Orgasm Types and Trauma by White Wolf Von Atzingen

This is a reprinting of an earlier article that has been updated and originally posted on the Element Mountain Web site: http://elementmountain.com

of White Wolf Von Atzingen. Since many of his articles are for a private audience in the Wolf’s Den, he has given me permission to repost this article on the subject of Sexual Traumas where orgasm was experienced in conjunction with the trauma, and often done deliberately in some forms of ritual abuse, MK Ultra and trauma based mind control programming. As many MK Ultra and ritual abuse researchers and survivors know, sexual abuse is often the cornerstone of the trauma based mind control for the purpose of dissociation, alter personality creation and control of the sexually abused person.

April 1st, 2015 by White Wolf
Orgasm is an interesting thing. It can be connected to some of the most powerfully uplifting energies we experience and on the other hand it can come about from the darkest energies we come in contact with.
I have been approached by various people, mainly females, over the years (not sure why but I seem to draw people’s stories without ever asking- many people offer them freely no matter how personal) that tell of carrying deep and powerful levels of shame, guilt, fear and all the ugliness that goes with it because when they were raped earlier in their lives they experienced an orgasm. I can see how this could be one of the most degrading, self abusive and confusing issues connected with rape.
The first female I came across with this plague was when I was in my teens teaching a self defense course. There was this young girl, not much older than I, who signed up. She was a very quiet blond hair, blue-eyed student who was signed up by her mother. I did not even see her for weeks after the sign-up. When I did I noticed old bruises healing on her that had attempted to be covered with makeup. One day after class she came up to me and in private relayed that she had been raped in a local park. She had been a virgin. I offered my condolences as best as I could at that age and told her that was nothing to be ashamed of and it was not her fault. It was then she told me she was ashamed because she had an orgasm during the rape, got up and walked away.
I did not see her for a month after. She returned for short while and we only spoke one more time. She asked if there was a good martial arts school I would recommend. I gave here a name. A year later I visited that school, as I used to visit many of the local schools, so they all knew me. I inquired about this girl to see if she ever followed through. She had signed up, but sometime after had a nervous breakdown and was hospitalized. People said it had to do with her rape, but I remembered what she had told me and understood a deeper reasoning.
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The first orgasms I experienced with other people around was during abuse and cult ritual when I was in a force drug induced state (explained further in my article titled Lilith & Molech Cult Reality). Beyond those 3 years the next was under torture. Being forced to have orgasms through electronic stimulation while being forced to watch horrific events, imprinting those pathways in the brain… in a room full of people watching me like an experiment lab animal. Each orgasm was timed to go off while very select images were being shown. Is this not rape?
This of course was buried deep inside, hidden for years and years from my subconscious, but affecting me on a continual basis. Even when it was unknown to my conscious mind it was affecting my sex life and relationships. Once it became known it affected me even more until I learned to let it go. How I learned to let it go was by coming to understand what sex really is, what orgasm really is and how trauma affects the brain and body. Only then did I understand and accept that I had no control over it, just as I had no control over what others were doing to me. My body was not orgasming because I was enjoying myself, loving anyone around me or even feeling “good”. It was happening because orgasm releases emotions and I was in hell.
Though consciously I understand there is of course subconsciously that trauma locked in the body on many levels and is something I continue to have to work at healing and it is a very slow process. Remember from my many articles on trauma that trauma itself has a very different perspective on life since trauma does not understand a progression of time, it only understands the now, the moment of which it is locked, even as the conscious mind lives on and moves through linear time. The trauma mind is literally locked into a past moment of time, living it over and over until it can be found, addressed and released.
During deep healing sessions people can experience multiple “minds” at the same moment in a session. The conscious mind is aware of the session, the room, the practitioner, techniques being used and so on. However, if an area of old trauma is located and is being addresses on whatever level, that trauma mind (in the subconscious) may also be present and even go so far as to be reliving the original trauma inside the clients body. If it is strong enough it can threaten to override the conscious awareness of the current moment in the healing and fall into the time frame of the traumatic event completely, meaning the consciousness is moved aside and the present state of mind is only aware of the trauma event as it happened.
I think it helps to look at it in the way of the old Northern Stave Carriers of the ancient Teutonic people, or in a generic modern term “shaman”. They believed in three aspects of energy involving time that later became known as three goddesses; Urd, Verdandi and Skuld (that which is, that which is becoming and that which should be). The only thing separating them was the belief in linear time. However, they believed in a version of time expressed simply as an mingling unity of a constantly changing or shift present; the flow from what has been to what will become. All time that has ever been therefore is still happening and influencing the present and tomorrow. There is no pause, only flow. The conscious and subconscious can be looked at in this manner as well. They are one in the same but the only difference is their perspectives on time. The subconscious views existence as the three expressions or three goddesses of the Ever Flow. The consciousness tries to hold the illusion of divisions between them through the concept of linear time, but it can never be strong enough to undermine the subconscious. So instead it should be used to clean the flow of the subconscious.
This is why when working with a health care practitioner on trauma, they need to be really in-tune with the client and their own higher connection of intuition to help ground the client in the Now, help keep the clients consciousness in the present time as they work to release the trauma energy of the past. This can happen in a variety of ways:

verbal reassurance
holding or rubbing the feet or hands
holding/cradling the head
holding or placing covering hands over the area of the body that was traumatized
as well as many other possibilities that must be felt by both practitioner and client in the moment.
But no matter what there must be 100% trust or the healing will not work

The action of orgasm comes from the liver, but the strength and quality comes from the kidneys. The kidneys are water and water is emotion. During times of extreme physical trauma, especially when it involves the sexual energy of the body, the emotional build-up can become so intense that in order for survival, the body has no choice but to release some of that energy in any way possible. Orgasm happens to be one such way. Both male and female.
In my life I have identified different kinds of orgasm:
Love
Trauma
Programmed/Conditioned

Love:
This is of course the kind of orgasm people experience when two people are deeply emotionally involved. It is mutual, caring, expressively loving and creative in beneficial forms. The whole body feels it, the spirit feels it and it seems to extend beyond time and space into the forever. It is an experience of completeness. Yes it can be achieved through self love as well, but not nearly as powerful as shared love.
Trauma:
It has been noted through past observations from olden times that in some males their body gains an erection and can even go as far as ejaculation when they are hanged by the neck in execution. It has also been noted that in some people, both male and female, spontaneous orgasm or ejaculation can occur when the body is under extreme duress. Even when a person is very ill they can have spontaneous orgasms in their sleep that are very different than your normal “wet dream”). Throughout recent history it has also been noted that people being tortured can experience spontaneous orgasms due to the extreme levels of trauma, both mental and physical. These orgasms are draining and can be exhausting. They do not feel good, but rather contain a physical intensity like acid or fiery poison or disease moving through and even an emotional intensity of anxiety, fear, depression, shame and guilt.
These can be the same kinds of spontaneous orgasms experienced by trauma victims in healing sessions; anything from acupuncture to physical therapy, massage therapy, cranial sacral work and other modalities. The difference between the ones during healing and the ones during trauma are separated by a fine line. They both vent excess emotions to try preventing emotional overload which can physically cause dangerous levels of shock in the body. They are both in response to high levels of duress. However, the ones accompanying trauma are more of a safety feature to attempt saving the body itself. The ones that can happen in trauma healing are venting locked emotions from the original trauma that could not be expressed or even felt at the time because the body and brain were in survival mode. But even healing from trauma is a form of trauma, but a beneficial one.
Even men going through detox of just about any kind of internal toxin can experience more than average night emissions as the body attempts to clear the toxins. Females can experience more nocturnal orgasms as well for emotional releases.
Programming/Conditioning:
These are the kinds or orgasms induced by conditioned of programmed thoughts sent out by media, religion, cults and so on. They are typically based in frustration, feelings of duty, inadequacy and many other socially conditioned and promoted emotional states. These kinds of orgasm are limited in feeling, do not feel anything like a love induced or trauma induced orgasm and never engage the whole body. They are shallow, non-expansive, easy for others to tap into and literally “harvest” for their own manipulative uses and degrading. They emit energy without the pure intent of the person’s spirit. That means the energy is harmful to the body (depleting without a beneficial purpose – as opposed to temporarily depleting to vent toxic trauma) and very mechanical in movement, purpose and use rather than beneficially expansive to the wellbeing of life itself from a cellular level.
It is no secret a depleted people are an easily manipulated people. Shadowy factions of governments and dangerous cults manipulate the media and entertainment levels of society to promote the shallow promiscuous levels of Conditioned/Programmed sexual responses in order that people continuously engage in this level of orgasm as opposed to the healing, uplifting, beneficially creative and “pure” levels.
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The reason you do not hear much about this topic as I have addressed it is because of this last orgasm type and its purpose. Socially keep it a taboo topic and you keep people away from the truth and hope of reclaiming the purity of self and chance of elevating self to more refined states of being.
Now one of the ugly tricks the brain plays is through social conditioning of tainted sex ideas. Since most people are not taught what orgasm and sexual energy are all about, they can develop all the low energy, self defeating emotions such as guilt, shame, fear, anxiety and self hate after a traumatic experience in-which their body went through the actions of orgasm. It becomes necessary then to reset the brain’s focus with facts, not conditioning. When a human orgasms during trauma it has nothing to do with who they are. Instead it simply shows that the body is in-fact human and run on electricity from the brain. When struck most people recoil while others turn and fight. Does this label them as “good” or “bad”? Of course not. It is a natural survival reaction.
Another key is that if a person experienced conscious orgasm during trauma, the brain and body remembers that connection and this can interfere with the experience of orgasm later on. It becomes important to disconnect that association and recondition orgasm with higher level energies. Orgasm, like sex, is a tool. But a tool can be used to build or destroy. If we can learn to use it to build it is all the more powerful, no matter what it has been used for or forcefully brought about with in the past.
During sex the deepest emotional areas are stirred and felt by both partners. The more unresolved issues a person has, especially around their sexuality, the more that will be subconsciously felt by their partner and those energies can help direct the way the sexual experience goes. However, change those bottled up emotions that were created out of a time when the person could not understand, and the sexual experience will also change.
As I have been told and have found out many times before- it always gets worse before it gets better. As of this writing I am still in that phase. Processes can be very long and slow because to rush trauma healing is to heighten the chance of breaking regions of the brain and body. That is a proven fact.
I like to think of it like cleaning out our pond here in the yard every spring. At first it seems easy but smelly draining the water. But the more water that is drained out, the more sludge is exposed until the sludge at the bottom plugs up the hose and water can no longer drain. Then I need to get in the pond and muck it out with shovel, bucket and wheel barrow until the sludge is gone. It is heavy, stinky, messy work. But I know that if I do and get it all cleaned up, once I fill it with fresh water and put fish in it, the pond will be a thing of beauty for us to enjoy all warm season long. So I do it every spring and every year we have the pond and all the amazing life it draws to enjoy.
The exact way that someone should follow to come to terms with and heal that area of trauma in their life can only be found by them. Others can suggest, but THE way needs to be found and embraced by each person because we are all unique. For me details found in the  PTSD book I wrote can help, as can focusing on the Medicine Wheel… I feel ALL of those sources contain powerful tools to assist in healing and personal growth. Personally the Medicine Wheel has saved my life many times over through many years. For myself the codes of the warrior and even the 9 connections through the 3 layers of reality in accordance with Viking philosophy (one of my strong genetic lines) is of daily help to me.
Orgasm is a tool, a tool we can consciously use and also a tool of the body for growth, health, pleasure and in worse case scenarios- survival.
For anyone who has experienced such sexual traumas in their lives, remember, you are not dirty, evil, ugly, tainted or damaged goods. You are a beautiful child of this earth, pure in heart and here dancing with purpose, as are we all. Nothing done to you in the past can change that. If it could then I would be something nobody could look at, but that is not the case because I KNOW it is not, just as you do. Look at yourself in the mirror and smile. Feel your body and smile. Feel your heart and smile. None of it is tainted. It is only a trick that makes you think so. It is the trauma locked in the subconscious that can think those degrading things, even if you have consciously comes to grips with it. Fragmentation within is the surest recipe for unhappiness. One of the deepest lessons we can embrace is the realization and practicality that true freedom derives from not denying or judging any part or path of our human experience.
Author – White Wolf Von Atzingen
Originally posted in the Wolf’s Den of Element Mountain
http://elementmountain.com/den-post/orgasm-types-and-trauma/
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Former article on the Lilith Cult by White Wolf:
http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/mind-control/white-wolf-von-atzingen-on-the-lilith-cult/

Panel Discussion, “Love Bite Plus” now Subtitled in French

I am happy to share that our Web Panel Discussion Love Bite Plus has been subtitled into French, thanks to the work of Mae. These two panels,
Love Bite Plus, and Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment are now available on her Youtube channel. (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGXaX4168ElfCHsPOv0sCzg)

Love Bite + Pannel of 2015https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djF31WIB38g

Hyperdimensional Interferences of 2016https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9W2b5N82B0E

Building Upon the Real for the Greater Good

In my previous article, The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators”(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/the-aftermath-of-the-alien-love-bite-soul-types-and-predators/) I proposed to write an article that could answer some tough questions by my clients, especially the ones who were born into “specific bloodlines” of ruling occult groups who target them for many reasons. The questions that have been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid, “love bite” experiencers are, “Why do I repeatedly keep being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings?” And of course the biggest question by these people is, “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”

I contemplated this from a more spiritual perspective based upon a profound experience I had many years ago at the age of 22. This experience catalyzed a deep realization of remembrance, a core essence of being, whose depth of “realness” was so immense, total, absolute and freeing, that the core significance of it vindicated a deep realness within an eternal place of being. A deeper, greater reality. It was recognition of truth of beingness free of the earthly and even “astral” state of being. This deep knowing is present always, when in this state of presence. But when I returned back into my body state of consciousness, the shock of this realization was so intense it nearly gave me a heart attack. In fact, I believed at the time, if I did not return to my “body” from this realized state of beingness, my heart would explode and I would die of some kind of heart attack.

Well, I did not die physically, but the experience of spiritual remembrance left me shaken, wordless and deeply imprinted in such a way that a truth was revealed in me, for recognitions sake, beyond all religion or teachings that I had known at that time. It was not until many years later in my exploration of Gnostic, Tibetan Buddhist studies and Advaita-Vedanta mystical teachings that I came to understand this experience. But the ironic thing about this realization was that my original intention and prayers for three days and nights was to “know and understand the truth of Jesus Christ, the one in the Bible.” Well, I can assure you this was no “vision” of Jesus but more of a direct recognition of beingness that was so utterly real in its depth, that there was no question in my mind about what truth is inside our being. “Seek the Kingdom of Heaven first within you and all will be added unto you.” Each and every one of us who has an eternal spirit of awareness has this within them. But most of us do not fully remember this state of being.

 

What People Really Want—Freedom and Happiness

So much of what my counseling clients seek is of course, happiness, but more specifically, freedom from inter dimensional interference, and all that goes with this. The “archontic” Matrix control systems run by seemingly predatory beings, both human and non human— appears to be the problem on “the outside” that ruins so many lives. Ultimately I believe, building upon and recognizing the real—our internal truth of being—is the key to freedom, empowerment, love and all good things. But for most people, and even “yogis and mystics”, this must be done gradually, in such a way that we increase and expand our awareness of “reality”. This awareness becomes more and more real, until we can sustain a measure of lucidity in mindfulness.

True happiness comes from within. It actually arises out of getting in touch with our core essence of being. Contact with true reality. It is not a short term investment strategy, nor does it have to take a long time. But it does require that you desire it, are willing to be still, have faith, be patient, humble and courageous.

 
Getting Lucid with Mindfulness and Self-Observation

This must be a step by step process, where we are intentionally committed expand our own awareness, out of which comes change. Mindfulness is not really about “trying to change” but rather intending on allowing ones awareness to be aware of truth versus lies; stalking the illusions. As we go into a place of self-observation and mindfulness, we will start to perceive what distractions and “obstacles in our path” have prevented us from being still, from being happy, from feeling love. From feeling truly alive and knowing ourselves in our core essence. It is not a “conceptual self analysis” or self-absorbed narcissism either. It requires us to take notice of whatever feelings are present in the moment, without identifying with them so much that we lose our lucidity.

What is lucidity, you may ask? For me, it is awareness of being aware. Like what happens when you are in a dream, and know you are dreaming. In that moment of recognition, the reality of the dream deepens immensely, everything vivifies, and with it can come a natural state of wonder and joy of whatever arises in the moment. It unleashes the wonder of each unfolding moment as a mystery that is beyond our illusion of controlling the dream. Many people assume that lucidity in dreams is being able to control the dream or the vividness of it. But this is in error. It is the absolute knowing that you are dreaming and therefore have a greater ability to create and connect on expanded levels of being, not only as the dreamer, but as the background of the dreams and characters. It is a wonderful oneiric laboratory to explore self-healing, and discovering parts of ourselves we may not be fully aware of. We can apply lucidity in our meditation, in our daily lives. We can take advantage of this process when we have negative feelings and positive feelings. With lucid awareness our understanding of the feelings observed in that moment will be revealed in such a way, that we are able change out of an authentic awakening, with much less effort.

When we “wake up” we no longer will hold on to the things which we realize are illusions, distractions, addictions, bad relationships, avoidance or self-pity. The waking up process is not so easy however. When it does happen, it can be painful, and we may hit a threshold of obstacles, pain, and intense suffering of any number of feelings before we have that “aha!” moment. It tends to happen in stages when we can process the insights revealed over time and with maturity. In my view, the spiritual path to awakening is a healing journey where deep psychological changes take place.

 

Psychological Healing and Trauma Resolution Therapy Helps Wake Us Up

Waking up to a greater spiritual reality inevitably requires substantial psychological self reflection and healing of our deepest core wounds. This is essentially a psychotherapeutic process to root out the original causes of our suffering. It is really a rooting out process of identifying that which is false, and cutting through the psychological defenses which keep us from connecting deeper into our own core selves. Oftentimes it is easier to discover what the truth is by knowing in our heart, what we are not. And I can assure you, most beliefs in the “matrix world system” are geared to prop up false beliefs about who and what you are, in order to control you. The unenlightened love to lord over and control you, they are lovers of power, usually with big egos. Have you ever noticed how the power hungrier someone is, the more of a psychopath they turn out to be? And do you really think they have your best interests at heart?

Now here is a paradox. The truth is, things do not need to be fixed, they need to be understood. If we can truly understand without judgement and over identification and excessive emotional triggering, things will change naturally. Oh, but what does this really mean when we break things down into practical day to day living and being?

Therapy and counseling in some practices are more about alleviating symptoms or reinforcing the “matrix world view”, where pharmaceuticals are prescribed or “things to make you feel better” are advised. And on the spiritual front line of “enlightenment solutions” we can run into the fake gurus who are really spiritual predator-vampires. Gatekeepers and soul entrappers who end up identifying and feeding off of the real “gifted ones”. Then they target you to exploit or clamp down your real, supernatural abilities. I do find it almost ironic, that many who have woken up, have found out by going to hell and back. Or having been trapped by evil sorcerers, or being in an abusive relationship with a narcissist only to discover what they don’t want and who they are not. This is a huge key. You want to know why?

Because when things get bad enough you are forced to feel negative emotions. You may be forced to drop your ego and surrender enough to experience a deeper presence of being within. You may hit rock bottom like the alcoholic or drug addict who finally realizes their way of life is killing them. They finally wake up to the shocking insanity and intense pain they are feeling. It is necessary to get in touch with the negative feelings you are having, be aware of what they are. Take note of the positive ones too. What causes these feelings, really? Where do they start in your body? Can you be in your body or are you habitually dissociating? You need to be still long enough to know when your automatic, triggered avoidance patterns start kicking into gear, in ways that actually pull you out of REALITY and connection with your heart and your core self. You know that is what addictions are all about don’t you? Avoidance of uncomfortable feelings, hidden traumas and vulnerable emotional wounds.

Do you know what is funny? Addicts and alcoholics feel like life would be boring and dull without the drugs, alcohol etc. Many have not really got into contact with their core selves because they are avoiding bad feelings, perhaps repressed traumas. Trauma and addictions go together like peas and carrots. If you work on one, let’s say the drinking part, the other issue will rise to the surface. If you deal with the trauma first, and truly resolve the trauma over time, (or even rapidly with modalities such as Rapid Release Trauma Therapy, hypnotherapies etc.) your addictions may just stop by themselves. Or in the least with less effort. This is where the understanding part comes in. With understanding, things will change naturally. You don’t have to “fix feelings”, you just have to self-connect long enough to understand, let go of the illusions and the problems disappear. It is really more about letting go.

And you know what will drive psychopaths and abusers away from you? You want to get rid of them? Start a meditation practice, be still, silent and ever aware. They will think you are so BORING they will leave you alone and have to find someone else for their narcissistic supply of energy!

 

The Walls We Hit Before Waking Up

Faith is the number one necessity before any positive change can occur. This is a pre-requisite for Buddhist teachings on enlightenment and for genuine happiness as well. It is not just a Christian virtue, but is supreme in just about every religion. If you prefer, we can say that it is helpful that you see that it is desirable to wake up in order to relieve your suffering. It must be desirable to give up illusions and dependencies on what is NOT REAL so you can make contact with that deeper REALITY. That awakening to the deeper reality of your true beingness is so powerful that entire systems of control have been created to keep you addicted to the fake, so as to distract you without you even knowing you are a puppet. So do you really want freedom and awakening?

And what tends to happen before we can drop illusions, over identifications, and ego masks to go deeper inside the mystery of the heart and spirit? Those psychological defenses pop up, mind control programs, avoidance patterns, addictions, distractions and real demons could start manifesting. Oftentimes when our distraction patterns drop, we touch in with our aloneness during periods of silence. We can feel quite alone even when we are with someone, if any emotional wounds have not been dealt with. There is this thing called loneliness which can be so unbearable, despairing and empty that we avoid it at all costs, thinking loneliness can only be cured by having company, or doing the things which numb those bad feelings when you start to feel lonely or depressed. Loneliness can happen when we are with someone or alone. It can happen when we start to be still in solitude, even in meditation, as we get in touch with silence. Sometimes the loneliness is like a wall of the most despairing pain of hopelessness, non love, and shameful unworthiness. A rejection so deep, an abandonment so great that you split it off into another compartment of your being. It could be the overlay covering up rage, intense sadness or even terror. But remember this is a wall, they are feelings, which are not really you, but feelings of experience you have had or still live in you based on something much earlier in life that was never healed or made conscious.

 

Our Addictions and Avoidance Patterns Distort Our Perception of Reality

The difficult part of the self-discovery process is how many of our behaviors are running on a kind of automatic mode, something we cannot seem to consciously control from a logical perspective. When we are still running on these automatic defenses and “conditioned programs”, our perceptions of others and of reality is skewed. We tend to see people through the lens of our own addictive needs—the needs we cling to so that we don’t have to feel uncomfortable feelings, our old wounds still festering inside. If we seem to be stuck in blaming others, or trying to fix the world, we have not fully woken up. If we keep trying to control others in co-dependent relationships, we have not done our self-healing work. If we still are dependent on approval, appreciation and the constant distraction of company of others (in a compulsive way), we are still asleep. If we keep finding ourself looking for love from someone out there, we have not dealt with our stuff. If we habitually manipulate others into providing for our own “psychic energy”, attention and approval, we are actually emotional energy vampires in disguise.

Now I know this sounds harsh and like a cliche about seeking it all within. It is not ALL within but so much of it is, that if we don’t take personal responsibility and a willing humbleness to deal with our SH**, then nothing will change. Love happens through openness and awareness. It can only happen by dropping the illusions which have kept us in this merry go round of distractions, numbness and disconnection from reality.

 

What We Need is Slowing Down

There are some things that we do need, however. Safety is very important, either in or out of a relationship. Many of my anomalous trauma clients lack the safety and sustained stillness to stay with the mindful, healing and recovery process long enough to truly wake up. They may have so much drama and “interference” that any kind of committed therapy process is unlikely. And when this happens I can guarantee you it is part of the “program” to keep the person believing that it is impossible, unnecessary, too expensive, everyone else’s fault and the entire gamut of I’m right, ego rigidity and “yes but…”.excuses. Many of the excuses are part of what I call the learned helplessness, “whining victim” program that effectively self sabotages true change. And if I would tell this to someone who is in the midst of a whopping, whining victim (or predator) program, it would infuriate them. The truth is, they really believe they are powerless because they are trapped in illusions.

What we do need is willingness for more awareness, stillness, enjoying the simple pleasures of life, like decent food, water, light, exercise, a good book, perhaps an entertaining movie now and then. But what we don’t need is to be so busy that we cannot enjoy simple pleasures and instead adopt artificial stimulants, or are too busy and sleep deprived to even enjoy simple pleasures. We want to engage the true senses and slow down. When we do slow down, our senses actually come more alive, making it easier to enjoy simple pleasures. The need for addictions, drama or over stimulation falls away. It only requires a decision to be still with awareness for a short period daily or on a regular enough basis in small steps and goals. You can perceive miracles and hidden, secret things from slowing down. Your perceptions expand, and when you start noticing all kinds of things, understanding of what arises starts to awaken in you. This enables you to change, the awareness that comes with simply slowing down.

 

Mindfulness Meditation is Good

In my own experience, I had explored just about every “therapy” there is, from cognitive-behavioral talk therapy, hypnotherapy, rebirthing, interpersonal communication skills, marriage and family therapy, lucid dreaming, journaling, art therapy, dance, creative writing, martial arts, Chi Gong, authentic movement and yoga. You name it, I did it. Some significant radical shifts in expanded awareness occurred after doing a couple of 10 day shamatha meditation retreats. Shamatha meditation is a very simple form of mindful sitting meditation where one follows the breath, a single object of meditation or awareness of whatever arises in the mind. (http://www.deerparkthimphu.org/activities/shamatha.html) I personally would recommend doing this with a very good teacher in person, someone like Dr. Alan B. Wallace. (http://www.sbinstitute.com/Shamatha_Project)

Sometimes it takes getting out of your ordinary habits in a different environment, where silence and stillness with awareness is the only activity. For me, meditation is what woke me up to feeling and finally perceiving in vivid, expanded awareness, the insanity I had been living, and it was shocking and painful enough for me to change. For other individuals however, it may be something else that wakes them up in such a way as to be the catalyst for effective change. I’ve seen some “meditation junkies” become kind of addicted to the cult aspect of Buddhist community, instead of doing more deep, psychotherapeutic work. Some people actually fall into dissociation, rather than embodied awareness in stillness, that true meditation requires. This is why it is good to have an experienced teacher, who has demonstrated their own internal self-healing and mindfulness work. You will recognize them by their openness, compassion, and wisdom in how they live their lives and how well their own students learn and exemplify wisdom in their lives.

The evidence is when change starts to take place in you, in your awareness. It happens, you don’t do it. If you try to “do it” it doesn’t last. Change is natural through awareness of truth, reality and embodied self-connectedness. Then you keep your openness, flexibility, softness and compassion through awareness. It is not a rigid “trying to control”, change. Or being compelled to lecture or prove yourself right. The evidence is in the softness, ease, effortless effort, compassion, awareness, wisdom and openness. It is a tasting and feeling, an experiential, expanded perception beyond information in your head or over analyzing on a conceptual level. And with this comes strength and courageousness. Joy will start to emerge, a spontaneousness to perceive humor in life as well.

 

Doing the Healing Work

Nothing is more painful and humbling than someone telling you that, “you need therapy”, or ask you sarcastically, “are you off your meds?”. Or when a concerned family member, friend or fellow work mate suggests you get into a recovery program for an ongoing addiction you have normalized in your life, which is starting to create problems that you, apparently, are unaware of. More often than not, when we do decide to get “professional help” for something, it resulted from an uncomfortable situation in our life like a broken relationship, lost job or God forbid, a Driving Under the Influence (DUI) or police arrest. One good thing about suffering is that it can be the agent of positive change and expanded awareness. Some experiences, such as a narcissistic abuse, alien love bite relationships can be so intense and psycho-spiritually shattering that it can serve as a “spiritual initiation” of permanent consciousness change. A real wake up call.

The sad part about “not having done our healing and personal growth work”, or for short, “not dealing with your sh**” (NDWYSH), means that some part of you has disconnected from your spiritual core essence, most likely your emotional center. Part of your heart actually shuts down, and with this shutting down comes a block in your awareness, a blind spot. We do this to ourselves as a reaction to stress, trauma or deep emotional wounds. Sometimes our conditioned beliefs and ways we were raised in our family system required us to be cut off from our own authentic being, or we would not be accepted, loved. In severe cases, if we did not do or be what we were told, we were beaten up, abused or thrown out on the streets. Abandoned.

It is rather ironic that in order to psychologically survive such kinds of abuse and traumas, we abandon our own selves, to protect us from the shock of the reality that perhaps we lived in a very unsafe world, where we really were unloved or had psychopath caretakers. And for many of us, the shock of reality, the extreme vulnerability and powerlessness of childhood, and our feelings about the craziness we have had to endure, was too much for a young child.(It can be too much for an adult!) That inner child—whose real needs, identity, whose heart and soul had to be abandoned or be put in cold storage somewhere, until some day, it would be safe enough to be who we are and feel what we feel.

 
Co-Dependency is a Spiritual Issue

In Melanie Tonia Evans article, “On Co-Dependency and Narcisicism, (See: http://blog.melanietoniaevans.com/2014-co-dependency-check-up/) she addresses the culprit of the spiritual disease of Co-Dependency and Narcissism:

“Societal beliefs, unconsciousness, and the horrific programming of ‘Needing to get worthiness, value, approval, and love outside of ourselves’ is all responsible for the dis-ease (yes it is a human disease) of co-dependency.

The reason being is: we are all a product of a world that looks “outwards” for comfort and fulfillment. We were NOT taught to come inside and self-partner in times of stress.
Rather we were told to “Shut up and get on with it”, or that our feelings and emotions were “inconvenient” and “irrelevant” and therefore had to be ignored, repressed, shoved aside or switched off.
As a result we all became more and more disconnected from our emotional centres and we tried to acquire stuff or people’s love and approval to stop the pain, and when that failed we took up addictions (self-avoidance mechanisms) to try to numb ourselves out from the pain.

Co-dependency is a spiritual disease. It is NOT a psychological issue, the psychological component is the symptom. It is an emotional issue, a soul issue.  The remedy does not lie in logical thinking. It requires a deep connection back to yourself and your true connection with Source / Life / God.

Until we know we are at One with Source (and at the Quantum Level that is the absolute scientific truth) we cannot ever be at One with ourselves, others or this planet.
This is when we suffer the results of “disconnection” and are not generating the Source truth of “wellbeing”. Rather we are granted by Source/Life/God the results of our free will choice of living in the illusions of “separation”.

And that separation hurts so much it makes us want to be addicted to whatever alleviates these awful feelings of disconnection from our true REAL SELVES/SPIRIT/SOURCE.

By reacting in unconscious triggering, and whatever addictions we choose to effectively numb our pain, this decision constitutes an agreement to disconnect from our heart and soul, leaving us open for other substitutes to run our “vehicle”. This disconnect also takes away from our life force energy and our awareness in consciousness, because energy and awareness are linked. The more your energy is lost, the less aware you become.

We may have grown up this way, living in dysfunctional families, where all these kinds of crazy behaviors were normalized, including verbal abuse, emotional neglect, boundary invasions, poor communication skills and addictions. And when we grew older, and entered into relationships, jobs and started raising our own families, we started having huge problems. Sometimes it is the problems that wake us up to the discovery of how blind, numb, abusive or victimized we really were. And when we don’t heal these original wounds, we set ourselves up to be hurt even more, sometimes as victims or on the other end of it as perpetrators of abuse.

The difficult thing about effective, lasting change is that it must be dealt with on deeper levels of our being, not just logical analysis or simple awareness of your patterns. It must happen in such a way that you connect to the younger feeling parts of yourself that initially experienced the trauma, the vulnerable part who held false beliefs about themselves or the world, that needs to be let go of. The self abandonment that occurs with early traumas are often linked in with Boundary issues. According to Melanie Tonia Evans,

“True empowered boundaries mean: ‘I love myself and I know my truth. I know who I am, and I will not compromise myself anymore. You have a choice to be in my reality of meeting this higher vibration. If you don’t – that’s okay – I’m not in anymore regardless of the consequences. Because in no way is the correct and healthy development of my life dependent on you making any particular choice, or even understanding what I need. You are NOT my source of self – I AM!’

Now of course we don’t reach this level of conduct until we have done the work on ourselves to get there, and naturally the work is about finding and up-levelling the young unhealed parts of our Inner Being that are still hooked on “You HAVE to be the source of me because I can’t be that to myself”.

It is true, as children we couldn’t be a source to ourselves, we were entirely co-dependent. We were powerless and vulnerable, and if we haven’t healed and up-levelled these young parts – which means self-developing and growing them lovingly and supportively up – they still affect us, regardless of knowing better logically. I promise you the painful aspects of our life are not being created logically, and they can’t be solved logically.

It’s been stated in therapy circles, “There is no healing without feeling”. And I believe this is true. Sometimes all we need is the safety, empathy and permission to feel whatever is happening inside us with gentle nudging towards real release and deep insight. It is amazing what people do when they hit their “wall” of the pain.(Or PTSD overload) Oftentimes they may spin into story telling, over and over, in a cyclic, anger—addicted way, without true resolution of the underlying feeling. Feelings are in layers, and what most people do not understand is that emotions like rage and anger are actually secondary. They cover up deeper feelings that are more vulnerable. The goal is to be able to reach that wall with awareness of what we habitually have been doing to jerk away from the “feeling”, the real memories etc., so we can address that protective part and the beliefs it may hold— which “takes control” to avoid the issue. For some people, they need more aggressive confrontation and redirection to be present with THAT FEELING and memory. Others need more gentle reassurance, nudging and guidance to take that feeling to its origin in the present now. Sometime it must be taken slowly, so that the feelings and embodied awareness of processing this energy can be done with more self control, safely without triggered PTSD syndrome.

Being able to feel, be vulnerable, feel safe, and let go of what is pent up inside creating so many problems, is not always an easy, logical process. It can take time, or it can be relatively fast, once the defenses are set aside to release and get to the truth. Working directly with the subconscious mind, identifying those beliefs and fears is the eventual goal for more rapid resolution. We must get in touch with those abandoned parts, love them, forgive them, self parent them, and allow these parts to grow up. This is how you stop seeking and expecting others to always fill those voids, to be happy. Then we are less likely to attract predators. The predators will be attracted to you if you still are not taking personal responsibility for your healing and still have self abandonment and “blind spots”. If we keep seeking others to “take away our pain”, keep us from feeling lonely, depressed or looking for that magic healer to “clear all my implants, attached entities”, etc. we will fall into the same traps. It is not that a therapist or healer cannot help you, but it should be, rather, that they help guide you to help yourself and bring into your awareness the self-discovery to heal yourself. You have to be ready to feel, and see what you are really believing about yourself, life and others. The denial must be dropped for clear perception. And clarity comes as you drop those addictions, illusions, excessive fears and desires.

If you haven’t gotten it yet that healing is all about deeper self-connection, self responsibility, expanded awareness, and being willing to be vulnerable in your heart, you will fall back into the co-dependent “conditioning program”. Or keep on being addicted to numbing, blaming others, acting out, etc. Or you may fall into the perpetrator rather than victim role, or vacillate between the two.

How can we become more aware of what we are really doing, not doing, believing, or feeling in ways that indicate there is still some healing to do? Are you worried or compelled to try to “protect people from their feelings”? Do you do this unconsciously? What fears are driving you—what beliefs? Practice awareness, mindfulness. Here is a good “Co-Dependency Checklist” that Melanie Tonia Evans created for those in recovery programs:

 
▪ Do you spend a lot of time worrying about what other people think about you?
▪ Do you try to impress other people and make them happy so that you can be happy?
▪ Do you often analyse other people’s lives?
▪ Do you get distressed by bad things that happen which are out of your control?
▪ Do you say and do what you think other people want you to say and do?
▪ Do you try to control other people’s behaviour so that you can feel okay?
▪ When an interaction with someone goes ‘wrong’ do you spend time analysing their actions, what they said and what they might be feeling and thinking?
▪ Do you find it difficult to speak up and confront an issue when you feel uncomfortable?
▪ Do you blame other people for the way you feel?
▪ Do other people’s moods bring your own mood down?
▪ Do you immediately think of someone else who needs this information more than you?
▪ Do you seek and listen to other people’s opinions rather than seeking and listening to your own?
▪ Do you obsess over saying the wrong thing or hurting someone else’s feelings?
▪ Do you hang on to people and situations even when it hurts, hoping they will change into something better?
▪ Do you often feel selfish, guilty or ‘what a waste of time’ when you do something nice for yourself?
▪ Do you often say ‘Yes’ when you really want to say ‘No’?
▪ Do you struggle to listen to your own feelings and go along with other people’s feelings?
▪ Do you give a lot of yourself to other people, even if they don’t ask, and then get upset when they don’t do the same in return?
▪ Do you try to fix or change other people to be who you want them to be?
▪ Do you try and help or fix others who don’t take responsibility for themselves?
▪ Do you tend to put everyone else’s needs before your own?
▪ Do you avoid taking charge of your own life, and / or creating your own happiness in the hope that someone will provide it for you?

For most of us, we didn’t learn how to communicate with reflective empathy, we just did what was modeled to us in our families. And if we never even bothered to do any personal growth work, mindfulness, healing and honest self-reflection, we are likely to be projecting our “stuff” on others unconsciously. We must really know our own histories, childhoods, relating patterns and what our own families have modeled to us. Are we aware of ethics and spiritual laws that may open us up to dark forces and predators? What agreements of entrapment are we actually holding onto without realizing its ramifications? I’m often astounded at how unaware many “normal seeming” people are, who have found themselves victim to psychopaths, supernatural predators and narcissists.

What prevents some people from true mutuality in friendships of respect? Could it be their refusal to be vulnerable to their own hearts and feelings? Are they rigidly holding onto denial and illusions, making you wrong so they don’t have to grow up? Are they trying to control you with their version of what they think “reality” is, while marginalizing your worth and freedom? Do they play fair in relationships so that compassionate communication can even happen? Do they have value systems that marginalize compassionate communication and reflective empathy? Is their own blind spots and psychological defenses causing cold, insensitive behaviors that hurt you? We need to also ask ourselves if we do these kinds of things to others as well.

Perhaps we must ask how much we value our own souls, and choosing what we want to be connected with. Do we really want to experience the truth of REALITY?

 
That Mystery Called Love

I found myself having ahas! when listening to the mystic, Thomas De Mello. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pNb_tYuHfY&index=69&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B)

The ever present desire and need for LOVE is a consistent topic of discussion everywhere. So many people want to experience true love, feel more loved, love more. Contrary to what we tend to assume, adoration does not lead to love, reality, life or truth. Love is generated through awareness of what is REAL.

Thomas De Mello says, “If you wish to Love, You must learn to see again. You must give up your drug.” These ‘drugs’ is a term for all our psychological defenses, distractions, co-dependent addictions or whatever you do to avoid your uncomfortable feelings. Love actually comes through awareness. It comes from dropping the illusions and obstructions to pure perception. Love is the essence of REALITY and your own eternal spiritual beingness.

(See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)

Wisdom has always been more about what illusions we are willing to let go of. Dropping your masks and pretenses. It is the same for love. As Thomas De Mello says simply,

The unobstructed heart and mind is love and wisdom. Understand the obstruction and obstacles and they will drop. Turning on the light of awareness. Happiness is not something you acquire or produce or have. Love is something that has you! “

In practice and with time, you surrender to it when you are aware of your illusions, addictions, desires and fears. It is a gradual process of tearing away those conditioned “assumptions” and attachments we have clung to, oftentimes without even knowing how we did it. These “mind control programs” and clinging desires are like sticky tentacles latching onto us, creating a “tar baby” effect. (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tar-Baby)

In aloneness, where we can be in enough solitude to be aware of and let go of these clinging dependencies, it will be like a cold turkey death. If you can be alone not having the company of people, and be emotionally dependent on them anymore to feel special, adored, appreciated, you will become free. You can be in the midst of people, and enjoy their company but they will no longer have any power over you, to make you happy or miserable. Your dependence on them dies and your capacity to love is born. Why? Because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions and dependencies.

There can be a terror in this kind of aloneness, it is like dying. There could be withdrawal symptoms, like a dark pit of emptiness. When you have let go of your own need to control someone else, need them to “love you” or be special to anyone you are getting it. If you can get to this point, you will at last know. You will be able to perceive with a vision that is clear and unclouded by fears or desires. Then you can truly love. But you must go through the pains of loss, letting go of addictions, illusions and be utterly alone before this can happen.

Dependence dies and your capacity to love is born. Why—because you no longer see others as the means to satisfy your addictions or narcissistic supply!

No, I don’t think it means being a saint or an advanced yogi who retreats to meditate in caves for years on end. It is a quality of intention with awareness, humbleness, and the dedication to see things through because you are sick and tired of hurting all the time. When you are sick of the pain, the endless recycling of misery, the ridiculous control systems by idiotic predator psychopaths, you will come to a place where enough is enough. Taking personal responsibility means creating the option for freedom, and true happiness. Being in the world but not of it.

But first, we actually have to come to respect our own spiritual heart. Any deep truths and feelings we buried. We must realize the greatest violence to our own being is self-abandonment. It is this self-abandonment that causes the feelings of loneliness, hurt, sorrow and disconnectedness from REALITY.

To paraphrase what Thomas De Mello said,

“You must cultivate ceaseless awareness, patience and compassion as you would have for a drug addict. Develop taste for good things in life, pure, simple, things. Work, laughter, intimacy with people to whom you do not cling or who you depend emotionally, but whose company you enjoy. Activities you can do with your whole being, while engaged in them. Success or recognition don’t mean a thing to you. It will help if you return to nature. Mountains—silently commune with trees, animals, flowers, birds, clouds, sky and stars etc. Spiritual exercise to gaze at things, to be aware of things around you. The world will drop, concepts will drop and you will see and you will make contact with reality. That is the cure for lonliness. We usually seek to cure our loneliness through our emotional dependence on people, distractions, noise. Get back to nature. Then you will know your heart has brought you to the vast desert of solitude. No one there to depend on. At first it is unbearable because you are unaccustomed to aloneness. Stick it out, the desert will blossom into love, your heart will burst into song. It will be springtime forever. Drug is gone, you are free. Then you will understand what freedom is, love is, happiness, what REALITY is. Truth is, what GOD is.”

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWGnV4eFCbM&list=PL9285D44ED7F7B18B&index=68)
Our next panel discussion we want to address the concepts of the Matrix engineers using polarity “choices” for neutralization, soul corruption and harvesting strategies. What we need to be doing and letting go of in order to take responsibility for dealing with our SH**. What happens if we choose to ignore the wisdom of our own Source connected Spirit.

Useful blog and links for PTSD Recovery: http://www.new-synapse.com/aps/wordpress/?p=1022

Updated Declaration of Non-Consent for Interference from Laura Leon’s web site: http://www.sovereignkees.com/non-consent-declaration.html

The Aftermath of the Alien Love Bite, Soul Types and Predators

Many of my clients and correspondences are from people who experienced some form of anomalous trauma, especially “hyperdimensional interference” issues and especially Dark Side of Cupid “love bite” relationships. (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/books/ and http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/paranormal-romance-the-real-deal/)

Many are disillusioned from the reality that these kinds of things even exist, where interference on levels “unseen” can predate upon our life force in a way that can either cause the person to “wake up”, or fall into unimaginable grief, confusion, embittered disillusionment or worse. In fact, I often refer to a “love bite” experience as a kind of spiritual initiation, where you are thrown in a surreal, emotionally intense love connection, where a characteristic drama unfolds, causing such obsessive love, ecstatic highs, crashing lows and a deep psychic soul connection, that you believe you have met your soul mate or twin flame.

Soul Loss and Waking up from the Illusion

The flip side of the ecstatic highs and blissed out soul connection is deep emotionally wounded rejection, energy loss and incomprehensible grief so deep that it can throw one into a delirium of madness, or even sustained soul loss. And in some cases, a kind of partial possession or entity infection can take place, if the Dark Side of Cupid love bite partner was “hosted” by a malevolent inter dimensional entity, who fed off of your energy for an extended period of time– or if you literally gave up to this predation, not understanding the consequences. The more severe kinds of after effects have been reported, when, for example, the love bite partner was in actuality a practicing black magician, sorcerer or “reptilian host”. When this occurs, I believe the love connection was intentioned as a strategic orchestration by the “vampiric attached entity” or sorcerer themselves because they seek to feed off of your energy. This can give them power, expanded psychic abilities and awareness, and a great sexual partner/lover who will most likely fall in love with the hosted energy vampire. The sad part about this, is that when such a cunning predator manages to link into deep levels of your being, such as the chakras, they can catalyze blissful energy sensations, elicit a profound love obsession, heart chakra expansion or even spontaneous kundalini activation. When ones energy centers are blown open this way, there can be positive side effects, such as kundalini rising, blissful energy in various parts of the body. One may experience expanded psychic awareness, love and other emotions. The sex drive can go through the roof. There can also be unpleasant emotional lability and a triggering of all ones inner psychological wounds all at the same time. And when ones energy centers are exuding all this bliss kundalini energy it can also attract other beings in your life.

It’s actually quite amazing what people have reported to me about how magical things happen once their energy centers are open with more energy flowing and especially love. They may find themselves suddenly being noticed “by the opposite sex” when they had not really been noticed before. They may have animals react to them differently, such as coming close to them for longer periods of time, instead of flying or running away. Things they think about may manifest more quickly, while experiencing telepathy or spontaneous remote viewing ability. They may also start to notice feeling more exhausted, while at the same time feeling almost drugged with a kind of energy bliss, where the desire to meld and have sex with the partner is nearly constant. It is akin to a powerful love spell—and perhaps that is exactly what it is.

As the relationship progresses, and depending on the degree of energy vampirism, emotional drama and narcissistic abuse factors (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/boundaries-and-healing-from-narcissistic-abuse/, the soul energy loss and emotional wounding increases. It may get to the point where a break up has to occur or ill health or possible death can result from this kind of soul loss and extreme emotional damage.

It is usually in the aftermath of such a relationship that a client will contact me, seeking healing and some explanation for how and why this can happen. Many hold on to the hope that they will reconnect with their partner, believing that their unconditional love can change or “heal” the partner who is either narcissistically wounded or carries within them an attached entity, or both. The desire to hold on to the illusion of the “soul mate/twin flame” partner is very strong in such situations, even despite abusive behaviors and consuming ill health. It is like an addiction that we grasp onto because having a connection like this is unlike any other. Barbara Bartholic, (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/barbara-bartholic/)

my early mentor in my alien abduction research days, used to call this the “love drug” effect. The drama of the love obsession seems to be proportional to the degree of how ones energy centers were melded and opened up, creating lots of bliss as if we were one soul. Our level of earlier emotional childhood wounding can also exacerbate the vulnerability we have for getting into such a love bite. If we never really knew “true love” we often fall for the counterfeit and not perceive that it’s orchestrated.

Karmic Connections

We may even have spontaneous past life memories surface, when we meet or connect more deeply to our “love bite” partner. (Of course this can happen in non-love bite connections too.) In fact, a very aware friend of mine had ET beings communicate to her during an abduction event, that one of the reasons they orchestrate such “love connections” is because the energy produced is a delicacy to them. And for one of these catalyzed love relationships to work, they often need to have former “karmic connections” between the targeted partners. These past life connections will often manifest as fine energy tendrils that will link up and in-between the people involved. So that the more karmic connections, the stronger or more effective a “love bite” will be. It is not necessarily so, however, sometimes even when all the conditions for the orchestrated set up are present, some individuals just don’t “bite back” or generate strong feelings that result in a love connection.

A Strange Side Effect: Continued Energy Vampire Predations and Interdimensional Handling

One of the unfortunate things that can happen with someone who had an initial Dark Side of Cupid relationship, is that from that point forward in their life, even after they have broken up with that person, is that other “predator energy vampire” types will continue coming to them. It is as if some magnetic “switch” has been flipped, or a kind of virus, that enables them to be found by other energy vampire types of people. It makes one wonder if such “hosted” energy predators belong to a sort of hive mind egregore such that they can find these “prized” spiritual energy people by some kind of invisible network. This is an observation with the more “high frequency” people who have innate spiritual gifts and a kind of high quality spiritual energy. I will have to add also, that this is not the only explanation, because for those people who have not taken responsibility to do their own healing and recovery process for early life emotional woundings, they may fall into patterns of running into the same kinds of dysfunctional relationships. In general, if the person does significant healing regarding their early life traumas and any relationship issues related to the first “love bite”, they can go on to establish good, healthy relationships in their lives afterwards.

One milab woman I knew who had the gift of clairvoyant vision, could “see” the different types of people and what they “hosted”. Of course one of the reasons she was used as a “miilab asset” was because she could telepathically link in with people, sometimes several at a time. She also could remote view situations when directed to do so, among other things. Well, it just so happened that we sometimes attended UFO conferences together, and she could tell which persons to “be on the alert for” because they were hosting a reptilian being or perhaps other types of entities. She even knew that there were several types of reptilians, such as “yellow bellies”, who were the ones that were less “mean” but annoying and always the types of people vying for lots of attention. She believed that many humans were actually reptilian hybrids in bodies, and many seemed to act in ways that appeared they were trying to “pretend to be human”. We often laughed at this because it seemed so absurd but the more comical observations, she noted was when she went to Church. She went to a fundamental Christian church in the Bible Belt area of the USA with her family. She used to joke about the reptilian hosts she would see at church “pretending” to be human and acting religious. She did say that not all “reptilians were evil” and that many were just trying to fit in and live as humans in human bodies. She also saw how “reptilians in the workplace” often created miserable hierarchal environments and emotional dramas at work, feeding on the energy of others misery. (See— Snakes at the Water Cooler : http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/military-abduction-milabs-and-reptilians/snakes-at-the-water-cooler-the-reptilian-presence-at-the-office/)

Another clairvoyant client who exudes that high quality, spiritual energy desirable by these energy predators, mentioned wanting to get back into the dating scene, after having gone through a terrible Dark Cupid relationship that nearly cost her her life. She wanted to find men through church where perhaps a better quality man could be found, rather than the online dating sites, bars and other social environments for “normals”. Well, lo and behold, she saw a good-looking man, who had been eying her several times, and seemed to have that alluring desire of connection, an excited look communicating a desire to meet each other. But as she observed closely, she was able to see that this man was hosting a reptilian entity, who would play the “energy games” that can happen with these types of people. Even though he went to church—he still harbored an active reptilian entity, eager to get involved in a connection. She was at first excited to find a man at church, but after she saw the entity within and the characteristic “reptilian energy” dynamics, she contacted me with her concerns.” Will this ever stop? Why do they keep coming after me? Are they everywhere?”

Well, she had a good question.

There is something else happening, that goes beyond simple psychological explanations for those who find themselves repeatedly targeted by “interdimensionally hosted” energy vampire lovers or friends. This goes into the phenomena of what I call “targeted inter-dimensional handling” and control of specific people who have been “target listed” for one reason or another. It happens with authentic, spiritually gifted individuals, especially women who are from specific bloodlines who have been identified as “starfire” women. It happens with men too of course. This can include some MK ultra and ritual abuse victims, milabs, alien abductees and contactees, indigos etc. It can happen to people who have been identified by covert, experimental mind-control social engineering groups or independent black magicians as individuals who are identified as “different”, more aware or gifted spiritually. Once targeted by one love bite relationship, they are often assailed by other “organic portal” (See: https://veilofreality.com/2011/04/18/organic-portals-soulless-humans/) types of people who are sent in by some kind of “hive minded” program to handle them in some capacity. The handling may be specific to that individual, so that the “handler” is used to gather regular information about them, or their routine lives. They may be involved just enough to keep them from establishing other relationships that could be more positive in terms of healing opportunities and sovereign spiritual empowerment. Sometimes it is a relationship that dampens the frequency factor of the targeted persons psychological life, just enough so that the targeted person, (ie., a milab) remains in a lower vibration zone of consciousness to be continually “accessed” by their abductors.

Types of Souls

Of course this all sounds paranoid crazy, for those who haven’t experienced or witnessed it first hand. In certain subpopulations of anomalous trauma, especially those who have had MK Ultra, ritual abuse and milab abduction histories it is more evident. But there is something else happening, that may be unrelated to these subpopulations, that indicates a deeper underlying reality of different types of “humans” that exist. Some may call them ET hybrids, but I’m not certain that is what it is. It seems to be more of a soul and spiritual difference between humans, that predisposes some to be natural “energy vampires” who predate specifically upon the more spiritually gifted types of humans who exude a type of energy highly sought after.

It wasn’t until I studied the research of Dr. Corrado Malanga on his regressive hypnosis findings with alien abductees employing the Triad Color Test, that I started to see that some people may not have a highly developed “higher self” component of consciousness. (Or a soul at all) In Malanga’s work he attributes the Higher Self to the Soul or Anima.(See: https://www.scribd.com/document/288605949/Evideon-1-Corrado-Malanga-English)

In other spiritual traditions the term used is Spirit, Higher Self, Atman or anandamaykosha. In an earlier interview I conducted with Dorica Manu, a colleague of Dr. Malanga, I inquired about the distribution of people, as well as “aliens and ETs” who have Mind, Spirit and Soul components of the triad of consciousness. Most of the “abducting aliens” who parasite humans only contained a mind component, sometimes a spirit component also but not a soul component. Most abductees contained all three components, since the aliens prefer to parasite those who have a good “Soul battery” of energy. But not all the people assessed with the Triad Color Test appeared to have all three components in the triad of consciousness. Some had mind and spirit but not soul. Some had mind and soul and no spirit. Some had souls who were tied into the Primordial Man.

Essentially we see that the distribution of “souled humans” is around 20-25% or a little less than one third of all humans. (See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/alien-hierarchies-and-the-research-of-dr-corrado-malanga-an-interview-with-dr-malanga-through-dorica-manu/)
“The secret of the Tree of Life is that the humans or human DNA, contains a compatibility with the frequency of the Soul. Apparently not all humans possess this DNA compatibility with the Soul. Or to put it another way, Malanga discovered via the abductee Soul component testimonies, that only 20-25 % of humans are souled, or had this DNA soul compatibility issue.(Alien Cicatrix, p. 21-26) Another way to perceive this, which the latest discoveries of Dr. Malanga also confirm – is that the Soul of these people with apparently incompatible genetics stays behind in another dimensional reality, so that the “connect” aspect will not function within that life-genetic container.  As Malanga would now say, “These soul entities still remaining on the less dense energetic planes of existence–the so called “Higher Realms” of Religion and New Age–are afraid to “come down” and have the experience on the Earth plane”.

Gnostic Understanding of the Three Types of Humans

In the Gnostic literature mostly derived from the Nag Hammadi Library, it is written that three types of humans existed from the beginning. They were the different offspring of Eve, two of whom were of Archontic origin, Cain and Abel. Some believe that these were also known as the Serpent Seed. The third and fourth offspring of Eve and Adam were Seth and Norea. It is the latter two—the Norea and Sethian “incorruptible race” that is often mentioned as being the humans associated as the pneumatic or spiritual race. The spiritual race are those who have a greater degree of spiritual “rememberance or gnosis” of their eternal origins.

If this is true, then some Gnostic researchers say that one third of the human race is of the original “pneumatic race” while two thirds make up the psychic and hylic races. Below is a multi scripture compilation describing the three types of humans and how they are mentioned and in what context:

Taken from: A Gnostic Glossary by L Carauana:
http://www.gnosticq.com/az.text/glos.af.html

– Gnosticism has developed a schema of three types of humans: the spirit-endowed Pneumatics, the soul-endowed Psychics, and the flesh-endowed Hylics. See THREE TYPES OF HUMANS.
– The spirit-endowed Pneumatics (the Elect) are saved absolutely. The soul-endowed Psychics may be saved or damned. The flesh-endowed Hylics are inevitably ‘damned to destruction’: “The spiritual race will receive complete salvation in every way. The material will receive destruction in every way (…) The psychic race, since it is in the middle when it is brought forth and also when it is created, is double according to its determination for both good and evil.” (Tripartite Tractate 119:16)
– The Apocryphon of John expands on this schema. There are two types of Pneumatics: those who avoid the corruption of the flesh and those who do not. Both as saved. Then there are the Psychics, who have souls but are without spirit. They are repeatedly re-incarnated until they acquire the gnosis. Then they are saved. Last of all those without the gnosis (the Hylics?), who are damned eternally.
– First of all, those with the spirit (pneuma) who avoid corruption of the flesh – are saved: “Those on whom the Spirit of life will descend (…) will be saved and become perfect and be worthy of the greatness and be purified in that place from all wickedness and the involvements in evil. (…) Such then are worthy of the imperishable, eternal life.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Second, those with the spirit (pneuma) who do not avoid corruption of the flesh – are still saved: “Through the intervention of the incorruptible one, it is saved, and it is taken up to the rest of the aeons.” (Apocryphon of John)
– Third, those without the spirit (pneuma) are repeatedly re-incarnated until they acquire the gnosis – and are saved: “After it comes out of (the body), it (the soul) is handed over to the authorities, who came into being through the archon, and they bind it with chains and cast it into prison (i.e. body), and consort with it until it is liberated from the forgetfulness and acquires knowledge. And if thus it becomes perfect, it is saved.” (Apocryphon of John)
Fourth, those without the gnosis – are damned for eternity: “(They will go) to that place where the angels of poverty go they will be taken, the place where there is no repentance. And they will be kept for the day on which those who have blasphemed the spirit will be tortured, and they will be punished with eternal punishment.” (Apocryphon of John)

In “Jesus and the Lost Goddess” (Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy,Three Rivers Press, 2001) the description of the psychic, hylic and pneumatic humans are also mentioned. But rather than making this a literal genetic or race issue, it is described as a level of consciousness or spiritual initiation:(pp. 70-73)

Hylics or ‘materialists”, identify themselves withe the body—or circumference of the circle of self. The Psychics or ‘soulists’, identify with the psyche or soul—the radius of beingness. the Pneumatics, or ‘spiritists’ are aware of themselves as spirit or Consciousness—the center of the circle.”

If we can define the human as a central point of original consciousness with an expanding radius of being and awareness, we have the center point as spirit, central radius as psyche or soul and the outer circumference as body and ego identification.

“In Pagan, Jewish and Christian Gnostic traditions there are two basic stages of initiation which lead initiates progressively through these states of being. Christians called the first or psychic or soul initiation, because it initiates the journey from being a hylic to becoming a psychic. They called the second the pneumatic or ‘spirit’ initiation because it initiates the journey from being a psychic to becoming a pneumatic.
Psychic initiates were taught the exoteric teachings or Other Mysteries of Gnosticism, which were openly available to all those interested in joining a particular Gnostic school. Pneumatic initiates went on to be taught the secret esoteric teachings or Inner Mysteries. Literalist Christianity is the product of psychic initiates, uninitiated into the Inner Mysteries, making a religion out of the Outer Mysteries. This is why the secret pneumatic teachings of Christianity which we are exploring seem so remote from Christianity as it is generally understood today.
The pneumatic teachings were kept a secret because the spiritually immature can easily be so baffled that they dismiss them as incomprehensible nonsense….”

To paraphrase, essentially the process of awakening began with the exploration of soul experience which was all about the psychic initiation process. The essence was to know who you are from the personality standpoint, while developing empathy and good ethics. The pneumatic initiation was about discovering the experiencer or spirit Consciousness that is the ground of all experience. The latter is similar to Buddhist higher level meditative insights where they realize there is no ego self, per se but rather a deeper connectedness to All. The larger Dreaming Self. It is the All experiencing itself through the reflection of individual selves, and the sense of an all embracing love in this Oneness of being. It is a Mystery, and for those who have come to the place of Gnosis realize that they really know nothing, and instead realize this is an unfolding mystery of becoming and beingness.

Carl Jung often believed that the early Gnostics were really psychotherapists, who not only realized “Gnosis” by deep self-exploration, contemplation and compassionate activity, but they helped their spiritual-seeking brothers and sisters to self-discover the same thing.

Hybrids, Bloodlines and Reptilians

Today, we see that there is a huge emphasis on “genetics and bloodlines”, with a definite association with frequency quality of soul and spirit. We also know that there are certain “supernatural gifts” and abilities which are passed only through certain “bloodlines”.This may actually have to do with the blood and bone marrow, (as well as genetics) and was understood by secret societies who followed bloodlines which passed on supernatural powers to their downline, such as children. The blue blood is offered as an example of some blood “pneuma of numen” that can be passed on to immediate descendants: (See: http://newsoftomorrow.org/abductions/visions/alexandre-de-danann-memoire-du-sang-2) Note that this is a google translation from an original French article and references.

“The traditional interpretation of the blue blood is linked, by cons, to the transforming power of the Holy Spirit descending in the blood of those who make themselves worthy to receive it, such as in the traditional initiation, knightly accolade, the anointing, the anointing; but forgetting still not that the Spirit blows where he wills. “(P.60)
This is why members of the same lineage seeking to protect their blood to prevent the dissolution of the “pneuma” of the “numen” linked to it. But it also produces a degeneration, which may have led to the corruption of Zoroastrianism by the Chaldean / Babylonian. The concentration of “pneuma” produces the longest conservation body, particularly the bones, but if the transfer of this force is not completed or is corrupt, then the line is lost. These transfer phenomena explain the sometimes instantaneous passage gifts of a healer to a member of his family.
“We have seen how the relationship between the numen of a lineage and descendants of the latter was maintained for centuries, and it must be said, a little too naturally, by consanguineous marriages, the blood “mixed” (obtained by the union of individuals who are not related to each other) having the effect of forgetting the “blood memory”, which was particularly feared in these lineages.
It is this same quality that condemned to a sort of perpetual slavery descendants of a lineage as “prisoners of their blood” which had only members of their lineage, not as individuals, such as rings of a chain link of prisoners and a past they would have to overcome to overcome individually, the power exercised by the animal soul through the blood. “(P.65)
Such avoided if control is mentioned in the first book of Olga Kharitidi, where a shaman seeks to transfer the force of “egregore” of the line on a person who does not want to.”

See: http://translate.google.fr/translate?sl=fr&tl=en&js=n&prev=_t&hl=fr&ie=UTF-8&eotf=1&u=http%3A%2F%2Fnewsoftomorrow.org%2Fabductions%2Fvisions%2Falexandre-de-danann-memoire-du-sang-2

Also, if the pneuma of numen was weak in a person there were rites to increase this quality, based on ancient Egyptian and Jewish practices:

“If contact with the pneuma of numen becomes weak or broken, a rite can be done to revive it. This is palingenesis. This is done “with the magical job centers of the ancestor, that is to say salts extracted from his bones. The origin of this practice dates back to the dawn of time (…) “
and:

“It is also curious that in Egyptian magic remains perpetuated in Sudan was talking Guenon, we find the phenomenon of transformation of men into animals, especially from an entire population, demonstrating that among other there unquestionably has a hereditary passing of such power through the blood. “(P.92)

With some survivors of ritual abuse histories, MK Ultra, milabs and “starfire women”, they assert that their bloodline families and the beings who have exploited them are both human and non human. This is elaborated on in Elisa E’s books, “Beyond our Life in MK Ultra”, Book One and Two.(See: https://www.amazon.com/Our-Life-Beyond-MKULTRA-Book/dp/1490439684)

In Elisa E’s experience, she has a profound and chilling connection to the “Cain” entity, a non human—yet humanlike—extremely powerful being, who may have been the original Cain from the Bible. This being is present as a powerful bloodline ally and inter-dimensional “handler” as well as rapacious lover and enemy all at the same time. It is still a mystery, yet opens up many questions as to the reality of an actual genetic, racial reality of such hybrid beings interbreeding with humanity in specific bloodlines carrying on ancient occult traditions. In Elisa’s book she goes into detail how she understands and has personally witnessed the “inter-dimensional handling” phenomena in her own experience as well as with people well known in the “alternative whistleblowing and Exopolitics” community.

In Carolyn Hamlett’s testimony of surviving in a Satanic Ritual Abuse bloodline family, she describes the origin and ancestries of the Reptilian race, often associated with the Dragonline family crests. She also is one of the few who explains the origins of the Reptilian race, as being a genetically engineered race created by the Nephilim to be a super warrior race. She says that the Nephilim are hybrids between the original humans and Fallen Angels, and that the Reptilians are a hybrid between Nephilim and some reptilian species. The Reptilians contain some human DNA since the Nephilim are offspring of humans and Watchers and so are compatible. Could the Fallen Angels also be the Archons of the Demiurge as written in ancient Gnostic literature?

There are two good interviews by Carolyn Hamlett with Dan Duval, that go into detail about the Reptilian Replication process, which I believe can explain many anomalies witnessed by those who have been told that they are of some reptilian hybrid bloodline.

See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/military-abduction-milabs-and-reptilians/the-reptilian-replication-process-as-described-by-carolyn-hamlett/

A July 2016 interview goes into more detail on the Replication process from a single reptilian red blood cell that is incorporated into the human ovum before conception.

http://beyondthephysical.blogspot.com/2016/07/the-royal-dragon-bloodline-reptilian.html

In the aforementioned article on Carolyn Hamlett’s experience she talks about a 5th Fire Initiation between two “twin flame” partners in order to bring in a powerful being into our reality, a hybrid birth. (Excerpt taken from above link article on Carolyn Hamlett):

“One of the more revelatory aspects of Carolyn’s discussion on Reptilians was the connection between a higher level powerful dark being, an Arcturian called Rommel. (It is unknown whether this particular cult group and their “dark lords” are mimicking the name of Arcturians or if indeed these Arcturians are essentially playing on the dark side.) This powerful being had to be brought to our 3D reality through a “portal” created via twin flame union sexual ritual.(I will comment on this in a later post)

“It took the energy of a combined twin flame union of two humans, coupled with what Satan’s spiritual hierarchy calls “the 5th fire initiation” to open up the portal where many of Satan’s highest and most powerful were waiting to be able to gain entrance into our 3rd dimensional earth.
They needed humans to open up that portal because Satan does not have the spiritual authority to open that portal. 
Quick explanation: Although Satan and his fallen are powerful, they do not have the “natural born” spiritual authority that humans were created with. It’s just a fact. The human spirit is different than all other created creatures. The human spirit has what I call “the God code”. We have an essence of God the creator Himself as His children.”
EL: This is the real deal, and I believe many “milabs” and even “experiencers of alien encounters” who have had astral visitations are experiencing these unions and are directed by their “milab handlers” and/or ET guides in the astral to participate without full consent and awareness in these kinds of activities. The portal opening seems to occur spontaneously in some cases— as can immediate “bilocation” of the unionized energy bodies of the twin flame couple to another dimensional reality. I have had at least one report of this. It can also happen in the physical, where a portal opens up or is created via a tantric type of soul mate union and ritual. Often times when a portal or other dimensional reality opens up through the higher energies and consciousness of the couple, it’s spontaneous, and not directed by a ritual. And is not EVIL per se. It’s just part of the side effect of the energies created through these kinds of tantric unions.”
It is interesting to note the name of the ritual called a 5th Fire Initiation, must occur between two twin flame humans. It is my guess that the woman conceiving and needed for one of these rituals possibly needs to be a “starfire woman” of a particular bloodline. I do not think that this “starfire bloodline” is in and of itself “evil”. It is something that I believe originated from a good, organic spirit sourced human being, perhaps an androgynous female in very ancient Edenic times. And that this particular bloodline of people—and especially women—has been co opted, exploited and controlled by a powerful occult cabal for nefarious purposes for millennia.

In Michael Tsarion’s article about the “Female Illuminati” (See: http://www.femaleilluminati.com/article-2.html) he states that most of the secret societies such as the Templars, and bloodlines related to the Merovingians, goes back to ancient Egyptian Atonists, and to the “Sisterhood of Death”. He goes to great lengths to show how the secret rites go back to the Cult of Venus, which is also the worship of Lucifer. He mentions how the female Illuminati are implicated in the Holy Blood—Holy Grail legend:

“The Grail was brought from Jerusalem to France by Hugh de Payens who, after allegedly finding it beneath Temple Mount, gave it and other treasures into her keeping. Of course the Grail is simply a clever metaphor for the Female Illuminati. The word grail comes from gradus, meaning “by degrees,” “stages” or “steps.” This alludes to the grades of a Masonic-type society. This is the society headed by Mathilde and many others before and after the era of Chretian de Troyes. A secondary meaning of the word is Sang Rael or “Holy Blood,” again a reference to the Sisterhood. The word gradus was later wrongly rendered cratis meaning basket or container, hence the connection with a cup. Suggestively, on the architecture of the north porch of Chartres Cathedral (dedicated to the female), we see the figure of the Old Testament demigod Melchizedek holding a chalice. Melchizedek is a cryptic reference to Akhenaton and the order descended from his progeny. We see then that the true significance of the so-called Holy Grail is to be primarily understood in terms of a hierarchical secret society, and secondarily as a container of royal female blood. We also see the significance of the Templars as supposed keepers of the “Grail.”

It is my intuition that not all of the individuals who retain these spiritual or supernatural gifts, as detected by specific genetics or soul frequencies are all “evil”. And in fact most of them are relentlessly hunted down by these secret occult groups. And they have been for centuries. What I believe is that there was an original bloodline, or genetic race containing some genuine supernatural qualities (as opposed to the bloodlines which receive psychic powers from entities, fallen angels and demons) which could be passed on via maternal bloodlines and also associated with the “starfire” blood of specific women. And that this bloodline was almost completely co-opted, exploited and controlled by the dark Lords associated with the secret societies noted above by Tsarion.

Which brings me back to at least one point that has been repeatedly brought up by some Dark Side of Cupid love bite experiencers. Why do they keep repeatedly being targeted by vampiric and especially “reptilian hosted” agents who seem to be run by these inter dimensional beings? And of course the biggest question by these people is “what can I do to keep these parasites away from me?” How can I build my life and authentic love relationships with a human being who is benevolently compatible and not like “the other predators?”

I will explore this question in a follow up article on Building on What is Real for the Greater Good.

Links to former Discussion Panels on the Love Bite and Hyperdimensional Interference:

Panel Discussion on “Paranormal Interference in Human Love Relationships” THE LOVE BITE PLUS

Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment Panel Discussion:

http://evelorgen.com/wp/?s=Hyperdimensional+Interference+and+the+Keys+to+Discernment&submit=Search

 

The Black Angel Ladies

This poem came to me regarding a mystery.

The Black Angel Ladies

By Eve Lorgen 6/18/016

They sit together in unabashed apparel.
Donning masks of matronly unwantedness, in this world of reversals.

Quietly they seem, in hushed whisperings,
their black skin and styled hair—shimmering.
They wait with me in calm elegance.
They are not of this world: Beyond happenstance.

Graced with wisdom, they sing to me
The Hymn of the Pearl: My Beloved’s Victory.
They unlock my grief of Eternal Widowhood.
Bearing the same crown; It is all understood.

Our widowhood lies in humanity’s lack
of incorruptible eternal remembrance: We fill in the gap.
We sing, we are sung, oracles of old.
Recognizing those with hearts of gold.

We are ladies in waiting, who hold the Pearl.
Unbethrothed and invisible to the wisdom of this world.

White Wolf Von Atzingen on the Lilith Cult

In May 2016 White Wolf von Atzingen did a revealing radio interview with Joanna Christine Hart. He talked about his recruitment and training experiences in a covert black ops squad, and revealed alot of never-heard-before details of memories involving an ancient Lilith cult. There is alot of dark information in this interview which can be triggering to anyone who is from any form of ritual abuse, MILAB or related histories.

In addition to the radio interview, White Wolf wrote an excellent article on the Lilith Cult and its myriad symbolisms on his own web site:

http://elementmountain.com/den-post/lilith-and-molech-cult-reality/

To add to this article, there are suggested links and some groups set up to help cult survivors for anyone in need:

http://factnet.org/cult-experts

http://factnet.org/support-groups-people

http://www.encourage-cult-survivors.org

http://wellspringretreat.org

http://www.icsahome.com/articles/working-with-women-survivors-of-cults-dahlen-csj-14-1

http://cultinformation.org.uk/article_caring-for-cult-victims.html

A recent written interview with White Wolf on his Martial Arts experience and training can be found here:

http://www.smallcirclesof5animalsjujitsu.com/interviews.html

Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment -Panel Discussion

Our panel discussion on Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment is out now! We decided collectively that the topic of the interdimensional interference issue needed more elaboration from the micro perspective to the macro perspective. Our last panel, “Love Bite Plus” focused on my two books, that deal specifically with the alienlovebite and the Dark Side of Cupid, where some definite form of manipulation was taking place within a love relationship, whether it is physical or merely astral.

We all have had experiences with the hidden aspects of disruption, interference, psychic attacks and other types of hyperdimensional interference (both positive and negative) that extended beyond the love relationship context, from our own individual lives and observation of how this same phenomena occurs on a macro societal and collective scale. It all really boils down to how our own human race and our Soul essence energy has been exploited and preyed upon by parasitical forces which feed upon our “loosh”. These parasitical forces may be perceived in all shapes, sizes and types of beings, and work in and through human beings as well.

Although many ardent truth researchers and experiencers have understood this basic concept of the manipulation of human kind by these “archontic forces”, we may lack the specific keys to discernment, identification of, and application of individual solutions in which to realize a greater degree of sovereignty within this world of apparent “predation”.

As time goes on, more and more reports of interference and outright targeting, and all manner of malevolent attacks are being predated upon many individuals, especially those who have any form of abuse histories, abductions, whistleblowers, ritual abuse, milabs, and high level occult bloodline lineages and/or those with a significant degree of spiritual metaphysical abilities.

A later panel discussion will be done on the reptilian hosting, possession issues of interference.

Some of the Points of Discussion Are:

  • – The macro-perspective/bigger picture of the Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System on a global level and how it ties in with the micro-perspective: hyperdimensional interference on a personal/individual level. Clarification and definition of basic concepts.
  • – Suppression of extra-sensory perception and social/cultural conditioning (starting in childhood) keeps hyperdimensional forces hidden from our awareness.
  • – Hyperdimensional “technologies” used for interference/manipulation: shape-shifting, thought injections, manipulation of perception, etc. They have knowledge of our physiology and psychology and use it against us.
  • – As powerful as negative entities seem, their “achilles heel” is lack of creativity (when it comes to attack/interference) and are actually not as powerful as they like us to believe.
  • – Importance to gain deeper knowledge about this topic and educate oneself for empowerment and protection.
  • – Ancient cultures were very aware of the hidden forces influencing our reality/world. Suppression of Knowledge. Corruption of Science. “Modern” world caught in limited 3D reductionist thinking and view of life/reality. Outer technological progress at cost of developing our inner technology (mind-body split by design}, which cuts us off from our full potential and ability to perceive these forces.
  • – All our unresolved issues within are gateways for hyperdimensional interferences and suggestions that influence our behaviors and actions, leading to addictions, hanging out with the wrong crowd and people that are not good for us, all of which re-enforces the “feeding” loop.
  • – Manipulation of desires and emotions. Entities controlling groups/crowds and feeding off of the “loosh”, including worship/admiration (gurus, priests, celebrities, politicians)
  • – Normalization of pathology in society. The predator gave us its own mind.
  • – Importance of healthy skepticism (Discernment) as opposed to blind belief and extreme skepticism.
  • – Normalization of sexual pathologies. Internet porn, strip clubs as feeding grounds. Hosting/Possession. Sex addiction, compulsions, change of personality. Manipulated sexual desires. Etheric implants.
  • – Interference on internet message boards, forums, social media (Facebook). Important to check your compulsions, triggers, urges, thoughts before posting/reacting.
  • – Disinformation “agents” sent your way. Ego hooks. Fake new “friends”.
  • – People don’t know how much they are influenced and controlled by hyperdimensional forces until they start to wake up, seek truth, gain knowledge and engage in self work (de-programming, de-conditioning).
  • – The end-game goal of their agenda from a macro-perspective is full take-over of our bodies in order to lock us in a frequency prison, priming our bodies for their essence to host in (creating an incarnarnational opportunity). Hence the push for disembodiment, increasing the body-mind split via increased mental activity/distraction through technology as well as poisoning the body via GMOs, EMF radiation, vaccinations, chemtrails, etc., for genetic modification. —> Hybridization.
  • – Disinformation/trap of “positive aliens”supposedly upgrading our DNA, which is actually a “downgrading”. Discernment! Ties into MK Ultra, abductions/contactees (fake screen memories). New Age deception.
  • – Embodiment (full soul integration, connecting to our inner “technology”) is key for protection, awakening and  anchoring higher frequencies, reconnecting to our original genetic blue print.
  • – Humanity is being used as an “interface”. Soul recycling, stuck in incarnation loop and physicality.
  • – Narcissism and Borderline Personality Disorders (as well as Sociopathy and Psychopathy) as major gateways (vehicles) for hyperdimensional hosting/interference. Trap of agreement when getting into reactive behavior; triggered into their “game”.
  • – Importance of boundaries and taking self-responsibility for the hyperdimensional forces (working through others) can only target what resonates with our own wounds and weaknesses (psychologically and emotionally).
  • – Trap of victim-consciousness and blame, which these entities encourage us to react with since that state disempowers us even more.
  • – Via non-reactive zero-point consciousness and especially not getting/feeding into reactionary states of fear and paranoia, we can starve them so they lose interest and move on. i.e. not giving them what they want.
  • – Certain reactions (fear/paranoia) are a from of permission for more interference/attacks because of the frequency match. Keeps increasing because of the feedback-loop.
  • – Divide and conquer/in-fighting in the “truth movement” from a hyperdimensional perspective. Lack of emotional intelligence, embodiment and self-work in many well-meaning activists and conspiracy researchers. “Truthers” can become unconscious disinformation “agents”, especially if there is lack of understanding of the hyperdimensional matrix.
  • – Oftentimes online/public persona is very different than how people are in person. Careful of cult of personality or “celebrity” style personas in the “truth movement” (ties into projection, worship, etc) who feed off of the attention and are caught up in drama/gossip/martyr/savior/victim mindsets, which is what negative hyperdimensional entities want and feed off of, working though them. Unconscious on their part.
  • – Frequency Resonance Vibration and the power of our own minds with regards to shaping our experiences (for better or worse). Our lack of understanding of who truly are and what we are capable of is being used against us. Interferences/attacks don’t happen over night but build up slowly, manipulating our free will choice, resulting in traps of agreement.
  • – Timeline shuffling via thought injections and emotional manipulation, hijacking our minds, which results in negative forces creating reality through us that is in alignment with their agenda. We are way more creative and powerful than them, hence they need us to create through us via free will manipulation.
  • – Silence as a permission for interference and consent/trap of agreement. Be vocal about boundaries and question everything we take as “normal”: media, culture, government.
  • – Government is an archonic creation, literally an “alien” construct and the most basic set-up of the Matrix Control System through which the hyperdimensional overlords work through.  We don’t need government in any shape or form.
  • – Voting is consent to be ruled over (a government body taking over your life), a trap of agreement giving away our power as sovereign individuals, and also a consent to the Matrix Control System based on authoritarianism. It has negative metaphysical repercussions despite any well-meaning intentions, manipulating people’s free will choice to align with the “alien” agenda of complete take-over.
  • – Importance of making conscious choices and using true free will. Most people mistake free will for their mechanical programmed reactions based on social/cultural, unconscious programming and past trauma, i.e. they are not choosing consciously but do as they are programmed to do under the illusion of “free will”.
  • – Hyperdimensional forces need our free will consent/agreement to align with their agenda. Forced choice is not “nutritious” to them and not “quality food”, hence the manipulation of consciousness and mass beliefs (such as the belief in government and many other things people don’t question) is how they get what they want. Manipulated need for authority  —> Stockholm Syndrome.
  • – Sincere Self-work is imperative, deprogramming from cultural/social conditioning. Disillusionment is inevitable in the process of waking up.
  • – Importance of basic  psychological self-work; shadow work. What are your emotional triggers? Importance of boundaries.
  • – Issues in relationships (not related to Love Bite/Dark Side of Cupid) when one person starts to wake up, engages in truth seeking and self-work but the other person isn’t. Trap/danger of trying to make the other person “see” and “wake up”.
  • – Anyone who is not in the process of sincere self-work, seeking truth (and not aware of the hyperdimensional matrix) can become a “trojan horse”, being used by entities to get to the one who is in the process of awakening. Discernment in relationships (not just the romantic kind)

Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdHaPzGC8_o

audio: http://lunahelia.com/RTEVENT/Hyper-Dimensional_Interference_Keys_to_Discernment_5.21.16_audio.mp3

 

Tim Rifat on Mud Shadows, Alien Parasites and Reptilian Consciousness

Recently I viewed an older interview from 1999 , Tim Rifat on the Jeff Rense Show.

The original title is, “Remote Viewing the Reptilian Consciousness”. This is an excellent overview of an understanding of the “alien parasite” model of an invasive, insect-like, Archontic mind parasite that has been predating on humanity for millenia. Tim says that these alien parasites can affect and distort our perception, infect us with negative thoughts, chaos and imbue us with their traits, such as envy, hatred, greed and perversions.

Tim admitted that these mind parasites have influenced every major world religion. They have inorganic dreaming bodies that can take many forms but have insect or wasp-like hive qualities. They can insert their own nymph-like biophysical energy body into our energy body, eating away our own bioenergy bodies, affecting our thoughts, perception of reality and take over our minds, if we allow them. He calls them the Mud Shadows. What many of us perceive as “reptilian hosts” may in fact be nothing more than the same archontic mind parasites that have fully invaded and taken over a human host to carry out its own agenda.

Next Online Support Group Starting Friday, April 8, 2016

Hello,

  • The date for the group was put ahead one week due to a conflict in scheduling.This is a quick reminder that we have several spaces still open for our next block of Anomalous Trauma Support Group sessions, that start on Friday, April 8, at 4pm Eastern time zone.

This will be a block of 6 sessions, every week on Fridays and go for 2 and a half hours. It is on Zoom videoconferencing format, and all you need is audio and preferably a video camera. But this can be attended via telephone or iphone also. Zoom is free to download at www.zoom.us

This group will be facilitated by myself, Eve Lorgen and my colleague Laura Leon.( See: http://www.sovereignkees.com)

The topics of discussion will be geared towards the needs of the group, whatever specific types of experiences they feel the need to explore and talk about. This can include the spectrum of anomalous trauma as previously described on my main page. I want to be clear however, that this group is for those who are functional, not institutionalized, or having any major Axis 1 or 2 personality disorders such as Borderline, Narcissistic, Histrionic, major depression or major alcohol or substance abuse addictions. This is for those who sincerely want to work on personal growth, expand awareness and become more sovereign considering having had histories of anomalous trauma.

The emphasis of this kind of group is on reflective and empathic listening, learning how to develop emotional intelligence and expand personal awareness, exploration of what ones own history is, emotional triggers, patterns of behavior, blind spots, learning about boundaries and what it means to take personal responsibility for ones own healing process and sovereignty.

*This group is NOT for those who want to promote their own belief systems, advertise or network for clients in their own healing professions. It is not for those who cater to promoting “I’m a special ET hybrid contactee” mind control programs or Stockholme syndrome denial systems masked in New Age programming.

There is a nominal fee for the group at $25.00/session, and suggested to be paid in full for the 6 sessions. If this is your first group you may choose to pay the initial $25.00 for the first session, see if you wish to continue with the remaining sessions, then by the day before the next group session, pay for the remaining balance of $125.00 to do the entire block. If this can be done by the Wednesday before the group it allows time to have a space for those on the waiting list to join in on the second session.

How to sign up: Go to my web site under the contact Menu button. Scroll down to sign up for a session and click on the Donation Pay Pal button. Enter the amount you wish to pay, either $25.00 (first trial session) or the full $150.00 for the support group.Enter ATSG for April 1, 2016,  in the message section. You may also go directly to pay pal and enter the same fee amount and message to my email directly at elorgen@gmail.com

This is first come first serve. Payment ensures a spot in the group. It is suggested to make a payment reservation by the Monday before the Friday’s group. All payments are due by the Wednesday day before group session day. This allows time for us to send the zoom links and know who have spots available and for those on the waiting list. This group generally goes every few months, with a few weeks in between each block of group sessions. It is NOT a drop in group, and designed to be a commitment for the entire block. This ensures safety for the group.

Once the session is paid for, a Zoom link will be sent to the participating individuals. It is suggested to let the facilitators know at least three days prior to the group if they will attend and pay before attending. We want to keep this group small at 12 participants, so reserve your spot soon.

In the past several articles and topics have been suggested for reading or for topics of interest, such as:

Compassionate Communication, Reflective Listening and Inner Empathy Process

Interdimensional Interference and Emotional Triggering

Love Bite or Twin Flame, Relationship orchestration or interference issues

Narcissistic Abuse and Recovery

Mind Control, Programming and Abduction/Milab issues

If you have any questions, feel free to email Eve at : elorgen@gmail.com or Laura Leon at laudaleon@gmail.com

Spanish TV Show-Interview on The Love Bite and Dark Side of Cupid

Recently I and several colleagues participated in a Spanish TV show on video to be interviewed by Hiedra Dance of Holisticafm, Sunday Feb. 15., 2016.

This is the Youtube link and description of the show:

Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbH8mOe4xZs&feature=youtu.be
“This is the first program of the saga with Evie Lorgen, Laura Leon Sovereignkees Leon; ; and Luis  Betanzos de Mauleon which was a success. We are grateful for this opportunity yesterday and thanks to my radio host Holisticafm in all their bravery for taking on such an incredible project. In this program we have much to share but have decided to go slowly and gently into the arena of the Love Bite and the Dark Side of Cupid interference.

How much do you want to know the truth when you are in the most agonizing Love relationship ever experienced?

“In the end, we return to the question, just how much do you love truth? Do you really love truth or are you just curious? Do you love it enough to rebuild your understanding to align to a reality that doesn’t fit your current beliefs, and doesn’t feel 120% happy? Do you love truth enough to continue seeking even when it hurts, when it reveals aspects of yourself, or human society, or the universe, that are shocking, complex and disturbing, or humbling, glorious and amazing – or even, when truth is far beyond human mind itself? Just how much do we love truth? It’s a good question to ask ourselves, I think.” ~ Scott Mandelker

Paranormal interference in human love relationships. This mini-series is a comprehensive discussion on the theme of paranormal interference in human love relationships, ‘love bite’ set ups, interference patterns, disruptions of ‘true love’ and the impact of real love being interfered with and co-opted.

This is just the beginning!

This Wednesday I present from my heart Evie Lorgen of ‘The Love Bite’ who has revealed one of the most profound hidden manipulations world wide. Evie Lorgen will be in my program with her special colleagues SovereignKees Laura Leon and Luis Betanzos de Mauleon who together share a wealth of knowledge thanks to Evie’s groundwork breakthrough information.

I will be participating and responding to all your questions on the chat. We will also be discussing how the special offspring such as Indigo’s, Crystal children and the other anomalies of the children born with various anomalies who are being interfered with as well as the real dynamic of how twin flames are being especially targeted. Don’t miss it.

A hug and gratitude to my colleagues, especially to my dear Cristian Hol for his dedication, hard work and lovely countenance yesterday, Sunday February 14th, 2016. The program will air on Wednesday February 15th, 2016 in Spain at 3:00pm.

Luis Betanzos Maudeleon Blog on “The Love Bite” in Spanish: 

http://www.luzplatino.com/#!El-Mordisco-del-Amor/cfml/56ae79f30cf2683289305809