, expanded awareness, and being willing to be vulnerable in your heart, you will fall back into the co-dependent “conditioning program”. Or keep on being addicted to numbing, blaming others, acting out, etc. Or you may fall into the perpetrator rather than victim role, or vacillate between the two.

How can we become more aware of what we are really doing, not doing, believing, or feeling in ways that indicate there is still some healing to do? Are you worried or compelled to try to “protect people from their feelings”? Do you do this unconsciously? What fears are driving you—what beliefs? Practice awareness, mindfulness. Here is a good “Co-Dependency Checklist” that Melanie Tonia Evans created for those in recovery programs:

 
▪ Do you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people think about you?
▪ Do you try to impress other people and make them happy so that you can be happy?
▪ Do you often analyse other people’s lives?
▪ Do you get distressed by bad things that happen which are out of your control?
▪ Do you say and do what you think other people want you to say and do?
▪ Do you try to control other people’s behaviour so that you can feel okay?
▪ When an interaction with someone goes ‘wrong’ do you spend time analysing their actions, what they said and what they might be feeling and thinking?
▪ Do you find it difficult to speak up and confront an issue when you feel uncomfortable?
▪ Do you blame other people for the way you feel?
▪ Do other people’s moods bring your own mood down?
▪ Do you immediately think of someone else who needs this information more than you?
▪ Do you seek and listen to other people’s opinions rather than seeking and listening to your own?
▪ Do you obsess over saying the wrong thing or hurting someone else’s feelings?
▪ Do you hang on to people and situations even when it hurts, hoping they will change into something better?
▪ Do you often feel selfish, guilty or ‘what a waste of time’ when you do something nice for yourself?
▪ Do you often say ‘Yes’ when you really want to say ‘No’?
▪ Do you struggle to listen to your own feelings and go along with other people’s feelings?
▪ Do you give a lot of yourself to other people, even if they don’t ask, and then get upset when they don’t do the same in return?
▪ Do you try to fix or change other people to be who you want them to be?
▪ Do you try and help or fix others who don’t take responsibility for themselves?
▪ Do you tend to put everyone else’s needs before your own?
▪ Do you avoid taking charge of your own life, and / or creating your own happiness in the hope that someone will provide it for you?

For most of us, we didn’t learn how to communicate with reflective empathy, we just did what was modeled to us in our families. And if we never even bothered to do any personal growth work, mindfulness, healing and honest self-reflection, we are likely to be projecting our “stuff” on others unconsciously. We must really know our own histories, childhoods, relating patterns and what our own families have modeled to us. Are we aware of ethics and spiritual laws that may open us up to dark forces and predators? What agreements of entrapment are we actually holding onto without realizing its ramifications? I’m often astounded at how unaware many “normal seeming” people are, who have found themselves victim to psychopaths, supernatural predators and narcissists.

What prevents some people from true mutuality in friendships of respect? Could it be their refusal to be vulnerable to their own hearts and feelings? Are they rigidly holding onto denial and illusions, making you wrong so they don’t have to grow up? Are they trying to control you with their version of what they think “reality” is, while marginalizing your worth and freedom? Do they play fair in relationships so that compassionate communication can even happen? Do they have value systems that marginalize compassionate communication and reflective empathy? Is their own blind spots and psychological defenses causing cold, insensitive behaviors that hurt you? We need to also ask ourselves if we do these kinds of things to others as well.

Perhaps we must ask how much we value our own souls, and choosing what we want to be connected with. Do we really want to experience the truth of REALITY?

 
That Mystery Called Love

I found myself having ahas! when listening to the mystic, Thomas De Mello. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pNb_tYuHfY&index=69&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B)

The ever present desire and need for LOVE is a consistent topic of discussion everywhere. So many people want to experience true love, feel more loved, love more. Contrary to what we tend to assume, adoration does not lead to love, reality, life or truth. Love is generated through awareness of what is REAL.

Thomas De Mello says, “If you wish to Love, You must learn to see again. You must give up your drug.” These ‘drugs’ is a term for all our psychological defenses, distractions, co-dependent addictions or whatever you do to avoid your uncomfortable feelings. Love actually comes through awareness. It comes from dropping the illusions and obstructions to pure perception. Love is the essence of REALITY and your own eternal spiritual beingness.

(See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)

Wisdom has always been more about what illusions we are willing to let go of. Dropping your masks and pretenses. It is the same for love. As Thomas De Mello says simply,

The unobstructed heart and mind is love and wisdom. Understand the obstruction and obstacles and they will drop. Turning on the light of awareness. Happiness is not something you acquire or produce or have. Love is something that has you! “

In practice and with time, you surrender to it when you are aware of your illusions, addictions, desires and fears. It is a gradual process of tearing away those conditioned “assumptions” and attachments we have clung to, oftentimes without even knowing how we did it. These “mind control programs” and clinging desires are like sticky tentacles latching onto us, creating a “tar baby” effect. (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tar-Baby)

In aloneness, where we can be in enough solitude to be aware of and let go of these clinging dependencies, it will be like a cold turkey death. If you can be alone not having the company of people, and be emotionally dependent on them anymore to feel special, adored, appreciated, you will become free. You can be in the midst of people, and enjoy their company but they will no longer have any power over you, to make you happy or miserable. Your dependence on them dies and your capacity to love is born. Why? Because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions and dependencies.

There can be a terror in this kind of aloneness, it is like dying. There could be withdrawal symptoms, like a dark pit of emptiness. When you have let go of your own need to control someone else, need them to “love you” or be special to anyone you are getting it. If you can get to this point, you will at last know. You will be able to perceive with a vision that is clear and unclouded by fears or desires. Then you can truly love. But you must go through the pains of loss, letting go of addictions, illusions and be utterly alone before this can happen.

Dependence dies and your capacity to love is born. Why—because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions or narcissistic supply!

No, I don’t think it means being a saint or an advanced yogi who retreats to meditate in caves for years on end. It is a quality of intention with awareness, humbleness, and the dedication to see things through because you are sick and tired of hurting all the time. When you are sick of the pain, the endless recycling of misery, the ridiculous control systems by idiotic predator psychopaths, you will come to a place where enough is enough. Taking personal responsibility means creating the option for freedom, and true happiness. Being in the world but not of it.

But first, we actually have to come to respect our own spiritual heart. Any deep truths and feelings we buried. We must realize the greatest violence to our own being is self-abandonment. It is this self-abandonment that causes the feelings of loneliness, hurt, sorrow and disconnectedness from REALITY.

To paraphrase what Thomas De Mello said,

“You must cultivate ceaseless awareness, patience and compassion as you would have for a drug addict. Develop taste for good things in life, pure, simple, things. Work, laughter, intimacy with people to whom you do not cling or who you depend emotionally, but whose company you enjoy. Activities you can do with your whole being, while engaged in them. Success or recognition don’t mean a thing to you. It will help if you return to nature. Mountains—silently commune with trees, animals, flowers, birds, clouds, sky and stars etc. Spiritual exercise to gaze at things, to be aware of things around you. The world will drop, concepts will drop and you will see and you will make contact with reality. That is the cure for lonliness. We usually seek to cure our loneliness through our emotional dependence on people, distractions, noise. Get back to nature. Then you will know your heart has brought you to the vast desert of solitude. No one there to depend on. At first it is unbearable because you are unaccustomed to aloneness. Stick it out, the desert will blossom into love, your heart will burst into song. It will be springtime forever. Drug is gone, you are free. Then you will understand what freedom is, love is, happiness, what REALITY is. Truth is, what GOD is.”

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)
Our next panel discussion we want to address the concepts of the Matrix engineers using polarity “choices” for neutralization, soul corruption and harvesting strategies. What we need to be doing and letting go of in order to take responsibility for dealing with our SH**. What happens if we choose to ignore the wisdom of our own Source connected Spirit.

Useful blog and links for PTSD Recovery: http://www.new-synapse.com/aps/wordpress/?p=1022

Updated Declaration of Non-Consent for Interference from Laura Leon’s web site: http://www.sovereignkees.com/non-consent-declaration.html

Online Anomalous Trauma Support Group

Hello,

This is a quick reminder that we have several spaces still open for our next block of Anomalous Trauma Support Group sessions, that start on Friday, Oct. 30, 2015, at 4pm Eastern time zone.

This will be a block of 6 sessions, every week on Fridays and go for 2-3 hours. It is on Zoom videoconferencing format, and all you need is audio and preferably a video camera. But this can be attended via telephone or iphone also. Zoom is free to download at www.zoom.us

This group will be facilitated by myself, Eve Lorgen and my colleague Laura Leon.

The topics of discussion will be geared towards the needs of the group, whatever specific types of experiences they feel the need to explore and talk about. This can include the spectrum of anomalous trauma as previously described on my main page. I want to be clear however, that this group is for those who are functional, not institutionalized, or having any major Axis 1 or 2 personality disorders such as Borderline, Narcissistic, Histrionic, major depression or major alcohol or substance abuse addictions. This is for those who sincerely want to work on personal growth, expand awareness and become more sovereign considering having had histories of anomalous trauma.

The emphasis of this kind of group is on reflective and empathic listening, learning how to develop emotional intelligence and expand personal awareness, exploration of what ones own history is, emotional triggers, patterns of behavior, blind spots, learning about boundaries and what it means to take personal responsibility for ones own healing process and sovereignty.

There is a nominal fee for the group at $25.00/session, and suggested to be paid in full for the 6 sessions or in segments of 2-3 payments. Once the session is paid for, a Zoom link will be sent to the participating individuals. It is suggested to let the facilitators know at least two days prior to the group if they will attend and pay before attending. We want to keep this group small at 10 participants, so reserve your spot soon.

In the past several articles and topics have been suggested for reading or for topics of interest, such as:

Compassionate Communication, Reflective Listening and Inner Empathy Process

Interdimensional Interference and Emotional Triggering

Love Bite or Twin Flame, Relationship orchestration or interference issues

Narcissistic Abuse and Recovery

Mind Control, Programming and Abduction/Milab issues

If you have any questions, feel free to email Eve at : elorgen@gmail.com or Laura Leon at laudaleon@gmail.com

Sobriety, Recovery and New Social Skills

Contributed by editor and writer Melissa Hall.
 

Recovering From Recovery – Learning To Socialize With Sobriety

In a typical Hollywood setup, a character admitting to an addiction problem and entering a recovery program is viewed as the end of the story – the self-realization and transformation around which all stories turn, and the precipitant of the ‘happy ending’. In real life, it doesn’t work out quite like that. While admitting to addiction and making a commitment to change is certainly a pivotal moment in your transformation into the person you feel you should be, it is not an end in itself. The process of recovery is complex and ongoing – and it involves a lot of coming to terms with who you are and how you must be from now on. One of the major hurdles which any recovering addict must overcome is that of shame. While any addict must take a certain amount of responsibility for their actions, and feel a measure of remorse for them, feelings of intense shame relating to one’s addiction have been proven to exacerbate rather than diminish the chances of relapse occurring [1]. To recover successfully, an addict needs to own and assimilate their past. One of the areas of life in which problems arise with this process of assimilation is during social time with friends and family.

Coming To Terms

Admitting to an addiction is difficult. Often, one’s addiction doesn’t just encompass the substance itself, but is intrinsically wrapped up in the entire life of the sufferer. Given the place of alcohol in our society [2], this is most true for alcoholics. Admitting to an alcohol addiction does not just mean giving up alcohol – it may mean giving up (or feeling like you must give up) your entire social circle and way of life. It is frequently the case that other people may come to the realization that an addict has a problem before they do – and even when they are told of the concerns of others they may well brush them off. Admitting to oneself that one has an addiction is thus a major part of the recovery process, and this step may well come long after one’s nearest and dearest are well aware of the problem. However, introducing one’s recovering state to one’s wider social circle is a different story. One may well feel that one has come to personal terms with one’s state as a recovering addict – but when it comes to telling other people, a whole lot of unresolved issues can emerge.

Being In Control

Often, an addict will feel intense shame and discomfort when disclosing their addicted status. Such feelings, as already discussed, can prompt relapse, so it is important to choose the context of any disclosure very carefully. While honesty is undoubtedly always the best policy, you must also feel in control of your status as a recovering addict, and confident and comfortable about disclosing such a personal piece of information. Given that many addicts already have problems with feelings of powerlessness and lack of control [3], and may well experience increased emotional turbulence in the early stages of recovery [4] it is absolutely imperative that an addict is not made to feel powerless, out of control, and shamed because of their recovering status with others. For many, admitting to being in recovery is tantamount to admitting to being a societal failure – it’s admitting to being an out-of-control addict, which society frowns upon. In fact, admitting to being in recovery is admitting to being strong and controlled enough to face up to yourself and defeat your demons. That’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of.

Owning Your Addiction

Admittedly, societal attitudes towards addiction really do not help people to make a calm, collected, and unabashed declaration of their status and intent to recover. Given that we demonize addicts [5] to a disproportionate degree, it can be hard for people to accept that their friend (who may well not in their eyes fit the stereotypical ‘addict’ image we’re led to expect) is really having problems. It’s not at all uncommon for alcoholics to be told that they’re over exaggerating their case, that they don’t have to give up completely, that they’re really not as bad as they think they are, that they should not refer to themselves as alcoholics and so forth [6]. None of this, for obvious reasons, is particularly helpful. On the other hand, people may start to view their recovering addict friend with suspicion and trepidation – as though they’ve become a different person, when in fact they’re the same old friend that they’ve known and loved. The only difference is that they’re trying to make an active improvement to their life. If others reject one’s intent to recover and try to pressure one into using again, or make them feel like a shameful demon, and if one cannot convince them of the reality of the situation then – hard though it may be – it is probably time to move on from that group of friends and find people who will be supportive of one’s recovery without shaming one for their past. Recovery is something to be proud of, and it should not involve having to completely blot out one’s past and personality. In order to truly recover, an addict needs to be in control of their recovery, which means being in control and comfortable with disclosing one’s recovering status. Social disclosure can be one of the hardest parts of recovery, and should not, therefore, be done in the wrong context. However, if it’s done correctly, with confidence and ownership of one’s past and future, to people with whom one feels safe and supported by, then it can be a greatly empowering step forward.

[1] Maia Szalavitz, “Being Ashamed of Drinking Prompts Relapse, Not Recovery”, Time, Feb 2013

[2] Social Issues Research Center, “Social and Cultural Aspects Of Drinking”

[3] Rita Milios, “Control Freak: How to Stop Trying to Change Your World and Change Yourself Instead”, Recovery.org, Jun 2015

[4] H.C. Fox, K.A. Hong, R Sinha, “Difficulties in emotion regulation and impulse control in recently abstinent alcoholics compared with social drinkers”, Yale University, 2008

[5] Matthew B Stanbrook, “Addiction is a disease: We must change our attitudes towards addicts”, CMAJ, Feb 2012

[6] Rachael Lander, “How Not To Be A Dick To Your Recovering Alcoholic Friend”, XOJane, Apr 2013

Facing Fear Head-On: Laurie Boggs Interview with Solaris Blue Raven

Laurie Boggs appeared as a guest on Solaris Blue Raven “Ravenstar’s “Witching Hour” Show on May 2, 2015.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gt3ciNXDDXs&feature=youtu.be

Laurie Boggs is an extraordinary survivor of generational abuse, raised in an alcoholic family, and survived a harrowing “drunk driving” (the other driver) accident resulting in the death of her 8 year old son. She had a near death experience two separate times due to the resulting physical injuries which included a coma and brain injury.

Prior to her accident and “awakening” she was more left-brained, but her accident and resulting brain injury thrust her into the more intuitive side of her nature, enabling communication with her deceased loved ones, including her 8 year old son who died in the crash.

Laurie realized during her healing journey that the generational abuse and soul patterning re-created certain kinds of life events, which revolved around alcohol abuse, trauma, accidents and sexual abuse. During her healing process she released the ancestral burdens and patterns, canceling contracts and agreements, which she believes to be part of the false “spiritual hierarchy” agenda. Forgiveness, empathy and love is available when we connect to the place of the heart where unconditional love of Source Beingness exists and where self understanding rests. But in order to reach this place, one has to heal the grief, forgive, and be willing to go to the places within our being—the emotions which can keep us stuck in patterns. When we heal ourselves we can also heal our own families and break the curse of some forms of generational abuse and unhealthy coping patterns.

Laurie also said there is something to be said about “alcohol spirits” and what happens when we allow ourselves to be run by something else, ie., entities, when we get “drunk”. We willingly open ourselves up to these kinds of inter-dimensional forces through addictions and unhealed wounds. And we do have choices. Healing the trauma resolves the stuck patterns and stops the vulnerability to these types of external manipulations. Laurie understood in her own past experience of drinking and driving that something else can enter to run you in these situations where you can have a choice in the matter. When you hear her speak you know that she comes from a place of true empathy and understanding with a wise, perceptive heart.

Laurie is an inspiring woman, who has authentically gone deeper into compassion and forgiveness that allowed her heart to expand, exemplifying a heart intelligence that is very perceptive on many levels. She wrote two books,

Facing Fear Head On” and “18 Stepping Stones to Transformation of Grief“, geared towards those who have lost a loved one or child.

http://www.amazon.com/Hitting-Fear-Head-On-Light-ebook/dp/B00JAYMCRQ/ref=pd_sim_kstore_1?ie=UTF8&refRID=0MWMGGE8FWNA72HM5WFW

http://www.amazon.com/Stepping-Stones-Transforming-Grief-Transform-ebook/dp/B00JAYW1QI/ref=pd_sim_kstore_1?ie=UTF8&refRID=19Q1ESRR5XKRP9H5RJNX

 

 

 

How the Veil is Lifted and the Miracle of Healing

These are two clips of a longer youtube Audio Talk by Jonathan Adampant’s from the original The Healing Begins Now Youtube Video. Because the original is 4 hours long, many do not have the time to listen to the entire talk. I have listened to his talks many times over and have selected two clips that I believe really express the keys to LIFTING THE VEIL of supernatural awareness and power.

The Healing Begins Now Clip

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XiXumdbRAaw   24 of 27 

  • The insanity of “polarity”, having to be taught good and bad, balancing good and “evil” when you really don’t need to do this (in certain ways) because innately we are born with all goodness inside. It’s the shutting off of this connection to Creative Spirit that leads us to become “other” than love and awareness. The cancer consciousness, this computer like entity (the Gnostic understanding of Demiurge?) which must assess the effects of “creation” from a structural and polarity based point of view—is the  imposed system which we don’t need. It comes from a place of lack and imposes its “view of reality” upon us from its own separation consciousness. This yields all manner of incomplete and false belief systems about “reality” and how things must be.
  • How parts of yourself become split off outside of your body whenever any negative event and emotion occurs,(ie., trauma dissociation) and how these parts actually hold awareness and knowledge of things.They can be tortured to watch the you doing things, addictions etc. that are hurting you.
  • “Recovering the innocence you had as a child, through healing, connecting, recovering these parts, THEN THE VEIL BECOMES LIFTED.
  • The veil becomes lifted by having the desire, intention and humility to go to places within the self (ie., emotional realm) to discover greater awareness and release from pain. It is this intention and desire through humility and love that is the key. This is the essence of what true COUNSELING and HEALING is all about. And yet people in their pain, programmed and unaware arrogance, think they know it all and bypass the most precious gift of all, Love and Awareness. Joy.
  • Healing can take place now, whether something happened one moment ago or years ago. Being in the moment of that “feeling/experience” while connected to loves intention is how it can be cleared all now, resulting in miraculous shifts of reality in your life.
  • To do Counseling is not about you having “problems” and that something is bad or wrong with you. (Who or whatever led you to believe that there is something shameful about counseling? Ask yourself this and what belief system sets up this kind of destruction.) It is the willingness to explore the hidden realms of your own treasure chest of being, so that you can be more of who you are. Love, wisdom, awareness, creativity and joy.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqOKMB7tHEc 25 of 27

  • The key to healing and lifting the veil. How shame, guilt cause you to kick out parts of your soul out of your body. Gaps of yourself stuck on the outside of your body. Fractals of your holographic being existing in other dimensions. Those parts of you see whats going on in this world in subtle realms of reality. (Oftnetimes they are screaming to get your attention to WAKE UP and you wonder why all these strange things are happening to you? LOL)
  • Forgiveness, understanding of these hurt parts of self. They erase the barrier to awareness. Heal yourself of the past, everything you hate yourself for…The imprint or program keeps these parts of you outside of you. Stuck in unawareness and powerlessness. Release the program, the imprint. This part of you, when released is WHAT WAKES YOU UP. More energy and new awareness that is connected to the Creator Spirit is now available to you, to LOVE and heal even more. And to help heal and awaken others.
  • I and thou realization through love so powerful that profound healing and miracles happen. Realize the parts of you are others, as well as those parts you shunned through shame, guilt, pain, self-hatred.
  • The deal about Jesus Christ. Religious deceptions and corruptions. True healing and connection to Divine Creator Spirit is not about “giving your heart and soul to Jesus”. It’s not about him being your Lord and Savior. Not about worship of some deity. It’s about love of yourself, awareness in humility of connection to all those hurt parts of yourself. Knowing you in others, not through projection or assumption of who they are, but really knowing you in them through the love that you are in the ALL. The All in All is you and them. Understanding and realizing the scaler mode of how we are in multidimensionality.
  • Discerning the illusion of false beliefs, religious deities and the cancer consciousness. You know by connecting to your own being, your pain, your shame, your guilt and your own compassion, love, joy and true insight of wisdom.
  • Patience. How to help heal, awaken, give— when you are essentially an invisible ghost to the unawakened around you. What to do?

 

Jonathan Adampants Collection

In a previous post on “The Healing Begins Now” I summarized the content and theme of Jonathan Adampants connection to Divine Creator Spirit and how this connection helped heal a woman with cancer. http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/connection-to-intuition-truth-and-source-love-a-recording-by-jonathan-adampants/

I’ve listened to all of Jonathan Adampants video talks and am so impressed with the  material and detail of his knowledge of “awakening” when the veil is lifted. This lifting of the veil is when the Creator Spirit really opens up the perceptions of those who intend with love and purity of spirit.

All video talks are informative to the truth seeking person, especially when it comes to spiritual deception, mind control, positive and negative entities, connecting to the Divine Creator Spirit and how to “read between the lines” when Creator Spirit of Truth is communicating. This happens especially through nature with animals or even people and through synchronicities. Jonathan also reveals that demonic and the cancer consciousness can also communicate through people and this often happens through neurolinguistic double meaning. He admits also that the dark forces often interfere with any planned group meeting of truth seekers. The power of Creator Spirit in healing best occurs through spontaneity.

I particularly liked the video entitled, “Propaganda, Parables and Perception”.

See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnYzJGC9xKU&index=5&list=PL69580528859090D1

Knowledgehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYT6rRliNjs&list=PL69580528859090D1&index=2

The Third Phase:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzfrIx7QdfY

Church Defined: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0TbCwC3OuY&index=4&list=PL69580528859090D1

Important Teaching for Spiritual Healers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PStZbwhsFVQ&list=PL69580528859090D1&index=7

This is a Blog Forum from 2008 where Jonathan made several comments of a technical nature about dimensions and perception of other dimensions:

http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread328667/pg24

 

Appearance at Paracon Conference in Benecia, CA Sept 26-27, 2014

Eve Lorgen will be presenting at the Bay Area Paracon 2014. Paracon Benecia Ad for KarenSMALLBAParacon_Banner_for_websites

*Note Date Change from original promo: The Bay Area Paracon will be held on September 26- 27th , 2014 in Benicia, CA. It is the largest Paracon in Northern California with two full days of International Celebrity Guests, Ghost Tours, Vendors and Enthusiasts.

For the Schedule see:  http://bayareaparacon.com/2014-schedule/

http://bayareaparacon.com/

I will be speaking about Paranormal Interference in Love Connections, an overview of both my books and especially The Dark Side of Cupid. My presentation time is on Saturday afternoon.

http://bayareaparacon.com/eve-lorgen/

Here is a Press Release recently done on the Conference:

Ghost Hunters Descend Upon Benicia for Bay Area Paracon 

Public invited to join paranormal investigation Saturday September 27

Benicia, CA (September 22, 2014) Bay Area Paracon, Benicia’s first conference on paranormal activity is attracting celebrity ghost hunters, paranormal TV investigators, intuitives, authors and their fans to Benicia on September 27, a city known for unusual activity. The program is open to the public and tickets are available now. 

A highlight of the conference is an experiential ghost investigation of Benicia’s historic Capitol led by paranormal speaker detectives. A portion of funds from ticket sales will benefit the non-profit Benicia State Parks Association (BSPA). Space is limited and advance registration required.

Bay Area Paracon features nationally recognized paranormal speakers including celebrity TV investigator, Ben Hansen of the hit SyFy television show, Fact or Faked: Paranormal Files; Brian Cano, paranormal investigator of the American reality television series Haunted Collector; Jeff Dwyer, Bay Area author of several successful books on ghost hunting and paranormal phenomena; Eve Lorgen, paranormal researcher, hypnotherapist and author, The Love Bite, Alien Interference in Human Relationships, plus Cinthia Varkevisser, intuitive graphologist. The event will be moderated by Karen Rontowski, comedian, ghost huntress and Reiki master.

“I have had an interest in clairvoyance ever since I was very young and Benicia is the perfect location for northern California’s paranormal conference,” said Carol Reed, longtime Benicia resident, intuitive and Bay Area Paracon producer. Along with a rich and vibrant past, Benicia has a unique history and paranormal evidence making it an exceptional city to explore including ghost sightings at the Capitol. Over the decades, many unexplained occurrences, strange incidences and other unusual phenomena have been reported. I look forward to exploring this first hand with our paranormal investigators,” she continued.

Dan Smith, Volunteer Coordinator, Benicia State Parks Association (BSPA) stated, “We have a very interesting old photograph from the 19th century and reports of an apparition dressed in period clothing that visits the Capitol regularly. This sighting contributes to the on-going debate about whether the Capitol is haunted. We are excited to have experts on paranormal activity visit our town and see what they think.”

On Friday, September 26, participants are invited to join in a Para-Mingle at the Benicia Yacht Club where fans, novices and the merely curious can mingle with their favorite paranormal TV hosts, authors and investigators.

For more information and to buy tickets to the Para-Mingle, Bay Area Paracon or Ghost Investigation fund-raiser, visit Bay Area Paracon or call Carol Reed 925-395-1200.

 

Connection to Intuition, Truth and Source Love–a Recording by Jonathan Adampants

Jonathan Adampants– “The Healing Begins Now”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQejWZS2P1E&app=desktop

In this 4 hour recording, Jonathan Adampants, a spirit connected truth speaker, discusses how his connection to Source Creator communicates pure truth, through intuition. Intuition of Source “truth” is a natural process of the beingness of Love which will communicate its intention through models and metaphors in nature.

The emphasis of this talk is how “cancer” is not only a physical representation of “separation consciousness” of fear, anger and “illusion”, (i.e.., separation from Self/Source/God), but it is also an archontic kind of loveless consciousness, which seeks to devour all else unto itself as the only beingness, because it “doesn’t know “ it is separated from Source. It’s identity is all it knows and seeks to draw unto itself like a “cancer” of immortality that ultimately will destroy its host like a parasite. Jonathan even describes how “cancer consciousness” will employ seduction, deception and control to achieve its own ends of “takeover”, much like “evil” does.(Sound familiar?) It offers its magical feats of “power” and immortality to take over the cells and tissues of the body, but in the long term it will destroy its host and ultimately disconnect the host from the Source of life itself.

When we have trauma in life, the shock of this trauma can cause a dissociation and separation of parts of the soul from its own core connection to “Source/Love/God”. This separation results in fear, and all manner of negative emotions and an illusion of separation, where “another consciousness” takes over, which is really “anti-life”. Love is really the answer, and yet it is not so easy when separated consciousness is shocked into a self protected “program of falsehood” which keeps it from realizing and remembering its own Source of being. This is cancer consciousness. Or, we can also say it is a metaphor for Archontic consciousness which is sweeping the planet with all manner of artificial intelligence of control systems that are literally trying to take over all organic life Source consciousness.

Luckily, organic Source Love is more powerful, and once we connect with this source of beingness of that which we already are, we will be able to overcome this dark wave sweeping the planet. It is a paradox in many ways, because once one really “gets it” by this direct connect to Source, healing is instantaneous and holographic. Not only does healing take place, but the awareness of the archontic infection is blatantly apparent, which can be quite a disturbing “shock” to those who awaken to this reality. Remember in the Gnostic tractates of the Nag Hammadi Library, where once someone becomes illumined with gnosis: “At first they will become disturbed”. Remember this, and know that you are not alone.

A  concerned man sent me, “The Healing Begins Now” youtube link audio recording, because after listening to Jonathan Adampants’ discussion of truth realizations of healing and the nature of realty, he became suddenly aware of a drastic shift in awareness. During this same time period the man also did a personalized pineal glad detox program. He became aware of what seemed to be the “predator-flying-fish” archontic parasites that have been described in Carlos Castenada’s work, as well as some of the images that Robert Stanley had on his web site of the flying fish, predator life forms. In his experiences, these forms could shift, and appear bug-like as well.

At the time he emailed me I was and usually am so busy I had no time to listen to the 4 hour recording, let alone a couple of hours. But for some reason I was compelled to speak to the man who sent me the recording. We talked on the phone about his newfound awareness of these predatory interfering parasites and what was happening and possibly why.

Instead of starting from the beginning of the talk, I listened to the last 45 minutes of Jonathan Adampants’ recording. I was so intrigued by this direct hit of “truth” that I went back and started from the beginning of the audio recording. The final part is deeply moving and describes a profound, spontaneous healing experience with a woman who had cancer, who was a talented singer, yet shy of singing in public. When the “hit” of Source Love pervaded their connected experience, a spontaneous healing occurred and the woman sang to him, beautifully and without reservation. Not only was her cancer healed, but her shyness to just living her joy of singing evaporated, without any reservation or shyness at all. I believe it all happened in a moment of I and thou Source connected realization on both of their parts.

Jonathan speaks about the true nature of reality and of the whole “cancer thing” from an atomic up to a macrocosmic scale, using parallels in nature and scaler dimensions of consciousness.(microcosm to macrocosm) He explains analogies in nature, in chemistry, biochemistry and physics. His experience of walking through the forest, grounding and communing with the trees is revelatory of how Source Love communicates through nature, and trees in particular are very good for this intuitive communication.

There is a huge difference between structure and source love intelligence of beingness that directs structure in nature. And our problems with disconnect from Source truth is due to the lies we are fed, traumas we endure and our society’s over emphasis on structure as opposed to Source Love.

When we wake up, we do realize the insanity of what is controlling the planet—this archontic “cancer consciousness” of separation from Love/Source/God.

Education—which is largely the matrix grid power control system, is a deceptive and seductive mind control system to encourage separation from Source and of Nature. It’s an overload of mind programming that can override ones heart and soul/Source intuition which needs no “memorization” or schooling. The separation mind-parasite programs of belief feed the “cancer consciousness” of non love. Once we can heal our “wounds of separation” that have occurred through trauma and connect with the intuitive nature of who we really are—then instantaneous healing can occur.

Even though this is a simple “understanding” that we can “get” on a conceptual level, to really BE IT is a rarity.

Healing from trauma takes a willingness and openness to face fears and uncomfortable emotions. It is directed  by the profundity of ones pain and is guided by the intention of Source Truth and Love. The mystery is how well one can “create the space” for quantum healing to take place. All I can say is that empathy and compassion must be present. And a strong desire and personal responsibility on the part of the person who wants healing must also be there. This is an important part of the healing and connection to Source process.

Being born into this world is like being thrown into a mean game of “pin the donkey”, except not only is one blindfolded and spun around, but we are shot at, lied to and tortured into conformity to “THE LIE” which constantly sends its vampiric tentacles out to lure us back into IT’S FALSE GAME of separation. Our internal guidance system of deep inner truth is what we need to reconnect to. Not outside authorities and systems of belief which keep entrapping us into believing science and rationality and “structure” is what it is all about. Nor is intuition defined by emotional triggers which set off false beliefs because of unresolved/unhealed traumas. Intuition is not about emotion, but can be arise with feelings and direct knowledge.

The guiding intelligence of LOVE itself and intuition can seem to be a mystery.

If you take time to listen to this entire talk, you may get alot of confirmation of your own intuition which cries out to be heard, and yet it can often get slammed shut by the programs and cancerous parasites of this world which constantly bite at your ankles.

Remember, you don’t need the approval of disconnected, archontic, infected minds. Let them be offended.

The game of Source Love is simple. Tag. You’re it!

 

Serbian Article on Faeries, Dragons, Witchblood and Meteors

This article was passed on to me by a Serbian researcher and experiencer named Vladimir. He was featured in an article in December 2012 regarding his SIMBAD results here:

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/simbad-session-results-with-serbian-abductee/

The original author of this English translation of the Serbian article entitled “Faeries, Dragons and Witchblood” is Radimir Ristic. Radimir is an author of a book on Balkan Witchcraft and Folklore:

http://www.amazon.com/Balkan-Traditional-Witchcraft-Radomir-Ristic/dp/0979616859

Although the translation is not well done here, many elements of the Serbian folklore concerning dragons, witches, “witchblood or dragonblood lineages” is similar to what is reported with alien abductees, milabs and those of occult Illuminati bloodlines. I believe there is probably a connection with dragons, and/or “Dracos”, especially the winged reptilian types associated with these bloodlines and its connection to ancient “meteors and lights” that fall and fly in the skies.

Speaking of meteors, I recall that in some of the first “alien implant” surgeries conducted in 1996 by Dr. Roger Leir and Alien Abductions researcher Derrel Sims research, found that in two cases the implants scientifically analyzed were found to be “meteoric in origin” and containing at least 11 elements. See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/medical-and-scientific-aspects-of-alien-abduction/alien-implant-removals-before-and-after-effects/

Another connection I thought relevant to the “Dragon lights and meteors” that fall from the sky and then materialize into reptilian like creatures with wings–are the Northport Devil encounters of Florida. These encounters took place in the panhandle area of Florida near Port Charlotte several years ago. Mike Rowley and his son Shane had numerous sightings of these orbs of light which, when landing, materialized into winged reptoid creatures who resembled dragons. These were physical events, where these dragon like beings skulked around the woods near their home, sometimes snapping trees and making frightening growling noises. His son according to Matt R, had numerous “alien encounters” as well, some with reptilian beings.

Some video accounts can be found here:

Northport Devil: Mike Rowley: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-PsNmKRids

http://www.americanmonsters.com/site/2010/01/north-port-devils-florida-usa/

Faeries, Dragons and Witchblood 

By Radomir Ristic

In the folk beliefs of the Serbian people exist some interesting myths who tell us how some people gained their unusual powers, intelligence, strength, etc. Actually, these people believe that almost every Serbian hero throughout their history was a “dragon man”.  That is how they explained their heroic acts, wisdom and powers, if they had some.

The problem is that in witches myths, they also explain the origin of their power and their bloodlines in the same manner: dragons. Most people know that but they do not want to say that loudly, because that is considered heresy. Witches cannot be in the same line with cult heros. This could become a bigger problem because the common name for male witches-aka-warlocks in Serbia is dragonmen.

In Serbian mythology we can clearly see that there are three different types of Dragons. The first would be dragons that are seen as meteors in the night sky and they are considered to be personifications of fire. Second kind are reptile dragons or serpent dragons who are very similar to those found in Western Europe. People believe these to be very dangerous. In most cases they are winged serpents but they have intelligence and they behave similarly to dragon-people. Actually, they share some capabilities. The third type of dragons are dragon people, and these are the types we are interested in here. One old epic song tells us the following:

As many Serbian heros there is,

All have been brought up by Faeries,

And many have the Dragons for fathers.

In some of these myths these heros were known as: Mislos, Obliic, Zmag Ognjeni Vuk, Relja Bosnjnanin. Banovik Sekula, Banovic Strahinja, Ljutica Bogdan, Kraljavik Marko…

The question is, how did these people become dragon people? They could happen in three ways. The first would be that the mother “slept” with a dragon.  Second, is that ones father could have slept with a faery, and the third is that the faery nursed the child with (gave her milk) when the child was a baby.

Titania Cowper

If someone has become a dragon because their mother was a faery or was nursed on faery milk, then faeries must be female dragons. Actually in Serbian traditions there are several types of faeires. We have let’s say, “little ones”, faeries from nature, protectors of some springs, lakes, trees, and Great Ones whom we are talking about here. By Great Ones, are daughters of Adam and Eve whom God has cursed and they become something like semi women very similar to the fallen angels in the Book of Enoch. In some stories they even have animal legs hidden by dresses. They have their Queen and her name is Jerisavlja. Very often people consider the queen of faeries to be Forest Mother and her nickname is Forest Witch or Great Witch. We can find that in many old incantations where people had tried to contact her. We must emphasize that those faeries are not some gentle creature from pagan fairytales but very dangerous ones who have extreme power, magic knowledge, bad temper, etc.  In many stories we can see how they punish some character just because he has better voice or he has seen them. Beside that they are sexually lustful and they have a manner to sleep with young boys, shepherds or warriors. However, they do not like to be in marriage and they do not like family life. Actually, by myths the only Serbian King who was in marriage with a faery was Vukasin, so all of his children were dragon people.

Dragons are sexually lustful too. Even today in east Serbia people believe that dragons had  often visited beautiful girls at night. Very often, people believe those girls gave birth and their baby was a dragon man. What nobody tells us outloud is that if the baby is a boy, people will call him adragon-man and if the baby is a girl everybody will call her a witch. What those girls and boys have in common is that both will have magic powers, knowledge and the most important capability is being able to induct trance at will. Why? Because they are dragons and faeries children, so they are half human. Maybe they look like humans but their souls and true being are totally different. Usually people say that only persons with some capabilities can see how they really look like, when they are in their bodies, but everyone can see that as they leave their bodies. In most cases their souls were described as in animal shape or mythic animal shape. For instance, in one old epic song, Serbian Duke Banovic Sekula lives in his body in the shape of a dragon with six wings.

From historic data we can clearly see that dragons do not choose girls perchance. Those girls are witches or they are from witch families. For instance, professor Stevan Dordjevic have founded in city archives of the town Zajecar that society accused on a young girl that she was sleeping with a dragon in Osljan village in 1935. She was a witch and she was famous for fortune telling. Later, in 1946 there was another accusation and then people accused the young daughter of famous male witch Krsta, that she was sleeping with a dragon. We must say that people usually had nothing against dragons and their children but they believed that it was too dangerous if the dragon stayed too long in their neighborhood because he could provoke drought. The only reason why dragons stay in one region too long are girls.

The question is who those dragons are and what is their origin? With regret we must say that Serbian ethnology has failed to give us a straight answer to that question. Mainly there are two theories. The first is that dragons are some animals, usually serpents, fishes or sheep that become dragons because they have lived too long. For instance, if some serpent lives a hundred years it will become a dragon in one moment. Second theory speaks more about mysterious dragons that sleep with women. But this, these dragons represent mythical ancestor or ancestors. The reason why scientists consider that those dragons could be ancestors is that because they are in too many bloodines, especially in those with “blueblood”. That tells us about why they are so important in people’s belief systems. However, it doesn’t say who those ancestors are.

We have had the opportunity to speak with several authentic witches in the rural regions of the country about that subject and found out what thier traditions tell us about those dragons. So from several similar stories, we have compiled one which we shall tell about.

By witches’ myths, dragons have fallen all over the Balkan many centuries ago. They have fallen with something which looked like meteor showers. Because of that, even today witches and peasants connect dragons with meteors and that is noted in Serbian ethnology as we have already noted. Some of those dragons have fallen in the Danube rivers, Timok and Pek and other areas in the forest and mountains. Those who had fallen in rivers have continued to live in them under the water. They look like male mermaids, they have their middle long, big circular eyes, wide nose and long canine teeth. Those who had fallen in forests inhabited big trees, mainly old beeches with holes. How they look like is hard to say because some witches claim that they are just big lights and others say they are anthropomorphic serpents with wings and that they become a big light only when they start to fly. Those who have fallen in mountains inhabited caves and they look like previous dragons. As we can conclude, all of them are the same dragons but after they fall in matter they take different shapes depending on their new habitation.

It is very difficult to explain how witches perceive them. Most of them claim that those dragons are material, but that they are more like material spirits. They are not “dough” and firm like us. Let’s say that they are more etheric. Because of that only some people can see them. Most often those people are witches, shamans, or some similar groups which have extraordinary capabilities. However, dragons can hide themselves even to those groups if they want to, because they are very powerful. As some of my informants have told me, dragons revealed themselves only to the woman with whom they wanted to sleep, people with whom they wanted some other kind of contact or people could see them accidentally. One of my informants explained to me that very plainly and described to me that if I perchance caught the woman in the moment when she was sleeping with the dragon that I would see only her and her legs in the air.

As we can see, after their fall dragons have started to seduce women and sleep with them. That was not a hard task for them because they are shapeshifters too. So when they want to seduce a woman they take the appearance of a handsome man and seduce them. That is how it all started. Children from these relationships because half human-half dragons. What is the most important thing is that by this process those children have inherited some powers and capabilities of their fathers. That means that they have some basic powers, and those powers were different from person to person but all of them would have one ultimate power and that power was “different souls”, because of which they would have capabilities to leave their bodies whenever they wanted.

Because of that power all of them are capable to be in contact with hidden world and hidden forces which could be visible to them only when they leave their bodies. That contact provides them additional magical knowledge. During their night flying they can be in contact with faeries, dragons, ancestors, etc.

By witches myths, dragon bloodlines have managed to preserve themselves through the centuries. it is not necessary that every family has a woman who is in a relationship with a dragon at present; it is enough that the family has a long departed dragon man or witch and that family would have dragon blood in their veins, even today. Some members of that family could reveal themselves as witches or dragon men but not everyone, although they do have dragon blood. Usually that happens when they are young and when they start spontaneously falling into trance. That is the time when they get their initiations and when they discover hidden world of faeries, dragons and ancestors.

As we can see dragons could be mythic ancestors as ethnologists have said. However we can also see that these dragons are mythic ancestors to only some people, not all. Those people who have dragons as their ancestors will have unusual powers and capabilities. They would be people with witch blood.

Moreover, it is not unusual that dragons are the subject of witch cults. About one of these cults we have l already spoken to in a previous article (The Couldron, No. 128, Serbian Witchcraft, p. 32-33). Shortly told, in East Serbia exists a big tree in which “Morning Star”(Lucifer) or Danica in Serbian, lives after his fall. That tree is the object of the cult. All local witches respect that tree or better said, what is in that tree. They work with Danica, it is their source of knowledge and power but they do not worship it! What is interesting here is that Lucifer is connected with dragons because he is the Star that had fallen and he lives in trees as other dragons do. Other names for meteors in Serbia is falling stars and all dragons are connected with stars. It is very clear that he is a subject of cults because he is more important than the others. So we can see some hierarchy here among dragons.

When I asked my informants where those dragons came from, I only got one answer–the sky. Because they are connected with stars we can conclude that they have come from space. It is important to say that people don’t see them as aliens but as very old creatures from ancient times. So who are they ? It is very hard to say. However, all what we can conclude from all of this is that these stories are very similar to those from Book of Enoch One. We know for sure that the Book of Enoch I ( it talks about Watchers, fallen angels and how they slept with women and their half angelic offspring) was very important among Balkan Gnostic Bogumils and even more, that the Book of Enoch II was found in Serbia in Belgrade. Stories about dragons and witch blood which we have found among Serbian witches are very similar to those from Book of Enoch, although they do not talk about fallen angels but dragons.

The question is, “Are angels and dragons the same”? It is hard to tell but we think that even if these stories are not the same they must have a mutual origin. We know that stories about dragons in this region are older than the Book of Enoch, so our personal opinion is that angels have taken places of dragons after the arrival of Christianity and Gnosticism. At the bottom line, appearance of fallen angels is very similar to the appearance of fallen dragons in the way they behave. It is clear that both of them represent the same creatures which have fallen from the sky, but that they have different names through different moments in history and in different cultures. What is more important is that those stories explain why those people have these powers and what these powers are.

 

*Note: It is notwwrthy that in the Michael Lee Hill case in the Wes Penre Papers, Michael is said to have an unusual “blood anomaly” as well as another man named Terrel Copland. (See: http://wespenre.com/remarkable-michael-lee-hall-case.htm)

Excerpt: “2. Two Comparable Experiences; Two Comparable Blood Disorders

In January, 2011, The History Channel published a documentary on Michael and the young ex-military man from Suffolk, Virginia, Terrell Copeland. This whole documentary is uploaded to YouTube[5] and it’s a very good idea to watch it before you continue reading the rest of this amazing story. Amazingly enough, it also appears that Michael had a face-to-face meeting with Marduk himself, or someone who presented himself as him.

2.1 The Terrell Copeland Case

Terrell Copeland is 25 years old, and was discharged from the Military due to a strange blood anomaly. The Military doctors could not find the cause to it, but considered it reason enough to discharge him all together. So what was this blood anomaly all about?

In fact, it releases massive amount of CK (Creatine Kenase) into the blood, which in turn super oxygenates the bloodstream. Normally, this condition will create a lot of problems for the person, such as muscle damage. Or usually it’s the other way around; severe muscle damage leads to high CK levels. Terrell’s CK levels were as high as 2000ul! For a normal person, the level rarely reaches over 200ul. This is all recorded in Terrell’s Military records, which are included and exposed in the YouTube video above. However, Terrell has no muscles damage! And he is in perfectly health.What differentiates him from a “normal” person, though, is that he has had a number of UFO encounters; both close to his home and away from it. He has also had his home broke into and strange people threatening him. Being an ex-military with access to military fly craft, he says that what he’s seen is not military. And indeed, strange, similar phenomena, also discussed in the movie, occurred here during George Washington times, and are recorded as such; I doubt those were “military”. Videos are showing how big orbs in the sky are hovering around and sometimes split into two. In general, these UFOs are showing patterns that seem way beyond current technologies; even the secret ones from TTPs (alien “Technology Transfer Programs).”EL- In my own research with “experiencers of the alien/ET encounter phenomenon” a higher than normal percentage have some form of Rh negative in their blood. One of my milab interviewees, Maarit believed that the Rh negative blood factor originates from “Dracos”.

A Shaman’s Perspective of Djinn, Watchers and Archons

This is an article by Hank Wesselman. Here are some excerpts regarding Wesselman’s encounter with a real djinn and the information shared about these beings and what they want.

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The Djinn, Watchers and the Archons: A Shaman’s experience by Hank Wesselman

Excerpt:

“J(inn): You humans are creators. We, the Jinn, cannot create but we can mimic… we can imitate… and we can affect potential outcomes, but we cannot create.

(There was a long thoughtful pause and then:)

J: Few can perceive us anymore and fewer still can bind us to their will. Now that I have told you my name great one (offered respect to me,) you can ask me to serve you, and I will.

HW: I have been called by other Jinn ‘El Kobbet’—the binder… And what qualities and abilities do you possess that might be of service to me?

(The Jinn flickered thoughtfully, then answered.)

J: I can protect you from enemies and I can inflict curses and misfortune on those who oppose you.

HW: I am constrained in my practice from inflicting harm on anyone for any reason…

(Still, I thought, this genie might come in handy if a real bad guy came along or someone threatened me of my family with harm.)

J: …Or with ill will…

(I had momentarily forgotten that the mental channel was an open one.)

HW: How about healing work?

(The Jinn’s field dimmed in intensity. His answer was startling.)

J: Who can say what is written on another person’s soul? We cannot purposefully influence their destiny without tampering with their agreement.

HW: Agreement with who…?

J: With the higher organizing intelligences…

HW: Are the Jinn below them in the spiritual hierarchy?

J: Oh yes. Some of the younger Jinn occasionally misbehave. The watchers approach them then and encourage them in more appropriate forms of expression.

HW: Who are the watchers?

J: The ones among the higher intelligences responsible for this world. We are not allowed to interfere with humans on their path although there are some who do, as well as those who function as adversaries.

(I thought about some of my recent reading and asked:

HW: Are those the ones that the Gnostikoi called the archons?

(I used the Greek term for the Gnostics.)

J: Oh… so you know about them… (The Jinn’s field brightened reflecting excitement.) The archons are not true spirits. They are mind beings, mental entities many of who were created by humans as thought-forms. Many of these function as attachments… as mental parasites.

HW: How do they do that?

J: They feed on the energy… on the attention paid to them by humans. This includes the energy generated by human belief systems. But they are not true spirits and they will cease to exist if nobody pays attention to them any more. The ones you call ‘the archons’ are those that we call ‘the deceivers,’ and like us they are not creative. But they can mimic and they can take on forms in response to human belief systems.”

For the entire article see:

http://www.sharedwisdom.com/article/encounter-jinn-genie-egypt

An Encounter with a Female Djinn by Hank Wesselman:

http://www.sharedwisdom.com/article/another-encounter-jinn