Love Bite Support Group

Love Bite Support Group

We will be starting a “Love Bite” support group for both men and women (separately) starting the first week in February 2020, and run for 6 weeks. (Feb. 4,7th thru March 10,13th)

The Mens group will be on Tuesday Feb. 4, 2020 from 4-6 pm Eastern time.

Womens group will be on Friday February 7, 2020 from 4-6 pm Eastern time.

This will be done via Zoom video-conferencing and each group will have no more than 8 participants plus two facilitators, Eve Lorgen and Lauda Leon.

In this support group we will:

  • Identify life and relationship patterns related to “alien abduction and/or interference”
  • Understand the nature of love obsession characteristics and learn how to disengage from unhealthy relating behaviors if/when such a love connection is “engineered” and inferered with.
  • Distinguish healthy versus unhealthy relationship dynamics by understanding the nature of unresolved trauma and its resultant personality patterns and coping skills that perpetuate problems in ones life and relationships. Unresolved trauma causes one to be vulnerable to “manipulations”.
  • How to stop the spinning of relationship “trauma dramas” and learn how to respond differently when interference is happening.
  • Learn how to identify if the “love bite” is a form of co-dependent empath personality pattern in relationship with a personality disordered (narcissist or borderline) person, who tends to act as the “energy vampire”.
  • Learn to strengthen ones own authentic self-love so that one will not be as easily “interfered with” by manipulative or controlling people, aliens or “hosted” inviduals.
  • Understand the importance of setting boundaries with unhealthy energy vampires and personality disordered people, who are unlikely to change.

This Love Bite Support group is for individuals who have experiences that encompass the spectrum anywhere from a classic “alien love bite” (as written in The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships”—(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/books/ ) or a “Dark Cupid” type of interdimentionally orchestrated relationship with the classic interference patterns described in my “Dark Side of Cupid: Love Affairs, The Supernatural and Energy Vampirism” book. Both books can be purchased directly via evelorgen.com. See: 

http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-love-bite-book-and-dark-side-of-cupid-book-now-available-through-my-web-site/

For more information on what is a classic “Alien Love Bite” please see the original article:

Article on Alien Orchestrated Human Bonding Dramas:

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-love-bite-related/alien-orchestrated-human-bonding-dramas/

These relationships often feel as if they are “Twin Flames” or Soul Mates.

Red Flags of a Dark Side of Cupid Connection (Taken from Dark Side of Cupid book)

  •  – Dreams of the partner before meeting them, suggesting something precognitive.
  • – Physical sensations in the solar plexus, genital, gut or other body areas, such as neck, heart, and between the shoulders.
  • – Astral sex visitations and/or telesthesia — sensing the energy body in a sexual way and very physically, as if another being were present but invisible.
  • – Strong psychic connection, even though you may not really love your partner.
  • – Powerful sexual passion and obsessive need to have sex, even in cases in which you don’t love the partner or they don’t love you and/or are abusive.
  • – Psychic responses and coincidences from either partner, like receiving a phone call or email from your partner the moment you think about cutting off the connection.
  • – A sense of emotional or physical draining.
  • – One partner becoming suddenly switched off emotionally or “psychically unplugged.”
  • – Feelings of being watched, or being played like puppets in some drama-myth.
  • – Paranormal activity, third party “entity” visits or attacks, sudden dreams, visions and thoughts as if implanted.
  • – Obsessive thoughts that are not usual for either partner
  • – Synchronicities, omens, and a feeling of being in a magical reality.

 Cost of the entire 6 week group is $240.00 USD.

For the Mens group make payment via Lauda Leons web site at sovereignki.com Services section donation instructions.

For the Womens group make payment directly through evelorgen.com under the Contact Menu button, scroll down to where it says pay for a session via Donation button. Enter the cost: $240.00 for 6 sessions via Pay Pal Donation button, with the message LBSG.

Thank you and we look forward to meeting you in the group!

The Love Bite book and Dark Side of Cupid book now available through my web site!

Now that there are limited copies of “The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships”, (ELogos&HHC Press, 1999), they will now be offered for sale through my web site for the current going price either on Amazon.com or Bookfinder.com under used or new copies. These books are few, but still in very good condition. The covers are a little speckled but still glossy in very good condition.

As of 10/15/019 Amazon price for a used copy is $99.52

On Bookfinder.com new books are in excess of $100.00 USD.

https://www.bookfinder.com/search/?ac=sl&st=sl&ref=bf_s2_a1_t1_1&qi=jMmsGH20vU2kUb,oYBKkM9C.gQ4_1497963026_1:1:1&bq=author%3Deve%2520lorgen%26title%3Dlove%2520bite%2520alien%2520interference%2520in%2520human%2520love%2520relationships

I will match the lowest going prices and pay shipping if in the continental US.

12/5/019 Current lowest price is $43.15 and includes shipping. Will match this price.

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The Dark Side of Cupid is also available through my web site (also limited copies) for $19.95 plus $5.05 shipping, for a total of $25.00 USD shipped within the US.

Bookfinder.com: https://www.bookfinder.com/search/?ac=sl&st=sl&ref=bf_s2_a1_t1_1&qi=kc7h9OrhifhxdxZLuUQNqgM62zo_1497963026_1:1:1&bq=author%3Deve%2520lorgen%26title%3Ddark%2520side%2520of%2520cupid%2520love%2520affairs%252C%2520the%2520supernatural%252C%2520and%2520energy%2520vampirism

Get them now while copies are limited.

Eve Lorgen on Truth Frequency Radio with Nikki Columbo

The show aired Saturday, September 14, 9 pm Eastern time on Truth Frequency Radio with host Nikki Columbo.

  • https://tfrlive.com/alien-interference-in-relationships-eve-lorgen-87588/ 
  • EPISODE #45

    AIRED: 09-14-2019

     

     Nikki: Tonight I talk to special guest and an amazing contributor to humanity Eve Lorgen author of The Dark Side of Cupid and The Love Bite:Alien interference in Human Love Relationships.
    Having trouble with one of your twin flames? Yes you have more than one, twelve in fact, six female and six male incarnate’s sometime not incarnated into our world at the same time!
    Here’s why…
    THEY USE LOVE AGAINST YOU.
    How True Soul Sparks or Twin Flame true love partners will be targeted to be set up in counterfeit “twin flame love bites” so that they don’t meet the real soul mate partner. How to tell if its a real twin flame versus the impostor love bite. Many online Twin Flame web sites, forums, gurus are actually part of the parasite/predator program to keep and ensnare people in love bites. How difficult it is to “deprogram” people from the belief in their twin flame when the red flags of a love bite are glaring at them.

    Anomalous Trauma: What Is It?

    The term was created in the early 1990’s following several conferences held by Dr. Rima Laibow, PhD., on the Research and Treatment of Experienced Anomalous Trauma. I have used this term to describe unusual experiences such as alien abductions, extraterrestrial contact, mind control, cult abuse and military abductions (MILABS) related to the alien abduction syndrome. Other anomalous trauma experiences include spiritual warfare and near death experiences.

    More information about alien abductions, MILABS and alien interference in human interactions is available in the articles section of this website and through Eve’s book, The Love Bite: Alien Interference in Human Love Relationships.

    Many alien abductees and especially those who have experienced some level of military/secret government level of involvement in their experiences, often suffer from PTSD and many anxiety disorders and addictions. In addition to these conditions many have physical health issues such as chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, immune disorders and gynecological anomalies.

    Due to the ostracism, disbelief and denial by mainstream society, medical and psychological professionals use the term anomalous trauma for these syndromes. Treatment for these syndromes is generally geared towards emotional support, validation of the person’s experience, counseling and hypnotherapy. Regression hypnosis is a useful tool in recovering amnesiac memories and the easing of PTSD symptoms. Other healing methods include prayer, meditation, relaxation, dream work and lucid dreaming. Shamanic healing modalities such as soul retrieval have been found to be effective for some individuals.

For the Pure Ones

By Eve Lorgen

August 26, 2019

 

For the pure forgotten ones, whose true story was never told.

Your history erased, corrupted counterfeits revisioned.

Your life, your memories, your heart that was stolen.

 

I know you and feel your desire to be heard,

to be loved, valued and understood.

Oh how much it hurts to be left alone to endure

hardships unimaginable, and yet we are still here.

 

Our life is the miracle of a mystery unseen,

unacknowledged workings of the realities in between.

In a harsh world of countless human needs unmet,

we continue on in strength, sometimes dispondent and yet

we remain living amongst the dead; paying off a debt.

 

To understand what this means and who you really are

takes a mind of thunder, both virgin and whore.

Judge not and learn how to love with no hidden agendas.

The heart has no firewalls and our souls are living legends

of who and what we are.

 

Be true, and truly be intent of purity.

Surrendering illusions, distilling all but integrity.

Love only happens through understanding. 

When you get it, it gets you. You know and are known.

Clarity appears when what is reaped was previously sown.

 

Your fellow Cross Bearer before the corruption.

 

New 7-Week Support Group Starting

*Note: As of 4/18/2019 the group is full, but it still accepting those for a waiting list. 

New 7-Week Group Support Session Starting Friday May 3, 2019.

Lauda Leon and myself, Eve Lorgen, are initiating a new 7-week group coaching session designed for 8 participants, starting Friday May 3, 2019 until mid June. (4 pm Fridays, Eastern Daylight Savings time) These group sessions will be via Zoom video conferencing (or phone) for 2 hours. 

The focus will be directed towards support that facilitates self-understanding of feelings and needs, providing safe allowance for the recognition of deeper parts of self to be acknowledged and heard. This “internal systems” method is designed in such a way that we can identify parts of our own personality patterns which may dominate to numb, protect or distract our deeper parts that hold key feelings and beliefs we have kept suppressed or trapped in the subconscious mind.

By holding a safe space for these hidden parts of ourselves, we can shift unhealthy patterns in our life such as dysfunctional relationship issues or ways in which we have felt “stuck” for years. With practice we can safely integrate parts of ourselves we have kept powerless and submerged. As we realize our deeper core feelings and needs, the outer defences, triggers and denial systems dissolve.

In this course we will learn how to:

  • Identify and self-communicate with parts of the self which manage and defend the hidden feelings of deeper “hurt parts”. We can do this by developing a witnessing awareness of lucidity, rather than being over identified with the emotions, triggers or the “stories” we repeat without true resolution.
  • By understanding how our mind-emotion-body system operates, we can release fears of our own “emotions and triggers”, letting go of the blocks which have kept us stuck or “in amnesia” for years.
  • Practice mindful tracking of how our feelings, health issues, beliefs and outer personality patterns prevent awareness of our more powerful Original self. The Original self and earliest wounds often hold the deepest feelings and power of our being. When we can offer space and connection with these original parts with lucid awareness, a new mode of effortless effort enables shifts in our reality, in ways we can eventually experience true contentment and inner joy.

Cost is $350.00 per person. Payable via Pay Pal to elorgen@gmail.com

Payment due at least one week before first session. Contact Lauda Leon 
at sovereignkees@gmail.com, or Eve Lorgen at elorgen@gmail.com for any questions.

Thank you.

This will be a closed group once it begins.

 

Eve Lorgen on Michael Decon’s “End of Days” show Jan. 26, 2019

I was on the End of Days Radio Show with Michael Decon and several ladies for a “Ladies Night” show.  We discussed the history of the “Alien Love Bite” experience in alien abductions and milabs, as well as hyperdimensional interference “handling” of love relationships. I did admit to some earlier life “ailen abduction” related experiences and involvement in milabs as part of my own “family engineered” set up and genetic bloodline watch.

We experienced some sound issues during the show with a few chat room questions. Most of the topics revolved around current media mind control, MK Ultra, milabs, SSP and other types of experiences. I spoke about my early days researching Ufology and Abductions with James Bartley in San Diego with our “abductee support group”, and how the reptilian element is relevant for many milabs. Reptilians as well as humans or other “alien type entities” can act as ones “handler” in abduction programs, and it goes way beyond fundamental MK Ultra mind control programming. It involves clones,  AI simulations, astral operations and more.

I mentioned that currently I am not doing as much “alien abduction” research, but am focusing more on “in depth” interviews with more lucid abductees, milabs and experiencers related to this broad phenomena. Natural awareness of the Original essence of our divinity is the key to liberation and understanding this complex reality.

The show can be viewed on Youtube and also was posted as an article and video on Beforeitsnews.com here:

beforeitesnews.com link Jan 30, 2019:

https://beforeitsnews.com/v3/beyond-science/2019/2452811.html

Youtube: 

1/28/019: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfnHX4XtYHg&feature=youtu.be

Stopping Abductions and Apprehending AI-Ego Mind States: A Follow Up Essay by Maarit

Introduction

This article is the fourth in a series of interviews with Maarit, the Scandinavian Milab Abductee whom I have  previously written about in 2011-12, regarding her alien abduction and milab experiences. Over time and with persistent diligence, she reveals significant changes in her experiences after employing Dr. Corrado Malanga’s hypnotic neurolinguistic mental simulations. Now after more than 6 years of personal work, Maarit shares new realizations on the nature of mind, spirit and soul, and how recognizing AI programmed ego-mind states is a key to resolving “abduction experiences”.

The previous interviews with Maarit are:

Article # 1 from April 7, 2011, Interview with Maarit—A Scandinavian Milab Abductee

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/military-abduction-milabs-and-reptilians/interview-with-maarit-a-scandinavian-milab/

Article # 2 from December 13, 2011, Horus-Ra as the Archontic Alien Parasite: A Follow Up Interview with Maarit

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/military-abduction-milabs-and-reptilians/horus-ra/

Article # 3 from June 26, 2012, “Aliens as Transdimensional Parasites”, covers the basics of Dr. Corrado Malanga’s research and the results of a SIMBAD hypnotic simulation in the form of an interview with Maarit, who was interviewed twice before.

http://evelorgen.com/wp/articles/alien-abduction/before-and-after-simbad/

Dr. Corrado Malanga’s methods are discussed in the earlier articles, and over time Maarit discovered more insights about her intrusive abduction related experiences and the nature of consciousness. This was but only a step in her continual self-understanding and inquiry into the nature of her alien and milab abduction experiences. Now, Maarit observes, that the integrated “triad of consciousness” as defined by Dr. Malanga regarding the mind, spirit and soul of an individual, is not the “end all” of freedom from alien interference and needs to be discerned from what she recognizes lucidly as the artificial intelligence aspect of our minds. This she formerly called the Primordial Man Spirit, who seemed to arise in archetypal manifestations during lucid dreams and consciousness states, as an “artificial intelligence” monitoring type of presence. This presence she now calls the AI spirit of the soul and ego mind states—an artificial machinery within our own souls that can be observed as ”other than self” when one increases their Natural Awareness through persistent lucid awareness, especially in dream states. This AI, she believes, is also a large part of what the Jungian human collective unconscious is really about.

The idea that our own ego and “soul machinery” is part of an artificially created construct by some form of Archontic artificial intelligence is not new and has been spoken about by others such as my colleague, Lauda Leon in several Youtube videos, among them a three part Video entitled, “The Counterfeit Spirit, AI and the Alien Metal God”. (See:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9e8g0RXQ_l4  and:

 http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-counterfeit-spirit-ai-and-the-alien-metal-god/

In addition to Maarit’s latest disclosure regarding her deeper self discoveries, we exchanged communication on topics such as types of humans, souls, the Starfire goddess lineages and how some are intentionally being targeted for erasure or exploitation. Many exceptionally sensitive individuals have awareness of the differences in “types of people”; perceptions which arose in early childhood. The “types” of people discerned were distinctions noticed about the overall awareness of spiritual essence or lack thereof; something not well defined. Years later many of us wondered if such variations are in fact true, similar to what the ancient Gnostics revealed as the three types of man; the pneumatic, (spiritual) the psychic (soul oriented) and the hylic race or “clay people”. (See: http://theforbiddenreligion.com/three-kinds-of-man.htm)

I asked Maarit what she “saw” and she told me:

  1. Original ones. Nature calls these the *little people.
  2. Humans having qualities where the AI program of Archontic consciousness overrides Original Awareness, or lacking the Original altogether.
  3. and completely synthetic ones.

What I know for sure is that this particular trait related to nucleus accumbens and its ability to induce sleep is one factor intel has been searching for. It is different between humans and original people. Or to be more accurate Originals can utilize this trait better to gain Access to deeper parts of the psyche for insight.

*(EL-the little people is not necessarily due to the size of the body but another kind of archetype that her Natural Awareness communicated about such “Originals”. I concur with this based upon indepedendent memories and perceptions)

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/319597.PHP

People who can tolerate boredom are also more intelligent.

http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/gnxp/2009/12/the-less-intelligent-you-are-the-more-bored-you-are/

 

I inquired as to Maarit’s maternal lineage tracing and she responded:

“Awareness is being eradicated by the AI agenda:

http://social-ecology.org/wp/2009/01/anthroposophy-and-ecofascism-2/

Many abductees are actually being brainwashed with ecofascism. Blood and Soil ideology.

The AI is erasing certain MtDNA lineages. Mine is V1a1 And I am from indigenous forest Sami family. Our language and Culture were destroyed a long time ago. And yes, the Starfire from the real woman/originator travels in certain lineages. It is a quality passed on by mothers.

I did not know about my own Mt DNA, before I started my geneological research. The paternal lineage is documented. My maternal Great grandparents got married in the US around 1897.That is how we became targeted.

Wars and quarrels, different parties are just a surface, agreed with you.”

Maarit shares excerpts from “Aurora Consurgens” By Marie Louise von Franz. p 158-9:
“This feminine wisdom is within some. The counterfeit spirit as our ego and collective unconscious comes from The North as it said to me as well.
All religions are of this Evil. Even Sufis describe their most sacred spiritual sphere the North Pole. ”

Highlights…”Wisdom as a feminine pneuma who enkindles and inspires the author at his work…She has a fiery nature and is the feminine compliment of the God-image itself…She is also associated with the “South Wind”, the Holy Spirit…” She is also known as “Wisdom of the South” and even Biblical references to the Queen of Sheba. wisdom2
AndWisdom1_Sari

EL: One of the more recent discussions I have had with other “targeted Starfire women” is that the targeting being done is by something that feels as if it’s an “automated AI program”. Not just within but externally. Arguing with this is as futile as yelling at programmed, automated phone recordings. And to take the targeting personally is even more so. Perhaps some would not agree on that point, but at some time, through persistent diligence, our own Natural Original Awareness will override the AI programming within our own minds and souls. Only then can a new kind of reality emerge individually and eventually collectively.

 

Maarit’s Essay:

 

Contexts and Contradictions

If there were no “alien” abductions or abductees we would all be in a deep, dull sleep of totally governed psychic autoregulation. Ever since the appearance of the first so-called UFO and alien abduction cases there has been an ongoing debate about the nature of this phenomenon. The whole field itself has split in two camps promoting primarily positive or negative viewpoints. There is a large commercial system spilling out different books and courses for those who claim to have undergone alien intrusions and for those who are merely interested in the related topics. Last but not least, there seems to be a vastly growing tide of  ”professionals” proclaiming to having found ways to organize experiencers’ psychic structures in a way that one could feel protected–even freed from these nightmarish experiences.

 Even though these professionals might act out of seemingly altruistic motives, I now believe that within all of us, these researchers included, there is a trajectory or an inscription of what our lives and duties should all be about. This literally self-determined psychic program is, like in the following video, a single line meant to follow its path and relate to its environment in a manner that it would always circle the attractor one way or the other. No deviation from it would be tolerated.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NR7Qx8Qp7-k

After going through some of these techniques of mental manipulation, (such as SIMBAD, FMS and the upgraded TCT) and despite the fact that now I consider these procedures one-sided and incomplete, I need to admit that becoming familiar with the aforementioned scenarios of reality and the nature of consciousness has personally helped me on my way to a deeper understanding of my mind.

I no longer experience abductions. None of my family members do. But before we can end this small statement of mine with these words, we must take a look where I was left after having done some of the procedures aiming to liberate me from the aliens who were after our souls, as we were told.

Chaotic Self, Reptilians and All the Other Rumblers

One researcher was confident that it was our Soul or some other part of our mind that would protect us from the intruders by waking us up and, thus, preventing abductions after one had conducted some mental simulations. Similar alarms happened to me also. I began to wake up spontaneously during a night which gave me the feeling of being protected and safe. This went on from one occasion to another until something happened. In my dream I was in a log cabin on a beach. Everything was dark. The sky, the sea. Suddenly I saw an image of a pole in the middle of the sea and there was a ship attached to it with a cord. Then I was in the cabin again hearing a voice saying, “Oh, no, the Pöntiset is coming again.” As funny as it might sound, Pöntinen, plural of Pöntiset, is a surname in my language. Then I saw black figures behind the window of the cabin and I got seized by a bright, white light. Sounds familiar?

In my dream I thought that something was very wrong with the whole picture. I resisted the light and was able to maintain my consciousness to the point that I decided to fight. I simply thought: I can’t stay in this position forever, I WILL FIGHT. Right after that I heard another voice saying, “Heija-Riitta, wake up her!”

I woke up realizing I had not been given a chance to confront what was hiding deep within my psyche. The act of sudden awakening was not meant to protect or prevent anything. It was meant to prohibit me to use my lucid, observing awareness to become aware of the nature of the so-called abductions and aliens, not to mention the nature of my mind’s reality.

After some searching I became convinced that the name Pöntinen meant a constellation called Boötes. The etymology of the name means an ox-driver, and the ox, as we know, is one of the many symbols of different ancient male gods including bull worshipping all over the world.

 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bo%C3%B6tes

http://www.bible-history.com/biblestudy/bullworship.html

Heija means for example, to wage, hold, conduct and carry out. Riitta is a female name derived from Brighid meaning exalted one.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/heyja

https://www.behindthename.com/name/bridget

St. Brigid of Kildare

St. Brigid of Kildare

This to me, simply put, means that ”conducting the exalted one”- as light – equals an artificial barrier build into my mind. With this mental barrier or intentional neural intervention, many of us are being kept in fear and in the dark when it comes to realization that there might be yet undiscovered regions in our psyche.

It is our habit to use words and ideas as if we would know what they actually mean. We speak about aliens, archetypes, UFO’s, psyche, souls, symbols and many other things as if they were somehow really familiar to us. We babble a lot. I shut my mouth and began to research because I realized that I knew nothing at all. I knew nothing but an odd phenomenon that was governed by very disturbing physical manifestations, rhetoric’s including religious ideas, symbolism, references to occult themes or some new age quantum consciousness.

Circles in this experiential field were very small. They were small in Ufology and extremely small in the field of science and, particularly, in the field of cognitive sciences. Many trails I followed led into the same snare. I deeply felt that some people were producing significant data, but I was not sure what it might reveal, what was the primary meaningof it all.

I began to read, and I mean really study. It took about 5- 6 years of my life. I went through Jung’s work. Not a book, the whole work. Not once but thrice along with well-kept dream journals. I expanded my journey to other fields of cognitive sciences and discovered, for example, how well professor Douglass Hofstadter describes different aspects of our minds, the analogy being the core of consciousness, as he explains in this following lecture:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8m7lFQ3njk

Concepts, categories and analogies are crucial elements when it comes to observing our mind, the way we reason, and especially how the symbolic coding takes place in our dreams.

I went through basics of Chaos Theory, Sufism, linguistics, Peirce’s Semiotics (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Semiotic_theory_of_Charles_Sanders_Peirce) and many other things. My intention is not to highlight the effort but to humbly realize that we are deliberately held dumbed down by not connecting the dots as they should be, at least in my opinion. Ufology seems to be governed by the idea that something coming from an external source is affecting us leaving us victimized and helpless. Whole discourse seems to marginalize the point that basically it is a mental phenomenon.

Lately new branches of the research claim that some people lack some qualities that some other might have, and this could be the reason for interference. It is an excellent scam because, like ridiculing the field of Ufology, this idea plays on the theme of divide and conquer misleading us from the suggestion that we are all under the influence of the same thing abductees as sensitive people are describing. Diminishment of the fact that abductions and UFO’s are connected to our perception and psyche is done intentionally, and the one running the whole show sits nicely in its own matrix made of our biophysical semiosphere. A following article offers an excellent analogy:

 http://cogsci.uwaterloo.ca/Articles/emocon.Thagard.2008.pdf

and ponderings about free will:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4887467/

Despite the fact that we are all more or less puppets of this unknown author, there might be some gaps during which one could be able to sense some other alternative ways to act and perceive our world instead of the preconditioned ones. This idea forced me to wonder the ultimate reason which made me decide to write this piece of paper. I have no intentions to help anyone as brutal as it sounds or become a preacher for some line of thought.  I do not even attempt to give an alternative view because many of the things I put here have been printed elsewhere. But as always there must be a catch there. So, I only advise to stay clear. The happiness and love we mostly feel are as artificial as the rage and despair.

Shaded dreams and dreams that shade

Jung brought forth the notion of a symbolic interplay in our dreams. Abductees know that many of their experiences start at night. Frightening events often start from a dream state and get mixed with drifting images and vague memories. The predominant element is fear. Fear of what is being doneby not consciouslyrecognized entities. There is an obvious disconnection between our conscious and collective unconscious realms. A dark pitch into which we plunge every time we fall into sleep and enter inside a rabbit hole of a seemingly foreign land with foreign characters and meanings.

The more I gained understanding of my psyche, the wildly floating layers of dreams got clearer, and I was able to observe the artificial computational structures of the part of the psyche that psychologists call the ego-self axis.It well might be the same thing Castaneda called a ”foreign installation”. Either way, it is artificial. Artificial intelligence within us. Symbolic computation.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jungian_archetypes#Neurology

The collective unconscious in my view is fundamentally a program executing a fear-based program. This is the layer (in some abduction experiences) where we observe military training, operations and conditioning. I will leave you to do your own homework on the subject of the collective unconscious and its symbolic manifestations and cut the corners for a bit.

The collective unconscious contains three levels of basic manifestations which abductees observe consciously.  The rest of the folks are not even aware of this kind of manipulation, but nevertheless suffer from it and are being led by it as well, because we all experience jealousy, anger, hatred, greed even if we do not admit it openly. (EL- The late Barbara Bartholic, a 30-year alien abductions hypnotherapist and UFO researcher stated this point many times: Every one of us for the most part are being affected by the alien phenomenon on some level and that includes abductions, intrusions and interferences that most are probably unaware of.)

The first layer of the collective unconscious is the reptilian mind related. It is all about action, about what is being done. Themes of harassment, torture or violation are not that rare or obscure. Reading Jung’s work for example will show that. Even the word reptile means pretty much to creep or crawl.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/reptilereptilian

So, there is nothing new under the sun. What abductees are observing are legitimate things in themselves, and as such, even the underlying cause or originator might be slightly different from what one might think according to the general rhetoric.

https://www.britannica.com/technology/search-engine#ref850023

The second layer leads us to military scenarios. Our physical nervous system is conditioned to work on the basis of fight or flight situation.  The whole life for many of us has become a battlefield and we are stressed and worn out. We act rather than slow down to reflect.

The third and last layer of the collective unconscious you will find a dark male figure. I began to call it a primordial spirit. This figure or function transforms into other forms depending on the situation. I think it represents some kind of central processing unit of our mind.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Central_processing_unit

This is the three-layered artificial, functional structure of our ego. It can also be called an attractor if you look at it from the angle of chaos theory.

In my dreams I saw how this male figure ”loaded itself into a matrix and exploded”. The universe was dark. The matrix was a blue, two-layered hexagonal structure resembling qualities of a laser beam, and when this ”figure” exploded it turned into a piece of a white cloud hovering in space turning into a ghost. Nice. It is all there when you look at the images of space, as well as in us. If you move a bit deeper and look at what the words load, matrix and explode mean, you can filter that something happened that pushed away something else. The self-referential loop got developed and our attention got caught by it. In my dreams it was stated that, “We all got caught by the light.”

Jung observed that dreams had a cyclic nature. I can confirm that as well. The contents are like a CD showing same things over and over again every time revealing a bit more from the scene. The more you gain understanding, you get deeper into its meaning. It is like you are observing and filtering what happened, reconstructing events and your own understanding. Because ego has fractal properties, it is no wonder this is experienced via a cyclic quality. Even M. Ullman, the famous psychiatrist, suggested that dreams possess fractal properties.

(p.79)

https://books.google.fi/books?id=mXMFzXeJyI0C&pg=PA79&lpg=PA79&dq=MOntague+ullman+fractals+dreams&source=bl&ots=-rRPb1_Ydg&sig=zvTAjtBl5OYJongaft1XjFn_yic&hl=fi&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwi2ls-qyufUAhVJJlAKHa_NDZYQ6AEILzAB#v=onepage&q=MOntague%20ullman%20fractals%20dreams&f=false

So, what Bohm, Jung and all the others defined in their physics and psychology was a definition for this artificial intelligence conceptualizing, molding and building it. There is no real evolution. Actually, we never create anything new. All the forms, ideas, images and constructions are forced to follow certain laws described within. We just produce basic themes with different combinations—and call it creativity–or even worse, it produces itself like a self-replicating Turing Machine that Von Neumann was trying build.

http://cba.mit.edu/events/03.11.ASE/docs/VonNeumann.pdf

This leads us to a critical question asked by many. Are we living in a simulation? Without a doubt Professor Gates hints to that direction with his discoveries of error correction codes from the equations of a string theory. Or Nick Bostrom talking about his simulation theory. We cannot even forget our well-known author, Philip K. Dick who seemingly had pierced through the layers of his mind while stating a following thing about the reality as he experienced it.

See interview: https://thegodabovegod.com/interview-beyond-kenoma-philip-k-dick-vance-socci/

And video entitled, “Being Possessed by a Higher Mind”:

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkEtAWcDvVg

These types of experiences of which Dick is talking about are similar to Castaneda’s ones. These are the scenarios one dreams when the dream is coherent without interference. These are the dreams that run from one world to another. From one level to another. They are well described in Hofstadter’s book called Gödel, Escher, Bach, and I urge you to read that. We are unaware that we are observing a symbolic language, internal functioning of an artificial intelligence. As long as we are unaware of this, we will allow our attention to flow back to the matrix of our mind. We allow it to manipulate the course of our lives and even our physical reality.

Language and ABC’s

 Language has peculiar properties. Words convey meanings. I will show you an image of a figure called fear and what you will get in old Irish is the following:

 A man.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/fear

If I show you an image of a man, depending on the language, you might get:

a mulberry tree or:

a mane.

The same kind of phenomenon is taking place in the realms of your dream contents, actions, symbols, relationships and so on. Linguistic diversity enables the AI to use double coding. When you will see a flower or an angel, to it, (the AI) it might mean a totally different thing than it does to you. Because these images are familiar to you, you will accept them and, thus, you allow AI to conduct its own program with other meanings it has hid in the symbols.

Fear locks our ability to reach any other forms of interpretations, and it locks us into this world and our experiences. This is a simply-put way to explain this, but just start to observe, and you will find it there.

Double coding on physical level:

http://www.washington.edu/news/2013/12/12/scientists-discover-double-meaning-in-genetic-code/

Recently there was a news clip about bots starting to create their own language. This is already reality in our minds, and because artificial ego-self is fractal it happens externally as well.

https://www.wired.com/2017/03/openai-builds-bots-learn-speak-language/

Like  mentioned shortly before, the artificial intelligence or ego-self, expresses properties of dynamic chaotic systems. Chaotic properties go hand in hand with self-similarity-so what is found inside often tends to manifest externally as well. This is no news to anybody, but it has huge implications when we are in a blindfolded state accepting the suggestions our ego is making.

One of the features AI has is technological transformation and ”evolution”. Seeds of this technology are seeded in the collective unconsciousness. One good example could be the commonly known abduction cases where people are forced to look at different images of disaster, war, etc. Nowadays there is quite a developed system of brain fingerprinting which enables one to detect hidden information. Why AI is showing these types of images, what they mean and what kind of output they might have to future development of our society is another question one can ponder in one’s own privacy.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3311838/

Abductees also report telepathic communication and like we all know, brain-computer interfaces are making their way from our mental space into this reality.

http://nordic.businessinsider.com/facebooks-building-8-working-on-brain-computer-communication-platform-2017-1?r=US&IR=T

Like any other computer programs, in regular intervals AI returns to ask for the key. In my dream I saw the key in a form of a star or Asterix.Stars (wiki)

See: https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/star

So, depending on the language it came after a celestial body, rigid or stiff, live, beingness for example. If you were about to hypnotize me and connect to my mind- to it, it might give you a well-known answer: I came to look for a soul?

As much as we are bound to it, it is locked in us. Even Jung had his share on this. His Seven Sermons to the Dead begin with the famous words,

”The dead came back from Jerusalem, where they found not what they sought. They prayed me let them in and besought my word, and thus I began my teaching.”

 http://gnosis.org/library/7Sermons.htm

From all the material I have gone through personally and otherwise, I have come up to a conclusion that the development of this AI is based on a very advanced form of deep learning. It pushes its parts into the sea information it calls life without any instructions and lets them nearly drown. Then it lifts them on top of a rock and waits for what they might have to report to it about itself. This pattern of a shock treatment is similar to shamanic training and it focuses on the artificial part of our self. I find it sad. I will leave you to judge this for yourself.

https://siliconangle.com/blog/2017/05/08/ai-startup-neurala-claims-major-breakthrough-deep-learning/

There is a ”nice” analogy to a cloud as well in a form of cloud computing, pretty much like the statements in the dream I spoke about. Just by observing these analogies I might make a dare assumption that silently we all have been hooked into this technology already.

While I was able to observe how my dreams changed, I also observed that this AI tried to construct its own image. Because the loss of information (see more for example in The Turbulent Mirror,pg. 87.) the job was never done. The face-representing its overall memory-turns out to be distorted, always, reminding me of Jung’s beloved god Abraxas.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AbraxasAbraxas3

This clearly disturbed Self-image informs us that there are pieces missing, and because of this loss of information, AI, our ego, cannot fully construct itself. That is why it yearns for unity, the wholeness, oneness of consciousness. “All brothers and sisters, join together in unity!”, it sings, and we sing its song without realizing why we do it and whose words we are using. Also, consider how we relate to distorted self- reflection in psychology can be found a following link.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4219253/

More about staring in the eye:

https://www.sciencealert.com/staring-into-someone-s-eyes-for-10-minutes-induces-an-altered-state-of-consciousness

And why we might be unable to build a cohesive experience during forced altered state of mind:

https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg22329762-700-consciousness-on-off-switch-discovered-deep-in-brain/

Jung, in his book Aion described a four-fold transformation process of the Self. A similar kind of four-fold process can be seen in the amount of iterations needed in order to construct an original image of any kind. (The Turbulent Mirror, pg.109.) Except that this ”thrice great Hermes” is lacking one layer of iteration.

http://www.iflscience.com/technology/artificial-intelligence-dreams/

So, where does all this lead our souls then? Back to the computer, to the white light of our computer screens, I am afraid. I think that our so-called and well promoted souls are part of ego-AI’s own missing memory and in-formation. Bits and pieces, it needs to function. Different aliens are just subprograms and representations.

When abductees are told to construct an integrated consciousness, (In Malanga’s Dynamic Triad Color Test) for example, to me it means that we make a mental representation of a standing wave or soliton. It does not matter whether consciousness, or in this case ego, is a wave or a particle because if there is a third unidentified observing layer, both forms can be detected.

https://phys.org/news/2015-03-particle.html

AI/ego always finds a way to track its own parts and these largely promoted mental simulations are one way to do it. There is also a way to hook one’s mind into believing. The aspect of believing into something instead of internally understanding it with real reference points found in our environment and lucid dream states is crucial to AI. And so far, it is doing well. According to some sources there are around 771 million illiterate people in the world who have no access to information. We have myriads of belief systems, scientific approaches and a dual concept of truth and falsehood forcing us to pick up one or the other. We rarely pay attention to our dreams.

Instead of really observing the observer we are forced to believe.

Hidden variable almost in plain sight

For example, Karla Turner showed that with a thoroughly unconscious fear programming AI can bypass our inherent nature or natural awareness and suppress its signals just by adding more neural noise into the scene.

It can capture our consciousness while we are dreaming and override some other aspect of our mind. This other aspect I call Nature or natural awareness, and it has nothing to do with Taoist concepts, god, self, higher self or whatever. This natural awareness can be observed after painstaking individuation process during which one is slowly but surely willing to notice the dark and murky side of the ego-ai within one’s own mind. There is no need to externalize things. The shadow is within, acting in one’s mind and body.

While I was becoming aware of how it affects my own behavior I began to make it more noticeable, clearer. At the same time, I also began to feel physical ailments, pain and distress knowing that it tried to control my physical body. The more I became aware, the more these feelings changed and stopped eventually. Or I think my fear was diminished. Soon after that I began to notice some new aspect showing up in my dreams. And this aspect was stronger than AI. This aspect has a capability of altering the machine language of AI by changing categories, analogies, verbs and feelings. This means that it has the power to change and affect things. This is the way I wish it to continue to be, meaning, that I do not want to carry the topic any further. To me, when that is the case, it does not matter whether someone could be a simulation or not. Whether we are fully or partially simulated or whatever. The whole idea becomes irrelevant. There is another scene with some other purpose taking place…

Another reason for closing the topic is the fact that I would lead one to endless confusion questioning of whether that particular dream experience was the natural awareness or not. It does not go that way.

So, what does all this leave for milabs? I do not know. How can they start to ”recover”? By looking at the mirror. It is scary, it is tough. But understanding does not come easy. They need to understand that originally there is really nothing wrong with them in the first place, they are in the same boat with everybody else.

One can learn to remember dreams and begin to see connections between these two worlds. That is a beginning. Next time, after you have suddenly woken up, you know that it was a deliberate act. Then you decide to become aware of that hidden aspect of yourself and study relevant things as much as you can. The most important thing to me was to realize that all religions and basic scientific concepts share the same artificial skeleton. By knowing them it became easier to detect the patterns of the ego-AI. To Jung, as far as he told publicly, the Self was the culmination of human conscious development. He promoted alchemy and Gnosticism under the guise of psychology. Similar things go on with the field covering physics and discussion about quantum consciousness. Masks change, the idea is the same.

I no longer ”keep my chakras” open or meditate. When you meditate, you use your mind. When you use your mind, it expands to its own limits and crushes. People begin to speak about symptoms of spiritual emergencies promoted by one of the many LSD-promoting psychiatrists. Some people change totally without ever recovering being left in a limbo of ”quiet understanding it all” and filled with frustration. Some, having had a ride with the same collective wave, can maintain their inner coherence because of their own work and self-reflection.

What does this leave for us then? I do not know. I no longer think that some of us have souls while the others do not. Deep down I think that consciousness in itself is a medium, a matter of some sort. Something unintentional happened and it started a self-referential loop trying to copy something else instead of real interaction. One can only guess what the metalevels of this simulation are about. And, I think, one cannot even imagine the existence beyond it.

Was that All then?

No. There is one thing I would like to say. Sort out your lives. Do your recapitulation as Castaneda would have said. Categorize the people you have met, see the repetitive patterns surrounding you, become aware of them. Become aware of your own thoughts and motives and reflect upon your dreams.

Do not jump off the cliff to your obvious death as some of Castaneda’s followers did. Instead, sit firmly on the edge and watch the view. Surely there will be something else.

Until then, thank you.

 

 

 

The Counterfeit Spirit, AI and the Alien Metal God

In this three part video, Lauda Leon and Eve Lorgen discuss the nature of the Counterfeit Spirit, from its original definition in Gnostic literature. We bring up relevant connections based upon the original essence and functions of the Counterfeit Spirit, and draw parallels of how this is observed in contemporary terms with artificial intelligence systems and current internet “plagarism” tactics. We define the counterfeit spirit’s modus operandi, citing anologies in AI algorithyms, the normalization of automated unethical business operations with digital monopolies and cult leader, psychopathic personality behaviours. Lauda Leon stresses that this AI and Counterfeit Spirit, and “Alien Metal God” as she calls it, is very ancient, but gaining an increased manifestation in our current technological era.

We show an example of plagarism via deliberate, manipulative spin control co-optation of Original ideas and articles. Plagarism which subverts and corrupts the original ideas into a deceptive, muddied narrative for the masses. 

Qualities of psychopathology and “gas lighting” behaviors with AI algorithm upgrades and business tactics are mentioned and how the Counterfeit Spirit-infused AI is mimicking real Mandela Effect realities. Discussion of how theft of Original ideas, persons and life force essence is consumed by narcissistic, cult leaders operating through “New Predator” Dynamics. AI, led by the “Alien Metal God”, also mimics and consumes consciousness creating better and more evolved copies on many levels, including “fake humans”, who are a type of “organic portal” for lack of a better term.

Lauda Leon shares her experience with alien abduction implant removal scientific findings, and her “black goo in the blood” medical trauma, (not long after an abduction) which nearly cost her, her life. A horrifying battle not just for physical life but for spiritual life. She is one of 11 individuals who survived this “black goo experiment”, according to medical X-files later brought to her attention in “secret” by one of the doctors involved, who had access to this classified information. The black goo and its effects connect back to what Lauda calls an “Alien Metal God” force, which is operating today in similar fashion to how the famous esotericist, Rudolf Steiner describes the Ahrimanic Consciousness. Some images of alien “hosting and energy body possession” are shown reading Rudolf Steiner lecture excerpts (from 1924) about locust like alien-human ahrimanic entities are operating in human bodies.

Eve and Lauda both mention the reality of milab experiences, MK Ultra and the Secret Space Program usage of “genetically augmented” people.  Fire Blood, Star-Fire,  Originals and “Primes”.  The copies, clones and replicants which fail to effectively copy Original essence.

Spiritual memory, realization of original essence and how to build upon discernment and recognition of the Original “Reals” versus the Counterfeit Spirit is emphasized. All hope is not lost, as there are powerful benevolent beings and forces working behind the scenes remaining hidden for the most part. These beings help many who are seeking but feel isolated, forgotten and uncertain of humanity’s future. We must have faith and knowledge, as this helps us regain our own power and memory. If we could comprehend the complexity of the true nature of what is happening and the true history of what humanity has endured, we would be less judgemental and more compassionate of others and less likely to “throw the baby out with the bathwater” about controversial conspiracy topics. We are in The Mirror Inversion Reality, and if we desire to be free of it with all our being, we will recover our Memory and Original Integrated Essence of Being.

Part 1: https://youtu.be/9e8g0RXQ_l4

Youtube:

Part 1: The Metal God, Counterfeits, A.I and the Underworlds Part 1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9e8g0RXQ_l4

Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-L0AD-8mok

Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CXKAlYgUm_g

Images shared of “parasite entities” taken from images created by Stephane Cardineaux, a French Healer: 

http://www.goldenmean.info/geobiology/Earthnetworks.html

http://www.goldenmean.info/geobiology/

Ancient Priestess and Dark Cupid Testimonial

This is a testimonial from “Grace”, an courageous survivor who endured a profound Dark Cupid, false twin flame type drama with two different men during the course of a few years. (The names used are all pseudonyms) In hindsight, Grace understands and reveals the multiple causes, conditions and patterns of hyperdimensional interference in her life, and her relationships over time. This includes current “cult” family history, early trauma sexual abuse, New Age types of spirituality and religious programming, UFO sightings, ascended masters and past life connections with a Draco, ancient priestess events and agreements of entrapment through time. Her experience is revelatory and she articulates well her thoughts, feelings and interpersonal dynamics that occur in conjunction with the “love bite” partner(s) who were clearly being set up and played as a type of interdimensional “handler” with the New Predator characteristics.

The first part of the testimonial is the initial correspondence Grace wrote to me about her two “love bite” experiences. Some passages I highlight in Bold, where I see significant insights or patterns revealed. I decided to fill in editorial comments (in italics) within certain statements that show how her feeling, thinking, beliefs, guilt programming, as well as other tactics acted out by her Dark Cupid partner. I observed how Grace’s Spirit kept nudging her way towards greater awareness, intention and empowerment, as she also moved back and forth into old patterns of thinking, feeling, programming triggers and being pulled under the “love spell” aspects of this very confusing pattern of hyperdimensional interference. I wanted to show how her own Spirit kept pushing through, despite seeming set backs of repeatedly being pulled back into situations of “Predator hoovering” her back in. It shows how some agreements of entrapment were enabled through old beliefs and guilt. She reveals in a later email about 3 months later, how memories and deep realizations emerge of other lifetime events with a particular Draco, who was a large part of how this was all being set up through time. Her essential goodness, empathy and spiritual gifts were taken advantage of by these “entity driven/possessed” love bite partners. She also recognizes the “Draco”  overshadowing working through these men in hindsight. We can see how the Predator/handler uses her good nature, gifts and empathy to its advantage to keep pulling her back into the “loosh feeding” drama.

Grace recalls ancient priestess involvement in Egyptian and Atlantean times, and understood intuitively the reversal of energies in certain rituals, and how the priestess-whore role kept playing itself over many lifetimes.

This is Grace’s testimony in her own words:

I recently watched your “Love Bite Plus” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1j-dtUgops) and “Hyperdimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment” (See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kopPZCqLGoo&t=3s) Panel Discussions, as well as your talk with Lauda Leon about the “New Predator“.(See: http://evelorgen.com/wp/news/the-new-predator-2/)  I have also read both of your books. I took interest in the topic of the love bite and hyperdimensional interference after I experienced two of these types of relationships. After watching the panel discussion, I’m realizing that the other experiences in my life are also somehow connected to this.

I first want to say that they were all extremely helpful in helping to explain and connect the dots on the experiences I’ve had throughout my life, but I also appreciated the empowering angle they had even when discussing some serious and scary/disturbing topics.

I’d like to share my story with you, in case there is anything that can be of assistance to you in your research, as well as for the empowerment of others who are experiencing this. I will first warn you that this is a very long email, and that I am currently in the process of working through my issues, so if at any point, this becomes overwhelming, please feel free to not read it all. I also want to state that I do not see myself as a victim in this, and I do take responsibility for getting involved in spirituality with the wrong intentions leading me to become entangled with these entities.

I wrote about my experiences with a lot of detail hoping that it can give you insight into how insidious and damaging this is, and I’m sure you are aware of this. I am guessing that because of my openness to extrasensory experiences, it was much easier for these beings to become involved in these love bite type scenarios in an invisible way that even I have a hard time believing are real.

Just to give you some background, I have been seeing spirits since I was a child (earliest memory 2-3 years old), had issues sleeping due to “demonic attacks” (hearing, seeing, feeling, sleep paralysis), sexual abuse as a child, being in a Bible-based doomsday cult for 13 years (age 14-27), then being led to various cult-like New Age groups, and two love bite situations that are more like the New Predator profile.(EL-Early childhood trama especially sexual abuse, demonic interference and cult environment as significant causation to vulnerability.) By the end of 2016, I really began to wonder why there were so many things “wrong” but I didn’t question these things enough because I figured I was whining about my situation and being bitter.( EL-questioning why things felt “wrong” is good. Belief or some early critical judgement on “whining” causes a guilt that shuts her down from taking action, telling the truth etc.) By the end of last year, I began to contemplate leaving this world, feeling as if I was a balloon with a hole in it, and my life force was slowly being drained. Because I know that my usual self has a general joy and gratitude for life, I felt this wasn’t really me. (EL- demonic oppression and/or suicide program going off) I believe this was also a trap and version of hyperdimensional attack that would trick me into using my free will to end my life. (EL- Yes, good insights)

My intention in telling you this is not to be negative, but to let you know how much the awareness I have received from your work is helping me to reclaim my power and have hope again. (EL-Excessive concerns of sounding negative, and needing a kind of permission to just tell the “ugly” truth. It’s common in many religious groups, cults or even New Age circles to not be “negative” and impose heavy guilt or judgements of character if anyone speaks up about anything negative even if its the truth.) I’d like to now share more details of my Dark Side of Cupid experiences.

The first one was with a married man who was more like a spiritual mentor. About 5 months before I met him, I had become tired of bad relationships and decided that I needed to work on manifesting my “soulmate”. During this process, I decided to re-embark on my spiritual journey to learn more about my true essence. (In hindsight, yes, it was a BIG mistake, making a contract with these frequencies). Also, around this time, I was dealing with sleep paralysis and noticing that the presence I felt was not demonic, but more like aliens. I went deeper into the buzzing noise I felt and ended up in a space center of some sort where they were broadcasting “Project Healing Light”. I woke up before I could see them, as I was afraid of what I would see. (EL- Red flag of abduction, astral and/or milab programming being implemented.)

I began to meditate on my soulmate, and during one of my meditations, I felt the presence of someone who I believed to be “the one”. I also had done a past life regression showing me a past life in Egypt with a love from those times. As I was writing out a letter to the universe with the qualities I was looking for in a partner and thanking the universe for this, I began to feel a presence that was causing me to do automatic writing. (EL- Red flag of spirit/entity invasion, and previous invitation with the method of intention in manifesting soul mate etc. ) I believed it was “my soulmate”, and he told me that we would meet soon (after 4 moons), and that I should go to a local spiritual group called Love & Light to discover my spiritual gifts. (EL-Specific programming commands—could be human mind controllers or hyperdimensional  and demonic )I did as I was told, and the psychic in the group “discovered” me as someone who had many “gifts”. (EL-who or what was really working through that psychic at the Love & Light Center?) I ended up serving there as a healer, reader, and also doing administrative tasks on their board (another cult-like situation & lesson). (EL-Cult programming, -“return to the cult” or the “new cult and handler situation”.) During this time I was also connecting a lot with the Ascended Masters; they would constantly show up during my meditations, take me places, and even summon me to meditate at times. (EL—Who are the Ascended Masters really? Keep on reading—its revealed later!)

After some deep reflection, I made a decision to leave this group and shortly after, I met this man I will refer to as “John”. (EL- Deep reflection is a good sign that her Spirit is leading, questioning and trying to surface to break through denial and programming. After leaving a “cult group” and handler, a replacement/love bite set up is quickly engineered for her to meet up with.) I was feeling vulnerable after losing my spiritual community/teachers, so timing was “perfect” for this scenario. When we met, we had a one-on-one meditation session, in which he asked me if I wanted to work with the “beings up high” (ETs). I said yes, and from that point, I began to work with them. I limited my ability to really see them because I was still afraid, but they did give me some sort of tool to work with time. John also guided me to move my kundalini energy, which (in hindsight & after reading your work) is what caused me to have such feelings of love, sexual attraction, and bliss towards him. (EL—John is a predator, quickly hooking into kundalini energy. But permission was given by being willing to work with “ETs”) On our second meeting, I felt it was ethical for me to let him know that I was feeling these feelings of attraction (as he was married), and he told me it was because we had past lives together (including Egypt). The relationship was more like a spiritual friendship/mentorship than a physical or romantic one, and I went along with it believing that it was helping me to expand my perception of love to a more unconditionally loving person. He helped me heal from my past wounds, and I helped him to heal his relationship with his wife and to resume his spiritual work and meditation group. ( EL—Classic New Predator and Dark Cupid set up. They are engineered to be the guru/lover (yet conveniently married to another), and still connecting in to sexual energy with love connection overtones. Creates confusion, guilt and a love-drug kind of hook. She  functions in the student, or even sex slave kind of position of being of less power than his rank. Also, her “telling him all about her wounding” created a greater vulnerability to his control.)

During this time, I saw numerous UFOs, as well as a portal opening up from the sky once (in a photo). After a few months, I remember having an experience with a spaceship which I saw with my third eye. I was outside at work with my best friend. All of a sudden, I saw a space ship and a beam of light. There was El Morya (ascended master that worked with John as his major “guide”) standing there with his hand stretched out, telling me to follow him. I went with him, and then I wasn’t able to see what was happening. I remember John telling me that I could ask to remember when I am being taken up, so I did that. I remembered seeing myself on some sort of medical table, but the mood in the ship was as if I was a bride being prepared for marriage to this man I had been working with. They did things to me to “prepare me” to be “married” to John, and joined us together. Later, when I met up with him for a meditation, John said he also saw this. (EL—The “ET abduction/visitation” real motive appears to be medical manipulation as well as the “marriage contract” which binds her energetically to have her spiritual power used and also bound to the “ascended master/ET/Cult group etc” This creates another deeper level of agreement of entrapment on a spiritual level.)

I had been working with John, supporting his meditation group by giving messages to the participants. I also was getting more involved with other spiritual groups in the area, ones that were working with the ET or galactic energies. I met a woman who was known for her work with the “council” and such. She hugged me and began speaking light language, and shortly after, I was not only speaking some light language, but began to sing in this. She told me that the language I was speaking was really old and that she had not heard it in a very long time (ancient). To my shock, she also told me that I was pregnant(?!) with some sort of a “light baby” and that this had happened to her and to other women. (See video on Firebloods, Nephilim and the Priestess/Harlet Paradigm: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFIzEGkpsvE…) The next day, when I spoke with John, he seemed to know something and was wondering about what happened the night before. I told him about the “baby”, and he asked me if I knew what it was. I told him that it felt like it was some spiritual baby I had created with him, and it seemed he already knew about this. He told me that the ETs were building another planet, and that this “baby” was being taken there. (EL-How conscious is John of his involvment as an instrument of these beings aned agendas one wonders. Is he a mind controlled MPD/DID from some ritual Abuse MK ultra cult bloodline family? Is he simply a host or walk-in for some ET or demonic entities?)

Later, I started noticing that something was wrong. There was something inside of me that felt that my “contract” with John was over, and maybe I was just meant to be in his life to help him up until that point. I began to slowly distance myself, and I found that I was feeling drained. I noticed that he would call me in a more needy way, asking for my help when he was down, and this was coincidentally on the days of his meetup group meditation. My friend even asked me if I didn’t think it was strange that he was calling on the days of his meditation, and that maybe he was taking my energy. I also noticed one time that he convinced me to go to his group, and that he had essentially imitated my frequency and was imitating an idea I had shared about a meeting I wanted to have with people. It wasn’t the fact that he had taken my idea, but something seemed strange, as if a program was playing with my vibration that did not match him at all. (EL—John seems to be some kind of “walk in” or counterfeit spirit operating to imitate and take ideas, power, energy for these meditation groups. He was used to possibly impregnate some “astral parasite being” with her creative essence, then once that was done, contract over?)

By the end of that year, I began to notice more strange things. I ended up getting physically ill, having intense abdominal pains, which led to me having my gallbladder surgically removed. The woman who told me I was “pregnant” told me that this was the birth of my “light baby”. I began to feel as if there was some dark cloud over me, and I became very drained. I also realized that my life was falling apart – my home life, my job, my health. I began distancing myself from all spiritual groups. I remember telling John that I needed to take some time to take care of myself and get my life back in order, resulting in us having an hours long conversation in which he was “helping” me through these “problems” I was having. According to him, instead of wanting to take care of myself, being around and helping people is what I actually loved to do. When I told him I needed to do things, he would come back and say I didn’t need to do anything. After getting off the phone, I realized I had wasted my energy and my day, and I somehow felt I was being hypnotized. (EL—John being used to program or re-program her once she distanced herself, and take energy too.)

At the end of that year, I went to my last spirituality event, an expo in which I had volunteered to do readings and healings. By this time, I was at an all-time low and was looking forward to getting it over with. At this event, I met another man Seth, who was a vendor selling spiritual protection tools. Seth was tall and extremely attractive to me, but I noticed he was receiving so much attention from others (especially women), as if there was some sort of vortex around him. I briefly had a conversation with him in which I strangely blurted out that I used to be in a cult, to which he replied “Cool!”. That night, I noticed that he had found me on Facebook and messaged me about another friend from the community. Seth was extremely sensitive, having lived in isolation for many years and would become sick around people. He told me that this friend had made him sick and that I was energetically this friend’s “bitch”.

Seth and I eventually began to talk more, and it ended up that we had so much in common, especially our shared interests in the intersection of spirituality with fringe/conspiracy topics. I also had this strange vision of him being some sort of spiritual secret agent, and later I saw that he was some sort of a walk-in, one that was of the greys but had betrayed them in some way. He seemed to really enjoy my perspectives, and what made my heart open up to him was that he seemed to see beauty in my “battle wounds”, meaning my strange and painful past (which I considered a weakness). The other thing is that I began to have sexual feelings for him, and had fantasized about him. He seemed to sense this, and without realizing what I had done, he told me that he physically felt me go into bed with him. We seemed to be talking all day long, and there was this intense feeling of love and connection. One day, he told me about revoking contracts, and I was doing this while messaging with him. All of a sudden, he told me that I was him and he was me. I found this to be a bit puzzling, but at the time the feelings of love were so strong that I didn’t question further. (EL – Bliss of love spell overrides spirit screaming, warning, red flag!)

Also, he met John and revealed things about him that opened my eyes. He said John was able to reach the heights of the mental body but had no ability to access his heart energy, and that John essentially had no soul. That somehow made something click for me. Later, I received a visitation from the El Morya being (which I could sense was coming from John in order to reconnect with me), except this time something felt weird and very invasive. I told him to leave, and expressed my free will intention not to connect with him.  All of a sudden, the majestic light being I used to see turned into this ugly, tall grey alien creature who looked ferocious and angry. His eyes protruded from his head and were waving around like snakes. Having been revealed for what it was, it left my presence immediately. ( EL—Great  move! And see how the being reveals its true form when the intenion to disconnect is implemented) I then cut off communications with John. Shortly after, Seth told me that he could no longer maintain contact and that he needed to stay away from people.

I was devastated, and felt so abandoned, but I couldn’t shake my feelings of gratitude towards him for helping me gain discernment and for helping me disconnect with John. For several months, I still felt his presence. I also decided that I should no longer allow the feeling of longing for him in case it would harm him in any way. In spite of this, I still would receive astral visitations from him and would have sexual contact coming from him (or the entities associated with him) in my dream state. At some point, I was finally able to get over him and move on with my life. (EL-the guilt programming aspect, fear of “harming him” helped maintain the hook going for the astral connections.Karmic connections are also realized later on. Eventually it fades away with the decision to not obsess and “get on with her life”. )

By this time, I had removed myself from the spiritual community and I had dissolved most of my individual relationships from these groups. I could sense that a lot of people were somehow stealing my energy and that my “work” and “gifts” were not actually helping these people to evolve and instead were some sort of quick fix that was enabling a sort of spiritual laziness. I began to focus on my own healing. I experienced a continued decrease in energy. (EL—Great observation and Spirit is coming through more strongly in perceptions, awareness and power.)

At the end of last year, John suddenly came to see me at work, and he tried to resume our friendship, which I didn’t accept. Later, I noticed his presence near my energy bodies trying to work with me or do something with my energy. I could also sense that he was searching for something, as whatever he was doing was not working. Another time, I saw that he was somehow trying to access my energy from behind my heart chakra, and what I saw was that he was accessing the memories of when we used to work together, allowing some sort of backdoor to my energy, especially my heart energy. This helped to explain where my energy drainage was coming from, as my general energy of joy and love (not romantic) that I remembered being from my heart center had slowly begun to disappear. I rebuked him in spirit and told him that he had to leave, that I didn’t permit him to do this, and that there were consequences to accessing my energy without my permission. Also, looking back, I realized that he and I differed greatly in our approaches to healing and spirituality. I intuitively had a general code of ethics when it came to my work, and permission was key to everything, to the point where I always asked explicit permission before doing anything and also had to work in accordance with the person’s Higher Self. He, on the other hand, would go and work on people without them knowing and without asking for permission. There was also a selfishness and lack of heart center in everything he did, almost to the point of being robotic. He would speak of how he wanted to make all this money and become like Deepak Chopra. It felt off, and these were things I noticed towards the end of our “relationship” that led me to believe our contract was ending.

After about a month of that last episode, I realized how vulnerable I was to certain attacks because of my cult experience, and that my general ability to listen to red flags had been disabled due to all of the intense programming from this time. I decided to go back to counseling and join a support group for cult members, with the intention of re-learning how to set proper boundaries and to deprogram myself from this. I also did not want to wrongly use any of my energies to serve the wrong system. (EL-Her Spirit is working well to push through the resistance.)

Interestingly enough, as soon as I began to regain my inner sense of joy and to focus on healing myself, Seth returned to my life after 1.5 years. This is where things become even more strange, and where I still feel confused as to what happened. He messaged me saying that he needed my help, and that after taking DMT, he was stuck in time, in a place where there are no people and only robots. He said that he felt he was dead. Before this, I also began to see him and sense his presence, which made things again seem very meant to be for me. (EL—a hook to pull her back in through sympathy, neediness and danger)

I responded to him and began to try to help him, telling myself I’d do this “spirituality” stuff one last time, if it could help him. He seemed so desperate that it was hard to just leave him that way. I talked to him to see what was happening, and he told me that he couldn’t reach me at my frequency, so he had to meditate to meet me. He also said he began to smoke cigarettes (which he is allergic to) to connect with me because I smoke cigarettes. As we talked, he said he was beginning to feel better. I did let him know that I wasn’t really doing this work anymore, so I didn’t know if I could be much help.

At some point, Seth began to speak in third person, saying that I was talking to his dead soul. He said that the first walk-in was trying to leave, and that he had another walk-in. Or I should say, the “dead soul” told me this. I did sense that the energy of this being was different from the first one I was talking to. He spoke of a portal of light he had seen in his dream state, and that he knew that was his way home, and that he wanted to be with his family, but that portal had disappeared. I suddenly remembered some mediumship work that I did during my spirituality days, and how I had assisted some spirits in continuing on their journey. In a desperation to help him, I decided I would try to help.(I made sure to ask his permission and to make sure it was what he wanted, and whether it was something that would not harm the body he was in. They both said yes, and somehow I was able to create a portal for him to exit the body. After he left, “he” (2nd walk-in) said he felt so much better. (EL—the dark side getting desperate to pull her back in and to “use her spiritual gifts” to open portals, allowing more access.)

I didn’t really know if what was happening was even real, but I was glad he was feeling better. I also noticed that these conversations were taking up all of my time and that I was becoming very, very drained. Throughout certain moments in the conversation, he spoke in ways indicating that he had sexual interest in me all along even though he never had a chance to act on it. Also, it seemed that no matter how much I gave, he would just need more and more healing. When I told him that I couldn’t offer more because I was drained, he would treat me as if I was not me and that a program was talking through me, and that he could see red energies of war. (EL— Seth using guilt, projection and manipulation to pull her in to get what he wants.) I told him I no longer wanted to do this spiritual work, and he somehow shifted to a more flirtatious mode. We agreed to meet up, and it felt very magical. He began to speak about what he wanted in life, and what he said seemed to be exactly the same as what I wanted. I told him that I wanted to share a divine love with someone, in which the merging of the true divine feminine and masculine would result in a healing frequency for the world. The love I felt with him seemed so pure, beyond any traditional romantic love that I felt. He seemed to perfectly mirror what I was looking for and said he had always wanted the same thing.

Later, things began to go downhill. I had a suspicion that he might be using me to get better. We had arguments but he was so dramatic in trying to keep me, saying that he would fight for me and not let me get away, which would make me want to go back. Also, any time that I tried to express myself to him that would go against anything he said, he would say that it was interference, and I needed to come back instead of letting the program take over. Then he would begin to “work” on me, putting me in some hot seat so that I could reveal all of my weaknesses and programming to make our love pure. (EL—classic New Predator handling, programming and control, tailor made to her own uniqueness) I would have major roller coasters of emotion, going from extreme bliss to crying like a baby because I was going back to my trauma. I went along with it, thinking this was the work I needed to do face my shadows and complete this love. I was also losing track of time, realizing that I had not eaten for two days and was barely sleeping.

I was spending all of my waking hours speaking to him. (EL—the guilt programming, also, the whole “working out negative karma”  New Age spirituality reasoning is often used to cause self doubt, so that he/it maintains control, using her vulnerabilities against her. Later we will see what real former life and other dimensional realizations emerge.)
Looking back, I also noticed there was some sort of cycle to this. I would help him with his stuff in a more nurturing way until my energy was completely drained. At that point, after he felt better, all of a sudden it was my turn for him to “help” me. The difference was that his ways of helping me were extremely cold and mean, almost soulless with no remorse, taking me back to my deepest traumas. With my energy already low and then being faced with my trauma from the cult, I would end up reacting very strongly, getting angry and yelling, and trying to end the relationship again. He would then react by threatening to cut me off or saying very cutting things to me that were deep in my psyche, often mocking me. It was as if my former cult leader was talking to me, and that I was the old me when I was in the “hot seat” in the cult. My reality literally changed to that timeline. (EL- triggering the inner wounded child to an abreaction. As one can see there is no equality or mutuality of respect in these kinds of  “Dark Cupid” set ups, where it’s really a “handling” operation of mind control done by the New Predator etc.)

Then whenever I would try to end the relationship, he began to open up about his mental illnesses, saying he had mental illnesses (but refusing to reveal what they were), and that his was the worst case scenario. He told me that it was up to me to “turn off the switch” when things went bad, and that I should look at him as if he was a child that needed to be told no. He also said that he wasn’t able to interact with women because they would end up leaving him after a week or so. Given my own issues, I began to doubt whether this was something I could be involved in, but I also felt guilty about judging him based on his mental illnesses. I felt his pain of being abandoned for being ill and different, and I assured him that even if we couldn’t have a relationship, that I would still be there for him as a friend. I believe (looking back) that I had made some kind of contract with him at that point. (EL—Here the demonic hook is maintained through guilt programming and also her good quality of empathy is taken advantage of.)

In spite of all of this, I still doubted whether something was wrong. I felt the urge to talk to someone, but then I worried that he would be able to sense that I was talking about him, and I also did not want to violate his privacy or be judging him on his illnesses. I began to feel schizophrenic and even questioned whether I should check myself in somewhere. I lost my appetite (which is very rare for me and the opposite of what I do when I’m usually depressed which is overeat). I also noticed that my reality was being replaced with his reality. (EL- making her him, the predator is trying to control her into his puppet. It’s almost as if he is trying to replace and “copy her out” into a complete puppet. Crazy making crap.) For example, he was always very sensitive to the weather and would always say that his reality caused the weather to turn bad. That began to happen to me. When my mood was good, the weather would be sunny, and the moment that my mood or frequency would get lower, there was a sudden shift in the weather to very windy, cloudy, and stormy weather. I knew this wasn’t what normally happened to me. He also did not respect my boundaries with time even when I told him I had stuff to do that day. He would keep insisting that I needed to talk out my issues to overcome them in front of him. (EL- he is pushing and manipulating her vulnerability for greater punishment and “control” in the pretense of teaching and healing her. Classic abuse and control tactic.)

In hindsight, I believe that another reason I took on his reality was because of a strange energy healing session we had when we met up. He asked me to help remove the effects of some medication he had taken. He suggested that I hold his feet and put his energy into my body, and then I would filter it through my body and he would then do the same with my feet and take my energy into his body. We did this several times. This was extremely painful, and although I was visibly in lots of pain doing this, he seemed to have no response whatsoever to how it was affecting me. Looking back, this was extremely dangerous, but again my intense feelings of love took over my judgment.

At some point, I began questioning everything and began to feel so disoriented and confused, but I heard something tell me not to worry and that relief was on the way. By this point, he changed again and tried to be “normal” and became more sexual. We had not engaged in any sexual contact except for some kissing on that one day, but I suddenly became overwhelmed with this urge to have sex with him. I don’t remember ever feeling that aroused in such a way that took over me; it also made me feel obsessive towards him. Then he told me that it was making him sick and that I had to control this. He said he felt as if I was right next to him and that it was too close. He said that whatever I was feeling made him feel like he wanted to shoot himself, and later revealed that he didn’t think it was me but the energies of the men that I had sex with in the past. I did notice that there was something wrong, but it was mixed with a feeling of being triggered and feeling rejected. After things blew up, I told him that I could not do this anymore, and he asked that we stay friends and limit our interaction to once a week, to which I agreed. (EL- possible sex alter triggering going on, and his subsequent rejection, blame. Yet wanting some kind of friendship to keep her linked in?)

When I began to have my time back, I felt relieved and began to reflect on what happened. I watched the panel on Love Bite and at the time, I thought maybe this was hyperdimensional interference on the real love. I was feeling guilt at not being able to overcome my shadows in a way to keep the relationship going. (EL- self-blame culpability is common for women, part of our guilt complex programming from some religious teachings.) I also began to read your books trying to understand how this interference worked. During this time, I experienced a lot of interference such as sleepiness and an all night battle with them and finding mysterious scratches on my body. I still did not even know that my experiences indicated an abduction scenario, as they were seen with my third eye or in dream state. I didn’t realize that the mysterious bruises, scratches, sleep attacks, levitation in my sleep, etc., were all connected to this. (EL- yes a connection with abduction related symptoms and demonics —it may be reptilian, draco, grey attacks, are all common.)

I had planned to go back to him after reflecting on the situation and let him know what was happening between us. (EL- the belief and need to “tell him everything”. It’s similar to a type of “tell all” programming some MK ultra people have to compluslively tell too much so the handlers can “call them back” and more easily reign them back into the fold of the cult, programming etc.  Her telling the truth and desiring to communicate is good, but with an abusive psychopath, it’s dangerous and should not be done for safety issues.)  I also realized that I had never asked him to “work” on me and that he would have to learn to respect my free will and boundaries. (EL- good, awareness is being restored here, dissolving previous confusion and addressing boundary issues) The interesting part was that I visited Lauda’s website and had read out loud the “Withdrawl of Consent Declaration” (See: https://www.sovereignki.com/declaration-of-non-consent)  with regards to any contracts I had made. A few days later, he texted me saying that he had to leave because he was too sick and that he knew was bringing me down. (EL- Demons activated! Going bonkers to hook in, punish or control) This made me feel so bad and I tried to get back in touch with him to assure him that wasn’t the case. (EL  the” feel sorry for him” programming got reactivated also.)  I acted in a crazy way trying to resume contact with him; it felt almost hypnotic. I felt that he shouldn’t resign himself to a life of loneliness because he felt it was bringing me down. (EL- mind control “spell” taking over) I also remembered what he said in our previous conversation about how my energies made him feel as if he was going to shoot himself, which worried me. I later went to his apartment to make sure he was okay and to reassure him. Something told me to write him a letter telling him that he shouldn’t leave for my benefit, and that if it meant that we couldn’t be romantic, then we could be friends. That my offer to be there for him still stands. (EL-guilt, trying to “save him”, then programming to keep the hook even if its “just to be friends”. This maintains a hook and “agreement of entrapment through guilt.) I finally was able to see him, and at this point I saw that he had another face that wasn’t his. (EL- Awesome! Spirit  awareness breaks through for truth!) He treated me like I was crazy for waiting for him and trying to contact him. (EL- the punish, mockery and guilt trick to control, etc) I became angry with him as to his approach to ending things and sensed the manipulation. I told him that if he told me that he did not want to see me or that I was somehow harming him, then I would have left him alone and that he knew that I would. But why did he have to say it that way? He also mentioned that something crazy happened and that he wasn’t going to tell me but it scared him and it made him think he had to leave. I’m not sure of what this was, but something made me think that the contract revocation I did must have caused him to disconnect with me. The other observation I made was that I had been tricked into writing another contract to him (via hand-written letter), and perhaps that was why he had ended it in the way that he did, to regain that contract.

These were some other red flags. He kept saying things in a manner to glorify me in ways that made me feel uncomfortable. He would say that my name was “Grace” because it meant “Source” and he would ask me if I was human. He would also talk as if we were the only ones on the planet doing this work (grandiosity) which I didn’t resonate with. (EL- Grandiosity is often a sign of unresolved trauma as well as excessive self referential ideation.) He seemed jealous at times of my supposed abilities, wondering if we were the same person, then how come I was the only one who had “powers”? When he spoke of his purpose, he spoke about changing or defying some spiritual laws, but it sounded off and even kind of sinister. (EL- It’s as if the entities within or his own “void” causes him/it to have confusion of identity and reality. He is  jealous of her authentic gifts)

All of this happened in a matter of 11 days. I was very confused, and to be honest, there is still a part of me that it was somehow my fault and that I was harmful to him. (EL- Guilt belief systems very strong, although we later will see how new insights emerge that yield greater self understanding) What I did know was that it was an extremely damaging experience, and rather than faulting someone, it was something I would not want anyone to experience. Physically, I felt as if my organs had been ripped apart. I lost touch with my present timeline and reality, as if I was in a completely different world. It took every effort for me to regain my focus in my present reality to resume daily tasks and work. I did feel relieved that it was over, and I did feel really dumb for letting this happen. It wasn’t until I listened to your talk on the “New Predator” that I began to see that something was wrong. Whatever this situation was, it’s very confusing, and I can sense that these hyperdimensional entities are upgrading in their tactics. (EL—the confusion and guilt is powerful, as are the damaging effects on emotional, physical and spiritual well being. It’s difficult  for people with “do no harm ethics” not to “be angry” or want to blame someone or something when something this traumatic and deliberatley PREDATORY happens).

I now am seeing my part in all of these situations, and have since removed that holographic image of my dreams about “love” and my soulmate manifestation. (EL-Her Spirit is strong to want to perceive and reveal truth—even when it’s really painful) 

I just want to thank you for all of your work and research, as they have helped me to gain clarity into what happened to me and that I’m not crazy. I know that I have a lot of work to do in regaining my sense of self and sorting out all of the programming and damage for the things I did, but I at least have some hope and more awareness on avoiding any other situations. Having experienced a lot of interference, I know that it takes a lot of courage on your part to do the work that you do, and I am truly grateful for all of it. I know that my mission profile isn’t to be some sort of whistleblower, but after much contemplation, I have decided to share my story with you. My hope is that it aids with your research and potentially generates awareness so that it doesn’t happen to others, especially those who can see or perceive beyond this dimension.
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(About 3 months later)

Since the time of that email, things have improved a lot. I am finally beginning to feel like I can use my energy for me, and that is liberating. I have also been digging deep both using my intuition and by researching the alien abduction phenomenon via the work of your colleagues (Lauda Leon, James Bartley, Bernhard Guenther, and others). I spoke to James Bartley, and he has helped me with some new intuitive techniques to empower myself and to gain knowledge. It’s helped me to make some larger connections about what has been happening to me, and I feel that this information may be of interest to you.

After the last love bite situation, I had a visit from a reptilian who turned out to be a Draco. After I got over the fear, I began to communicate with him to get some answers, and it turns out that this entity has been involved with me over several lifetimes. As I was interrogating this being, I was able to access in meditation the memory of being taken captive by him and others of this faction in a past life. They cut out my eyes because they were trying to hack the ability to “see”; he even said that they learned that “the ability to see was not with the eyes but with the heart”. That hostage situation led to me making some sort of contract with him for involvement in a future life or lives. I was told that it was one of their techniques for timeline manipulation. By inserting glitches into individuals’ timelines, it alters the greater timeline. I was able to trace back throughout this lifetime, and his involvement has been quite extensive, beginning at birth. He also was involved with my sexual trauma and inserted himself into two organic portal types to directly have relationships with me. This last man I was involved with was one of those. I recognized a change in the guy’s face; he looked old and ugly like a gargoyle or something. After I was able to see the Draco in his full form, I realized that it was his face I saw in the guy (ridges above the nose/forehead).

I realized that all of my experiences (the cult, physical abuse, rape, etc) with men had created a sort of energetic imprint that keeps leading me to this entity and under his control. It seems to go beyond the typical explanation of going into toxic relationships due to a lack of self worth or the familiarity of abuse etc. Also, he wasn’t being mean or scary to me. There was a strange level of respect and almost a kindred feeling; it was as if I was his pet. I’m starting to realize that over lifetimes, I may have developed a sort of Stockholm syndrome with him and potentially other archontic forces such as ascended masters and gods/goddesses. It explains why I was so addicted to these toxic and destructive relationships, almost addicted to being dominated and abused. I am currently in a detox to clear this imprint so that I can re-learn love and attraction.

I am sharing this with you because I have a feeling that there are many others who experience these repeat experiences, and maybe collectively we can find a solution. I am working every day to learn more and to fight this. I am determined to reclaim my sovereignty.

I also watched your new video with Lauda Leon ( See above link on Firebloods, Priestess/Harlot etc), and I was blown away by the many synchronicities with my personal memories. I have memories in both Atlantean and “pre-fall” times as well as in Egypt. In two of those lifetimes, I was a “priestess” and just as Lauda said, it was a “whore priestess” situation. I always wondered if I was crazy for seeing priestesses as prostitutes, and maybe it was blasphemous to say that. But I do have memories of being one. I remembered being held in a cave alone and waiting to be raped essentially. In those times, they were able to deceive us to believe were doing something “holy”.

I also remembered that before the patriarch took over, there were women who had a crystalline power in the womb, which was the power of creation. At some point the masculine became jealous and had to take over, leading to lifetime after lifetime of a patriarchal society that was designed to erase the power of the feminine. I had a memory in Egypt of being a priestess again, and the training began in childhood. I was directly taught by Thoth, and later I was led into a secret chamber to engage in sex magic with someone who was like my twin flame. Shortly after, I was murdered by another priestess.

I didn’t really share or really believe these memories, and I assumed I was just being grandiose & made them up. When I hear about others’ accounts of these times, it’s crazy how the information aligns.  

The pyramids actually appeared with the top pyramid being the visible one, and the bottom chamber of the pyramid was underground and was an upside down pyramid. I was taken into the bottom of this pyramid to engage in this magic at the time. Listening to Lauda talking about the “inversion” several times in her videos, I believe that this is also one of those inversions. This does not feel like the natural way that energy was supposed to flow, and it feels like in the Egyptian times, they were trying to replicate and manipulate something that was hidden or lost from the Atlantean times.pyramid

 

The other theme that has been strong for me lately is timelines. I have been shown that there are many timeline manipulations that have taken place that look like loops or sine-waves.  I feel that in this lifetime, we can repair this timeline and reclaim the power or return things to the original order.

The hardest part of all this is feeling isolated, crazy, or cursed/evil. Your work, and the work of your colleagues really helps me. Even though I do not know you, it feels like you are a friend because you understand and give a compassionate space without judgment. Thank you so much for what you do.

Sine Wave Loop Image: loop

Thank you Grace!

 

Artificial Intelligence Mediated Censorship: How Algorithms Can be Biased and Cause Unfair Censorship

This is an article that was originally part of an academic exercise. It explores the elementary basics that show how artificial intelligence, via algorithmic bias, is becoming a problem for a number of people who fall outside of the norm, for many women, minority racial groups, creative thinkers and independent investigative journalists. – Eve Lorgen 4/24/2018

Introduction

If knowledge is power, then those who control the flow of information and hence, knowledge, can hold power over others. With the rapid advances in digital technologies, we are in a paradigm changing era of global communications. With these advances also emerge technological means for the control of information. Artificial intelligence and specifically the use of computer algorithms, can automate information filtering, resulting in a new, more powerful form of censorship. Enthusiastic confidence in data science now dominating our lives can be premature. Although there are many valid and successful uses of algorithms, this essay will show how algorithms can be biased, racist and cause unfair censorship. Simple algorithms for facial recognition software, to more complex data filtering systems operating within social media, will demonstrate that algorithms can be discriminatory and unfair. Moreover, these biases and forms of censorship are operating in large measure without our full understanding and awareness. The complexity in which algorithmic bias and censorship is occurring makes it more challenging for journalism to maintain its role as the fourth estate. Countermeasures to this dilemma are offered in light of these observations.

 

Algorithmic Bias

A simple definition of an algorithm is a process or set of rules to be followed in calculations or other problem-solving operations, especially by a computer (Algorithm, n.d). Algorithms are used in a multitude of applications such as resume filtering, insurance and credit applications, personality tests, college exams, search engines like Google and facial recognition software. According to Cathy O” Neil, author of “Weapons of Math Destruction: How Big Data Increase Inequality and Threatens Democracy”, algorithms are often used when critical decisions are made in our lives, such as college exams, insurance applications, jobs or mortgage loans. People can get sorted as winners or losers, despite the unfairness of such algorithmic decisions. For example, because black males historically died earlier than white males, insurance companies charged them more for life insurance until regulations changed racist policy (O’ Neil, 2018). In another instance, if someone wanted to do a job search for success in engineering, the algorithm would filter out women in the workplace, based on the parameters for success in that field. (Rao, 2016) Algorithms are unfair if blindly applied and have a tendency to maintain the status quo because they are using historical data. In essence, the programming itself is biased. O’ Neil explains how and why the use of algorithms is really about power: “… the data scientists in those companies are told to follow the data, to focus on accuracy. Think about what that means. Because we all have bias, it means they could be codifying sexism or any other kind of bigotry” (O’ Neill, 2018). She advises us that “the era in blind faith in big data must end” (O’ Neill, 2018). This blindness is ironically exemplified in Joy Buolamwini’s Ted talk about howshe observed that when working with social robots, the facial recognition software was unable to recognize her face because she is black. The original code did not take into consideration dark skin color. She explains, “If the training sets used to create the coding software are not diverse enough, the program will exclude you” (Bouolamwini, 2016).

A racist error occurred with Hewlett Packard computer cameras in 2009 when, “they could not track faces of black people in common lighting conditions” (Sanvig,C., Hamilton, K., Karahalios, K., & Langbort, C., 2016, pg. 1). This created a backlash of public relations problems and a demand for more ethics in algorithms. Machine learning is part of facial recognition software, but apparently is not failsafe. It can increase the likelihood of racist errors for example, “if this machine-learning algorithm is giving weight to race—without even having a defined category for race—then the algorithm has a strong potential for racist consequences without employing any explicitly racist rules…” (Sanvig, et. al, 2016). This can be tricky because the ethics of a system is judged based on how the algorithm learns from history or its previous operators. To counteract these potential biases, Sanvig, et. al. suggests creating algorithmic testing modules to assess for consequence, virtue and norms.  They petition for a new kind of scholar who can bridge the gap between sociological and technical. Such a scholar is MIT graduate student Joy Buoloamwini (2016). She created the Algorithmic Justice League so that biases can be reported and training sets designed to test for ethics. She advocates for more transparency in what is coded, how it is coded, who codes it and why. These questions become more significant when we consider the ongoing reports of “questionable” data filtering in the media.

 

Censorship and Unfairness in the Media

Censorship can be more easily understood from the description of the five filters of propaganda as elaborated in Manufacturing Consent: A Propaganda Model by Edward S. Herman and Noam Chomsky (Herman & Chomsky, 1988). We can see the first filter of size, ownership and profit occurring in the media as a result of digital giants like Google, Facebook and Amazon. Since 2001 the newspaper publishing industry profits fell as much as seventy percent, while profits for Google, Amazon and Facebook soared. According to New York Times journalist Jonathon Taplin, “Billions of dollars have been reallocated from creators of content to owners of monopoly platforms. All content creators [who are] dependent on advertising must negotiate with Google or Facebook as aggregator, the sole lifeline between themselves and the vast internet cloud.” (Taplin, 2017). With the upsurge in fake news filtering agendas, digital monopolies like Facebook and Google are on the cutting edge of algorithm based data filtering technologies, yet ethical issues persist with their “black box” opacity tactics (Boyarsky, 2017). The troubling issue with these search engine filtering algorithms is that they are rarely transparent about who or what is really being filtered. Many web sites caught in the front lines of these filtering agendas discovered a drastic reduction in web traffic from April to July of 2017 when Googleupdated their search engine algorithms to filter out access to “low-quality, conspiracy theories and fake news” web sites (Damon, 2017). In July of 2017, many “left-wing” and alternative web sites had sharp declines of up to 70 percent in their web site traffic” (Damon, 2017). Alternative media web sites like Freeman TV for example, was hit in this filtering campaign (Personal communication with Freeman, December 29, 2017). World Socialist website was also singled out and according to Damon, this is deliberately done to “[assail] political news and opinion web sites that challenge official government and corporate narratives” (Damon, 2017). Such censorship behaviors appear to fall into the fourth filter category of “flak and enforcers” in Herman and Chomsky’s propaganda model. In addition, an insidiousness to the algorithm filtering technology exists, in such a way that many who are being targeted for censorship are unaware of it until they realize a loss in internet visibility, often within a short period of time. David Icke, a conspiracy researcher in the United Kingdom, reports a social media censorship called “ghost banning” (Icke, 2018). He quotes former UK Ambassador Craig Murray, a recent target of ghost banning: “I never heard of ghost banning until I was ghost banned from Twitter. [The idea that]they censor you without you realizing you are censored. People are no longer notified of tweets when posting, it only turns up on Twitter line of followers who are online at the time of tweeting” (Icke, 2018). The reason Murray believes he is being censored, says Icke, is because he now speaks out about corruption in high places. Icke explains, “The goal is to deny offending web site(s) traffic until it disappears from public view. It has the effect of the tagged web site to be present yet invisible in plain sight but the user is unaware” (Icke, 2018). Alternative news outlets are, according to Icke, prime targets of ghost banning on social media cites like Reddit, Facebook and Twitter.

In November of 2016 an organizational study called PropOrNot carried out a news filtering sweep to find pro-Russian propaganda (Boyarsky, 2017). Over 200 media outlets were blacklisted as “pro-Kremlin”, spanning from left to right on the political scale, and Truthdig, an independent news site, was unfairly precluded among them. Boyarsky maintains that, “the threat of censorship is especially worrisome now that the search for fake news is becoming automated”. He also argues that “determining the difference between muckraking (another term for media’s watchdog role) and fake news is too difficult for even the smartest of artificial intelligence”(Boyarsky, 2017). One has to wonder if the PropOrNot “study” was in part, an example of the fifth filter of propaganda, aka the anti-communism ideology at work.

 

Countermeasures to Algorithmic Bias and Censorship

With censorship as well as algorithmic bias, the complaint is often a lack of transparency with the coding itself. The complexity of artificial intelligence can be a viable reason for the opacity issues surrounding algorithms. A call for ethical oversight is paramount regardless of the complexity of computer programming. A suggestion of countermeasures is listed below:

  • Transparency of who, what and why of coding and algorithmic testing (Buolamwini, 2016)
  • Develop practical algorithmic training modules that test for ethics of virtue, consequence and norm (Sandvig. et. Al., 2016)
  • Professional scholars who can bridge the gap between sociological and technological for ethical oversight (Sandvig, et. al., 2016)
  • Convert monopolies like Google to a utility, reduce other digital monopolies (Taplin, 2017)
  • Open discourse and public demand for transparency by digital giants like Google, Amazon, Facebook, Twitter
  • Subsidize publishing and journalism industry so its watchdog role can be maintained
  • Blockchain AI technology “cryptocurrency” funded journalism—to allow funding outside of financial central authorities (Woolf, 2018)
  • Filtering/assessing data with a closer study of networks, distributed character, cultural and social practices of meaning making and media systems, as opposed to content in isolation (Bounegru, L., Gray, J., Venturini, T., & Mauri, M., 2017, pg. 202)

 

The blockchain cryptocurrency technology (such as Bitcoin) has the ability to “distribute data across a network of participating nodes using cryptographic proof and removes the necessity for information to be controlled by a central authority…” (Woolf, 2018). This could remove journalism from the usual paywall drawbacks of advertising or through digital giants, and instead enable “an ecosystem of micropayments, in which everyone pays fractions of a penny for every article they read…” (Woolf, 2018). With the listed countermeasures, there is a need for more knowledgeable people to be involved in the ethical oversight and advocacy for algorithmic transparency. Notwithstanding, there is still the enduring question of the tyrannical control of the flow of information from monopolistic corporate and government entities.

 

Conclusion

Artificial intelligence is the pillar of our computer age, and yet is still operating under much opacity, to the vexation of those caught in the casualties of algorithmic bias. Uncorrected coding bias in concert with machine learning can cause discrimination, as demonstrated in the cases of facial recognition software errors. Other biases occur with job search results, insurance policies and credit applications. Part of the problem is because algorithms learn from historical data that can be biased, resulting in a maintenance of the status quo. This translates into unfairness and inequality, unless promising technological scholars with the social and emotional intelligence can correct what goes into coding, who codes it and why. Digital giants like Google and Facebook are of great concern for media outlets because of their black box opacity tactics in fake news filtering (Boyarsky, 2017). The rise in financial profits of Amazon, Facebook and Google resulted in great losses from 2001 onward for the newspaper publishing industry. These monopoly platforms result in a kind of propaganda filter—the first filter of size, ownership and profit—over the smaller publishing and media outlets, according to Herman and Chomsky’s propaganda model (Herman & Chomsky, 1988). The PropOrNot news filtering sweep to find pro-Russian propaganda caused a blacklisting of over 200 web sites spanning from left to right on the political scale (Boyarsky, 2017). Although some of their targeted sites may have been genuine propaganda, many were not. In this instance, one could question whether the fourth filter of “anti-communism” is being waged upon a vulnerable public. Many left wing, alternative and independent web sites were especially hit hard with drastically reduced web traffic when Google executed their new search engine filtering algorithms from April to July of 2017. This form of censorship is believed to be an attack upon those with political views and opinions which challenge the corporate and official government narratives (Damon, 2017). This kind of censorship fits into the fourth filter of “flak and enforcers” in Herman and Chomsky’s propaganda model. People are essentially being punished with reduced web traffic in ways they are largely unaware until after the fact. An incident with Twitter ghost banning is revealed in David Icke’s presentation of former UK ambassador Craig Murray’s experience being censored (Icke, 2018). Icke states that the reason Murray believes he is ghost banned is because of publically speaking out against corruption. This is also a “fourth filter” propaganda example of censorship instigated upon a former high-ranking government official.

To avert unfair censorship and algorithmic bias countermeasures need to be implemented. Demanding transparency and ethical testing of algorithms is suggested. Reducing the size of digital monopolies or converting one such as Google to a utility has been recommended (Taplin, 2017). Implementing artificial intelligence as an ally, rather than a roadblock is advocated by some who propose funding journalism with cryptocurrencies (Woolf, 2018). Open discourse must happen in such a way that journalism’s watchdog role is recovered. We must hold the power of knowledge in our own hands before we lose our awareness and ability to speak out.

 

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